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The next few days as school flew by. Edward was doing as I asked and giving me my space. I asked Charlie if I would be able to go out with Mike, and like I had guessed he said I could. I told Mike that, and he was more than happy. I set up the date for this weekend, so I could get it over and done with.
After school was over I would head strait home, where one of the Cullen's would be out on patrol. I was shocked to find Rose outside my house one day. Apparently she had lost a bet with Emmett and this was her punishment. Great, just what I needed to hear, I was a punishment for her. So it was on that day I decided to go talk to Sam.
Rose was relieved to be off duty, but she was not too thrilled about going home and telling everyone why she was back so early. I told her to just go somewhere else; I wouldn't tell if she didn't. She perked up at that and left before I could change my mind.
As I headed over to Emily's I started to think about the best way to break the news. I knew that he would probably already know everything that I had told Jake so that was one thing I didn't need to talk about. I knew that I would have to explain my reasoning behind the choice, hopefully he would accept them.
I pulled up in the drive way and walked up to the door. When I knocked on the door I found myself hoping that it was only Emily at home. But my luck was no where near that good. Instead Jake answered the door.
"Bella," Was all he got out before scooping me up in one of his bone crushing hugs
"Can't . . . breathe. . . Jake." I managed to squeak out and he put me down.
"Sorry, I just got so excited. It's been forever since I've seen you." Jake had a huge smile across his face; it was the smile that I loved to see. I suddenly forgot all the reasons why I had came up here and I just wanted to spend time with Jake.
"Hey Bella, if Jake will let you in, why don't you come and sit." Emily said from the kitchen.
"Thanks Emily." I walked into the house and immediately felt at home. I was no longer sickened by the shows of affection between Sam and Emily, now I thought that they were cute. We talked for what seemed like hours upon hours until Paul changed the subject.
"So, we saw you a couple of nights ago. Leaving with one of the bloodsuckers." He was always so blunt.
"Yeah, you guys scared the crap out of me. Why were you all at my house anyways?"
"Well, we didn't want to worry you, but Jake caught a fresh trail of the red heads and we all wanted to make sure you and Charlie were safe. But then we saw you with the big guy and figured that they already knew and were getting you out of there." Paul continued.
"She. . . She came back." Was all I managed to get out before I hit the ground.
I was getting really hot, where was all this heat coming from. I opened my eyes to find the entire pack, shirtless at that, leaning over me in a close huddle. Their combined body heat made it feel like I was in a sauna.
"Give her some air you guys." Emily said trying to shove her way into the circle.
I pushed my self up on one arm and was lead to the couch by Jake. "Thanks Jake. I'm fine now."
"Sorry about that Bells, we thought you knew about her." Jake said sounding truly sorry.
"Its fine, how were you supposed to know. Just promise me the next time she comes around, you'll let me know as soon as possible."
"Deal, and sorry again." Jake said.
"Guys, we need to go patrol, Bella, you're welcome to stay here as long as you like. We should be back in a couple of hours." Sam said
"I'll stay, I need to talk to you and Emily so I'll wait until you get back." I said, catching that attention of the rest of the pack.
"What do you need to talk to us about Bella." Sam asked, sounding concerned.
"It's a little personal, I'd rather tell you first then tell everyone else." I said as the blush started to creep across my face.
"That's fine Bella, you guys go ahead and start. I'll catch up when we're done here." Sam said. The pack got up and left the three of us alone. Jake waited for a minute as if asking to stay but Sam gave him a look and he took off with the rest. Now came the hard part.
"So, I have no idea where to start. I'm assuming that Jake has told all of you about what happened in Italy." I started. Sam just nodded.
"Good, that makes things easier. So you know about the fact that if the Cullen's don't change me than a lot of bad vampires are going to come here looking for a fight."
"And a fight they will get. Bella we are not going to let them hurt anyone." Sam interrupted.
"Well, I'm hoping that it won't come down to a fight. I made a promise that I intend on keeping. I am going to be turned into a vampire, and I came here to ask you for your blessing, for lack of a better word." I quickly finished before Sam had a chance to interrupt again.
I could tell that he was expecting this because he didn't get angry. "That's what I figured Bella. You know that it would break the treaty that we have with them if they turned you."
"I know that Sam, that's why I'm here. And they know nothing about this meeting so don't hold it against them. If I don't want to see everyone I care about get hurt than I have to become a vampire. I know that it's a decision that I make for life, and I know that I can't go back. But it's a decision that I've already made. I would rather me turn than watch everyone I love get hurt." I said and looked over to Emily. She had a look on her face that could only be described as a face someone would have when they watched puppies being killed.
