The Tracy Women Part 3 Becca

Disclaimer: Please see Chapter 10.

Thanks for the reviews. Most locations will be made up. This is a bit of long chapter as I didn't update yesterday.

Chapter 12: Opening Up

"Son. I am sending you to England for a few days," said Jeff.

"Why?" asked Scott. With Alan out of action, they needed him.

"Because you need help son."

"Are you sending me to a shrink?" he asked feeling annoyed that his family wanted rid of him.

"No son. I am sending you to the only person I think can reach you right now," said Jeff moving to sit beside his son. He made sure he wasn't touching Scott.

"Who?" asked Scott confused.

"You will see when you get there. Now go and pack. You have an hour and then Maddie will fly you to the airport."

"What if I refuse to go," said Scott indignantly.

"Please son. We want to help you but we cannot. Just at least go see them and then if you want to come back you can," pleaded Jeff. Scott could see the desperation in his father's eyes and gave in. Right now, he didn't care where he was but it might be easier to be away from his brothers. At least for now.

"Fine," he said and went off to pack.

Maddie walked into the lounge and up to her father in law. He looked so down and she knew he hated not being able to help his sons.

"We are doing the right thing however hard it seems," she said smiling at him. Jeff smiled up at her. She was a wonderful woman and made Virgil really happy.

Lucie walked into the lounge with her bag. Scott and Maddie had left a few minutes ago and she was now off to relieve John. They hadn't told Scott about Lucie going up to Thunderbird 5 in case he changed his mind. Jeff sat at his desk and Virgil stood with Tintin and Alan.

"You ready to go sis?" asked Alan walking over.

"Yes I think so," she replied and smiled at them all. They all gave her a hug and wished her luck. Jeff was the last to hug his daughter in law.

"I will miss our late night chats," he said smiling at her.

"Me too but I'm sure John would love you to join him," she replied.

"Yeah. Well you had better go and remember Alan. Lucie is flying there. John will fly back," said Jeff turning to his youngest.

"Yes father," he replied and sat down beside Lucie. They both disappeared into the floor and off to Thunderbird 3.

Scott and Maddie arrived at the Airport. It had been a tense flight. Scott had barely said a word to her. They walked into the departure lounge and Becca approached them.

"Hey Scott, Maddie," she said smiling.

"Becca?" said Scott surprised to see her standing before him.

"Hi there. I'm your company for the next few days. If you think you can handle it?"

"I guess," said Scott with little reaction. Becca could see she had her work cut out. Scott was depressed and she hoped she could pull it out of him.

"I better get back," said Maddie and she gave Becca a hug.

"Look after him for me," she said and Becca nodded. She then hugged Scott.

"We all love you and will miss you," she said and then headed off. Becca took Scott's arm and lead him outside to a battered old Jag.

"Is this yours?" he asked studying the car. It was not what he expected her to be driving.

"Yeah. It's really old but I love it," she said smiling. They got into the car and Becca headed away from the Airport and out of London. She glanced over at him and was scared by what she saw. He looked so pale and tired. She could tell he had not eaten or slept in a while. The sparkle in his eyes was gone and Becca missed it. She could feel the tears come to her eyes knowing how much Scott was hurting.

John and Alan were now ready to leave Thunderbird 5. John didn't want to leave his wife up here but he didn't have a choice.

"John we have to go," said Alan and he headed to Thunderbird 3 giving them a few minutes alone.

"I am going to miss you so much," he said.

"John. This is no different to you leaving me to be up here," said Lucie hugging him tight.

"Yes it is. When you are down there. I know you are safe with them and not alone."

"Oh John. I will be fine. When I'm not helping you guys. I will gaze at the stars and think of you," she said smiling.

"Make sure you do. I love you my beautiful Angel," he said kissing her.

"I love you too my gorgeous Starman," she replied when he stopped kissing her. He kissed her again.

"Go now before I stop you," she said breathlessly. She still felt dizzy every time he kissed her.

"Stop me," he replied and carried on kissing her.

