"What are you talking about Jacob, you are not that person, now take me back to Edward and I won't tell him" I demanded
"You should know me better than that by now Bella. I don't give up, if I want something I'll never give up till I get it" I felt as if I was in the room with someone else, Jacob would never do this, would he? I looked around Jacobs now destroyed bedroom and wondered if this would be the only room I would be in for the rest of my life. Jacob came around from my side and knelt down in front of me. I turned my head away from him; I couldn't stand to look at him right now knowing that he was not my Jacob.
"Bella, please just understand why I must do this, it's the only way we can be together" I kept my eyes away from him and said
"Jacob please try to understand that even if we were together, we wouldn't be. I am married to Edward; we are husband and wife, a married couple. I thought you were better than this Jacob, you're not my Jacob anymore"
Jacob turned my face toward him and looked into my eyes I tried to look past them but they were to close, I tried to struggle free but his hold was too strong.
"Bella please, please just don't take this the wrong way, it will be just like it used to be, remember the summer we spent together, just like that" he said trying to soften me up.
With that remark he left the room.
"Just for now Bella, can you please just stay in here, I'll come and tidy it up soon, I just have something to do"
I noticed the newly installed door locks; obviously Jacob had put a lot of thought into this. As soon as the door was locked I got up and headed for the window. I tried to open it with all my strength, till I noticed that it was bolted down from the outside. Even though I knew I wouldn't be able to open it I kept pushing using all the force I could, I suppose it was just a good way to let out all the anger building up inside of me. I finally gave up and just let myself slide down the wall and fall to the ground. My head rested against the window sill now and I could feel myself forcing pressure to it. The anger still built up inside of me.
Time passed more and more, until it began to get dark, the only light I had was that coming fro the moon that was in perfect view from Jacobs window. I still hadn't moved from my slouched position up against the wall. I didn't want any of the pleasures Jacob offered me life a warm bed and a lamp that stood in the corner. I instead I picked up the lamp and tossed it across the room, hoping to release some of the still building anger. The shade came off and the bulb shattered into tiny pieces. As usual anything forceful that I tried to do ended up coming back to me and one of most of the pieces came flying back and hit the arm that I used as a guard. Little streams of blood ran down my arms and dripped off my elbow to the ground.
At that moment Jacob came through the door, he saw the blood and rushed to my side instantly.
"Bella what happened? Are you ok? Why is there glass everywhere?" I saw his eyes glance up to the window and I knew what he was thinking.
"Nothing, I'm fine and no I didn't try to smash the window"
"Here let me help you" I threw a sharp look in his direction and shouted
"NO!" it continued to flow out "I don't need your help, GO AWAY!"
He ignored my words and scooped me up in his arms; he carried me over to the bed I was supposed to use earlier and lied me down. I shot back up and curled my arms around my knees.
"Bella let me see your arm, it could be really hurt" I wasn't even thinking about the pain, all I was thinking about was not letting Jacob attend to me. Jacob pulled my arm away from my knees gently and started inspecting it.
"It's ok Bella, I don't think the glass is too deep into the skin, although I would be able to see it better if there was light, where's the lamp?" I looked to the now dented wooden wall and below it was the bashed lamp.
"Oh" Jacob said sounding annoyed "Bella why did you through the lamp?"
I said nothing until I felt him grow in closer as if he was going to ask the question again.
"Bella why……"
"Because I was angry ok, you have me locked din a room, with the windows bolted; of course I'm going to throw something, I only wish it was you I was throwing it at" I could here his soft chuckle under his breathe again "Don't laugh at me Jacob, don't you dare, nothing about this is funny"
Jacob shook his head and straightened up again "Your right I'm sorry, this isn't anything to laugh about, it's just that everything violent you do always reflects on you. Like do you remember the time you tried to hit me and it ended up with you having a broken hand and me injury free"
I pulled my arm away from him and felt a sharp pain pulse up it. I gave out a yelp and Jacob asked "Bella, give me your arm back, I need to wrap it up or something" I kept my arm in by my side. I saw Jacob ripping up a sheet to turn into a bandage. He pulled up my arm again without my permission and began picking out the pieces of glass that he could, then started wrapping the torn sheet around my arm. Once he was finished, he said
"There Bella, was that so hard" I hated being talked to like a child.
"I think you should get some sleep now Bella. I know that all of your exhaustion was caused by me, but please just try"
I began to feel him forcing me down to rest so I insisted on doing it myself. Once I was lied down I turned to my side to not make any contact with Jacob. Almost to shun him out.
I could feel his face coming closer to mine, and then his warm breathe drifted around me. Then his lips touched my cheek, and lingered there for a while. His cheek hovered over mine and then I felt him coming closer to the front of my face. My eyes were wide open as I saw his looking straight at me. He came in closer until our faces were no more than half an inch apart from each other. He came a centimetre closer and I felt myself push him away. He fell to the floor, then hopped back up and said
"I'm sorry Bella, goodnight, love…" and then the door was shut so quickly that is banged. I lied in silence.