March 11, 2007
"Rise and shine, Nicky," Joe called to his brother who was still in his bunk. Nick was up, he just hadn't gotten up, or really even moved yet.
"I'm up," Nick finally said quietly. He didn't want to get up. He knew what today was, and he was more nervous than he'd ever been, about anything. How was everyone going to take it? How would they react? Would he get upset on stage? He was scared.
Kevin came by a couple of minutes later with a juice box and a granola bar for Nick. He knocked on the side of the bunk and waited until Nick pulled back the curtain.
"Yes?" Nick asked and Kevin handed him his breakfast. "Thanks, man."
"Everything will be fine," Kevin said and put a hand on Nick's shoulder, which was pretty high up since Nick was on the top bunk.
"I hope so. I just wish I wasn't freaking out like I am," Nick said, swinging his legs over the side of the bed and looking down at Kevin.
"You should call her," Kevin said and smiled at Nick. "She'll calm you down."
"I know," Nick said and took a bit of his granola bar. "I'll call her," he said as he chewed.
"After you finish eating," Kevin laughed and Nick smiled at him with granola and chocolate sticking out of his teeth. "Nice."
"I know!" Nick laughed at himself and finished eating his breakfast. He grabbed his phone and scrolled down to Miley's number. It rang a few times before she picked up.
"Hello?" she answered in a perky voice.
"Good morning, my love. Why are you so chipper?" Nick asked her, still a little tired.
"I'm just excited. We get a few days off from the tour to go out and, umm, you know, explore and stuff," she explained to him.
"Cool, cool," he said and didn't say anything else.
"You alright?" Miley asked. She knew what today was and she was nervous for him, but she knew that he could do it.
"Umm, I guess so. Just nervous," Nick told her and sighed.
"I know, but you'll be fine," Miley said in a sing song voice, mimicking the song she had sang for him awhile back. Nick laughed and cheered up a little more.
"I love it when you sing to me," Nick told her.
"I love you," Miley responded.
"Awww, you're so freaking cute, Miles," he said.
"I know," she laughed at herself. "Hey, get your computer up and try to get on the internet," she informed him.
"Alright. Probably since we are less than 2 hours from city I'll get something on this Sprint thingy," Nick said and plugged in his wireless Sprint card to his computer. It took a few moments for it to register, but it came up fairly quickly. "Okay, got it. What's up?"
"I'm going to get off the phone. I'll see you in a minute," Miley told him.
"K, sounds good," Nick said and they both hung up the phone. Nick brought up AIM and a few seconds after that, Miley signed on. She asked to see his webcam and he asked to see hers. Now they could see each other, and it was one of the only times they had been able to both have internet at the same time.
He waved eagerly to her and she waved back and motioned for him to turn up the volume. He did as he was told and he could see her turn up hers as well. He turned on his mic and heard her voice.
"Hey!" she said and Nick saw Kevin, Joe, Garbo, and Kevin Sr. all look back at Nick's bunk. Nick smiled at them and pulled his curtain shut.
"Hey! How are you?" Nick asked.
"I told you already that I'm good!" Miley said and laughed at him.
"What's going on?" Joe asked from the other side of the bus. "Where's Miley?"
"Dude, they are on their webcams. Gross," Kevin joked and the guys laughed.
"Shut up!" Nick yelled at them. "I'm sorry," he said to Miley.
"It's okay. I barely got time to myself either, so I understand," she told him.
"Where are you?"
"I'm in my mom's bedroom in the back. She's eating breakfast with everybody else."
"Cool. So what's up?"
"I can't just want to see my boyfriend?" she asked coyly. He smiled at her.
"Well I guess that's fine, but usually when you get us on the webcam, you have something important to tell me," he told her, and she knew he was right.
"I just wanted to check on you," she said and paused. "You are going to do great today, Nick."
"I know. I'll be fine," he said, trying to convince himself of what he was saying.
"I know you will. And I'm always right here for you," Miley said and looked over to the side of the bed and then back at Nick.
"I know that you are," he said slowly and sighed again.
"Which brings me to my next point," she said and pulled her guitar up on the bed and smiled at him.
"You wrote another song for me?" Nick asked, smiling.
"Well since you are the only thing I ever think about, I guess it's appropriate," she laughed and started to play.
"And what's this one called?" he asked her, raising an eyebrow.
