A/N: Sorry if it's kinda late for one day. Just too busy reviewing for the exams. :D This is the next chapter. Enjoy!!!

Chapter 13

Flame Trying to be Snow

Sasori awakened from his reverie, his eyes couldn't meet Deidara's. "So…you were the one who will kill me." he said coldly.

Deidara clenched his fist, "Yes, I shall kill you, un. But..." he lowered his head in humiliation. "I don't think I have the courage to do it, because something is pulling me back. And I feel so weak and afraid to do my task."

"What do you mean?" Sasori's heart was squeezed within sharp thorns.

"The love we have shared, Sasori-danna. It is the force that stops me. Actually, I could really kill you now, but I can't."

Sasori walked to Deidara and gently slithered his wooden fingertips over his metal face. While doing so, he passionately laid his lips flatly over Deidara's. "D-deidara…" he whispered as he tip-toed, aiming to kiss Deidara's temples. "I love you, and I always will, Deidara."

Instead of liking his danna's actions, Deidara wasn't showing any feeling or desire. He turned his face sideward to avoid the kisses, and moved a little bit farther to avoid the caresses. What was he doing? He felt so helpless and insane.

"Brat? Is there something wrong?"

"Danna, don't you understand?!" Deidara was nearly bursting into tears so he closed his eyes firmly to avoid the falling tears, tears of acid.

"Deidara, I don't exactly know what you're—"

"Sorry but…" he bit his lip. "I couldn't love you anymore. We just—need to stop this love, un!" His tears weren't controlled. It trickled down his cheeks.

"Deidara?" Sasori's body was numb. He knew that making some more moves could hurt the crying blonde, so he just attempted to comfort him by means of words. "Do not cry, Dei Dei. I am here."

The redhead wanted to sweep his lover in his arms and embrace him tightly—the tightest one that could never separate them forever. "It's okay, Deidara."

The blonde stopped his whimpers. "I am so stupid, don't you think, Sasori-danna? Where have you seen a man crying, un?"

"Deidara, I am so sorry—"

"You don't have to apologize, Danna." Deidara forced a smile as the wind blew the golden strands of his hair, covering almost half of his face. "Please understand me. We need to stop this love because… It is… I don't know! It is forbidden, un!"

"How could I stop loving you, Deidara? Tell me!" his hands grasped Deidara's shoulders while his eyes were wide open that the pupils were getting smaller.

Deidara pushed his danna away, "Please stop, Sasori-danna. Do you want to know why we should stop and forget, un?"

"Tell me."

"I will die if I continue this thing. And, if you try to come closer to me, I will kill you even if it's against my will." he bit his lip. "I do not want those to happen, un. You know Danna… I really wanted to…" a drip of greenish acid came from Deidara's mouth so he wiped it off hurriedly. His eyes then met Sasori's and stared at it passionately. "I really wanted to embrace you right now, but whenever I remember your smiles, your expressions, your voice, I feel that I do not want to leave you, un."

The puppet master lessened the force he exerted, "Deidara…"

Deidara's lips made a little curving that seemed to be a smile. "I love you Danna, more than you know. That's the reason why I'm doing this, un."

Sasori, heartbroken, let go of Deidara's shoulder. Sorry, Deidara. I do not think I can live without you. But I could endure the pain, just for you to live… and then he smiled.

A smile to hide my sadness,

A smile that might heal a bleeding heart.

I will then love you from afar,

I will then secretly care for the one I love.

The two men went home without saying any word to each other since they left the woods. When they arrived, yellow flowers and white cloth welcomed them in the entrance. As they walked further, they realized they were stepping on a red carpet, sprinkled with soft rose petals.

"What's these all about, un?" Deidara saw men coming from the dark part. They were Pain, Konan, Kenshin, and one of his servants.

"Deidara, get ready for your wedding." Pain ordered.

The blonde was confused, "A wedding, un?"

"You will marry Kenshin." Deidara looked at the man standing beside Pain and said "Yes" immediately, with no hesitation.

Sasori couldn't help it, making him pull Deidara to the dark parrt where no one could see them. He then began to talk in the softest way he can. "What are you doing, Deidara? I told you I will leave you alone, but do not do this to me!"

"Sasori-danna," the blonde held Sasori's neck, drawing his lips to the surprised redhead's and placed the deepest, and the sweetest kiss he could make. "Just to make sure, danna. You don't have to follow me wherever I go, okay un?" this time, Deidara made a fake smile. Somehow, Sasori noticed it.

"Okay, I will get ready for the wedding later, un." When Deidara passed beside their leader, Pain warned, "Be careful with your actions, Deidara. He doesn't know you are a guy."

In the wedding…

In the middle of the ceremony, everyone was silent. Sasori tolerated the pain, his mind overflowing with different thoughts and his heart being squeezed within sharp thorns. When they were about to kiss, he stood up from his chair and walked out the serene room.

Deidara only had a glimpse at his lover's back. Then Kenshin held his cheeks and placed his cold lips against his.

"Why should he marry that man?!" Sasori kept asking himself as he stood at a cliff, a few meters away from the hideout. He couldn't figure out how he should release the shadows in his body, so he punched a tree beside him.

I don't think I can stop loving him, nor forget about him.

I thought you wanted him to live? Then you should accept the consequences. Bear with the pain and think of him as a different person; not the Deidara you had loved before.

I can't.

Why?

Because… I do not want to feel that pain—the pain that made me miserable for years, the pain that turned my heart as solid as a rock. I do not want to feel that pain again when my parents left me alone in this cruel world. he looked at the sky, his face looked calmer.

But Deidara saved me from that darkness. He taught me how to love and how to care. In fact, he changed my life.

You wouldn't mind if he kills you?

No. Not at all. At least I will die with a contented heart—contented in loving him.

Meanwhile, the wedding was done. Deidara didn't seek for Sasori since he promised himself to forget everything in the past. Kenshin went out to breathe the fresh air, end eventually saw Sasori.

"Walked out?"

Bitch. "Definitely."

"Any wishes for the new married couple?"

YOU rot in hell. Deidara is mine. he thought. Instead, he said, "Best wishes for both of you." with a fake beam.

"So… what are you doing here all alone?"

"I just want to ask… Can I work in your house? Any job will be fine."

"What made you ask that?"

"Well, I am uncomfortable without my friend Deidara. We were very close to each other and—you know—I can't live a day without him."

"Okay then. If that's what you want. You will be her bodyguard."

Sasori smiled secretly and this time was a real one.

A/N: Hope you liked it. Advance merry Christmas to all of you! Stay happy :)