I was laying in bed while Bella slept. Zackary was finally sleeping through the night. I didn't mind getting up with him considering I never slept. It was just nice being able to lay with Bella. The closest we ever got was when she slept. That wasn't how I wanted it but that was how it had to be. I had already proven that I couldn't be trusted. Bella didn't seem to care about what I had done. I just couldn't understand her. She was so unique. There was no human like her. She didn't care that I was a vampire, she didn't care that I took her against her will, and she didn't care that I stole her blood. What an amazing person. Or stupid.

Her breathing was deep. I couldn't help but stare at her. How lucky could I be? I brushed a strand of hair from her face. She stirred a little. She turned to face me. My shirt twisted around her small body. Again I was bothered by the fact that I couldn't read her mind. She was the only one in the world. The silence was almost eerie. I could easily see Zackary's dream from the other room. It was an image of him playing outside. I enjoyed seeing his thoughts. They are so innocent and simple. He often thinks of Bella.

"Edward…" Bella whispered.

Her voice sent chills down my spine. I wondered if she knew how hard it was to turn away from her. It took all my will power. It was much harder than it was before. Now that I had had her, I knew what I was missing. The feel of her body was much more alluring than her blood. Well, maybe I was wrong. Her body did not stop me from taking her blood before. I shuttered. Why couldn't I control myself around her? Why do I have to fight so hard against her. I was so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't even notice the change in her breathing.

"Edward?"

This time it wasn't sleep talking.

"Yes love?"

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. Why?"

"You look like something wrong."

I smiled at her. Sometimes I wondered if she could read my mind.

Her hand touched my face. I let my face fall into it.

"I trust you."

Now I knew where she was going with this.

"Bella you know we cant."

"No, we can. What I do know is that you are taking this too far."

"Please don't…""Edward we haven't so much as made out for 13 months!"

I stared at her. She had all the needs I did. My fear of hurting her was too great though.

"We cant Bella. I don't want to hurt you."

She sighed and started to get up. She pulled on a pair of jeans and headed for the door. I reached it before she did, blocking her way out.

"Where are you going?"

"I just need some air!"

I moved out of her way. She walked straight through the apartment to the door. I grabbed her arm before she could leave.

"Bella please stay with me."

"Why Edward? So we can be 'just friends'?"

Her remark stunned me.

"Edward I love you but your acting like you did when we first met."

I didn't know what to say.

"Do you have any idea what its like having to be around a guy with a body like a god all day! Do you know the frustration that causes?"

"I think I know something about frustration."

She stared at me. Our eyes met. Then she walked out.

What was I supposed to do? I couldn't leave our son alone here. I picked up my cell phone and dialed Alice's number. It rang and rang. No answer. Now I was suffering from a whole different kind of frustration. Bella was out doing who knows what and I was stuck here. I never heard the sound of the car. That was just great. She was out walking alone! She didn't even have the safety of the Volvo. I starting dialing Esme's number this time. It rang twice.

"Hello?"

"Esme its Edward. Are you busy?"

"No dear, just sitting with Carlisle."

"Would you mind coming over and watching Zackary?"

"Of course not. I would love to."

"Thank you. Can you hurry?"

"Yes, what is the matter Edward?"

"Bella and I had a fight and now she is wondering around outside somewhere. I need to find her."

"I'll be right over dear."

I hung up and waited. We weren't too very far from them. About 20 minutes passed but it felt like hours. I nearly knocked Esme over as I ran down the stairs. I was into the woods seconds later. Bella's scent was so strong. Within moments I could smell her. She was close. I saw her in a clearing just ahead. She was leaning against a tree. It was obvious she didn't know I was coming. Before she knew I was there I pressed her up against a nearby tree. She gasped at my sudden presence. I locked my lips with hers. I let her lock her arms around my neck.

"Bella…don't you ever… leave me…again."

"Why don't…you make me stay…then."

I couldn't stop the smile that crossed my face. Did she know how amazingly sexy that little comment was? I pulled her tight against me. Her body fit against mine perfectly. Her hand dropped down to my belt. My mind screamed at me to stop her but the rest of me had no intention of doing so. My hands found her pants and pulled them off easily. She snapped my belt off and pulled down the zipper. I tore her panties off with one swipe. She pressed against me. Her heart was going so fast. Each beat was so hard to ignore. I could taster her blood in my mouth as if it was there again. I clenched my teeth. Her smell was over whelming me. I wrapped my arm around her back and lifted her up higher. When I brought her back down my member slipped easily inside her. A moan escaped her perfect lips. It nearly sent me over the edge. I found her lips again. I needed to keep my mind on her body. Not her blood. She wrapped her legs around me. Now she was moving with me. Our bodies were moving as one. The thought of her blood slowly slipped away. Soon I wasn't even thinking about it. All I could see was her face. Her breathing was harsh. I could feel her getting close. I pressed into her harder. Her head shot back and her clenched around me. Before I could stop myself I felt my own release. The only a second I knew it could be a bad thing but it passed. I focused on her breathing again. It was rough but slowing. She rested her head on my shoulder.

We stayed like that for a few minutes. Both of us resting. I finally pulled her up off of me and stood her on the ground. She wobbled but was otherwise fine. Her panties were ruined but I managed to find her pants. She pulled them on while I slipped my belt back into place. When I turned around Bella was leaning against the tree looking at me. She was smiling a dreamy smile. I walked over to her.

"Happy now?"

"Don't play like that, you know you wanted it just as much as me Edward."

"I cant lie about that."

She smiled even bigger.

"Hey, who's with Zackary?"

"Esme."

"Oh."

I wrapped my arm around her and we started walking back towards the house. Hopefully Esme didn't listen too well.