All right, here's a songificy. I was bored, the song's by Josie and the Pussycats, called "You Don't See Me", the next chapter's songfic is by the same called "Pretend to Be Nice". My songfics are quite detailed, not just a line between every lyric. So, go ahead and skip the lyrics if you really want, I guess. It might not all click, but it's not bad without it.
This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours you can hold me
I'm empty and taken and tumbling and breakin'
"I hate myself," Misty whimpered. She closed her eyes, sitting in the fetal position on the diving board high above the gym pool. Ho-oh, she missed him.
"Misty?" A cautious voice asked. She looked down to see Daisy. Oh, no. Not her. She was the one person she didn't want to see. How great for her. A great life, steady boyfriend, (actually fiancé) and the ring on her finger possessed a rock she could be proud to show off in public. The ring hurt more then seeing her, Daisy's lips were still swollen with passionate kisses from a romantic night out. I hate her. At least she's got the torture of being pregnant. I hope she goes through forty eight hours of labor with no epidural. "What's wrong, runt?"
"Go away," I snapped, glad at my ability to hold in tears. She knew this was my place. My sister's had their rooms, I had the diving board and underwater. They were supposed to leave me alone, but Daisy was climbing up to sit behind me. I scrambled to leap off the diving board, but her hand flashed out to grab me before I could. "Let me go, Daisy! I want to be alone! Just go away!" I screamed, thrashing. She pulled me close.
"Shh, calm down. Tell me what's wrong," She crooned. Dialga, she's gotten so much more motherly since she's become 'with child'.
"No," I snapped, thrashing one more time, but barely holding back tears.
"Misty, you tell me what's bothering you now," She snapped.
"NO!" I shouted, breaking free and diving into the water. I heard her swear about emotional teenagers above me as I crashed down into the pool. I tapped the bottom lightly and stayed there, cooling down. Dewgong grabbed me by my shirt and dragged me back over to daisy, who pulled me out of the water and dragged me to the stand, still kicking and screaming. The damn thing's always been so loyal to her. She held me close.
"Is it about him?" She whispered.
"No," I said, before seeing her glare at me. I suppose I owed the truth to her, she was getting her shirt soaked from my soaking back. "Yes," I corrected. "I should've yelled at him, made him let me stay."
"Maybe you should've told him you love him?" She asked.
"What? Tell him I love him with a passion so fierce it makes me weak to see him smile?" I laughed dryly. "He'd run away screaming. Ash isn't like Dylan. Dylan's a great guy, Ash is a moron who's only love is pokémon. I just…I really do love him so much, I really miss him," tears began to sting my eyes. "It's just so, so hard. I can't take it. It hurts to know that I'll never be with him. I've spent all this time falling in love with him, dropping hints, trying to figure out what girl he wants. I still can't figure that out."
"You think he's worth crying over?"
"Crying? That might've helped," I said, my voice cracking. I curled up tight, turning around and burying my head in her shoulder, finally letting myself cry. Who cared about being tough anymore? Not like it mattered.
Cause you don't see me
You don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
"He never even looked my way. Sure, at glance at Maiden's Peak," I sniffed. "but that lasted five seconds at best. Stupid me, I interrupted the moment with my shrill stupid voice. Probably reminded him of who I was." I wiped my eyes. "The scrawny, ugly, too smart to be cute-"
"Misty, stop it. You're a beautiful, girl, really." I shot her a glare, reminding her who I was the little sister of. "Right, right. But you can't compare yourself to us. Do you remember when you were young, and mom read you those Ancient Roman stories? There would those really pretty women who compared themselves to goddesses and then got smited. Me, Violet and Lily are like goddesses. You're prettier than average," she nodded at me, "but you really can't compare."
"Is this supposed to make me feel better? You better hope you have a little boy or a goddess as a kid, because otherwise, you'll be a crappy mother."
"Don't swear."
"Don't go unprotected," I cast a meaningful glance at her stomach. She blushed. "But at least you'll be needed as a mother. Ash never needed me," I gave a sad smile again. "Do you know, after I left, we kept sending letters? He came up with the most genius battle strategies that I could ever think up. He knew every type trump, he knew everything I told him and more. Then he got May, then Dawn, and who knows what other girl comes after her."
"He's not replacing you," Daisy shook her head, "if that's what you think. He cares for you. I can tell."
