Author's Note: Due to some very helpful and insightful reviews, I have decided to approach this chapter as a re-telling of the last chapter through Renesmee's eyes in hopes of clarifying some things. I'm sorry this chapter isn't as long as I wanted it to be. But I am on an extended vacation so I will have time to update at least once more this weekend, maybe twice. So keep the reviews coming! I take all requests, opinions, comments, and questions into thoughtful consideration. To all my reviewers, you all have notes with personal messages in them at the end of the chapter. And Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!

Disclaimer: Twilight is the creation and property of Stephenie Meyer. This fanfiction is nothing more than an homage to her series of books, which most of us wish never had to end. Any references to plot devices/characters/etc. used in Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, or the draft of Midnight Sun belong exclusively to Stephenie Meyer. This is a fan-created story. I don't own Natalie Imbruglia's lyrics at the beginning of this chapter.

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Well, you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care
What your heart is for
I don't know him anymore…

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn…

-Natalie Imbruglia

Renesmee felt the shock of Ed's lips on her own. Warmth and euphoria washed over her. So this is what it felt like. This wonderful, heart-pounding sensation. She had wondered for so long. She had waited for Jacob to make her feel like this. Then she froze. This was wrong. Why was this wrong? Renesmee perused her own thoughts, frantically. Why should she feel so guilty all of a sudden? What had she done? And then she felt him near. Instinctively, she pushed away from Ed and turned towards Jacob.

His chest was heaving, eyes wild, hair blowing in his face, not disguising the betrayal written there.

"Jacob?" she called. Her voice sounded very far away. "Jacob, are you okay?" she asked, needlessly. The pain radiating from his quivering body was undeniable. She walked towards him, her steps cautious, "Jacob?" She reached a hand out, carefully, to touch him. He jerked away, gruffly, snapping his teeth once at her. Renesmee flinched but didn't move.

Ed was suddenly at her side. "Hey, Jacob. I'm Ed. I, uh, met Nessie at school." His arm snuck around her shoulders. Ed sounded far away, too.

Jacob's face had grown darker, scarier and he exploded then, "Don't you call her that! Don't you dare call her that!" Renesmee's heart was racing again, this time with worry. She had seen Jacob angry before.

Behind her, a startled Ed tried to apologize, "I'm sorry…I didn't…"

"You have no right to call her that! You have no right to be here!"

Renesmee wondered how long it would be before Jacob took wolf form. Already, she saw his body shaking, the rage enough to overpower his human sensibilities.

"But…"

Jacob growled, revealing a row of gleaming white teeth…a wolf's teeth.

"Jacob!" Renesmee felt the fear growing inside of her. It took so much to calm Jacob down when he got like this.

"Get your filthy fingers off of her or I swear to God, I'll take them off for you!"

"Jacob, stop! Stop it!" Renesmee cried, stepping between them. She pounded her fists against his chest, futilely. "What are you doing?"

She felt his body slow beneath her hands. If she had a chance to stop him, it would be now.

"Jacob, don't," she begged.

Jacob looked at her, wounded. For a moment, she thought she might have convinced him. Then the tremors rocked his being once more. "I'd leave if I were you," he said, straining himself to look around Renesmee at Ed.

There was silence behind her and then, "I'm not going anywhere. Not unless Renesmee wants me to." In spite of herself, Renesmee shivered with admiration for Ed and his misplaced, foolish bravery.

"Ed," Renesmee turned enough to make eye contact, her hands still pushing against Jacob.

"Do you want me to go? Because I will, if you do."

"I…" She was lost for a moment. Did she want him to go?

Jacob cut into her uncertainty, sealing the fate of the evening as he said, "You have exactly ten seconds to get off this beach before I rip your puny little head off! I'll shred you! I'll tear your heart out!"

It took all of Renesmee's strength to hold Jacob back. His eyes were large, black, hateful. She felt then as if she had lost not one, but both, of them. Tears pricked the corners of her eyes, "Go, Ed…please…"

"Nessie, are you sure you're okay?" Even in the darkness, Renesmee could see how worried he was.

"Just go…please go…" she begged.

Ed looked hurt but nodded and turned to walk back to the house.