"I'll think it over Bella, but you have to realize that this is not just my decision. I will not agree to this unless Jake does. We all care about you too much to watch you throw your life away, but it is your life. If you want my blessing than you have to convince Jake." Sam finished. He had to know that Jake would never agree to this, and that I would do it regardless of what happened with the treaty.
"Well, I'll give it my best shot. But if I convince him it's the right thing to do than the issue of me getting turned won't be an issue anymore right?" I hope that didn't sound as confusing as I thought it did.
"If you get Jacob to agree, than you are free to do it without any repercussions, other than becoming one of them." Sam looked defeated as he said this. "Bella, there's just one thing that I need to know. Are you doing this to be with him or because you think it's the right thing to do?" We both knew who he meant.
"He is not an issue in this matter. I am doing this because it is the right thing to do. Now when Jake comes back will you tell him to give me a call." I said as I started to stand up.
"You're telling him over the phone!" Sam said and he sounded pissed.
"No, I just need to set up a time to see him, that's all." I said trying to cover my tracks.
"Okay, I guess we're done here than. See you later Bella. And if the red head shows up again, one of us will let you know."
"Bye guys." I said and I left. I knew that Alice had to be getting worried by now. So I figured that I should hurry home and give her a call, that is if she wasn't already there waiting for me.
By the time that I pulled into my drive way I was completely worked up on how I would break the news to Jake. I knew that he would instantly know everything that Sam and I had talked about the moment that Sam phased, so it wouldn't be long before he showed up here. I also knew that he would be pissed beyond all else. His temper would truly be an issue, and I didn't know if I alone would be able to calm him down.
I made the decision that I would call Alice and let her know what had happened. She was always able to keep Edward from reading her mind when she wanted to, so I trusted that it would be our little secret. When I turned into my drive way I was not surprised to find that Alice was already there waiting for me.
"Hello Bella. I know what you want and I'm more than happy to help. But I don't know how the conversation will go." She looked upset. Alice did not like not knowing what was going to happen.
"That's fine Alice. I just don't know how he is going take the news. And I'd rather be safe than sorry."
"Well, we're about to find out because he's almost here, I can smell him." She added wrinkling up her nose in disgust.
Just as Alice had said, Jacob came running out of the woods, not looking too happy I might add.
"What the hell do you think you're doing? You seriously can't be thinking about becoming one of them. I won't allow it Bella." Jake said. Surprisingly he was still under control, though I had no idea how.
"Jake, it's my decision to make, and I've already made it." I said taking a step out of my truck.
"Bella, be careful. He's not under control right now." Alice said taking a step in front of me.
"Shut up bloodsucker. You really shouldn't be here right now. I could kill you right now for just standing next to Bella. And I swear to god if you turn her, I will kill all of you." Jake was shaking and I could tell that he was about to lose it.
"Jake calm down. We need to talk this through. If you just listen to me, then you'll understand why I have to do this."
"I know why you're doing this Bella. No matter what you tell Sam, I know you're just doing it to be with him." He said, his works letting the hatred seep through.
Without even thinking about it I removed myself from behind Alice and walked over to Jacob. Alice tried to stop me but I just put out my hand in front of her and continued.
"How can you say that about me. You know better than anyone what he did to me when he left. I can't believe that you said that." I said moving even closer to him. I placed my hands on his bare chest and leaned into him.
"Bella. I'm sorry that I said that, but you have to see things from me perspective. You never gave yourself a chance to move on from him. You just locked all your memories of him away so that you didn't have to feel the pain that he caused you. I was here all the time, and you never even noticed me." Jake said as we looked into each others eyes.
"I saw you Jake, everyday." Then without even thinking twice I leaned up and placed my lips on his. The kiss was not like ones that I had shared with Edward. Jakes lips were surprisingly warm and they molded themselves to mine. I didn't want Jake to get the wrong impression; I was only kissing him to prove a point, so I pulled away before the kiss deepened. The kiss was short and sweet.
"Now do you believe me? I am not doing this for him." I said as I pulled away from Jake. I took a few steps backward so that I was next to Alice. Before I turned around to look at her I heard a deep growl behind me. I turned around to see Edward standing there, shifting his glair between me and Jake.
Edward POV
It was my turn to patrol outside Bella's house, so I headed over there early to relieve Rose. I figured that she would not be too happy about being there. When I arrived I was surprised to find that Bella was not there. I quickly called Alice and asked her to check on Bella. She did as I asked and then informed me that Bella's future was blank. That meant that she was with the werewolves. Great, how many times would I have to tell her that they were dangerous. Alice told me that she was on her way over, and that I should just continue with my surveillance job.
