"Three days Kathryn, it has been three days since you slept with Mark and almost slept with Chakotay in the kitchen." Phoebe said

Kathryn looked at her over the top of her coffee cup "I didn't almost sleep with Chakotay in the kitchen. We went up stairs and slept together in your room." Kathryn responded

Phoebe spat out her coffee "You did what?!"

Kathryn burst out laughing "No!! I didn't sleep with him relax."

Kathryn got up and smiled at her sister "I am going to sit outside and enjoy the sun rise before I have to wake the kids up."

Kathryn sat on the bench with a blanket wrapped around her legs and just sat enjoying the sun rise when she smelt a familiar scent, a smell that made her feel at ease. She closed her eyes and enjoyed the smell for a moment. She felt someone put their arm around her and she leaned into the body now on her right.

"Chakotay." Kathryn whispered, her eyes still closed

"Open your eyes Kathryn you are missing the sun rise." He whispered back

Kathryn opened her eyes and saw an amazing array of colours which she had never really noticed before.

"Isn't that much better? You can see what you always miss." He whispered

"I miss you more then seeing this." Kathryn said pointing in the direction of the sun.

They sat together for what seemed to be hours when Tayla came outside to see Kathryn

"Mom what are you doing?"

"I am sitting watching the sun rise with..." Kathryn paused for a minute; she wasn't sure how she was going to say it. Tayla didn't know Chakotay and didn't know that he was her father.

"An old friend sweet heart." She quickly said. Chakotay moved his arm from around her and whispered into her ear.

"We need to finish talking later."

She answered "Come by tonight at 0200"

And he got up and walked around to the side of the house and flashed away.

Kathryn sat with her daughter for a little bit and decided that she needed to talk to her

"Tayla do remember when you were really little and I said that your dad had gone away?"

"Yes I think I remember, but he came back." Tayla responded

"Well that is kind of right but you see Mark is Tuckers dad"

"Mine too Mom."

Kathryn looked at her and saw tears in her daughter's eyes she wanted to tell her everything but didn't

"That's right sweet heart he went away on a trip and finally came back." Kathryn said with a tear running down her cheek.

"Mom why are you crying? Is dad okay?" Tayla asked

"Of course he is okay, I am happy; I had not seen that friend in a long time." Kathryn got up and ushered Tayla inside.

The afternoon was lovely and warm summer was just starting and Kathryn had decided to have Mark come over with Tucker.

"Lemonade anyone?" Kathryn asked as she came outside to the picnic table with a big tray of glasses and a pitcher of lemonade.

Mark helped her place the tray on the table and handed the two kids a glass

"Be careful now, your mother might get mad if you break it." He said with a smile on his face

Mark took Kathryn's hand as the sat at the table and watched the kids play, while Tucker was in the baby swing beside Kathryn.

"He came to see me this morning. He just sat with me and watched the sun rise. Tayla came out and saw him with his arm around me. But I just could bring myself to tell her who he is. I have always been sure that telling the truth will hurt but will be better in the long run." Kathryn said

"Kath, that must have been hard, trying to tell her, but I know you want to but if she doesn't remember him maybe its best not to let her know."

"I can't lie to her."

"It's not really lying, she was a baby when he died and very young when you and I got together so she assumed that I was her father, which you didn't correct her." Mark responded

Kathryn turned and looked at him, still holding his hand she lifted her hand and rested his against her chest. "Mark I love you, the kids love you, hell my family has always loved you. I have had almost two months to think about my decision and it has been very very hard for me, and that is why tomorrow at noon I will have made my mind up." Kathryn kissed Mark softly on the lips which he responded and intensified it.

The rest of the day was great the kids played with friends from around the area and dinner was great. When it was time for Mark to go he pulled Kathryn into a room not being used and kissed her and touched her, she allowed the kiss and the touching while she did the same. Mark deepened the kiss and held her as close as he could. He moved his lips away from hers to say

"I still stand by what I said Kath." He kissed her again "I will stand by what ever decision you make."

He kissed her deep and passionately caressing every part of her body. He started kissing her neck

"Mark… I….No… Oh… Feels… Good…" Was all Kathryn could say before she gave in and started pulling at his belt.

"Kathryn Elizabeth Janeway!"

Kathryn quickly turned her head towards the door she new she had locked as Mark and her made their way to the sofa in the library.

"Mother!" Kathryn yelped

"What do you think you are doing in my library?" Gretchen said sternly

Kathryn rushed to get her top back on and Mark attempted to get his pants done up and pelt on.

"Mom what are you doing home? I thought you were staying with some relatives in Ireland?" Kathryn said as she did up the buttons on her shirt

"I was, but when Phoebe contacted me and said you were acting depressed I decided to come home. But I can see she was wrong, I didn't not bring you up to be promiscuous."

"Mother I am not being promiscuous. I am just enjoying the company of Mark."

"Kathryn, you are "enjoying the company" of two men." Gretchen said with her hands on her hips

Kathryn quickly ushered Mark out of the room past her mother and out the door. She closed the front door and turned around to see her mother standing behind her.

"Mother please I am not going to argue with you. I know I need to let one of them go."

"Good I am glad you understand that now hurry up and do it. They will not keep waiting for ever you know. What would your father say if he saw you right now?" Gretchen said following her daughter to the library.

"Mother! Please stop." Kathryn said forcefully fluffing up the pillows

"Kathryn, be gentle those pillows are my favorite."

An hour of arguing went by and both women where getting no where with each other so Kathryn asked Phoebe to look after the kids while she took a walk.

Kathryn had walked to the far end of her family's property when she decided that she should go back and apologies to her mother; after all she was only trying to help.

"Mother I am sorry I didn't mean to yell at you." Kathryn said as she walked in to the library and saw her mother reading a book.

"It is all right Kathryn I know you didn't mean it. Why don't you go relax in the tub and then read a book. It always helps me calm down." Gretchen said as she looked back down at her book.

Kathryn did just that a nice bubble bath helped and then Kathryn sat in her room listening to some Tchaikovsky and reading a good book. Almost half way into the book the music stopped playing and changed to Mozart Requiem for a Dream.

"Computer stop music and go back to Tchaikovsky." Kathryn said without looking up from the book.

"Unable to comply." Responded the computer

Kathryn put the book down and said "Computer explain."

The computer didn't respond.

"Kathryn relax it's just me" Chakotay said appearing behind her on the lounging chair, massaging her shoulders.

"It's two am already?" Kathryn said

"It is." Chakotay responded

Chakotay started to rub down her arms and slowly around to her stomach. Kathryn put her hands on top of his and stopped him from moving.

"Chakotay we need to talk." Kathryn said as she got up from the lounging chair and sat down on the bed across from the chair.

"I am made up my mind Chakotay. It is very hard for me to make this decision but it is the right one." Kathryn said looking at her hands

"Okay, first before you tell me your decision I must let you know I am no longer a Q, I gave up my powers just before being dropped off here by Q. I am all human now." Chakotay said as he got up and sat down beside Kathryn.

Kathryn looked at him, his eyes twinkled with the moonlight and a hint of tears, his skin had a beautiful tan to it and he looked stronger then he use to be.

"I decided that I need and should be with----"