I just want to address the fact that I believe I took too much time updating. Everytime this happens, I plan on posting more than I would have posted, had I taken less time. I'm really trying to make this good, so if anyone has any suggestions as to what should happen, or what you want to happen, I'm open to new ideas. By the way, I'm very proud of my fic Could I Set a Heart On Fire?, it's a short one-shot, but it's very cool, read it if you want, don't forget to leave reviews. Thanks for reading, I'll stop rambling now.
Edward's Point of View:
The snow fell outside my window, and I agonized as I stared at it from the floor. The small white puffs only reminded me of the first day I had spoken to Bella, in our biology class. She had told me the story of her not so complicated life. I didn't know her then. How easy it would have been to just leave then, and never come back. I was too self-centered, I couldn't back away from her, she dazzled me. Pornographic thoughts took me away from my wallowing in self pity.
Tanya's thoughts were running wild, if she only knew what I had done, maybe she'd think of me repulsive. I couldn't exactly blame her, what else would she believe was happening? I came running to her house all of the sudden. She thought I was interested in her. She thought wrong.
I had come running to her house because I was a coward, scum, trash. How quickly I had ruined it all, when I could have had everything. But what was I supposed to do? I had killed Bella's love, her husband. I didn't deserve to live. It was only fair I was eternally damned to live without her.
I was the world's biggest and most useless idiot. In less than twenty years I met the love of my life, almost killed her time and time again. I abandoned her, telling her I didn't love her so she could be happy, and found her again in the arms of another man, happy like I'd wanted, and killed her happiness. She was now probably miserable, perhaps even more miserable than she ever would have been, had I killed her in the first place in the middle of that classroom. I couldn't even look at myself. The lights were off in the room, and I just laid on the floor, hating my existence, cursing my stupidity over and over.
The only one that didn't get it was Tanya, the only one from the clan that came up to the dark room to talk to me. She couldn't figure out I was so unhappy, even though it was excruciatingly obvious. And she had dark intentions, she was fond of me, fond of the monster.
As if reading my mind she came running up the stairs, almost knocking the door out of its hinges, before I read her mind. "Alice is coming!" She screamed from the other side of the door, loud enough for me to hear, although a whisper would have been enough.
What could Alice possibly want after so many years? She wouldn't have come all the way to Alaska to remind me of the mess I had left behind, she must want something else, maybe something was wrong at the house.
I heard Alice's thoughts before I could see her, she was naming all the designer brands she knew before walking up to the door, something that really occupied her thoughts, obviously she was hiding something, I couldn't help but chuckle darkly to myself.
I was in a room at the second floor, closed off in the dark, and I couldn't hear anything but Tanya and Alice's thoughts.
Oh great, Tanya thought sarcastically, Alice is here, she'll probably take Edward home now.
Has any strange vampire come around? Alice worried while she asked Tanya. Why would Alice be worried about visiting vampires where she didn't live?
None, except your brother, but I'm pretty sure you don't mean him, she thought back.
Can I come up to talk to him? She asked.
Of course, you know this is your house also, she didn't really mean that.
Alice was by my side in seconds, even though the room was so far away.
"Edward!" She exclaimed while embracing me, picking me up from the floor I laid in. I must have looked extremely pathetic, but I just didn't care. I didn't care about anything lately.
"You look so messed up, and I'm so sorry but you're going to feel even worse after what I have to tell you," she pouted. I read her thoughts now, they were hurried, but I got them all. Bella had come with her, she was in the car outside, unsure about coming in -that, I quickly grasped, although I didn't know what I should do about it. Isabeli planned on killing me, and she was a vampire now. How exciting, I thought sarcastically. Bella's daughter set out to kill me. Maybe two seconds had gone by since Alice came in the room, I was out of the room even faster. Running as fast as I could to the front of the house.
I stood at the doorsteps, knowing Bella was inside Alice's car in the long driveway. I would stand here all eternity until she got out of that car. I don't know what I was expecting but quicker than I'd thought, the car door opened, and even though she stood more than 20ft. away from me, her scent hit me strongly, and I yearned for her now more than ever.