The Secret Cullen #3

When we moved to Forks I felt I was finally leaving my mother and father behind for good, which I felt I wasn't ready. But my brother Jasper kept reasuring my saying, "It's ok Sea. You'll be fine, I know you miss them but they would want you to be happy." He then would do some relaxing thing and it helped me as long as he was near me.

We lived outside of town about three miles off the highway up a windy over grown drive-way. The meadow our house was in was huge and beautiful, but not as beautiful as our house. The house was white and huge, it was like the house you always imagined a white picket fence around. I loved it, it was right out of the stories everyone would tell me. It was perfect.

My room was right next to Edwards since he seemed to understand me the most. It was in the middle of the summer when we moved but it was still foggy all the time. I began to become depressed. My emotions were so weird that I started not leaving my room and staying away from Jasper, then gradualy everyone else. Edward always came to talk to me but left shortly after because I wouldn't talk. Carlisle came in every morning to check and make sure I was still healthy. Esme always brought me food considering that she was the best cook. Jasper came in every once and awhile asking if I was alright.

"I'm fine Jasper," I felt so guilty for lieing even though I knew he felt it, my guilt and my guilt for making him feel my guilt. I would then cry. "Jasper. I know you feel my emotions and I don't want you to. It makes me feel guilty. Please I will get better. I just want to be alone."

He would stand and at the door he would turn and say, "Your hurting everyone. They love you so much and I do to."

"I know, I will try. I love them and you to. Please tell them that," he nodded then left me to my pain.

The next morning when I woke I was screaming. It was them they were coming to get me. Lucy was looking for me, she was furious, she wanted me back. Edward came running into my room followed by everyone else.

"WHAT'S WRONG?" They all yelled at the same time.

"Lucy," that was all I had to say. Esme was holding me. Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie ran to look for her. Alice was looking into the future. Carlisle was on the phone to Tanya. And Edward was in front of me standing in a pretective stance and singing to me.

I told Edward I had an idea, but he wouldn't listen to me. "Oh come on Edward. It will be good for everyone."

"We're not going to change you."

"Duh, I already knew that."

"Then what?"

"I get better. I'm ready. I know my mom and dad aren't coming back. They would want me to be happy. You guys are my family: Carlisle is my father, Esme is my mother, and the rest of you are my brothers and sisters."

"What do you mean get better," Alice asked. "Do you mean your emotions?"

"Yeah, Jasper talked to me last night. And I realized I'm hurting you guys and I hate it." I smiled sadly. "I am happy, happy to be with you guys. Please forgive me."

"We forgive you sweety," Esme said then squeezed me tightly into a hug.

"Umm. Mom," I choked out.

"Yes," I could hear the happines in her voice.

"Bit to tight." She loosened instantly.

"Sorry. Sweety."

"Tanya, Kate, and Irina are looking and when Eleazar and Carmen get back from hunting they will to," Carlisle smiled when he saw me and everyone else smiling. "And of course we forgive you. Now time for your check up."

I sighed, "What ever."

"That sounds like a great idea Alice," Edward said with his crooked smile.

"What?," was all I could say.

"Well if we were to show Lucy that you were happy, she might leave you with us. So you need new clothes and we need to redecorate your room," Alice was so excited that she was jumping up and down.

"That means shopping doesn't it," I was smiling because I already knew the answer. I didn't really mind shopping as long as Alice didn't go crazy (which was always). Alice squealed in response. "But Edward has to come."

"I hate you sometimes," Edward glared at me, and I smiled. "But that's why your my little sister. Ok time to get ready."

"I am coming," Esme said in a very stern voice.

"I SAID IT WAS TIME FOR HER CHECK UP!" Carlisle said. "EVERYONE OUT!"

"Yes Sir," they all ran out.

He checked my heart, my temperature, my eyes, my arms, and told me I was fine.

"Duh. Now let me get dressed please," I said.

"Umm. Ok," he started walking out.

"Thanks dad."

He smiled and walked out.