Chapter 5 - Logan
Disclaimer: See Chapter 1.
AN: Okay, here goes chapter 5.
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"You are not Dana Cruz," He states, then turns to Dana. "you are."
"Logan, you're out of your mind." I say, but I'm silently wondering what he'll do with this information. I look at Dana, and she looks back at me.
"No, you are. You pretended to be your twin sister! It all makes sense now! I knew you were hiding something, and this is it. You, miss actress, are Sara Cruz, not Dana. I knew there was something different about you." Logan says, and Dana watches my face.
I bite my lip, getting ready to tell the truth. "Alright, fine. I lied about my identity that night. I didn't think anyone would ever find out. I thought she…" I trailed off, busting into tears.
I felt someone put their arms around me and I look up to see that it was Dana. Does this mean she's not mad? Logan stood there with a shocked look on his face, probably surprised I admitted it.
Dana pulled me to her, hugging me tight. She whispered in my ear so Logan wouldn't hear. "Why did you lie to everyone?" I shrugged and she nodded. "That's why I thought everything looked so familiar, because I'd seen it before."
I nodded and cried, hugging her. "I'm so….sorry, Dana." I sobbed out, and Logan heard me.
"You should be sorry. You lied to everyone about who you and your sister were and-"
"SHUT UP." Dana screamed at him. "Nobody cares what you think, nobody ever did."
"You used to." He said simply, walking a little ways down the beach where he sat in the sand. He put his head in his hands.
"Do you wanna go to the dorm or…talk to Logan?" She asked, and I nodded toward Logan.
We snuck up behind him and sat down on opposite sides of him. He jumped when Dana put her hand on his shoulder. "Sorry, didn't mean to scare you."
"You didn't scare me." He insisted.
"No, of course not." She rolled her eyes behind his back and I smiled. "Come on, Logan. Talk to us."
"Why should I? First, I find out she lied to me about being you. Then you say that nobody cares about me."
"Logan, I'm sorry." I say, and he looks at me. "I really am."
"Whatever." He said, looking back at Dana. "You know, I thought I actually meant something to you."
He stood up to walk away and Dana jumped up next to him. She stood right in front of him, holding his arms. "I'm sorry I said that. I didn't mean it. You mean a lot to me, Logan. I have my memory back now, I remember everything you told me in 8th grade. I'm sorry."
They were looking right in each other's eyes, and I didn't want to mess up their moment. I just sat there, watching my twin sister apologize to the boy I thought maybe I liked. They seemed to be making up using their eyes instead of words. I guess when you really like somebody, words don't matter.
"I forgive you." Logan said after awhile, and Dana looked at him then me. "I don't forgive you." He told me, and walked off.
Dana plopped down in the sand next to me, "Well, I tried. Who cares what he thinks?"
"You." I smiled, and she rolled her eyes playfully.
"Well…only half of the time." She laughed and we stood up and walked back to the dorm. "So, why did you really lie to everyone?"
"I don't know. At first…it seemed like a good idea. Everything sort of fell into place after the first lie. I thought that you deserved to keep living because you had such a great life. You had PCA, Dad and Amanda and Jake, all your friends here, and…Logan. I was supposed to keep an eye on you that night, I failed, and it was my fault, so I was going to become you."
"Wow that's so…nice of you. So…if I hadn't been okay, does that mean you would have…dated Logan?" She looked down at her hands, blushing a little.
"Probably not. It wouldn't have felt right because he would have liked me as Dana, not as Sara."
"That makes me feel a little better. You…won't tell Logan what I'm about to say right?"
"Of course not."
"So, I guess you probably saw the letters at Dads. I read most of them, but I couldn't bring myself to read Logan's. I knew what he was going to say, but I didn't want to read it in ink. If I saw it written down…it would be true, and I couldn't deny it anymore…"
"Dana…I…opened his letter. I shouldn't have, but I did. I read it, and it was so…I don't know. I brought it with me, because I thought it was special. If you want to…"
"I do." She nodded, "I need to know."
"Why didn't you write back to anyone?"
"I don't know. I wanted to, but I was just…afraid that if I wrote back, they would convince me to stay. That sounds so stupid."
"No, it doesn't. Look, I have something to tell you about…Logan…from the other day." She looked up and stared right in my eyes. "But I don't want you to be mad."