"You can help me with that," she said and winked at him.
"So should I prepare myself for your confession of undying love for me?" he joked with her.
"Maybe in the next song," she joked back, "or this one," she laughed, "you'll just have to wait and see."
"Fine. So play this thing for me!" he laughed at her and she started to play louder and focus on the music. He loved watching her perform like this, just to him or her family, way more than watching her at a concert, but he took what he could get. Before she started to sing, Nick hit the record button on his video player; he had a feeling this was one he'd want to remember.
Nick was so focused on Miley that he had no idea that Kevin, Joe, and Garbo were all standing outside of Nick's bunk, listening to what Miley had to say. Kevin Sr. just laughed quietly at the boys.
"I'll be right here where you need me, anytime just keep believing, and I'll be right here. If you ever need a friend, someone to care and understand, I'll be right here. All you have to do is call my name, no matter how close or far away, ask me once and I'll come, I'll come running. And when I can't be with you dream me near; keep me in your heart and I'll appear; all you gotta do is turn around, close your eyes, look inside, I'm right here," Miley sang to him. Nick smiled at her the whole time, not once taking his eyes off of her. All of a sudden, he heard a soft array of applause. He had forgotten that his brothers were probably listening this whole time.
"Thank you," Nick said to Miley after she had finished. "You had a bigger audience than you thought," he said quickly and pulled the curtain back to expose Kevin, Joe, and Garbo all waiting anxiously to make fun of Nick. They shyly waved to Miley and when she waved back, they all took off in different directions to get away from the happy couple.
"You liked it?" she asked, even though she knew he did.
"Of course. I love when you write stuff for me," he told her. This was one of those times that he wanted to kiss her so badly that he almost kissed the laptop. "Miss you."
"Miss you, too," she said and gave him a wry smile. "You're going to be amazing today, Nick, don't you worry."
"Only if you promise," he said and held up his pinky.
"I promise, you are going to be fine," she replied and help hers up as well. It was their long distance pinky promise. Cheesy? Yes. Needed? Definitely.
"I need to get off of here and get ready, though. We've got to be ready to go when we get off the bus, for sound check and stuff," he told her, even though he wanted to talk to her all day.
"I understand," she said, not getting as upset as she usually did. Nick took it as that she was excited to be off for a few days, and to not make him anymore upset. "Will you call me if you need me?" she asked him.
"Of course. I'll definitely call you after and let you know how it went, though," he told her.
"Alright, sounds good!" she said cheerfully. "Love you," she said and blew him a kiss. He pretended to catch it and put it in his pocket.
"Love you more," he responded as he air kissed her.
"Not possible," she smiled at him and he smiled back.
"I'll call you," told and waved.
"You better," she replied and waved back.
They both closed their webcams and computers. Nick leaned back in his bunk and put his head on the wall and looked up. He turned his head to the side and looked at the picture of Miley and him and sighed. She really did love him. And she was always "right here," in theory at least.
He pushed the laptop to the side and got out of his bunk to see Joe and Garbo anxiously awaiting Nick's presence in the sitting area of the bus.
"Soooooooo?" Joe asked in a long, drawn out voice.
"What?" Nick asked as if he had no idea what was going on and went to get a bowl of cereal.
"What do you mean what?" Garbo asked.
"What do you want me to tell you? You listened to it all," Nick said as he poured his milk.
"No we weren't," Joe defended and Nick looked at him with knowing eyes. "Okay fine, so we heard a little," he said and pinched his fingers together.
"Whatever," Nick mumbled and sat down on the couch. They sat in silence for a few moments, all of them just watching TV until Kevin's phone went off from his bunk.
"Oooo, Kaila," Joe mocked and made kissy faced. Kevin rolled his eyes and walked off to get his phone.
"What the?" he quietly asked himself as he picked up the phone and saw the caller ID. "Hello?" he finally answered.
"Kevin, please don't let anyone know I'm calling you," she whispered, even though she didn't need to.
"Okay, umm, what's going on?" he asked quietly as well.
"I'm coming to the concert today," she said with a jittery voice. Kevin smiled to himself.
"How?" he asked.
"We have a few days off. I told Nick we were going to the beach and stuff. He has no idea," she told him.
"Don't worry, Miley. I won't say a thing!" Kevin whispered to the point where he was almost unable to hear his own voice over the roar of the bus engine.