"Uh Guys. Dad wants us back," said Alan interrupting them. Lucie pushed John away gently.

"See you soon," she said and kissed him one last time.

"Ok. Be careful baby," he said and walked off with Alan. Lucie smiled at him and wandered over to the window gazing out at the stars.

Scott had been with Becca for a couple of days now and she hadn't forced the issue of his depression yet. He knew it would not be long before she asked him about it. He got dressed and headed downstairs. In the kitchen he found a young woman he didn't recognise.

"Hi there," she said smiling.

"Hi. Becca has gone for a jog," he said as he made a coffee.

"Sounds about right. I'm Kallie by the way. Becca's old room mate," she said as Becca came in.

"Hi Bex. I was just greeting your guest," said Kallie with a cheeky grin.

"Get your mind out of the gutter. This is Scott Tracy," she said glaring at her former flat mate.

"You don't mean the Scott Tracy," said Kallie grinning at him. Becca just nodded. Scott was used to people knowing his name but her next comments shocked and amused him.

"Wow. I finally get to meet Scott Tracy. The only man you have ever loved," she paused as Becca shot her a dirty look then grinned.

"Yeah didn't you say something about him being the best lay you have ever had," she added grinning.

"Kalli shut it or I will tell Dom what really happened on your hen night," she said blushing.

"Alright I'll be good. Do you two fancy some breakfast?" she asked then smiling at Scott when she saw the grin on his face. Becca had to smile when she saw that Scott was. It was the first time since he had got there.

"Sure let me just change. Kallie behave yourself," she said and left the room. Kallie looked at Scott and laughed.

They arrived at a local cafe and ordered their food. Kallie and Becca were reminiscing and Scott couldn't help but laugh at some of the stories. Becca was so happy to see Scott laugh and smile with them. A voice suddenly boomed out from behind them.

"Where are my two favourite ladies?"

"Hey honey," said Kallie leaping up and kissing the man that had spoken.

"Hey Cole," said Becca smiling at him.

"Don't tell me you have finally got over your undying love for me," he said smiling at Scott.

"Yeah it was hard but I managed. Cole Parker this is Scott Tracy," she said and the two men shook hands.

"So are you bringing him to the wedding?" asked Cole.

"When is it?" asked Scott.

"Saturday. You should come along. I'm sure Becca would love the company," said Kallie with a cheeky grin.

"Seriously mind out of the gutter. You two are made for each other," she said laughing at them.

"Well if I am still here. I would love to come," said Scott as Becca sat down beside him. Her arm brushed his and he felt his heart jump a little. Well he obviously still had some feelings left. They spent the rest of the meal laughing and chatting. Becca knew today was the day to get Scott to open up to her. She just hoped he would. She had rung his family every night to keep them updated but so far had nothing to really tell them.

Scott and Becca headed back to her apartment and he went to his room trying to avoid the inevitable. Becca wasn't going to let him get away with it this time and she soon joined him with two cups of coffee.

"I know you don't want to do this Scott but we have to talk," she said sitting on a chair away from him.

"I can't," he replied honestly. He had no idea how to explain to her what was going on in his head.

"You have to. It's eating you up and tearing your family apart. They are all so worried about you."

"I know but I don't know where to start."

Becca could see she was going to have to start this off if she ever wanted to get through to him.

"Scott why are you so down. What happened to make you like this. It isn't you. You are the leader, the strong one," she said trying to force a reaction out of him.

"Yeah well maybe I am sick of being the leader," he said angrily.

"Is that what all this is about. You have had enough of being the field commander?"

"Yeah you think I enjoy sending my brothers out every day possibly to their deaths. It would be my fault if they were killed," he replied. Becca could finally see that the blame Scott was feeling went deeper then just the shooting.

"They don't do this because you force them. They do it because they want to."

"No but I am supposed to keep them safe not let them be shot at or buried in mud or blown out of the sky."

