Sorry I haven't written in ages I've had a lot on my mind and thanks to everyone who reviewed

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What wrong Chapter 2 : please tell me

Jadens POV

I woke up screaming, he's there every time I close my eyes and it scares me. He killed a part of me long ago before duel academy and that's what haunts me cause when I see him in 2 weeks it will happen again just like last time and the time before that no one can save me ever ever ever no matter how much I beg some one to notice that I'm slowly fading away and not because of this illness. Well not really an illness, he's made me like this, making my dreams unliveable, making me scared to even blink, then making me not want to eat this was him, at duel academy I was safe from him but every one made me happy and safe but no I pushed them away apart from Jesse but I cant tell him, he'll hate me and He will kill me for telling. I am so scarred. I'm sure death is better then this.

"Jay what's wrong??" Jesse's voice seemed far away but was loud enough to pull me out of my thoughts. Oh I feel so sorry for Jesse seeing me like this, confident happy Jay's gone emo well not fully I haven't cut myself recently but I don't know how long I can go with out doing it.

Jesse peered into my eyes looking worried. "Jay" he tried to get through to me doesn't he understand he cant help me no matter what. "huh" the words slipped out my mouth followed by a cough. I keep coughing and couldn't stop. Help Jesse Help I was screaming for something but the words wouldn't come out of my mouths due to the blood that was coming out every time I coughed. I felt Jesse's hands on my back trying to make me to stop but I wouldn't.

Finally I stopped. Jesse picked me up off the floor and upstairs to my room. My room was really untidy. The walls were painted red and had posters of my favourite bands on it, Greenday, Linkin Park, The Jonas Brothers, Evenescence and others. My bed had a black cover on it with winged kuriboh on it. I had wooden cupboard. Jesse laid me down genteelly on the bed. I felt so week. Jesse didn't take his eyes of me as sleep called for me and I eventually couldn't resist it.

Jesses POV

Oh Jay why cant you tell me what's wrong. I can tell it scares you. But you cant let it risk your health. I went down stairs and started searching for the cups so I could get Jay a glass of water. Then I cooked Jay Spaghetti Bolognese. I put it all on a tray and walked up stairs. As I sat down Jay woke up. I helped him sit up and then put the tray on his legs. He just looked at it then paled.

"what's up with you, you haven't turned veggie on me have you??" I said looking at Jay for all I know he might of turned vegetarian in the time of 6 months although it was unlikely as Jay loved his fried shrimp.

Jay just shook his head, he didn't laugh or anything he looked like he was fighting with his self. Suddenly his said " I wish I could tell you Jesse but this is my problem not yours" I looked at him tears springing to my eyes.

"Why?? Were suppose to be best friends and tell each other everything but no you just refused to tell me something that's effecting your health and might even kill you but hey all that matters is Jay doesn't want to tell" I didn't mean to shout at him like that it was just I was worried about him. As I screamed that at him tears poured down his face like waterfalls. I took the tray off him and put it on the floor and hugged Jay. He triedd to break out my hold but I held him too tight. Oh Jay why can't you just see how much I care. Jay finally relaxed after what seemed like years.

"Jay talk to me" I said. I wanted to make sure me and him were still friends. I care so deeply for Jay he's more like a little brother to me then my best friend. But he hides so much from me and I don't like it. I hide nothing from him but I think that's why Jay acts dumb and happy because then no one will ask questions about him and his past. His parents were always out I know that so maybe something else happened in that time to change Jay like maybe (sigh) I give up.

"I really don't mean to Jess, its just so hard to admit and I'm so scarred" Jay replied. I felt him snuggle deeper in the hug almost as if he was hiding from something or someone. Then it clicked in my mind maybe Jays dyeing that would explain his behaviour.

"Jay, have you got cancer or something is that what your scared of" I asked scared if Jaden said yes. But he just simply replied no. Jay why cant you see your driving me insane I care so much for you but you obviously use your normal happy self to hide who and what your feeling but I'm not like the others Jay I'm not gonna be fooled into believing lies. "please tell me Jay its like you've given up the will to live"

Jay stiffened in my arms. Oh god he hasn't given up has he. "you havent have you??"

Jay silently nodded. "but there is a reason for it but I cant say it"

Tears rolled down my cheek now, Jay waas giving up his life for something that happened to him.

Jaden's POV

Oh Jess I wish I could tell you but I know what will happen. I'm no way near ready to tell anyone what happens. Its too much to keep to myself though. (sigh) please help me jesse before I fade away cause I am fading away.

"I can only help you if you tell me what's wrong Jay" Jesse said.

Ok take a deep breathe and tell him Jay I thought to myself.

"Jesse the truth is I …………….."

TBC

Well I hope you lot liked that and I am truly sorry I havent updated it in ages but something's came up that cant be ignored.