"Great. I'll call you when we get closer. You'll have to let me in. I don't want all the paparazzi and whatnot following me here," she explained. They talked for a few more minutes about the plan and Kevin finally got off the phone and rejoined the group.
"Did you not even talk to her?" Joe asked.
"What?" Kevin asked him and sat in one of the chairs at the table.
"We were listening to see what you were saying," Joe explained.
"You, what? What did you hear?" Kevin asked nervously and they laughed at him.
"Nothing, man. You're quiet!" Garbo said and Kevin let his fears go. They hadn't heard him. This was going to be fun.
"I'm getting in the shower!" Joe told them. They all nodded, not really needing to know that, but okay with it anyway.
After a few moments, Garbo piped up again. "So Nick, you excited about today?"
"Excited wouldn't be the word I would use," Nick said, trying to be strong. He had to do it sooner or later.
"What would be?" Kevin asked him.
"Nauseous," Nick deadpanned. This was going to be the worst day since he had found out he had diabetes, he was sure of it.
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"We're almost there!" Miley squealed as she jumped up and down a little in her seat as she peered out the window of the bus. They could see the skyline of the city. They'd be there soon. All of a sudden, the bus halted to a stop and Miley looked around nervously. "What's going on?" she asked her mom.
"Miley, you can't just go parking tour buses behind buildings now," Tish laughed at her daughter. "We're getting a rental." Miley sighed in relief and grabbed her purse and makeup bag, along with her phone and followed her mom off of the bus. The rest of the gang got out as well and they all piled into a large SUV with tinted windows.
"Good thing you got ready earlier, huh?" Brandi asked her as Miley sat in the back seat with Noah and Braison doing her makeup.
"Uhh, yeah!" Miley said and pointed to her hair and then scanned her body all the way down to her sneakers. She was wearing a white "Music is Love" shirt and jeans with her black converse. Her hair was straight, which was a nice change every now and then from her normal curls.
After about half an hour of driving, they were finally in the city. It wasn't time for them to be there yet, so they made their driver go through the drive through at McDonald's so they could eat lunch. Miley wasn't really a Mickey D's kinda girl, but she got a salad.
When she was finished, she called Kevin to see where they were.
"Hello?" he answered.
"Hey, what's up?" Miley asked him enthusiastically.
"Umm, not much," he said nervously. Miley laughed at him.
"Is Nick like, right there?" she asked.
"Uhh, yeah?" Kevin said, almost as a question.
"Well walk away from him! I need to talk to you!" Miley demanded.
"I miss you too, Kaila," Kevin said uneasily.
"Oh, so you're going to pretend that I'm her?" Miley asked and Kevin pictured her with her arms crossed and foot tapping on the ground and halfway laughed at her.
"Yup," he said and laughed a little louder. Nick and Joe both turned around to look at him, and Kevin laughed even harder, knowing that they thought he was talking to Kaila.
"So where are you guys?" Miley asked when Kevin had calmed down.
"We're here. I'm getting ready to do Joe's hair," he told her and Joe looked at him.
"I can do my own hair!" Joe defended. "I just don't want to!"
"Whatever," Kevin said to Joe. "Anyway, where are you?"
"We are sitting in McDonald's parking lot. We needed to eat," she told him.
"Alright. We just did an interview and we go on in like, 30 minutes," Kevin told her.
"Oh my gosh! Okay, should I see him before or after?" Miley asked and Kevin looked nervously at his brothers who were still present.
"Either one," Kevin told her.
"But what do you think?" she asked. Kevin stepped out of the room for a moment.
"I think you should get here, but stay hidden so he doesn't see you before. Call him, and let him know you are thinking of him, but don't let him see you. He needs to do this on his own," Kevin told her and Miley understood. Nick could do this, he just didn't want to.
"Okay. And then I'll see him afterwards?" Miley asked.
"That would be the best," Kevin told her and walked back into the room. Joe was making kissy faces at him and Nick was laughing at Joe. It was good to see him in a good mood. Miley heard him.
"He's laughing," she sighed and Kevin rolled his eyes.
"If you're gonna get all mushy on me, I'm gonna have to go," he teased with her.
"It's alright, I gotta go anyway," she told him. She thanked him for all of his help and told him she'd text him to let her in when she got there. They got off the phone and Kevin started to do Joe's hair.
