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Chap. 3 Confessions

I walked to my own personal bathroom to take a quick shower and redo my hair. My shower was quick due to my nervousness. As soon as I got out I heard the doorbell ring. I stopped dead in my tracks.

"Bella get the door !" Raven yelled up the stairs with a certain edge to her voice. I'll have to remember this when the Cullens leave.

"Um, Ok" I stuttered at the last word as they doorbell rang again. I quickly put the cloths I wore to school today and slowly walked to get the door. I took a deep breath, turned the handle knowing who I would see first. I gasped as I saw Alice jumping up and down with excitement. She ran towards me, picked me up and twirled me around screaming,

"Bella, Oh Bella your alive ! I can't believe it ! I'm so happy !!"

Nessa heard the commotion and walked in, separating the screaming Alice and me. I hadn't even noticed that my family and all of the Cullens looking, no staring at the two of us. Alice stopped squealing, let go of my arms and looked at me seriously. My family and I sat on the couch. Damien sat next to me and placed his hand on my leg trying to make me less anxious and nervous. I finally realized that Edward's eyes were wide with amazement and shock. I gave him a weak smile to let him know I was ok with him and his family being there. I was just nervous about having to talk to him later and what he would say to me. I turned my gaze back to the Cullens who were now sitting on our other couch. We sat there akwardly looking around at one another. Eventually Carlisle stood up and began talking,

"Bella…"he paused, "we are so sorry we left. If we had any idea that a vampire would slip past the pack… we wouldn't have. But then Alice had a vision about you then it went blank. So we went back to your house that day and we saw Charlie's body and the house was covered in both yours and Charlie's blood. We thought you died and were taken. We are truly, deeply sorr-" I cut him and exploded,

"NONE OF YOU EVER THOUGHT OF A DIFFERENT OUTCOME !? YOU NEVER THOUGHT THAT ANOTHER VAMPIRE, ESPECIALLY VICTORIA, COULD HAVE CHANGED ME ? DID THAT EVER CROSS ANY OF YOUR MINDS ?"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. They were so thick sometimes ! Jasper stood up trying to calm me but I cut him off from his powers. Then Edward spoke for the first time,

" Bella please calm down. Now I know that your upset and have every right to be. But you need to hear something."

I began to calm myself at the sound of his voice. I couldn't believe how much I missed the angel like sound of it.. Then I looked him straight in the eyes and nodded ok,

"Bella…you have absolutely no idea what hell I have been through without you…" After he said that everybody knew the rest was private so both covens left the room leaving Edward and I alone.

"When I thought you were dead… the pain was unbelievable, knowing it was all my fault and I left you to the same fate I wanted for you to avoid." he looked at me finally. I could see in his eyes that he was is pain and felt incredibly guilty. He continued,

"and I haven't been the same since. I tried many times to go to the Voltori, to die, but my family refused to let me. I couldn't be around them…or anybody for that matter. So I left." he dropped his head, looking at the floor.

"I was gone for fifty years until Emmett and Jasper found me in South America and dragged me back home. But when I got back all I did was sit in my room thinking about you. I only left to feed." He looked into my eyes again and said,

"I love you Isabella, I will always love you and I have always loved you"

When he said that I broke down and sank to my knees, sobbing dryly. I was to overwhelmed. He walked over to me putting his hand on my shoulder. At his touch I picked up my head and bolted out the door. I knew that I had hurt him bad enough and on top of that I ran away from him after I he said he still loved me. I FELT SO STUPID !! I wanted and needed to be alone so badly. So I ran towards the abandoned saw mill at the edge of town by the woods. I was so confused and upset. I quickly reached the saw mill and pushed opened the door open. I sank into the corner and a fresh round of sobbing broke free.

A/N: I hope you like it ! Please Review ! Won't up date until I get five new reviews ! I had a lot of fun writing this chapter Don't worry Edward will find Bella !