Disclaimer: The title is named after a song called What's The Use by Tyler Hilton (written for Chad & Sophia when they separated), and the chapter title and lyrics are a song called Glycerine by Bush
Summary: She forgave him once. But what's the use of forgiving him again if she's not the only one hurting this time? Brucas. Future.
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Ok so there are some people I have to thank for this chapter (besides all you lovely reviewers). We the first one is two people- The Rano Sisters. I have to thank Brie and Shannon for all their help with whole chapter and story, Ash-face and Anthony because they are the ones that tell me to shut up and write. Also Manda (moonman) for review every single one of my stories, which make me smile every time.
What's The Use?
Chapter Four: Glycerine
"I messed up and I know that Brooke. I'm not that stupid but I want you to forgive me. I just want things to go back to normal."
"What kind of normal? The kind that I was too dumb to notice my husband sleeping around with my best friend?"
"Brooke. You're not dumb."
"I want you out. I want you out of my life. Away from me, Landon, Shannon, Allie and the new baby." Brooke screamed not realizing what she said until she finished the sentence.
"What?" Lucas said.
"Shit. You weren't supposed to know that."
"How would I not Brooke?" Lucas yelled. "You're pregnant again and didn't tell me?"
"I thought you didn't need to know. For the loving God Luke, you cheated on my not once with my so-called best friend but twice or probably more knowing you two, with out me knowing. I did what I felt was the best thing to do."
"Maybe tell me! Did you ever think you would?"
"No cause as far as I know you and Peyton were going to run off and you wouldn't take care of the three you have now so why tell you about another one?" Brooke cried out.
"I would have Brooke. Don't you see me here now? I drove here as fast as I could when Landon and Shannon called me. I would do anything for my kids and you know that damn well."
"Then why haven't you done anything for me Luke? I need things too. I needed my husband there for a lot of things and where were you? Fucking Peyton.
"Brooke please don't bring her up in this."
"Why? You and her are the ones that ruined everything for us Luke. You made a choice of either her or me and you chose her. Now live with it."
"I never chose her Brooke. You made me."
"How I never told you to skip Landon's soccer game to go fuck her?"
"Brooke."
"No Luke. It hurt so bad to tell those three great kids that their dad did something really idiotic and wont live here anymore." Brooke cried.
"Mommy?"
"What's wrong Landon?" Brooke asked looking down at her son.
"Shanny falls."
"Crap." Brooke yelled walking right pass her son and made her way out side. "Shannon what happened?"
"I climb tree like Landy." Shannon cried.
"And you fell off and hurt your arm?" Brooke asked smiling, knowing at least she was going to be perfectly fine.
"It bleeding mommy. I need Dora." Shannon said hugging her mom as tight as she could. Dora is her favorite thing to put on when she got hurt- her favorite Dora the Explorer Band-aids.
"Shan it's not bleeding." Brooke laughed. "I don't think you need Dora."
"I want Dora!" pouted Shannon as Lucas came walking outside with Landon. "Daddy get me a Dora!"
"Shannon if mommy says you don't need a Dora then I don't think you need one." Lucas smiled at his little drama queen.
"But I need Dora." Shannon cried.
"Come on Shan. Let's go put Dora on the TV." Lucas said.
"Dada?" Allie said.
"Al how in the world did you get down those stairs?" Lucas asked.
"Walkie."
"You walked all the way down?" Lucas asked getting a nod in response. "Allie you could have fell."
"Big girl!"
"Oh my baby girl is growing up." Lucas smiled blowing butterfly kisses on Allie's tiny stomach.
Brooke just rolled her eyes at the site. As soon as Brooke kicked Lucas out of the house, he's been wanting to hanging out more with the 'family'. Something Brooke didn't like too much.
"I think it's time for daddy to leave butter cup." Brooke said.
"But mommy."
"No buts Shan. Go wash your hands and I'll cook some mac 'n' cheese for lunch."
"I don't want mac 'n' cheese mommy." Shannon pouted.
"Go Shan." Lucas said. He did miss his kids like crazy. Not being able to wake up in the middle of the night just to make sure they are all right or not being woken up really early on the weekends by them jumping on the bed- that he once shared with Brooke- hurt him a lot. Mostly cause now he knows he probably will never be able to be back as a family with his beautiful wife and three perfect kids.
"You're mean mommy." Shannon pouted walking into the bathroom.
"How she get down here?" Brooke asked noticing Allie who fell back to sleep in Lucas' arms.
"She climbed out of her crib and down the stairs." Lucas laughed. "She's some ambitious kid."
"That's a good thing." Brooke said with a small smile on her face as she took Allie from Lucas. "Come on Baby Girl I think it's time for you to get some sleep." Brooke smiled walking up the stairs, not before kissing Allie's messy hair.
"Brooke can we finish talking?" Lucas asked when she walked back down the stairs.
"What is there to talk about? You and your whore should just go run off together and make my life, right now, so much better."
"Brooke please." Lucas begged. "I would do anything to have everything back to normal. Anything."
"There's nothing you can do so just sign the damn papers Luke and move on." Brooke yelled. It's been two weeks since she gave him the papers and still he hasn't signed them.
"I don't want us over Brooke."
"There was no more us when it happened for the first time Lucas, get that threw your mind you did all this."
"Brooke!"
"Get the hell out of my life for good Luke." Brooke said with tears staining her cheeks as she watched her soon-to-be-ex-husband walk out of the front door slamming the door after him.
Couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste
don't let the days go by
could have been easier on you
I couldn't change though I wanted to
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
glycerine
don't let the days go by
glycerine