"Whatever it is, I wanna know. If it has to do with Logan, it can't be good, but I'll forgive you. Him…I'm not so sure." She smiled a little and I nodded, still unsure.
"Okay. So, when I first got here, I sorta liked Logan." She nodded, "Well, we kinda had a fight, and he kissed me. So, earlier, that wasn't the first time I'd kissed Logan. I just…thought that if I was going to pull off being you…then I needed Logan to believe that I was you."
"You kissed Logan?" She bit her lip, and I was waiting for her to blow up at me. "And…he kissed me too. So…we need to talk to Logan."
"About what?" I asked, as she pulled me off to Logan's dorm.
"We need to know which one of us he really likes."
"Dana, you know he likes you. He hates me, because I lied to-"
"It's Logan. You'll learn."
She knocked roughly on the door and Chase opened it. He smiled, and I knew he hadn't found out yet. Thank goodness. Logan hadn't told anyone.
"Where is Logan?" Dana snapped, and Chase looked surprised. "Yea, I know. You didn't expect that. Well…you have a lot to find out Chase. Move."
She pulled me through the door and over to Logan's bed, where he was listening to his ipod. She snatched the headphones out of his ears and glared at him. He looked surprised that we were there, but he sat up anyway.
"Yes?"
"You kissed her! You're such a…jerk! You promised me, Logan! You promised!" She screamed, and Chase and Michael exchanged looks.
"Stop screaming at me! You're the one that left and wouldn't even keep in touch with me!"
"But, I didn't go to Paris and break the promise. I didn't have a boyfriend, I didn't even have any crushes! You told me you'd wait for me, and you didn't! I didn't even look at any guys while I was there, Logan! I hate you!"
"I hate you too! I don't know why I ever thought I could like you! You're such a…I don't even know the words to describe you. I thought you were the right girl for me, Dana, but you're not." He shook his head.
"Uh, dude, that's not-" Chase was cut off when Dana spun around to glare at him.
"I am Dana! She lied okay? I don't care if you guys are mad at her, but she told me why she did it, and I think it's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. As of today, I am not friends with anyone at this school except Sara, Zoey, Nicole and maybe that Lola girl." She turned back to Logan. "Don't you ever talk to me again." She said the words so harshly that I didn't know what to think.
"Dana, what do we-" Michael started but Dana glared at him too.
"You are friends with him! He's your roommate! I don't want to talk to anyone that has anything to do with Logan Reese. And Chase, if you still like Zoey, you better choose, Logan or her. Zoey will take my side, like always, and I'm sorry if that screws with your guys friendship, but I never want to see Logan again. If that means loosing two of my other best friends in the process, so be it!"
She turned and I followed her out the door. Chase and Michael followed us out, saying they would stop being his friend. She shook her head, and we started down the hall. I turned to look over my shoulder at them, and I shrugged and mouth 'I'm sorry'. They nodded, and I saw Logan looking at the doorway. Some other kids were looking out their doors now too.
"Dana, wait!" Logan yelled, and she spun around.
"WHAT!?"
"Why are you acting like this? You act like I mean nothing to you, Dana. Why are you doing this to me? I'm sorry I kissed Sara, okay? I thought she was you…and you know that. I waited three years for you, and now you're telling me that I can't even talk to you? I thought I meant more than that to you."
He turned and walked back into his dorm, and all eyes turned to Dana. She was crying. I put my arm around her, waved at the guys and lead her back to room 101.
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I opened the door and let Dana go in first. Lola and Nicole were sitting on the floor, talking to Zoey. Zoey's eyes got wide when she saw her, and the other two turned to look.
"Sara, what hap-" Zoey started and I shook my head.
"I'm Sara. I lied. I'm sorry." I said it softly, almost afraid of their reaction.
"It's…okay." Zoey said, and then the realization hit her. "Dana, what's wrong? You never cry, this must be serious."
Dana laid down on her bed and cried into her pillow. I sat down next to her, rubbing her back, and looked at the girls worried faces.
"She and Logan got into a fight…" I explained everything that had happened, and how Dana had told all three of them not to talk to her anymore. Zoey looked surprised, but she nodded.