"He doesn't love me," I said, standing up and crossing my arms over my chest. "He never cared for me. As a friend, as another one of the guys, he did. The look on his face when I did something female? It was like one of his friends had just admitted they were gay."
"Misty…I'm sure that's not true."
"It is. I wish he'd love me, I do, but he doesn't. I'm sure he could, he's got enough room in his heart. He can love every pokémon he catches," I frowned, "he can love me like a friend, like a best friend." I took a deep breath in and out. "It doesn't matter. I'm going to head up to bed."
"Hey, Mist?" She called. I looked at her over my shoulder. "The roof is a great place to think, if you need some time. You know we don't like you all alone on the diving board, what if you fall asleep and fall off?"
"What if I fall off the roof?" I challenged
"The roof is flat. What are you going to do, jump off?" Daisy laughed. She patted me on the shoulder. "G'night, Misty. Sleep tight, don't let the bed beedrill bite." She giggled as I shivered. I still hate bugs.
I dream a world where you understand
But I dream a million sleepless nights
But I dream of fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends?
Cause you don't see me
You don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
How many dreams did I have? Some of them weren't even romantic, I was just traveling with him again. Pathetic. Some dreams were romantic, though, incredible. I'm surprised at my own imagination too. You know, the nice tingling feeling you get when you hold hands with that guy you like? Then it disappears when my sisters storm in in the morning and I realize my life suck and has no meaning. Great, right?
I leaned over the edge of the building, seeing the concrete below. "It couldn't kill me," I sighed. "It couldn't. Not high enough. I'd just break something and be in a lot of pain. Wouldn't die. It'd take my mind off of Ash though." I rolled back into the safety zone of the roof and moaned. "This sucks. It flipping sucks. I'd rather be pregnant, like Daisy. I hate Daisy. I hate me. I hate Ash. No, I don't hate Ash. I sound drunk," I rubbed my eyes.
"I'm doomed to sit on a roof and cry all my life. I'll be an old maid with glameow's everywhere. And my best friend will still be Ash Ketchum, who'll end up marrying some slut he finds in a bar! And she's a stripper too! And she's sexy but a bimbo and her breasts are fake and who am I kidding? Ash is going to be a Pokémon Master, he'll fall in love with some other top trainer and they'll trade training secrets all day and he'll be oh so happy without me."
"…screw him."
The way I wish you would
This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get
I wish I was lonely, Instead of just only
Crystal and see through and not enough to you
Cause you don't see me
You don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
Cause you don't see me
You don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
"You know what? I don't care! Do you hear me, Ketchum? I DON'T CARE! I'm holding a place for you, Ash! Right here!" I hit my chest where my heart was, leaping to my feet and screaming at the top of my lungs. It was probably near twelve at night in Cerulean City, and I was screaming on a roof. "I know you can hear me, Ash! Don't act like you can't! I know you can! This is my last effort, Ash! You've never seen me before, at least hear me out now!"
"Ash Ketchum, I love you! Always will! So if you love me, I'll give you two days to get your stupid ass over here!"
"Shut up, girl!" A man shouted from next door. "I don't give two sts in hell if you're the gym leader! Some of us have work in the morning, so get into bed and shut up!"
"Aw, shut up! I'm done!" I shouted back. "And if you're that mad, call the police and have them take me in! Life is a game, and you know what? I quit! You go to work tomorrow, I'm going to pretend I'm a golden and swim in my pool all day!" I threw up my arms in the air and gave a laugh. I think I might've gone crazy. But I was certainly happy.
Somewhere in a far away forest…
"Hey, guys? Do you mind if I head out tomorrow? I'll be back soon, I just have something to do. Thanks," Ash said, a dreamy smile on his face as he packed up camp and began to walk out.
"Ash! It's past twelve, what are you doing!" Dawn gasped.
"Really, Ash? Can't it wait until tomorrow? Where are you going?"
"Cerulean," He shouted. "And no, it can't wait! It'll be too late by tomorrow!" He disappeared through the trees. Dawn blinked at his back before slowly turning to Brock. "Give me a week or two and I'll be back, all right?"
"What do you think he's doing?"
"I don't know. Probably something to do with Misty," he shrugged. "I guess he finally woke up and saw what he was missing."
Eh, it's suckish. I know. Writing with other people's characters is hard, okay? And I know they're not in character and blah blah blah, I'm going to eat chocolate now to console myself.