"Blown out of the sky. What are you talking about Scott?" she asked unsure what he meant. She had switched a small radio on so that his family could listen in but not make comments.

"I'm talking about the time the Sentinel fired missiles on Virgil. It was my fault. I should have been with him when it happened," he said looking down. Becca could remember reading about it. That had been in the early days of International Rescue which meant Scott had been harbouring his guilt for some time.

"How was that your fault Scott?"

"I should have been with Virge not chasing Cook for a few lousy photos."

"Those photos helped keep International Rescue a secret and even if you had of taken off with him. How often do you fly tandem with Virgil?"

"Not often but at least they would have fired on me instead. Thunderbird 1 is better equipped for evasive action."

"Maybe but what if one of those missiles had hit you. It would have destroyed you straight off. Thunderbird 2's size gave it a chance and only the tail was damaged. That was not your fault and I bet Virgil would agree with me."

"Scott you can't take the blame for every rescue that goes wrong. It will drive you crazy," she added wanting to wrap her arms around him.

"I know but what if that missile had blown up Thunderbird 2 or if Alan had been shot in the chest. I could have lost them both forever," he said choking back a sob. He couldn't bear the thought of losing any of his brothers.

"Yeah but they didn't. Scott you have to forget about the what ifs. I did. After I was raped I kept thinking what if I had not gone to the cash point or what if I had told my mates where I was. I even blamed myself for what had happened," she said sitting on the bed beside him.

"How the hell was that your fault?"

"Because I knew the risks about being on my own in the city. Like you I just let the blame build and I almost retracted my statement."

"What stopped you?"

"A wise old man told me blaming myself would only destroy me further and that I had to find the good that came from all this."

"How could something good come from this?"

"Easily. What that man did could have destroyed my life but it didn't it made me stronger. I learnt to stand up for myself and not let people walk over me. I actually joined the S.R.S not long after. Yeah I still find it hard to trust men but that will come in time."

"Ok but what good has come out of Alan being shot?"

"Well I would guess that the fact Alan that is alive would be it. He did what any of the others would do. Imagine if you had been in his shoes watching someone you idolize and love about to be shot. What would you have done?" she asked touching his arm.

"The same I guess."

"Exactly. He was just protecting someone he cared about. I would have done the same you know."

"You would have jumped in front of a bullet for me?" he asked turning to look deep into her soulful hazel eyes.

"Look we may have broken up a long time ago but I never stopped caring about you Scott," she said gazing into his eyes.

"Wow," he said touched to know she still cared for him. "What about the mudslide in Peru. My take off caused that. You cannot deny it."

"Yeah I can. I had a colleague at my base look into it. He said that even a little breeze or a leaf could have caused that mud to shift so it would have happened regardless. You should be thankful it didn't happen earlier. You have a wonderful guardian angel looking after you all."

"Yeah. I guess I have been so wrapped up in blaming myself that I never thanked Alan for saving my life."

"You should. I think he is worried you are mad at him for leaving his post."

"You know a lot about this," he said realizing how informed she seemed to be.

"Yeah. Your family told me a fair bit before you came. They are worried about you Scott."

"Were you worried about me?" he asked with a little smile. Becca smiled back realizing that Scott was no longer blaming himself. She had finally got through to him. She switched off the radio so the others could no longer hear.

"Yes I was worried too Scott. You mean a lot to me."

"You mean a lot to me too," he said putting his arms around her for a hug. "Thanks."

"It was nothing," she replied looking up into his eyes once more. He only had to lower his head slightly and their lips would be touching. Scott gently lowered his head and kissed her lightly. He moved back a little to gauge her reaction. This time she kissed him. It was deeper and more passionate. Scott let her lead not wanting to freak her out. She gently pushed him down onto the bed knowing she was doing the right thing. He ran his fingers up and down her spine and she shivered slightly. He stopped kissing and looked up at her to make sure she was still ok. She smiled at him then kissed him running her fingers through his hair.

Authors Note: So has Scott dealt with his issues. Has Becca overcome hers and will they finally work things out?