"So you and Kaila are getting pretty serious, huh?" Nick asked. Kevin shrugged, nervously and confidently. He knew that Nick had no idea that he had actually been talking to his girlfriend and not his own.
"I like her a lot," Kevin said in all honesty. "She doesn't demand anything out of me, which is nice since we're gone so much."
"Yeah. That's always good," Nick said, thinking about Miley.
"She's good for you," Kevin said, sensing his brother's sadness about missing his girlfriend.
"Yeah, I know, she's --" Nick started to say but then his phone rang. "Speak of the devil," he said before he answered the phone. "Hello?"
"Did he just call her a devil?" Joe asked Kevin as Kevin laughed.
"It's an expression," Kevin explained to it and Joe responded with a long drawn out "Ohhhhhhh."
Nick rolled his eyes at the two of them and walked out of the room.
"What's up?" he asked her, even though he knew she was just checking up on him.
"Just checking up on you," she said sweetly and he laughed.
"I'm glad you are so concerned," he said sarcastically.
"Hey! I just want you to know I'm here for you," she said and he smiled.
"I know. You wrote me a song, remember?" he asked her.
"Yeah, yeah, I know."
"By the way, that song has to be on the Miley CD, not that Hannah stuff."
"What's wrong with Hannah?" she asked, pretending to get huffy with him.
"Nothing. But Hannah didn't write it for me. Miley did," he explained.
"I guess. So you guys go on soon?" she asked him, even though she already knew.
"Yup, in about twenty minutes," Nick said and paused. "I'm scared."
"You have every right to be scared, Nick. But you don't need to be. You are going to be amazing and you know it. Deep down, you know you will," she told him.
"I wish you were here," he said softly and sighed.
"Just keep me in your heart and I'll appear," she said in a singing way. He chuckled at her.
"You always know what to say," he told her.
"I just say what I feel, Nick," Miley told him.
"I know you do. I miss you. I know I keep saying that, but I really do," Nick said.
"I miss you, too. You're usually not the sad one, though," she pointed out.
"I just really need you today," he said and sighed again.
"You need yourself. You are going to do just fine. I know I keep saying that, but it's true. You are the one of the strongest people I know. You can do this."
"I can do this," he repeated.
"There ya go!" Miley said enthusiastically. This was killing her, not being able to be there for him like he needed. But truthfully, he didn't need her. He wanted her, but he just needed courage.
"I can do this," Nick said again, a little more sure of himself.
"You're going to be great!" Miley told him and they both paused for a moment. "I love you, Nick," she said. He paused for a moment as well, taking in her words.
"I love you, too, Miley. Thank you," he said and knew they were getting to the end of their conversation. "I'll call you after the show."
"Okay. Tell the boys I said hi!" she said.
"I will. Love you."
"Love you more."
"Bye."
"Tootles!"
Nick hung up the phone and returned to their dressing room. Joe's hair was done and Kevin was washing his hands in the sink. Nick walked over to the mini fridge to get a Diet Coke and watched Joe jump up and down, getting pumped up for the show.
"Should you really have that?" Joe asked Nick and pointed to the soda.
"Get off it, Joe," Nick said, jokingly of course. "What a perfect way to start off a concert for diabetes, but to use my Omni-pod?"
"I guess," Joe shrugged and threw his body on the ground to do a set of pushups. Nick would do that right before they went onstage.
"Have you though about what you are going to say?" Kevin asked his little brother.
"Not really. I decided that I'd just get up there and talk. What's the worst that could happen?" Nick asked, suddenly regretting not having scripted out a speech. His regrets were interrupted, however, by a 7 year old Frankie bounding through the door. "Frankie!" Nick cried out as the young boy jumped into Nick's lap, nearly knocking the soda out of his hand. "Mom?" he asked as his mother walked through the door.
"You didn't honestly think I was just going to sit in Jersey while you were here, did you?" she asked as she kissed Kevin on the cheek and rolled her eyes at Joe. "This is a big moment for you."
"Tell me about it," he said and got up to hug her.
"Five minutes on deck. Ten 'til show time!" a stagehand yelled in their door. Nick looked around nervously at his brothers and they all gave him encouraging looks. Nick smiled back at all of them and hugged his mom again.
"I love you," she said and kissed his forehead.