I was not there too long before Alice showed up, she just stood next to her car, waiting for Bella to return. Not even a minute after she showed up Bella's truck turned down the drive way. As soon as Bella stepped out of the truck Alice's demeanor completely changed. She was on edge and I could not figure out why. She was thinking about the periodic table of elements to keep me out of her mind.
Then the smell hit me, werewolf. Great, what was the dog doing here. I moved in closer so that I could hear what they were talking about, seeing as Alice was keeping me out of her head and I couldn't read Bella's thoughts. Jake's thoughts on the other hand were wide open to me. He was screaming about the fact that we were going to turn Bella.
When Bella walked up to him I almost ran over there to take her away, but Alice told me to stay put. Now she was talking to me. I slowly approached where everyone was, when I saw it happen. Bella, my Bella, kissed the dog. She actually kissed him, not the other way around. Jake was just as surprised as me.
What is going on, is Bella actually kissing me? Maybe she loves me like I love her. Jake thought.
Before the kiss got too out of control I saw Bella pull away. I was behind her in a moment, and I could no longer contain the monster inside of me. I had hurt Bella so badly that she was forced to kiss the dog to prove a point. The growl that came out of my chest surprised me as much as it did Bella. I looked at her then at Jacob, then back to Bella. I could tell that she was upset by my arrival, but I really didn't care. It was taking all of my control not to rip the dogs head off right then and there.
"Edward. . . I. . ." Bella was at a loss for words it seemed. What I wouldn't give to be able to read her mind right now. To see how she truly felt about me.
"You don't need to explain Bella. I just wish you wouldn't have done that." I said as calmly as I could.
"You have no say in who she kisses bloodsucker." Jacob yelled at me, finally snapping back into reality. Then he turned all his attention on Bella. "I come back later once their gone, and we can finish this. Bye Bella, try to keep yourself in one piece until I get back." Jacob told Bella before he took off into the woods.
His thoughts were far less than pleasant as he left. He kept picturing how tonight would go for him, all the different things that he wanted to do with Bella now that she was starting to show some affection his way. It was enough to make me sick.
With the dog now gone I turned my attention to Alice. I couldn't look at Bella right now.
"What is going on?" I asked
"It's not for me to tell you Edward. This is between Bella and the wolves. Leave her alone." Alice said out loud
"It's fine Alice, I'm sure he'll find out sooner or later, if he didn't already find out from reading Jake's thoughts." Bella interrupted as she turned to look at me. "I don't want my turning to be an issues between the two groups. It is my decision to make and they shouldn't take it out on you guys if I decide that I want to become one of you. Sam said that it would not be an issue if I convinced Jake to let me turn." I stopped her right there.
"So your way of convincing him is kissing him?" I added very rudely.
"No, he thought I was doing it for the wrong reasons, and I wanted to prove those reasons wrong."
"Do you want to know what he was thinking about before he left?" I asked rather hotly.
"Not really, but I have the feeling that your going to tell me anyways." Bella replied
"He was thinking about the two of you, together, tonight. He thinks that you have finally realized that you loved him, and now he is even more dead set on keeping you human. The one area that I seem to agree with him on."
"Well, that wasn't my intention at all. As I'm sure you heard he thought that I was turning for you, which is so not the case."
"Enough you two. It's like an old married couple bickering over the last piece of hard candy." Alice said, stepping between us. "Let's all calm down and look at things with a level head. Bella, I really wish you would have talked to us before going over there, but we can't change that now. Edward, get your nose out of Bellas love life." Alice finished putting both of us in our place.
"Alice, I need to leave. Charlie's almost here." I then turned to Bella. "I know that I told you that I would give you space, but I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm going to get you to trust me again Bella. You are my only reason for being, and I'm sick of watching you with everyone else but me."
"Edward." Alice warned.
Charlie was almost there so I had to act quickly. I rushed to Bellas side, ignoring the smell of the dog on her, and I kissed her with all the passion that I had in me. She responded to the kiss like I knew she would. Her hands found their way into my hair and I felt her pull me toward her, closing the little space that there was between us. Before I wanted to I had to pull away so that Bella could breathe. Only to move my lips to her neck.
Once she had gotten a chance to breath I returned my attention to her lips. I knew that I was breaking the rules but I really didn't care at the moment. I deepened the kiss, placing one hand on her neck and the other on the small of her back. I wanted Bella to know how much I wanted her and this was the only way that I knew how. I pulled away gradually placing a few sweet kisses on her lips.
"Breathe Bella." I whispered into her ear. She took in a breath and took a step away from me. I could tell that she wanted to say something but Charlie was right around the corner. So I took off into the forest smiling as I heard her heart accelerate.