"You better hope you can run faster than that!" Jacob burst out, unable to contain himself. "Because I sure can!" His roaring voice was in her ear and Renesmee winced in pain. And then, quite simply, it was too much. Anger overcame her and with a ferocious, humiliated cry, she ran at Jacob with all her of might, slamming into him. "I may only be half-vampire," she said, choking back the tears and ache in her throat. "But I will kill you! I swear, I will!

She watched Jacob's fury dissolve into confusion and then regret. "Nessie..." he stared at her, as one does waking up from a dream. "Nessie, I…"

For a moment, Renesmee felt her resolve to punish him waver. He looked so lost. She had seen that expression before and had always rushed to erase it from his dark, chiseled features. She always saved him. Why was that? Did other people feel this way? This…this compelling, irresistible need to protect, to rescue…to forgive the short temper and the impatient, careless impulsiveness? And what right did he have to tell her what to do? He didn't want her but she couldn't have anyone else, was that it? She shook her head, fiercely, saying the first thing that came into her head, "I hate you, Jacob Black! I hate you and I never want to see you again!"

"Nessie, I…I'm sorry…I…"

The hurt in his eyes should have been enough but she couldn't seem to stop herself, "I never thought it was true what they said. But I know now…they're right. You're a monster."

"Please," Jacob's voice cracked. "Please, Renesmee, I'm so sorry…I can't believe I…I…" He fell to his knees.

She was crying now, "That you what? That you're cruel? That you can't think about anyone but yourself? Is that it?" She wished she could pull the words back in but as they left her mouth, she realized they were true.

Jacob nodded, "That's it. I'm sorry, Nessie. Forgive me."

Renesmee looked down into his eyes, searching for something she wasn't sure she saw. "Goodbye, Jacob."

"Nessie, no, no!" he grew wild again. "Please! Please don't! I can't…can't…I need you!" Jacob's arms went around her waist and he buried his head against her. "Please don't leave me, Renesmee," he sobbed. "Please…" He looked up at her, crying freely now, "I love you. I love you, Renesmee."

Renesmee felt the breaking, tearing of something inside of her. The lump in her throat had grown so large she almost couldn't get the next words out, "You're nothing more than an animal, Jacob. And I can't love an animal."

Something like complete devastation registered on Jacob's face and Renesmee remembered an old saying her mother had about words – like toothpaste, you can never squeeze them back in...

Not waiting for him to say anything else, she turned and ran blindly. Thankful for her slightly inhuman speed, she tore across the sand and grass, cheeks burning with wind and tears. Disappointment, rage, embarrassment, hurt, fear, loss, humiliation – all twisting inside of her. She felt an enormous, empty sucking sensation where her heart had been moments before. Renesmee tried desperately to sort out the pieces, name them, place them in an order she could begin to understand. She felt muddled, disoriented, and for a moment, she struggled to remember where she was. A weight seemed to crush her suddenly. It was as if she was running against the wind, against some invisible force that rushed towards Jacob even as she ran from him. She pushed on, willing her tired muscles to carry her forward. She had almost reached the porch when her legs began to give out from beneath her.

Two strong arms reached down to sweep her up before she hit the ground. Her father pulled her up against his chest. "Oh, Daddy!" Renesmee buried her face in his neck and began to sob.

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That night Renesmee dreamt of the wolf pack again. This time, they chased her down the dark path. She felt their hot, moist breath on her ankles, felt the edge of their teeth as they snapped at her heels. The growling grew louder and louder until the wolves were surrounding her.

"Please!" Renesmee begged. "Don't be angry! Don't hurt me!"

The wolves bared long, sharp rows of teeth. The largest of the wolves changed its form. Suddenly it was Jacob crouched at her feet.

"Don't hurt me!" she said again.

"Why not, Nessie? I'm just an animal." He lunged at her.

Renesmee woke up screaming.

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Author's Note: Thoughts?

Notes:

xxxVampireKnightxxx: Thanks so much for reading. Don't go Jacob on me, I'll write more! Keep me posted on your thoughts.

Sabs7: Sorry for the short chapter last time. I felt like it needed to be a stand alone or I would have kept going. I liked Robert Pattinson as Edward but I thought the way the camera focused on him and then Bella back and forth, again and again, was kind of annoying. And I was wishing for just one more scene of exposition between him and Bella before the meadow. It felt like we got there too quickly. I loved it, though. Glad it's doing so well in the box office. Summit has announced production of New Moon. Thanks for reviewing!