"Love you, too, Mom," Nick said and followed his brothers down the hallway and stood behind the stage. Nick, Joe, and Kevin all started jumping around and stretching before they were handed their guitars.
"Hey, I umm, forgot my, umm, thing, in the room," Kevin said and dashed back down the hallway.
"That was weird," Joe commented, but Nick ignored him, trying to stay focused.
Down the hall, Kevin let Miley and Brandi in the back door and gave them each a quick hug before dashing down the hallway again, the two girls on his heels. They were stopped by a security guard, but when Kevin told him the girls were with him, he let them go.
"I'm back!" Kevin said and both of his brothers turned around to look at him.
"What'd you forget?" Joe asked after Nick turned back around, shaking out his nerves.
"That," Kevin said and pointed to Miley and Brandi, whose heads were barely visible from behind the wall.
"What?" Joe asked loudly before Kevin punched him. The girls laughed.
"Don't you dare say a word!" Kevin threatened and Joe quickly waved to them and turned back around.
"Everybody, please help me welcome, THE JONAS BROTHERS!" said the guy on stage and the crowd went crazy. They did a quick campfire with their band and their band ran out stage.
"You've got this," Joe said as softly as he could but still be heard as he put an arm around Nick's shoulders. Nick looked up at him and nodded with a smile. Joe could be an idiot sometimes, but he knew when to be there for his brothers.
"Let's do this!" yelled Kevin and one after the other, the Jonas brothers ran onto the stage.
After a few songs, Nick finally got up to speak. He started it off like any other 'in-between-songs-talk-to-the-fans' speech, but quickly turned to his story.
"So real quick, how many of you people, or kids, out there have diabetes; raise your hand. I see a couple of you guys out there. Let me see those hands, put 'em up," he said into the mic and let a few people raise their hands before raising his own. Miley watched him from offstage and began to tear up as he raised his hand. She didn't know it at the time, but she had helped him raise it.
Brandi put her arm around Miley as Nick started his story.
"A little over a year ago, we were on the road touring, on this school tour some of you might know," Nick said and the crowd screamed. He laughed. HE LAUGHED! He was going to be fine. "Some crazy stuff started happening. I started losing weight, I started, uhh, drinking a lot of water all the time, and just having a really bad attitude; it just wasn't me," he said. He continued to tell his story. "I found out I had diabetes; type 1."
Kevin and Joe shared a knowing look, about how much Nick changed in just those few weeks before they had all found out. They remembered the yelling and the fighting. They remembered their parents taking him to the doctor. They remembered finding out and being so scared for their little brother.
"I really had no idea what it was. The first thing I asked was 'am I going to die?' and the doctor said, 'no, you'll be fine, but you'll have to go to the hospital for a couple of days,'" Nick told the crowd. He talked about checking his blood sugar 12 times a day, taking the insulin shots, and finally getting his Omni-pod. "At the beginning, I was asking myself, 'why me?' And then I started asking myself, 'why not me?' I get to be here today telling all you guys that through all that, I still made it through, and here I am today, singing and having fun."
As Nick was wrapping up, Joe looked over to Miley and saw Brandi holding her up. Miley was sobbing with tear stains all down her face. He looked behind her and saw his mom, who also was crying. His dad's eyes were red. This was a big moment, not just for Nick, but for everyone around him. Joe saw all of those people crying and choked back a few sobs himself, of course unbeknownst to the fans. What none of them knew was that he had spent more than an hour in the bathroom crying for his little brother that morning before everyone was up, writing him a song.
They played "Time for Me to Fly" and "I Am What I Am" and thanked everyone for coming out to support Dlife and everyone who participated. Kevin ran off the stage first, Joe second and Nick last. They ran all the way to their dressing room, still pumped from the show and out of breath.
"Man! That was so awesome!" Nick yelled, jumping up and down a little.
"I couldn't have said it better myself," Kevin said as he placed both of his hands on Nick's shoulders to calm him down before walking over and getting a bottle of water.
"You did great, little man," Joe said and patted him on the shoulder and ruffled his hair.
"I'm very proud of you," Kevin Sr. told him and put an arm around him.
"I just can't believe that I really did it," Nick said with wide eyes and a huge grin on his face. "I really did it."
"You sure did," Denise said and kissed his head. The Jonas clan sat around for a few minutes, reliving the concert and Nick's speech.
