Disclaimer: The title is named after a song called What's The Use by Tyler Hilton (written for Chad & Sophia when they separated), and the chapter title and lyrics are a song called Money Honey by State Of Shock.
Summary: She forgave him once. But what's the use of forgiving him again if she's not the only one hurting this time? Brucas. Future.
Ok so there are two people I want to thank for helping me with this chapter- the lovely Shannon, Angie and Brianna. Shannon wrote some of this during study and changed the whole story around- but what can I say I heart my little Shanunu Monkey. Brianna help with the editing. She's good at all that stuff unlike me. Angie helped me get through so tough times and now she needed me and I was there. So this is to my girly. I have to say I love those Rano sisters :
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What's The Use?
Chapter Three: Far From Where We Started
"Brooke?"
"What?" Brooke said resting the phone on her shoulder and picking up a sick Allie into her arms. She was tired as hell. Allie being up all night with a cold didn't help too much.
"Hello to you too Brooke." Nathan laughed.
"Nate it's three in the morning. I've been up all night so far with Shannon running to the bathroom and Allie screaming. What in the world do you want?"
"Come get your husband Brooke. He's drunk off his ass."
"Almost ex-husband Nathan." Brooke corrected him. "And I can't come and get him."
"B, Haley's going to kill you and me if he wakes Bryn and Tory."
"If the girls are feeling better tomorrow I'll take them. If not then give them to Luke."
"Haley says she doesn't want to leave her kids with a drunkie." Nate said repeating his wife's words. As Brooke heard Shannon yell for her.
"Nathan I have to go. Shannon's screaming for me and I just got Allie back to sleep." Brooke laughed hanging up the phone.
"Mommy?" Shannon cried from the top of the stairs.
"It's ok Shanny." Brooke said placing a sleeping Allie on to the couch and walking up the stairs making sure not to step on the one the squeaks. "Come here princess."
"My tummy hurts." The tiny four-year-old said. Shannon was small for her age but the doctors say she's a perfectly fine little girl for being two months early.
"I know babe, but there's nothing I can do. Just rest your eyes and try to get some sleep." Brooke said rubbing her daughters' back.
"Momma!" Allie screamed waking up.
"Hold on Al." Brooke said placing a sleeping Shannon on her bed before running down to the couch where she had placed Allie. "I'm here pretty girl."
"Momma." Allie cried pulling at her ear like she always did when she was sick for reasons neither Brooke nor Lucas knew.
"I'm here. Shh. Baby girl calm down." Brooke said with a yawn. "Come on let's go lay in Mommy's bed."
"Mommy wakie wakie eggs and bakie!" Landon yelled running into Brooke's room early the next morning.
"Landy no yell." Shannon said climbing under the covers.
"But it eight."
"Already Baby boy?"
"Mommy I'm no baby!" Pouted Landon. He would always be her baby boy.
"I know bud." Brooke smiled. "Come lay down for a little bit Landon."
"No. Me not tired."
"Please Bud?"
"But mommy." Pouted the six-year-old.
"No pouting Landon. Girls you two can stay here and sleep ok?" Brooke said kissing each girls forehead before grabbing Landon and walking out of the room.
"Uncle Nathan called when you where sleeping mommy." Landon told Brooke.
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"Lucas get your lazy ass up!" Haley yelled walking into the guest room that Lucas was sleeping in.
"Hales."
"No get up Luke. This is not you getting drunk and then showing up here at three in the morning. What the hell happened to the Luke everyone liked?"
"Hales not everyone likes me right now."
"Well get over it Luke. You did it to yourself. You going behind Brooke's back hurt your kids too."
"I know you don't have to yell about it too. Ok? My mom, you, Nate and everyone else is yelling at me. I'm tired of it. I made a mistake that ruined my whole world, is that not enough for everyone?"
"Mommy?" Bryn said. "Uncle Luke!"
"Hey Bryn." Lucas smiled at his niece.
"Bryn what's wrong?" Haley asked.
"Daddy and Jamie are trying to cook." Bryn giggled.
"Shoot." Haley whispered. Nathan was never ever a good cook; the most he could cook is probably toast- with almost burning it. Jamie on the other hand was just a dangerous seven-year-old who likes to get his hands on anything that could get him in trouble. "Bryn where's Tory?"
"She's laughing at them. There's flower all over." Bryn smiled again.
"Oh god. Come on Brynny lets go yell at them." Haley said grabbing the four-year-old, youngest out of the set of twin girls.
"But I stay with Uncle Luke."
"Uncle Luke will meet us upstairs soon." Haley said looking at Lucas who was still sitting up in the bed.
"Thanks Hales."
"Don't make this a nightly thing Luke."
"I won't." Lucas said sitting up.
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"Mommy!" Shannon cried from the top of the stairs, the same spot she did form last night.