Maddy: Yeah, I think it's important that characters develop and don't stay static so I wanted Renesmee to tell him the truth about the way he was acting. Glad you're reading – tell me what you think of this chapter. :) And I hope Meyer writes more. I miss her books.

Hplexmark: Thanks for all the awesome reviews! Glad you're enjoying the story so far. I'm Team Edward but I love Jacob and Nessie together. I think they're so sweet.

Hollibell: Hope you liked this chapter. More suspense…;)

You-Dazzle-Me-1901: I'm glad you feel everyone's in character. I hope it stays that way. Suggestions always welcome.

Jane Woods: I agree. Jacob is so much cooler in BD. I love him and Renesmee together. And I totally almost started crying writing this chapter. It's hard to hurt characters. And the movie…oh my goodness! I held my breath watching the kiss…both times.

Mrs. Jacob Black: I know! Now that the movie is out, I have to keep myself entertained until New Moon is released. Although, I'm sure I'll go back to watch Twilight a few more times before it's out of the theatres. I'm sorry the last chapter made you sad – I promise there's a pay-off in the end. ;)

tori schaap: What a compliment! Thanks for reading. I hope you like this new chapter. :)

aPPle-FrrEAk: Yeah, I felt bad for the characters and I was responsible! Sigh…tell me what you think of this new part. Thanks for your awesome reviews!

Polyphany: Thank you so much! What'd ya think of this one?

NessieandJake4ver: Can't tell you how much I appreciate your honest opinion. I struggled with Renesmee saying those things to Jacob. Based on your review and a couple others, I decided to write this chapter the way I did in hopes that it might explain things more thoroughly. I guess a great deal of this relies on the interpretation of imprinting. My personal reasoning for the last chapter was as follows: 1) All great love stories have conflict. No one cares about a couple that has it easy. As a married woman, I don't believe it's possible to have great love without great struggle. 2) Yes, Renesmee is drawn to Jacob (something we see in earlier chapters in this story). Consistently, he has been there with her throughout everything. She's taken him almost for granted. But Renesmee is not a werewolf and I don't think she experiences imprinting the same way Jacob does. But she's still equipped with free will. And she's still capable of seeing his faults. Anyway, thank you so much for your thoughtful review! It helped me think through the plot of this story in more depth. Please tell me how you think this new chapter was.

Shell: A lot of what I said in the note above applies to your review, as well. I value your opinions so much and I appreciate you taking the time to tell me what you really think. I personally think that Renesmee is already in love with Jacob. But like real-life people, we don't always realize things like that right away. I also think she feels rejected by Jacob (previous chapter). And I do think she has a choice. Of course, she feels the pull of imprinting, the commitment Jacob has to her must be intoxicating and almost irresistible. But characters without free will are boring. And I sure don't want anyone to be bored! I reiterate: Jacob and Renesmee are destined for one another. Will life pull them apart? I don't know, yet. Would love to hear how you feel about this new chapter. Thanks so much!

AliceCullen112: Thanks – that's a big compliment! I didn't like Jacob much, at first. He's growing on me now. What do you think of this chapter?

T.C. Meade: I def had some issues with the film but I went in knowing I probably would. I mean, Twilight is one of my favorite books in the whole world. How could anything possibly compare? I appreciate the movie for what it is…an adaptation. I thought most of the acting was really good but you're right, there were some problems. I wasn't sold on the cutting – seemed choppy to me. Your question about Jacob is entirely justified. And I think Jacob will mold to fit Renesmee's expectations/needs. He was surprised, caught off guard. And human Jacob is a pretty selfish person, in spite of it all. I like the idea that the wolf Jacob is fighting with human Jacob, the inner conflict is interesting. Let me know how you think this chapter went. And thanks for another great review!

Phee Cullen: I'm so glad you caught that! Not sure many people did. Renesmee DOESN'T know about imprinting, at all. That was a conscious choice. I felt like Edward and Bella wouldn't allow Jacob to tell her before she was an adult, that it might confuse or scare her. And I think that adds to the tension. I'm so happy writing Nessie. It's wonderful to hear you're enjoying it! Thanks for reviewing!

Hanner Nanners: Here's my update! Hope you liked this chapter. Lemme know. :) Thanks for the sweet review!

PrincessxofxthexAsylum: I promise a LOT more Emmett in the next chapter. Fair? Thanks for reading!