Bella POV
There was no way to prevent him from kissing me, even if I had wanted to. All of my will crumbled once his lips met mine, and before I knew it I was kissing him back. I tangled my fingers in his hair and pulled him closer to me. I didn't want to stop kissing him, it felt right, it felt like it used to. Edward removed his lips from mine, only to start kissing my neck. It gave me a chance to breathe, but I didn't want to stop kissing him. When Edward returned his lips to mine I was surprised when he crossed his old boundaries and deepened the kiss. I really never liked the boundaries so I just let it go. Much too soon Edward pulled away.
Once I was able to think I realized what I had just done. I quickly took a step away from Edward. Before I as able to yell at him for kissing me he took off into the forest, just as Charlie pulled into the driveway. Alice was just leaning on her car smiling the whole time.
"That's what you saw wasn't it." I said to her after I gathered my thoughts.
"No, that's not it. But I knew that was going to happen sooner or later." Alice said still smiling.
"Hey kiddo." Charlie said coming over to stand next to me. "Hey Alice, nice to see you again."
"Hi Charlie." Alice replied.
"Dad, do you think I could go over to Alice's for a little while?"
"Bella, it's a little late to be going over there. Why doesn't Alice hang out here for a while?" Charlie said as he started to walk into the house.
"That's alright Charlie, I should probably be getting home anyway." Alice said as she started to climb into her car. "See you tomorrow Bella."
"Alice, tomorrow is Saturday. I have a date with Mike."
"I know, I'll be over here to help you get ready." Alice said then she climbed into he car and left.
I should be used to her doing that, but I still wasn't. I headed into the house to make dinner for Charlie. Knowing that I had been neglecting that duty lately I decided to make Charlie some of hid fish.
After dinner was done I was getting pretty tired so I headed up to my room to go to sleep. When I opened the door I was a little surprised to find that Edward was not in my room waiting for me.
Not very descriptive, but than again Jake was never one for words. I had totally forgotten that he was coming over tonight, maybe that was why Edward wasn't there. As if on queue I heard a tapping on my window. Jake was outside my window perched on the branch smiling. I quickly let him in.
"How long have you been out there?" I asked him in hushed tones.
"Not long." Jake said quickly crossing the distance between us. He seemed awfully eager about something, and my guess was that it had to do with the kiss.
"Jake, about what happened earlier −" Before I could finish my sentence Jake crushed his lips to mine. It was not like before, there was nothing sweet about this kiss. Edward must have been right, not that I hadn't believed him.
I tried my best to fight him off, but he was too strong for me. I put my hands on his chest and pushed against him with all of my force. It seemed to get his attention and he finally pulled away looking a little disappointed.
"What Bella." Jake said, his voice sounding a little husky.
"Jake, I don't want to hurt anyone here. But−" I had to think of a way to word this right.
"I don't feel that way about you. You're like a brother to me."
"But earlier. I wasn't just imagining it was I. You kissed me, not the other way around."
"Yeah I kissed you Jake, but it was to prove to you that I wasn't changing because of Edward."
"Oh. Well you really shouldn't have done that Bella. I thought you were finally opening up to the idea of you and me." Jake took a step away from me. He was hurt, that was clear.
I suddenly felt the need to comfort him, right now we wasn't the new Jake, he was my Jake. I rushed over and wrapped my arms around his waist and gave him a hug.
"I'm sorry Jake. That was wrong of me to do." I pressed my check on his chest, he was so warm.
"It's partly my fault Bella. I shouldn't have said what I said. I was just so upset about what was happening. I had to say something that would hurt you as bad as I was hurting."
"And I'm sorry that I gave you the wrong impression."
"Don't be. I'm glad that I got the chance to kiss you." And just like that our little fight was over.
"Jake, you know that I have to turn, right." I said after a few minutes of silence. My face was still resting on his chest.
"I get it Bella, but that doesn't mean that I like it." He said slowly.
"Does that mean that you'll give your blessing?" I asked looking up into his eyes.
Jake took a deep breath and then looked down to meet my gaze. "Yes, Bella. I'll tell Sam that I'm alright with you turning. But if I find out that you turned because of him, I will never talk to you again."
"You have no idea how much that means to me." I said.
"I know Bella." Jake said as I yawned. "Let's get you to bed."
"Okay Jake." Was all I said as he led me to the bed and tucked me in. As soon as my head hit the pillow I was out.
A/N: So, sorry about the long chapter, I thought the story was moving a little bit slow. I wanted to get some Bella and Edward action going on. Now i get to start writing the fun stuff. I know that Jake is a OOC by letting Bella turn, but I didn't want them to stop being friends after she turned. I promise no more kissing scenes between Jake and Bella, I just had to write on though. Sorry about the long A/N, I'm just rambling now. Anyway review and tell me what you HONESTLY think, don't hold back. Thanks.