Disclaimer: I don't own anything. No Hannah Montana things or the song Untouched by The Veronicas.

Chapter 4 - Realizations

I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

It had taken them ages to get back to their regular ways after the whole Trisha thing. No matter how hard they tried, they both knew it was too late. The damage was done. It was set in stone.

They would avoid each other as much as possible, but still pretending to be the best of friends.

He hated it.

He missed someone to talk to, sure he had Miley, but it just wasn't the same. She had a tendency of taking others matters into her own hands.

But after a while things with Lily seemed to fall into place. It had only taken a very desperate Lily and a Oliver without a place to live.

And just like that, Lily and himself started living together like that had pictured so many years ago. It had been very awkward in the beginning, seeing as they hadn't spoken in a really long time. But they soon fell into the easy banter they had always used with one another.

Now however, he could not picture going back to the apartment. Seeing all her tings lying there, as if she had just used them. The smell of her perfume would float around in the room, and he knew that he would forget. He would forget for a moment that she was lying in a hospital, lying on a deathbed.

No, he could not picture going back there, not without his Lilypad.

All he wanted to do was hide away from it all.

She had to make it through this. She would. She was Lily Truscott.

If she didn't, he didn't know how he would survive.

He was depended on her, needed her. After all, to him, she was the love of his life. She was his true love combined with best friend.

Realization hit him, and it hit him hard. He suddenly realized that he would indeed not be able to live without her. The existent was too cruel. He knew that if she were to pass away, he would follow. A life without her was not something Oliver was able to live. And somewhere deep in his mind he knew that this would not have an happy ending.

Why hadn't he tried to stop her? He could have used more force.

Made her stay.

Locked her in.

If he had just done that...

If he had, maybe she would still have been here. Been with him, and given him a reason to stay alive.

If he had just stopped her, she would have argued with him on who got the last bowl of Coco Pops.

*Flashback*

"God, I'm so hungry!" Lily complained. She sat down at there kitchen table in a huff and looked at Oliver. Oliver, who was washing the dishes turned around in disbelief.

"You just ate an hour a go, Lils" He gave her a look that clearly said 'are you kidding me' before he continued, "And besides, we don't have any food left, since we ate it all an hour ago!"

"We sooo would have had money for more food, had you not INSISTED on ordering those extra noodles!"

"Like you made any objections! And how was I suppose to know that our food fond was empty? I almost FAILED math, Lily. Honestly, you should know better that to trust me with the whole make a budget thing."

Lily made a pout and huffed after her stomach made yet another cry for food.

"I hate being a student" she said, "We never have enough food!"

This time it was Oliver's turn to sigh; he walked towards the cupboard and pulled out a Coco Pops cereal box. He then took one of the bowls and spoons that he had just cleaned, and emptied the box content in the bowl before handing it to Lily.

"No milk though." Lily looked at him as though he had just proposed to her, she eyes started to well out and she broke into a big smile.

She chocked out a thank you and rambled on about how it probably would taste so much better without the milk before she threw herself into the bowl of cereal. Oliver just smile as he sat there watching her eat. Sure, he was hungry as well, but he could bear starving for days if he just made her happy.

Suddenly though, a spoon flew to this mouth.

"Open up, Oliver! Did you think that I didn't hear your stomach thunder as well?"

"Lily, I'm really not that hung-" A large growl from his stomach stopped him midsentence. He huffed, betrayed by his own body.

"Ha, right!" Lily yelled in triumph, "Open up and quite being modest! You might just miss the best bowl of cereal ever." Oliver did as he was told and accepted the spoon filled with the most delicious Coco Pops he'd ever tasted.

*End of flashback*

He tried blocking the things Miley had said to him, out of his head, but it seemed that it had made the dictions to say there.

He knew that Miley had just say those things so that she would get a reaction out of him, making him snap at her, anything instead of just sitting there in silence, not noticing anyone or anything. But he thought that at the same time, that there must have been some truth in it. She had to believe it in some form, she may not be fully aware of the fact, but Oliver knew that she through so. Some where deep inside.

Was he in reality mean towards Lily? Had he gone too far in his attempts to make the situations brighter?

Perhaps he; Oliver Oken, was the reason Lily was lying under the operating table right now? Maybe it was all his fault? After all, he was her best friend and he hadn't even noticed that she had been abused by her father. If he hadn't noticed that, he could have missed a lot of things. Maybe he really had hurt her feeling by making jokes when she cried, and that she didn't want to ask him to stop in case he got angry or something.

As Oliver continued to dwell on the subject he noticed that he no longer knew where he was. He had been walking in deep thoughts, and therefore not realized where he had been going. Apparently he had gone outside, ad wandered for a couple of blocks.

He quickly stopped in his tracks.

He was officially stupid. He had just left the building that contained a possibly dying Lily, and here he was a couple of blocks away. A COUPLE OF BLOCKS! What if something had happened?! What if she had died, or is she was able to see people, and he wasn't there. What would she think? She would be scared, and he would not be there for her, to hold her hand. Instead he was somewhere else. If something happened, he would not forgive himself. He started to run as fast as he could toward the hospital.

-

As he walked through the hospital doors again, he felt a wave of nausea come over him as the smell hit him.

'God, he hated hospitals.'

-

Miley saw him coming towards them. She felt sooo guilty! How could she have said something like that to Oliver, especially NOW of all times! Their best friend was nearly dying and here she was making him fled the hospital instead of making sure he was oaky, something he was clearly not.