"Miley!" Nick halfway yelled and pulled out his phone. "I have to call Miley and tell her!" he said and got up and walked to the other side of the room. He paced back and forth as he waited for her to pick up. Joe and Kevin passed a glance at each other and their mother smiled.
"Hello?" she finally said when she picked up.
"Miles!" he yelled into the phone and she laughed at him. So did his family. "Oh my gosh, the concert was awesome!"
"That's great, Nick! I told you you'd be fine," she told him.
"I know you did. Thank you," he said, a little more calmly. "The fans took it really well, I think. I guess we'll find out soon enough, though. I'm sure the video will be all over YouTube in the next few days."
"I'm sure. And I'm sure that your fans will only love you more. Just like I do," Miley said.
"I wish you could have seen it," he said and Joe and Kevin tried hard to keep their laughter back.
"I wish I could have been there, too," she said.
"It's hot in here," Kevin said and opened the door to their dressing room. Nick looked at him strangely, but ignored him and went back to focusing on Miley.
"I mean it; I really want to see you. I miss you," he said quietly, although he knew that his family could hear him. At this point, though, he really didn't care.
"When I can't be with you dream me near," she sang to him on the phone. He smiled. "Keep me in your heart and I'll appear," Miley continued. Her voice sounded strange. Almost like there was an echo. "All you gotta do is turn around, close your eyes, look inside," he heard her sing. She sounded so close. He turned around and saw her standing in the doorway. "I'm right here," she said, not sang, as she closed her phone.
His eyes got wide and his phone dropped from his hand and luckily landed on the couch. He ran over to her and picked her up, held her tight, and spun her around.
"Miley," she breathed into her hair. He stopped spinning her and put her down. "What are you doing here?" he practically shouted as he smiled wide.
"I'm here to see you, silly!" she said and playfully smacked him on the chest. He leaned in and kissed her, before she quickly pulled away from him and looked past him at his family. Nick blushed and tightly closed his eyes. When he opened them, Miley was staring back at him, giggling. He hugged her again and whispered into her ear.
"I've missed you so much," Nick said and just held her.
"I've missed you, too, baby," Miley whispered back as she ran her fingers through his curls. Just then, he saw Brandi slip in the door and walk past the two of them and over to what he assumed was where his family was. He waved a small wave, but concentrated on Miley.
"When do you go back?" he asked her, not wanting to hear the answer. "We're staying here for the night."
"We are leaving right away. I have a promotional thing I have to do in West Virginia tomorrow afternoon," she sadly told her.
"No," he softly pleaded to her, even though he knew she didn't have a choice.
"Nick," she whined to him, not wanting him to make her sad.
"I'm sorry," he apologized to her. "So how long have you been here?"
"Funny story," she laughed and pointed to Kevin. "He let me in right before the show started."
"That's what you left in the room?" Nick turned around to ask his brother. Kevin nodded and smiled. "Nice."
He turned back to Miley and smiled to her. She smiled back and swayed back and forth a little.
"You really did amazing. I cried while you were talking," she told him.
"Aww, babe," Nick said and brushed her bangs out of her face.
"No, they were happy tears. I'm just so happy that you finally told everyone. You're so brave," she said.
"Oh yeah, you know me, flippin' Braveheart," he joked and rolled his eyes.
"My hero!" Miley over dramatized and put a hand on her forehead and pretended to faint. Everybody laughed and they suddenly remembered that they weren't alone; and were in the spotlight. Their eyes narrowed on each other and Miley mouthed to him, "I love you."
He mouthed back, "I love you, too. I'm so glad you're here," and grabbed her into another hug. What he thought was going to be one of the worst days of his life, actually turned out to be the best.
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Okay, so if any of you haven't seen Nick's speech at the D-life concert, you really should go to YouTube and check it out. It's amazing and the first time I watched it, I literally cried. I feel like my writing is getting worse; it's really not the quality that I had hoped for. I'm really going to try harder to fix that in the future, I promise.
And I just realized that throughout all of my chapters, I've never said that I don't own anything. Well, here's my disclaimer. As much as I would love to, unfortunately I don't. So yeah, I don't own anything.
Alright, question time! Okay, so which one of the Jonas brothers will go solo first (not including Frankie!)? I've been wondering this for awhile. I mean, will one go solo at all, and if so, which one? Thanks as always guys and remember to review! Love you!