AN: Very mature themes in this chapter, btw. Extreme lemons. Figured I'd give you a fair warning. ;)
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns the Twilight saga. All four books! I KNOW!
I let Jacob drive. Nessie, rather than sitting up front with Jake as usual, sat in the back with me. She was the image of a perfect daughter.
We pulled up to the Cullen's mansion in less time than I'd expected…or hoped. I felt like I'd barely had any time to gather my thoughts, but it was too late now. Here we were.
Jacob opened Nessie's door for her. He wasn't quite the gentleman Edward had been, but he was pretty damn close. My dead heart lurched a little while I thought of all the times he'd been so perfectly polite towards me.
Before both of my feet were fully on the ground, I was being embraced by a 4'10" girl with short black hair.
"Calm down Alice," I said, my voice monotone and flat.
She frowned at me, but quickly got over it. "Renesmee! How are you sweetie?"
When the hell had they gotten so close? I kept my mouth shut, but Nessie saw my expression and smiled sheepishly. I attempted a smile in return. I'm not sure how I did.
"Come on, Nessie!" Alice was still squealing at my daughter. "Emmett's dying to play with his niece."
Without warning, I growled. All three people, the wolf, the vampire, and the hybrid, all stared at me shocked.
I sighed to calm myself down.
"Make sure he's careful," I muttered.
Alice surprised me by grabbing my hand on the way to the door. She kept talking lowly about how much she'd missed me, but I tried to tune it out. I needed to be prepared for this.
When she opened the door, we saw all the Cullens looking tenser than ever on the couch. They were vainly trying to appear cool and collected.
And I used to think they were perfect.
Naturally, Carlisle was the first to stand. He brushed his pants off, as if there was something there, and looked at the floor quickly before looking towards us.
"Bella," he nodded. "Hello Renesmee, Jacob."
Jacob and I both nodded back awkwardly, but Renesmee smiled.
"Hi Grandpa!" I half expected her to hug him. She was calling him "grandpa"? I was having trouble keeping up.
The room felt even more awkward after that. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if it was because of the shocked expression my face.
Poor Esme looked like she would be crying if she could. I felt a surge of pity flow through me. Esme was easily the kindest, most caring person in the world; the perfect mother figure. Now she was being presented with a grandchild, something she would absolutely love, but she had no idea whether or not she'd get to know her.
I tried on a smile. "Hi Esme." My voice sounded exactly as I'd meant it to; loving and content. I couldn't help but feel that way around Esme.
Her eyes nearly bugged out of her head. "Hello Bella," she managed to breathe.
I looked down at my feet, and Carlisle suggested we sit down.
Because of our small encounter and the comfort I felt when around her, I sat by Esme. This time, she wasn't as much shocked as she was grateful.
Unexpectedly, she threw her arms around me.
"Bella, I've missed you so much," she whispered.
I wrapped my arms around her, as well. "Me too, Esme. Me too."
When I broke out of Esme's embrace, I looked for the person I'd come here for.
Edward was sitting on the largest couch next to Renesmee. Jacob was on Nessie's other side, looking extremely uncomfortable.
Edward's eyes were a pitch black. They were hard, but the pain was evident. He held my gaze for a few moments before I turned my attention towards the floor.
Emmett made a bit of small talk, obviously trying to play it cool. Everyone but Edward and I joined in.
"Edward, we need to talk." I spoke suddenly, and everyone's conversations stopped to look at us. Edward nodded and walked towards the door.
Ignoring the reactions of everyone else, I walked through the room, following Edward's lead. After checking to make sure I was there, he began to run, signaling me to follow him.
We went just outside of the family's hearing reach. We sat down in an opening in the words, but neither of us spoke.
"Bella, you're the one who wanted to talk. So you're going to have to start doing so." Edward's voice was cold, and I recoiled from him.
Where should I begin? What was I supposed to say? I started speaking and let the words flow without trying to stop myself.
"I'm sorry about last night, Edward. You told me what I'd dreamed of hearing for years, and I left. But I swear I wasn't leaving to get away from you! I went home and talked to Renesmee. I asked her to show me everything that had happened in the meadow. I wanted you back in my life so badly. But I was so scared for Renesmee. She's my world, Edward. She was all I had to live for when you left. When you said you loved me last night, everything inside me felt right again. I knew that I was supposed to be with you, I've always known that. I…I love you too."
Before I could lift my head to see his reaction, I felt his lips against mine. This was different than any kisses we'd shared when I was human. Even that first time we'd made love, he was still so careful. He didn't need to be careful anymore.
I grabbed a fistful of his hair and braided my fingers into it. I let him roll on top of me, and I brushed my tongue against his bottom lip. He parted his lips, granting me entrance. Our tongues danced together in a fight for control.
My hands drifted down towards his shirt. I began to slowly unbutton it, but got impatient and ripped it off completely. He let out a gasp of surprise, and began kissing me even more passionately than before. I hadn't even thought that was possible.
He was moving his hands up and down my sides over my shirt. As he came back up this time, he slipped his hands under and pulled my shirt off. He was much more courteous than I was; he kept my clothing in one piece.
His lips left mine, only to move towards my chest. I still had a bra on, which he ripped off with his teeth. He let his tongue run over my bare breasts, sucking on the nipple. I let out a low moan, and he moved slowly towards my collarbone, then to my lips again.
Once his hands left my chest, he moved them towards my legs. He rubbed his hands up and down my inner thighs for a few minutes. Whenever he got close to the crotch, he'd slow down before going back towards my knees. He brought his hands up further each time.
After teasing me like this for so long, he finally undid my pants and pulled them off. His hands trailed down my waist, and continued what he'd done before. He moved his mouth back to my chest, so I had nothing to stop the next low moan.
Finally, his fingers made it all the way inside of me. He moved his fingers inside me while rubbing my clit with his thumb.
I felt his erection through his pants, which I quickly undid. This time, I was able to keep them intact. Maybe it's because they were trembling with the pleasure I was in and I was too slow to rip them.
Rather than let him inside of me immediately, I moved my head down to his crotch. I licked his head, causing him to groan in pleasure. Just as he had done to me, I teased him a little. Finally, I began to pleasure him. When I knew he was close to finishing, I stopped.
I straddled myself on top of him. Once he'd entered me, Edward put his hands on my lower back as I moved up and down on top of him.
After just a few minutes, he flipped me over. He moved in and out, getting quicker and quicker. I wrapped my legs around his back to help him get further inside of me. With my legs around him, I was able to pull myself up and onto him even more. We were both panting, but now we were really moaning in pleasure.
When I let out a small whimper, he thought he'd hurt me and began to pull out, but I stopped him. "Harder," I whispered in his ear.
He complied immediately. By now he was deep inside of me, and I felt like I was going to scream. We were both climaxing, and I held onto his back, dragging my nails down his back in an attempt to keep this amazing feeling.
We grew quieter, and eventually our breathing slowed. He laid down next to me, and I rolled on top of him, my head on his chest.
"I love you Bella," he whispered as he kissed the top of my head.
"I love you a whole lot more Edward." I craned my neck towards him to kiss him properly.
Everything was going to be perfect again.
Yet again, I didn't edit. I don't really want a beta though. I just didn't want to reread that all over again. haha. REVIEEEEWWW.