She could see that the whole thing had had an enormous effect on him. He looked like he hadn't slept in days and his hair was a mess. His eyes portrayed a man in deep sorrow, and she felt a huge urge to run over to him and make everything okay.

She knew that she wouldn't help though. Sure, she and Oliver were best friends, but she could not hold a candle next to Lily. The two of them had always had this connection, and Miley would admit that she was a bit jealous. The two of them would have so many inside jokes, and often completed each others sentences, that she from time to time felt left out. But she had gotten used to it by now; after all she was no longer in love with Oliver.

*Flashback*

It had hurt like hell when she first found out what was going on between her two best friends.

As she stood outside the door peeking in, Miley felt like the worst creep ever, yet there was something that made her unable to tear her eyes away.

Oliver was in a lying position, where he was supporting himself with his elbows, while Lily was on top, saddling him. She had both of her hands places on his face, kissing him firmly.

Miley could not believe what was happening. Sure, she had heard the rumours like everyone else, but seeing as she was their best friend she thought that they would have told her if there was something going on between the two of them when she had asked. Obviously she had mistaken. Gravely...

A moan pulled Miley out of her train of thought.

Their positions had changed and so had the amount of clothing. Lily was now the one lying on the bed, without a top on, while Oliver's was disappearing quickly. Suddenly however, he broke of the kiss and stopped.

"Lily...?" She slowly opened her eyes, and looked up at him. "Mm?" Miley could clearly see the lust in her eyes as she looked at him.

"What are we doing? This... This THING we got going in on. I just- People are talking, Lily, and I- Miley, she... I hate lying to her and-" Oliver was interrupted by Lily's finger on his lips. "Shh..." she whispered, kissing his forehead softly. The moment seemed so intimate that Miley almost turned her back and walked away, but only almost. "Don't even talk about the consequence", she continued while placing a hand on Oliver's cheek. He leaned into her touch as she stroke his cheek gently and kissed his eyelids.

"'Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me. You, Oliver. Not Miley, not anyone else. And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think..." With that she trailed of and kissed him fully on the lips, and Miley's heart broke slightly when she saw him responding and kissing her back.

*End of Flashback*

After that "incident", Miley had tried convinced herself that the two of them were only fooling around, that it didn't mean anything to them.

She had always suspected that Lily had ha a minor crush on Oliver, but since Lily never would say whether or not she did like him, Miley had decided to go for it. She had secretly liked him for quite some time, she had a small hope that he might like her too. After all, he had been spending an awful lot of time with her. She had been there for him during his break up with Trisha. It had been slightly odd that Lily hadn't been there for him, but she guess that with all the rumours that were floating around, it was better if she backed away a little.
Secretly however, Miley had been trilled, because without her she didn't have to compete with Lily all the time, because with Lily present, Miley never said or did the right things. Lily always knew when Oliver was up for talking, when he wanted to be alone and when he needed a hug. She also always knew how to make him laugh and forget his troubles for a while.
But when Lily was not in the picture, Miley would be the only one there for him, and he would be grateful for whatever she did, and not compare her with Lily. Because if there was something Miley hated it was being second.

But obviously that was not the case at all. It had turned out that Oliver was head over heals in love with Lily, which had become obvious when he had poured his heart out to her…

*Flashback*

It had been the day that Miley finally was going to tell her best friend, Oliver Oken, that she liked him more then a friend. She had planed the whole thing: they would be watching a movie at her place since her father was away (Jackson was in collage) and when the time was right, she would tell him that she liked him and kiss him with such passion that even his enemies would feel love.
Unfortunately however, things did not go as planed.

When Oliver had arrived he looked completely broken.

"Oh my God, Oliver what's wrong?" Miley asked when she saw him at her door. She quickly opened her arms and pulled him into a tight hug. As he returned the favour, Miley could not help liking the feeling it gave her, but she shoved the thought away and told herself that it was Oliver who was important.

"Oliver, tell me what's wrong?" she tried making eye contact with him, as she pulled his head in her direction. "Please?"
There was a long pause before the words came tumbling out.
He had told Lily that he loved her, but instead of her jumping into his arms, she had fled away from him. Miley felt the tears threatening to fall as she got her heart broken. But she put on a brave face and made him tell her what she had missed. And it had been a lot.
He told her about the first time they kissed, and how it later had developed into so much more. He also told her about that had happened with Trish and why he and Lily were avoiding each other. He told her how much he was in love with Lily, and how he suspected that he had always been.

"I've ruined it all now however." He sighed, "she will never speak to me again now. I had to ruin it all with 'I love you'." Miley shook her head violently, "No Oliver, Lily is the one who is screwing up. If she can't see how amazing you are, Oliver, well then she is not worth the trouble…"
"How can you say that Miley? She, she-"
"Because you are amazing, Oliver. And this so called relationship you guys had going on were having were messing the both of you up!"

Hi! I hope you haven't forgotten me (though you probably have). But here it is, an actual update. I hope you enjoyed it even though the ending was stupid.

I know I suck at updating; it's been like two years since I last updated. I knew I was slightly on the lazy side, but not that I was this shit at it. Anyway, it's late and I have school tomorrow so I'm gonna stop this here. Also, still un-betaed!

As always, read & review please!

- Skittle Nittles.