"Come down here Shan."
"I want daddy." The girl cried.
"Babe you know daddy can't come." Brooke said pulling the girl into her arms.
"Daddy said we could call him." Shannon said in between tears that where staining on her rosy red cheeks.
"Shannon."
"Mommy please I want my daddy."
"Ok go call him." Brooke said giving up running up the stairs to get Allie.
"Momma?" Allie smiled her goofy dimpled smile that melted Brooke's heart.
"Morning Pretty Girl."
"Daddy's coming! Daddy's coming!" Shannon and Landon screaming running into Brooke's bedroom.
"Dada!" Allie cheered.
"Guys go get dress. So when daddy comes you all look nice."
"Mommy my stomach still hurts." Shannon cried climbing on to her moms lap.
"Shh, I know Shan but there's nothing I can do. Just rest today ok? We'll have a pajama day. How about that?"
"Yes." Shannon smiled.
"Ok." Brooke smiled kissing the top of Shannon's head. She hated it when one of her kids was sick.
"Daddy!" Landon said as soon as the front door opened to Lucas standing on the other side.
"Hi buddy." Lucas laughed messing up Landon's raven brown hair.
"Dada!" Allie said wobbling over to Lucas with a huge grin on her cute cubby face.
"Hey my baby girl." Lucas smiled lifting the little girl into his arms. "You feeling better?"
"Dada." Allie said leaving a sloppy wet kiss on Lucas' forehead.
"I'll take that as a yes." Lucas laughed. "Where's your mommy?" Lucas asked as Allie pointed upstairs. "Let's go find Mommy and Shanny."
"Mommy?" Landon asked knocking on his mother's door.
"Come in Landy." Brooke said calling him by a nickname Shannon gave him when she was two because she couldn't pronounce Landon.
"Daddy's here." Landon shouted.
"Landon shhh. Shannon sleeping."
"Sorry."
"Brooke?"
"What Luke?"
"How's Shannon?" Lucas wonder. At least she's talking to him. That's a step up from last week.
"Allie and Landon watch some cartoons ok?" Brooke said walking out of the room so her little ones wouldn't hear her and Lucas screaming at each other.
"Ok mommy. Allie we watch power rangers!" Landon cheered going to channel eleven.
"Otay." Allie said sitting down right next to Landon after he helped her onto the bed like a good older brother.
"Luke I was up all night taking care of two sick kids and you where out drinking away the pain you caused to yourself."
"Brooke."
"No Luke. I'm sick and tired of all of this crap."
"Brooke."
"Leave again. This time don't come back." Brooke yelled with tears in her hazel-greenish eyes.
"Brooke come on just give me one more chance. That's all I need."
"I gave you one before and that did nothing. Now get the hell out of my house!"
"Daddy?" Shannon said walking out of Brooke's room.
"Shan go watch television with Landon and Allie for me." Brooke told her oldest daughter.
"Daddy I don't feel good." Shannon said just ignoring Brooke.
"Shanny, princess listen to your mom." Lucas said watching the girl stare right back at him.
"Daddy stay with me. You always do when I'm not feeling good."
"Princess I can't today."
"But." Shannon began to cry. "Daddy."
"Shannon Natalie Scott!" Brooke yelled, "Get into that room now."
"No!"
"Shannon I'm not going to tell you again."
"No." Shannon yelled stomping her foot on the top stair.
"That's it Shannon. Get your butt in your room now!" Brooke said running up the stairs straight to the four-year-old. "Get into that room!" Brooke yelled one more time picking up the girl and carrying her into her pink bedroom. "Shannon stay in this room until I come get you, got it?"
"Mommy?" Shannon cried. Brooke hated being like this but, she was angry with her almost ex-husband and Shannon was just making it worse.
"Yeah Princess?" Brooke said turning around halfway out of the door.
"I sorry."
"I know babe, but you need to listen to me, ok? Daddy and Mommy are going through a bad time right now, that's all."
"Ok." Shannon said sitting on her bed hugging her purple monkey she had since she was born.
"Brooke that was mean. She's four!" Lucas yelled.
"I know she's four Luke, but she needs to start listening to me once in a while." Brooke said. She was sick and tired of all the fighting going on in her life.
"I messed up and I know that Brooke. I'm not that stupid but I want you to forgive me. I just want things to go back to normal."
"What kind of normal? The kind that I was too dumb to notice my husband sleeping around with my best friend?"
"Brooke. You're not dumb."
"I want you out. I want you out of my life. Away from me, Landon, Shannon, Allie and the new baby." Brooke screamed not realizing what she said until she finished the sentence.
As I'm staring through this fire,
its to late to make you mine,
so far from where we started so far from what we wanted
and as both our worlds fall down,
we get lost and we get found
so far from where we started so far from what we wanted.
I've made mistakes that I cant erase, I've made mistakes.