It was so surreal. Meredith was there. In Seattle. And nobody knew except him. Izzie didn't know. Christina didn't know. Most importantly Alex didn't know. But he knew. George O'Malley knew. The man that Christina named Bambi knew. And didn't know what to do or say.

"Oh my god. You're actually here." He said his eyes wide with shock.

"You look really good, George."

"I just can't believe it."

Meredith stood silently playing with her hands.

"It's been such a long time." He said hugging her.

"Yeah it has. It's so good to finally see you again."

"You know Christina is going to kick you ass."

Meredith giggled nodding as George pulled back. "I have a lot of groveling to do, don't I?"

"Just a little." He chuckled.

In the five years she had been gone, he had barely changed.

"Who are you?" A voice came and Meredith turned around to see Owen standing there pointing her finger at George. George looked at him in shock before moving his eyes to Meredith.

"Owen go back into the kitchen."

"But Mama, we want you to eat with us."

"I'll be there in a few minutes."

Owen nodded and trotted back into the kitchen. Richard appeared in the doorway and whispered to Meredith that he would take the kids out for ice cream, so she wouldn't have to worry about them.

"Meredith?" George said unsure as the back door shut. "Is that your son?" She slowly nodded not meeting his eyes. "He looks exactly like…"

"I know." She shut her eyes and fell back into the couch. "He looks exactly like his father."

He turned to look at her. "You're right a lot has changed." She stayed silent. "He doesn't know. He doesn't know, Meredith." Tears rushed to her eyes. "Do you know what that will do to him?" He was almost yelling by now. He and Alex had gotten closer over the years and actually looked out for each other a lot. Tears were running off her cheeks. "Do you know what you leaving did to him?"

"Do you know what it did to me?" She screamed. "Do you know what the last five years have done to me? I'm the one in love with him. I'm the one who has been raising two children by myself. Do you think I have liked doing that to him? Doing that to them? Do you think I enjoy making them me? I would give anything to go back and change what happened, but I can't."

He looked at her in shock as she sobbed into her hands. "Two kids? As in…?"

"Yes George, as in twins. As in I was alone while I pushed two babies out of my vagina. As in I was alone while I worked my way through my residency and raised two children. I would have given anything to be able to come back and undo what I did. But it's just not that simple."

He fell down beside her. "I'm sorry that I yelled."

She nodded not saying anything at first as she sighed. "What has changed?"

"What?"

"Here. What has changed since I've been gone?"

He sighed and gave her a small smile. "A lot…"

"Tell me about it." She said putting her feet under her wiping the tears away.

"Callie and I get a divorce, but Izzie and I didn't work out. I'm dating Stephanie Kemp now. She's the hospital accountant and she's great. She was the one who told me you were the new attending. Don't tell Chief though."

"How long have you been dating?"

"A year and a half now." He smiled. "I might marry this girl, Mer."

"Aw, I'm so happy for you. What about Christina?"

"She missed you so much." Meredith smiled sadly. "She still refers to you as her person."

"She does?"

"Yeah. She got over Burke mostly because he never came back. She started dating again but it single right now. Izz is dating Josh Burginton. He's an ER doctor. They've been dating for like seven months or something. Sloan actually settled down for awhile with one girl, but when they broke up he went back to 'his old ways.' Shepherd is engaged to some girl who doesn't work in the hospital, but I don't know who it is. We aren't close with him, but Sloan is actually pretty close with us. Montgomery never came back. Tucker almost asked Bailey for a divorce, but they worked out their problems." He paused for a long time before looking at her. She knew why. Alex. Giving him a small nod, she braced herself. "Alex… He never bounced back from your leaving. For the first few months, he barely spoke to anyone and drunk a lot. People tried to set him up with some girls, but if he went out on the date he either left middle of the date or the date got him nowhere." He looked at her to find her practically sobbing. "I can stop."

She shook her head. "No… I need to hear this."

He looked unsure before reluctantly starting again. "About a year and half or two years ago he finally started hanging out with us again and going to Joe's with us. But…" His voice wavered.

She looked at him. "But what?" She asked softly

"He's just not the same."

She pulled a pillow to her face as she drew her knees to her chest. He stared at her as she broke down. Out of nowhere she started hitting the couch as hard as she could.

"I don't even know why I left." She sobbed as she wrapped her arms around her legs again. He didn't say anything. "George." She looked at him. "Don't tell anyone that I'm here. Not yet. Not until I can figure out what to do." He nodded. "I need to be alone."

"Okay." He kissed her tear soaked cheek. "I'll call you."

She nodded quickly writing her number on a sticky pad that was on the table and handed it to him. She watched him walk out and get in the car before running upstairs to the room she was staying in.