Author Note Thing: I'm so sorry i didnt post yesterday guys. i had alot to do. i worked hard to get this done today so that i didnt disapoint. you guys mean alot to me and i want to keep posting quick so that you dont have to wait long. i know i hate to wait too.
no this is not the last chapter (in case you thought it was)
I watched as Edward ran from the room. I couldn't believe what he said.
"I…Bella I don't think I'm ready…"
He seemed so ready up until Carlisle told us how close it was. Things seemed to be happening so fast now. Nurses were running in and out. They were checking monitors and bringing in various things. I tried to answer all their questions but my mind was going a million miles an hour. Carlisle had tried to comfort me. He told me Alice would get Edward. Of course she would have seen him as soon as he decided to leave. What if he was serious? What if he really wasn't ready and he wasn't coming back?
"Bella we need to check your cervix again."
I sighed and tried to move my legs but they wouldn't budge. The nurse smiled and moved them for me. I waited while she felt around. This was definitely going way to fast. She pulled her hand out and started removing her glove.
"Alright I'm going to get the resident nurse and let her know that we're ready."
I froze.
"We're ready? Like we're ready to have the baby?"
"Yes dear, you're dilated to 10cm."
"Oh god…"
"It's a good thing Bella. It means the baby is ready."
"But I cant have the baby yet, Edward isn't here!"
"Dr. Cullen said he is going to make sure that Edward gets back here. I'll page him now."
She walked away towards the door. I looked at all the monitors. This wasn't happening. I was not having this baby alone. How could he run off on me like that? I cant do this alone! All the beeping noises were too loud. My own breathing was too loud. Too much. Too much. Too much. TOO MUCH! I couldn't make myself calm down. I turned to the screen next to me. It was screaming at me that my heart rate was to high. I couldn't believe no one else could hear that. It was so loud.
"Stop beeping!"
It kept going.
"Stop it!"
No response.
"Please! Please stop!"
Still nothing.
The door burst open. It was Esme.
"Bella what's wrong?"
"It wont stop!"
"You have to calm down dear."
"I cant!"
"Bella everything is fine, just calm down."
She brushed the hair out of my face. Her hand was so cool.
"Esme he left me!" my voice faded into a cry.
I couldn't stop the tears.
"Its going to work out. Alice is with him. He will come back."
Nurses started flooding in.
"Mrs. Cullen we're going to start now, are you going to be her support person?"
"I guess I have to be, if that's all right with you Bella."
"Yes, please don't leave."
Esme gripped my hand.
"Okay Bella we're going to move you to the end of the bed."
I nodded.
"Can you feel the contractions?"
"I fell pressure."
"That's perfect. Every time you feel it, I want you to push."
I nodded again.
"Alright ready?"
"Yea…yeah."
I felt the pressure start and I pushed. My body seemed to know exactly what to do. As the pressure faded I relaxed.
"Good Bella."
Again I pushed. It didn't feel like I was getting any where with this.
"I'm going to get the doctor. Bella you are doing great, this baby is going to be out quick." The nurse smiled and left.
"Keep pushing," said another nurse.
"You can do this," Esme said.
It felt like I was pushing forever before I heard Carlisle's voice. He spoke quickly to the nurses. Esme was talking to me but I had no idea what she was saying.
"…he's on his way dear."
"What?"
"Edward is coming now, he should be here in…"
"What? How long?"
I looked at her and saw the smile on her face just before I saw his. He did come back. Edward took my hand from Esme and looked down at me. I must have looked awful. "Bella you look beautiful."
"Don't…you…ever…leave me…again."
My words were quite but I knew he could hear me.
"I wont, never again."
He leaned down and kissed me on the forehead. I started to push again and Carlisle called to me.
"Bella I can see the head."
"What?" Edward and I said at the same time.
"The head, its almost out. You need to keep pushing."
I panicked and started pushing harder. It felt like my head was going to explode. Edward was talking to me but I wasn't listening. My whole mind was focused on pushing.
"Okay the head is out Bella, just the shoulders now."
I pushed one more time and felt the instant relief. Seconds later I heard it. The small but loud cry. My eyes filled with tears. Edward was staring at the baby I couldn't see. His face looked amazed. I wasn't able to ask for him. Carlisle spoke first.
"Bella we need to get the placenta out. While we do that, the nurses are cleaning up the baby. I assume you know it is a boy?I smiled and nodded.
The placenta didn't take long. It was like having another baby but with out all the intense pain. Carlisle pushed on my stomach to move it out. I only had to push once for it to come out. He removed it and nurses began cleaning me up. I barely noticed. Edward left my side to go see the baby. I watched him as he went over and picked up the tiny bundle. He was walking over when the nurses sat me up. Edward sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me. His eyes were shining. He handed me our son.
I had never seen anything so beautiful in my whole life. He looked a lot like Edward but his hair was dark like mine. It covered his head but was still short. I ran a finger through his soft chocolate hair. When he opened his eyes they were a dark gray color. I had heard that all babies are born with that color but it changes in the first year. I really hoped they would look like Edwards. His tiny face was round and chubby. His soft skin was covered in red blotched. I couldn't look away from him.
"Well love, what name suits him?"
I thought about it for a while. I looked down at him. He looked up at me for the first time. I knew right then what his name would be.
"I think I know what his name should be."
"Well?"
"Hello my little Zackary Nathanial Cullen."
Edward smiled.