Charlie didn't seem surprised that I came in so late. It was well after 10pm but he didn't seem to mind at all. "I already ate Bells, did you?" I carefully took the first step on the stairs. "Yeah dad I ate with Alice earlier." "Going to bed already?" "Alice had me running around with her all day, I'm beat." "Well alright then, goodnight kid." "night." The stairs took forever since I was trying not to hurt myself. I stood outside my bedroom door for a few minutes wondering if he would be waiting for me on the other side. Slowly I opened the door. He wasn't there. The Volvo was no longer parked out front. I tried not to worry about his absence. It probably didn't mean anything at all. Maybe he was just talking to Carlisle some more.
I sat on my bed for a long time. My eyes longed to shut but I just couldn't bring myself to sleep. So much had happened since I left this house. Even though I knew it was nothing I still couldn't help worrying about where Edward was. My whole body ached from the bruises. Finally I gave up on him coming any time soon and I made myself try to sleep. My eyes had no trouble with that, they shut as soon as my head touched the pillow. I really hoped I wasn't going to have nightmares tonight.
When I woke up the next morning I felt pressure on my hip. Panic instantly filled me and I rolled off the bed away from the touch. Without bothering to look at the person touching me I pressed myself against the wall and tried not to gasp. Even when he came closer I didn't realize it was Edward. His hand reached out to me but I cringed away from it. I don't know why I was acting like this. It was like my body knew something I didn't. He pulled back and stared at the floor. I tried as hard as I could to get my breathing under control again. His face was crushed. I was afraid of him. I was actually afraid of Edward. How could that be? I was fine with him last night. I was fine after what he did to me. Why now was I so terrified? Suddenly his head whipped up and he was staring at the floor between us. In all my fear filled rolling I didn't realized the blood that was pooling below me. This was way more than before. I looked at my shaking hands. Edward was at my side now trying to still my vibrating body. His breathing as ragged and fast. The smell of my blood didn't seem to bothering him as much as the site of it. He looked scared to death. If he was scared I definitely should be.
He didn't run me to the bathroom this time. He just wrapped his arms around me. I could feel the pain in my lower body and the blood below us. Edward placed his hand on my stomach and buried his face in my hair. "Bella…" I held onto him. My fear of him was gone. "We have to stop this. You have to tell Charlie what happened so you don't have to go to school." I couldn't believe what he said. Tell Charlie? That was out of the question. "Edward I cant. What do you think he would do? Vampire or not, he would arrest you!" "I deserve it." I grabbed his face and made him look at me. "You're not human, your instincts are so much stronger. Any normal person would never forgive you but I do because I understand. Don't hate yourself because of this." He stared at me for a long time. "Tell Charlie your sick." That much I could do for him.
Charlie wished me well and then left for work. He said he would call the school when he got to the station. As soon as Charlie shut the door Edward was with me in the kitchen. He had begged me to stay in my room after I cleaned up and changed but I was starving. I carefully walked around the kitchen finding everything I would need to make scrambled eggs. I finally thought to put one of those pads on that he had gotten me before. I really hoped I wouldn't need it but seemed to be the best at making things worse. I pulled the eggs out of the microwave and sprinkled cheese all over them. I mixed them up then sat at the table. He watched me eat in silence. "Bella?" I swallowed my bite and looked at him. "How can you stand to be with me? What I did to you was inexcusable and yet you act like it was nothing. Why didn't you run away from me? Or try to hurt me like Rosalie? I just don't understand." I thought over his questions for a long time. I knew what he was saying. No woman would stay with a man that raped her. It wouldn't even be an option. I, on the other hand, had not only stayed but I even tried to comfort him. It was a strange thing. "Well, I guess its because I know you really didn't mean any harm. You just lost control. You could have done so much more but you didn't. I know you would never hurt me just to hurt me." He just stared at me.
