Silenced filled the car as Tommy and Taylor drove back to her hotel. Tommy kept his eyes firmly on the road while Taylor looked out her window in a bid to hide her tear stained face. As Tommy turned off at the intersection a mixture a feelings were going through his mind. He had told Jude to stay at the wedding and to get a ride with kwest and Sadie telling her this was some thing he needed to deal with himself. But as he pulled up at the hotel he wasn't sure what he was meant to deal with or how. He only new that Taylor was upset about something. As Tommy stopped the car Taylor reach dor the handle but then stopped herself.

"Would you like to come upstairs for drink" Spoke Taylor in a small and fragile voice

Tommy had to pause for a second so he could fully take in what she just said.

"Are you sure"

"I' am sure and Darius is paying so we can drink what ever we want" replied a little more relaxed Taylor

"Well if Darius is paying lets go" A more enthused Tommy beamed as he exited the car

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As Tommy stepped in to Taylor's suite he couldn't believe how big it was for one person. There was a bathroom and two bedrooms along the hallway. At the end of the hallways there was a lounge area with a small bar/ kitchen area located to the left of it. There room looked as though it had barely been touched there was barely any of Taylors belonging in the open. As Tommy looked around the room he noticed one thing that was out of place. On the coffee table sat a journal Tommy immediately recognised it was similar to one he had given Taylor many years ago but it was different in that her initials were sewn in to it. Before Tommy could think anymore about the journal he was pulled from his thoughts by Taylor.

"Hey earth to Tommy what do you want to drink"

"Huh o sorry how bout a beer"

"Sure here catch"

Taylor pulled another beer out from the fridge for herself. Just as she was about to open it she stopped realising she was still in her good dress.

"I'm just going to change out of this dress be back in a sec" Taylor informed Tommy as she walked down the hall to her room.

As soon as Tommy herd the door click he wasted no time in making his way over to the coffee table where the journal lay. As he picked it up he took extra care with it treating as if it was a priceless antique. As Tommy opened the journal he saw the pictures of Taylor and him from when they were younger. He couldn't believe she had kept the photos they were so old. As Tommy continued to flick through the book he came to pages which where covered in writing as Tommy read through the writing he realised they were song lyrics. His theory was confirmed Taylor was still writing and by the looks of the book a lot as there was only one blank page left. Tommy retuned to the song lyrics at the front of the book. The song was incredible it was telling the story of a girl who had become lost in her own life. Tommy was so engrossed in the song lyrics that he didn't even notice Taylor walk back into the room.

"So do you always go through other peoples personal belongings when there out of the room?"

Spoke a dry and rather annoyed Taylor

"Taylor "jumped a surprised Tommy as he shut the book quickly. " I'm sorry I was just looking"

"Yeah well don't look at that then" stated a now clearly angry Taylor as she walked over and snatched the book from Tommy's hands placing it in a draw in the cabinet

"So you still write does that mean your singing again"

"Tom please don't go there" begged Taylor as a look of regret appeared in her eyes

"Go where Taylor" questioned an intrigued Tommy at hearing his sisters last statement

"The past because that's what it is"

"Its not the past if your if your still writing Taylor, I bet for every one of those songs you have in that book you have already figured out the music to go with it."

"Tom please stop" pleaded a now uncomftable Taylor

" No I won't you know why cause your good you could be the best. I know you miss it and I also know mum would have never wanted you to give up the thing you loved because of her death"

"STOP PLEASE!" shouted an upset and annoyed Taylor. As she looked at her brother she couldn't help but let the tears that she had held back for so long flow freely.

Tommy could only stand there stunned he knew he was pushing it when had continued to push the subject but had not expected Taylor to react to it like this.

" Ok I do miss it there isn't a day when I don't think about singing. But that part of me died along time ago. It was around about the time Mum died and you left to join a boy band. Do remember Tom when you pretty much abandoned me to have fame."

Tommy stood in front of Taylor clenching his fists and a look of anger spreading across his face at hearing his sister's last statement. Now he was fired up and began to shout at Taylor without thinking

"Abandoned you that's bull and you know it. You were the one who encouraged me to go. You said it was the best thing for me."

"Yeah well I didn't expect you to practically dessert me" A just as enraged Taylor fired back

Not wanting to continue the fighting Tommy unclenched his fist and relaxed a bit as he watched Taylor yell at him her face said anger but her eyes showed pain and hurt.

A defeated Tommy finally mange to say something after what felt like a life time of awkward silence

"I was always there for you"

"Just never when I needed you"

Making the annoyance evident in his voice Tommy quickly responded to Taylor's last statement.

"What's that supposed to mean"

"Nothing don't worry about it" Taylor answered as she stood up to get another drink which was really an excuse to turn around and avoid Tommy's gaze. For some reason her brother was the only one who could make her open up and all he had to do was give her the same look he gave her 7 years ago. She knew if she sat there any longer everything that she had kept to her self for the last 7 year would come flooding out and she wasn't entirely sure if she was ready to face the past.

Tommy took a deep breath a he prepared to ask his next question. It was the same question he had asked himself almost everyday for the last 7 years and now he was finally ready to hear an answer.

Quietly and calmly Tommy began to ask his next question as Taylor stood at the kitchen counter her back still facing him.

"Taylor why did you leave" Tommy calmly asked taking a deep breath after finishing his sentence. Mentally he was preparing himself for all the possible answers and reasons. But little did he know the answer he would get would be the one he never would of expected.

Slowly turning around to face Tommy Taylors face said anything but relief as she was finally given her chance to explain. Her eyes were full of fear as flashbacks of the past ran through her mind.

Finally Taylor composed herself enough to form a sentence.

"Tommy I ...