"Dana, if it means that much to you, I'll stop being friends with Chase." A disappointed look crossed over her face as she said it, but I knew she meant it.
"Yea, we'll sit somewhere else at lunch, and we won't talk to them or anything." Nicole said, and Lola nodded.
Dana sat up and looked around. "I'm so sorry guys. I just…can't deal with him right now."
"Dana, this might not be a good time to ask…but do you still want to see that letter from Logan…?"
"Oh, yea. Get it please."
I went to my bed and got the letter out of my pillowcase. I jumped down and gave it to her, and she slowly took it out. She unfolded it and read it silently. (If you don't remember what it says, go to Chapter 1)
Her eyes welled up with tears again, and she folded it back up. She stood up and looked at us. We were waiting for some kind of reaction. She looked down at her feet, then back at us. She locked her eyes with mine.
"I am so stupid." She said, without breaking eye contact. "I have to talk to Logan."
She dropped the letter in front of the girls and they turned so they could all read it at the same time. When they were finished, Nicole had tears in her eyes.
"That was so sweet of him." Zoey said, and Lola agreed. Nicole wiped her eyes and laughed.
"Look at me, it wasn't even for me but I'm still crying."
"Go talk to him, D. You both deserve to talk." Zoey told her and she nodded.
"You're right. We need to talk about this. I'll be back soon." She left, and the girls started gushing about how sweet Logan was in that letter.
(Dana's Point Of View.)
I walked back to Logan's dorm, with the letter in my hand. I knocked on the door, and Chase finally opened it. He gave me this look, almost telling me to go back.
"I need to talk to Logan." He nodded, but the look was still there. He moved out of the way, to show Logan laying on his bed, his back to us.
I walked up and tapped him on the back. He turned over and glared when he saw me. He shot Chase a look, who just shrugged. He pulled his headphones out of his ear and spoke in a harsh voice. "Leave me alone."
"Logan…I wanted to talk to you…about this." I held up the letter and his eyes softened slightly.
"You got it." He stated, almost like he hadn't been sure.
I nodded. "I hadn't read it until today. When I got it, I was afraid to open it, because I knew what would be inside. Sara found it, read it, and brought it with her. She gave it to me, because she thought it was something I needed to see."
"And?"
"Logan, what you wrote in that letter was so…sweet. I've never seen that side of you before. I'm sorry I yelled at you, it was my mistake. You…deserve so much better than me."
"I don't want anyone better than you, because nobody is better than you."
"Logan…that's what I'm talking about. How come I'm just now seeing this side of you? I wish I'd seen it in 8th grade."
He looked down and was silent for awhile. "You said you hated me. You have no idea how much that hurt."
"Yes I do. I felt the same thing when you said you hated me. We took a million steps backward, when we need to be going forward."
"It's not like I wanted to hurt you. If I had known that I was kissing Sara, I never would have. I don't like her…I like you."
"Sara likes you though, but she said she could never date you knowing that I was the one you really liked. She said that's why she never told you that she liked you, because she didn't want to hurt you. She knew that when I got here, you'd probably find the difference and be crushed. She hates it that you're mad at her, but she understands why."
"I'm not really mad at her. I'm just upset that she lied to me."
"I know you are. But she doesn't believe me."
"I'll talk to her later." I nodded and he stood up. "You have no idea what you do to me, Cruz."
"I know more than you realize. Let's go to the beach, and Sara can meet us there. You guys need to talk."
"Fine. Call her." I took out my phone and dialed her number. She answered on the first ring.
"Hey, Sara. Can you meet me and Logan at the beach in…5 minutes? He wants to talk to you…okay…great…okay, bye."
We walked down to the beach together, and I caught Logan sneaking glances at me. When we finally got down there, she was already there, sitting in the sand and staring out into the sea. I sat down beside her, but she didn't look up. Logan sat down on the other side of her, but she still didn't move. I waved my hand in front of her face, and gave Logan a worried look. What was she thinking about? I didn't know.
AN: What is Sara thinking about? The next chapter will probably be all Sara's point of view and tell what she thought about while Dana and Logan were making up. It will lead up to the beach, then go deeper into details. Don't let that confuse you. I'm picturing about 10 chapters for this story and then probably a sequel. Reviews make updates come faster!
-Breanna