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Chapter 4 Help

I froze on the spot. The black figure walked into the room. I was hidden behind the sofa. The figure saw me and ran to me. The person stopped right in front of me, I whimpered someone else to rape me but the person did something unexpected. Arms were wrapped around me like a vine. I peired at the person holding me in his big strong arms.

"Jesse" I whispered. Jesse looked down out me a smiled. "it hurts" I said asthe pain rippled though me tearing me apart. Jesse gently lifted me up. It hurt a lot and I started screaming Jesse put me back down gentally. He looked into my eyes. I peered back into his eyes they were full of love.

"what happened ??" he asked me. I began to shake. "Jay??"

"chazz r..raped me" I said. Tears poured down my face as I admitted it. Jesse held me close but then I started to shake. Chazz love me, My uncle loves me and they rapped me. Jesse loves me so he's next to rape me. Why do I always get rapped what did I do?? I wanna die I give up.

"I am so sorry Jay" Jesse whispered into my ear. Maybe he's not like chazz and my uncle. But there was something nagging at the back of my mind. Every one who loves me rapes me. My parents don't love me. I hope Jesse goes slowly on me. I had started to shake again and I couldn't calm down. I was going to get raped again I know it and it was gonna hurt like all the other times. It will burn like there is a fire inside me which I cant put out. Jesses next words brought me out of my thoughts.

"Jay I'm going to take you to the bathroom and we'll get you cleaned up ok ??" Jesse said peering into my eyes for agreement. But I was scared of jesse, just like im scared of uncle Mark and Chazz.

"why so you can rape me and leave me in the same state like chazz??" I said. I didn't mean to. Cause I knew he'd rape me and it would be merciless now id made he angry but Jesse didn't look angry he looked horrified that I would suggest such a thing. I slowly pushed my self along the floor trying I escape from Jesse but Jesse grabbed me and held me close to his chest.

"Jay I would NEVER rape you ever I couldn't do that to you Jay it would break my heart" Jesse said and brought his hand to my cheek and placed it there. I turned my head to the side. "Jay please trust me I wont hurt you" he turned my head so I could look in his eyes. His eyes were raw red and had tears in them begging me to trust him. "ok" I whispered. If Jesse brakes his promise I swear I will lose all my strength to keep living. Jesse picked me up bridal style. It hurt a lot. I bit my lip trying to contain my cries of agony. I was biting so hard I drew blood from my lower lip. We finally got to the bathroom. Jesse opened the door and placed me on the floor. The floor was cold and the white tiles where now cover in the blood coming out of me.

Jesse walked over to the bathtub. It was one of those fancy ones which are placed in the corner of the bathroom and its very deep like a swimming pool and it has tile steps leading into it. Jesse turned the taps on and put in the bubble making liquid (sorry don't know what its called). It was then I realised for the first time that I was naked in front of Jesse. My cheeks suddenly felt hot as Jesse turned around and looked at me. I looked up at him nervously and he just smiled back at me.

He sat next to me on the floor and put his arms around me. " Im so sorry I shouldn't of told Chazz but I was so angry at myself and" I stopped him by kissing him on the lips. I cant explain why but I suddenly had the urge to do it and Jesse respondedstraight away. The kiss deepened as our tongues got added but this time Jesse didn't lean in on me. We pulled away due to the kiss ruining thing called oxygen. Jesse through his heart melting smile at me and I smiled back.

The bath was full and Jesse turned the taps of. "do you want help in ??" I nodded . I still couldn't move my body without pain shooting through me. Jesse picked me up bridal style again but this time it didn't hurt as much. Jesse began lowering me into the bath and that's when the pain started. The water flowed freely up my entrance and into the raw cuts inside. I started screaming, it burnt and stung. I was gasping for air. Jesse just carried on lowering me into the bath and soon the pain was gone.

"Jay is it ok if I wash you??" Jesse asked. I though about it long and hard but Jesse had got me this far without betraying my trust so I guess I could trust him so I nodded. Jesse turned me over so I was on my front with my chin on the side of the bath. "this is going to hurt ok" I nodded. Jesse got some shower gel and my sponge. "Ok so do you want to talk about what chazz did" I thought about it. Last time I had told Jess everything felt better easier to handle. "He raped me and after left me to die in my own blood he was so painful and after you left I cut my wrists and he handcuffed me to the bed really hard and it started digging in and he wouldn't stop and he did it so hard and it was so brutal and he said he didn't want to see a slut like me again and it hurt more then my uncle and" I couldn't go on it hurt to much.

"im so sorry Jay" Jesse whispered. I turned to look at him "its Ok" I whispered back. Jesse began washing my back then he got to my entrance. He put some shower gel on the sponge and then poured some in the crack in my entrance it followed the same root the water had gone in and it burned too. I cringed my face in pain as I felt it burn again. Jesse began scrubbing the inside of my entrance.

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After my bath Jesse re bandaged my wrists and got me changed. we lay on my bed in my room. His arms wrapped loosely around me.

"jesse, is rape love??" I said looking into Jesse eyes.

"what ??" he replied

"you heard me"

"no its horrible and nothing like love why are you asking"

"cause my uncle loves me and so did Chazz and you say you love me so how long till you rape me"

"im not going to rape you love doesn't mean rape Jaden I love you but more then your uncle and chazz they don't really love you with me you feel safe right like you trust me even when you have every right not to but with your uncle and Chazz you don't feel the same way its cause you love me and they don't loves a really complicated thing"

"show me how loves suppose to feel" I whispered. i'd been debating in my head if I should ask him or not.

"no" he replied

"why ?? don't you love me??" I asked upset jesse said love isn't rape.

"rape is sex Jaden, Your uncle and Chazz had sex with you what your asking me to do is have sex with you the only difference is that you want to have sex with me you that's the difference between rape and sex, rape is when you don't want it sex is when you do want it"

"I want to have sex with you Jesse"

"you cant cause your not ready you'll start to panic and you'll think its like being rapped and you'll want me to stop and I don't knowif I could cause i've tried so hard not to have sex with you when you look so hot and vulnerable"

"please for me" I begged him "I need to get over this fear I don't want it controlling my life"

"ok if your sure" I nodded. Jesse gently laid me back on the bed and began kissing me. I began to shake " relax" Jesse whispered against my ear

"will I hurt ??" I asked. I didn't want it to but if rape and sex are the same thing would it hurt?? Would it be brutal ?? Would it be restless??

"to begin with if you don't want to do this I'll understand"

"please Jesse if you love me you'd help me get over this"

Jesse nodded at me. I know I sounded selfish but I needed to get over this. His mouth came back on mine and began kissing me, his hand travelled down my side and up my top. that's when I started to panic. " we don't have to cont…." " Just do it"

He slowly pulled my top and carried on kissing me. I decided to go for it and pulled his top of too. Then his hands travelling down to my pants.

"STOP PLEASE STOP JESSE STOP!" I yelled I was breathing heavily and I was terrified. Jesse pulled me into a hug. Its ok Jay. He whispered in my ear but no it wasn't ok. I couldn't do it.

I began to cry. I managed to cry myself to sleep. Why couldn't I get over this ?? Why ??

TBC

Sorry its not as long as the last chapter but ive been really busy

And Im sorry I didn't upload it yesterday but it was my birthday yesterday

Next chapter will be longer I promise and its going to be very interesting with the arrival of a very nasty family member

And thanks for reading :)