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Chapter 1: With Everything That I Am

Laura laid curled up on her side on the floor of her quarters unable to move, she had heard her love over the com announcing promises and hope. Hope she no longer had. 'How could I?' Everything I thought was true was...is a lie.' Laura curled up tighter holding on to the dead piece of earth she removed from the barren wasteland.

She starred at the object in her hand eyeing it for what seemed like hours, she vaguely heard the hatch open, vaguely heard him walk towards her, and vaguely heard him kneel down beside her.

"Laura?" He whispered his voice filled with hurt, concern and of love.

Laura hid the dead flower in her palm, held in a sob and weakly replied, "Go away."

Bill lowered his head in defeat, another sting of pain hitting him by her words, he knew more than anyone else that she had lost so much; her dreams of a life that didn't surround the fleet, the weight of the fleet lifted knowing that they were safe, and above all the silent hope that ran through them, hope that they would be together freely without any trepidation. All these things seem to banish in a blink of an eye when they first set foot on Earth. The hope and celebration of finding their home was quickly filled with self doubt and guilt. Guilt he equal felt.

'But why? Why must she push me away? After she just proclaimed her love, why must we go back to this? Why must she close herself off? Doesn't she know I'm here for her? Always for her."

Bill still knelt by her side unable to move not knowing what to do or say, he just watched her curled up form on the small rug of her quarters.

"Please go away...please." She begged.

Bill shook his head on its own accord knowing she didn't see the movement and without another thought said, "No."

It shocked him for saying it, after all how could he comfort anyone? When he felt just as much pain and loss as she did. He weighed the idea of comforting her, asking himself 'do I have anything left to give? Is there any point?' the thoughts were banished instantly hearing her sob. He did have so much left to give and it was all for her.

"Please..."She moaned as if in pain, as if the presence of him pained her.

It did.

'How could I look at him again?' she thought subconsciously dropping the ancient plant only to move her hand to hide her face, 'after all the things I've said, after the things I promised...promised him!'Laura let out another sob.

Bill moved to sit down cross legged behind her; he gently leaned over and grabbed her wrist with ever so much care, he sensed instantly Laura would move it away and as soon as he felt the action of her wrenching her hand away he clutched on to it firmly so she couldn't.

"Let go." She hissed.

"No" was his simple reply and before she could protest any further he continued barley above a whisper, "I'll never let go of you Laura...so please don't ask me to...because I can't...I won't, you're my life... I can't live my life without you."

Laura's eyes were wide as tears fell steadily onto the rug, "How could you even look at me let alone touch me?" she asked through another sob.

Bill bent his head down so his lips were a breath away from her ear, "You above all should know that answer...it's because I love you."

Laura sucked in a breath, never has he said the words out loud and it made her cry harder, not for her broken dreams but for the man beside her for the man above her, the man that was all around her.

"Through all your faults, through all your stubbornness and through everything, I love you, cause to me your perfect," He took a breath before continuing, "Laura I won't forgive you about earth, cause there is nothing to forgive, we both decided to pursue Earth-"

"I forced you-"

"Laura just because you win in some arguments by forcing me to do things I don't want to do...your actually not forcing me...I decided to pursue Earth on my own accord." He said with a grin hoping to lighten up the mood, "Because I trust you."

"Look where that trust ended up." Laura spat.

"I still trust you, because I love you, if you told me this isn't earth I would believe you. Yes Earth is a frak job, our future home is officially a pipe dream...and that's ok."

Laura rolled on her back to stare at him for the first time, his statement obviously making her question his sanity.

"Because as long as I have you, as long as your here with me...I'm home."

Tears continued to slip from her red eyes.

"I trust this Laura," Bill removed his hand from her slender wrist only to hold her hand tightly, "I trust you, and I'm asking you now to trust me, to follow me; where we go I don't know all I know is I can't do this alone you are the one that makes me strong Laura, your my home...please Laura please don't push me away not when I love you so much." Bill never noticed the tears in his eyes until one fell and landed on Laura's cheek merging with her own.

In an instant Laura raised herself draped one hand around Bill's neck and crushed her lips against his own. The kiss was not like their first back on Colonial One so very long ago, it was hot and passionate and wet. Bill never asked for permission as he plunged his tongue into her mouth letting his tongue dance in a joyful union tasting the sweetness that was her. He held her by the back of the head taking the extra effort to make sure he would not dislodge her wig or their mouths. Her tongue swept into his mouth tasting him, she noted the taste of ambrosia and briefly wondered how much had he been drinking, before moving her head for a better angle.

Laura moaned as his probing tongue, his hot hands that seemed to sear through her clothing and her wig, his taste, his love. Upon hearing her exquisite moan he removed his mouth only to replace his lips and teeth against her jaw line gently nipping at her skin, he quickly earned another moan as she tried to catch her breath.

"I'm sorry," she whispered between breaths, "I'm sorry I pushed you-"

"Don't be my Love; just know I'll always be by your side I'll always be yours."

Laura nodded and motioned to wipe away her tears but he quickly stopped his nipping, removed his hand from her waist and did it for her, caressing her cheeks as if she would break by the softest of touches.

"Do you trust me Laura?"He asked his mouth still breathe away.

"With everything that I am." She stared into his perfect blue orbs as her heart trembled in his chest.