I stayed home all day just as Edward had asked. He left to go tell Carlisle what happened this morning. I spent a lot of my time on the couch in the living watching various sitcoms. None of them really mattered to me but I had nothing else to do. Edward had begged me not to walk around while he was gone. I was supposed to wait for him if I needed anything so that he could get it for me. I agreed only because I was afraid of the pain. If I could just stay still long enough then these wounds would heal and I would be done with all of this. Plus it was nice to miss a day of school. I didn't need any one seeing me the way I was right now.
Edward came back later that morning. He looked awful. Could he really be that upset by this. Yes. He would never let this go away. I was till laying down when he came in. Without saying a word he slipped in behind me on the couch. We laid together like that for a long time. His hand wrapped around my waist and rested on my stomach. His body was tense. He was hiding something. Before I could ask he whispered in my ear. "Bella there is something Carlisle was going to tell you but he thought we should wait and see how things went first." He waited for a response but I didn't say anything. "Your not just bleeding because of wounds." My breath caught in my throat. "Bella, Carlisle thinks your bleeding because…your body is trying to get rid of something I put there." He didn't say anything else. What did that mean? What he put there? I turned to face him. He looked devastated and I had no idea why. "Edward I don't under…" I was cut short by what he was holding in his upraised hand. It was a white plastic stick. Realization dawned on me. It was a pregnancy test.
I nearly had a panic attack. That wasn't even supposed to be possible. He hugged my frozen body. "Bella I'm so sorry." I grabbed the stick and made for the stairs. He was right behind me. A short time later we were both hovering over the tiny piece of plastic waiting for something to show up. It seemed like forever that we sat there motionless. Both our eyes never moving. Slowly two tiny pink lines formed on the stick. Before the second one could even fully appear I was crying. Edward put his arm around me. "Carlisle feared this more than anything." I turned my tear filled gaze towards him. "Huh?" "Bella your body is rejecting the baby because its not natural. Carlisle says the vampire blood is foreign and its considered a threat to your body. The only reason you haven't lost it yet is because its blood is replenishing faster than your body can dispel it." I couldn't think of anything to say. "We think you should let Carlisle take it out before things get worse." "Worse?" "The baby is working too hard to survive. He doesn't think it will be able to keep it up for long." More tears came. I hadn't even known I was pregnant for half an hour and I already felt horrible. This innocent little life didn't have a chance because of me. I couldn't stand the thought of it suffering.
Edward laid with me in my bed until Charlie got home. He hopped out the window when he came to check on me. As soon as he shut the door Edward was with me again. I held the test in my hand, refusing to let it go. I couldn't let this baby suffer. We would have to have it taken out. The last thing I wanted was to let this baby hurt because I was selfish. There was no way to keep the baby. My body just wouldn't allow it. Edward had his head resting on his hand as he watched me twist the test around in my hands. He hadn't said a word. I wondered if this was hurting him in the same way it was hurting me. "Edward?" "Yes love?" "How do you feel about all this?" "I've already told you." "No I mean about me being…about the baby?" He stiffened for a second. Was it because I referred to the baby as something other than it? "Well, I never thought his would happen so I don't know how to think." "You don't have any feelings at all for this baby? It is yours." He stared at me for what had to be 5 minutes before answering. "Bella, when Carlisle first told me he thought that you were pregnant, I felt absolutely horrible. Not because of the baby but because of how it was conceived. I honestly didn't think you would want a child created that way." "Edward as long as you never mint to hurt me it wouldn't matter." A sigh escaped his lips before they locked with mine.
Not once during the entire night did Edward leave my side. He stayed with his arm protectively around my waist. I didn't dream at all. I actually couldn't believe I even slept. There were so many things to think about. In the morning Charlie took one look at me and decided I wasn't going any where. As soon as I saw him turn the corner, Edwards silver Volvo pulled in. I opened the door as he stepped out. "We're going to see Carlisle," was all he said before pulling me up the stairs. I changed into a pair of jeans and a plain t-shirt. On the way there Edward was going over a 100mph. He probably didn't realize how hard I was squeezing his hand.