It was the fourth Sunday of the holidays and Lily Evans was lying in her bed thinking. Just thinking. Thinking about the holidays. One year ago she would have spewed at the thought of staying with James for the holidays. Her feelings for him had changed so much. They used to be frustration. Now? she didn't know what her feelings for James were now. But no matter what the emotion, she had always thought about him. She felt a burning sensation in the pit of her stomach. A longing in her heart, whether that longing be to be with him, or ring his neck. James. She never before had considered ever liking James, in that sort of way, but considering the fact that James was now one of her best friends it seemed so unlikely that she would ever have a chance to be with him. Did she even want to be with him? All she knew was tht she felt for James, alot. Lily had turned him down so harshly, time and time again that it seemed quite possible for James to just turn her down as badly as she had; if she ever asked of course. Suddenly, Lily realised, that if James was to get another girlfriend when they all went back to school, that it would absoultly break her heart, tear her heart, shred her heart into indistinguishable little piecs, like a scrambled jigsaw. She had to tell him, she had to tell him that after all this time, she actually liked him. She actually like James. She actually loved James. the realsisation hit her. Hit her hard. So hard hard, she could barely breathe. She got out of bed and got dressed as quickly as she could.

"I've got to tell him!" She said to herself. There was a knock on the door and assuming it was Mary, she flung it open.

"Is this a bad time?" Remus asked.

"No, it's OK, do you want to come in?" she asked, moving aside. Remus walked inside the room and Lily closed the door behind him.

"So, what do you need to tell who?" he asked looking at her with a raised eyebrow.

Lily had always trusted Remus, even when she hated the James and Sirius. She trusted him even more now she'd gotten to know him. She didn't know what happened, her instincs led her.

"Promise you won't tell anyone?"

"Promise."

"Okay, well I think I realised it a while ago, I'm crazy about James. I just wouldn't admit it. And I would probably feel like killing myself if he got with anyone but me. Besides I don't want to weird out our friendship because after all this time he probably doesn't even like me anymore." Lily blurted quickly, realising what she had just said an starting to blush.

"Well I must say, that I highly doubt that James doesn't still like you. If you want I could talk to him about it."

"Absoloutly not! If he finds out, it has to be me that tells him. If someone else does then I'll seem like a coward."

"But are you really going to tell him?"

"I am, I mean I will, I just need the right time." Lily replied with a determined look on her face.

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Remus ran up one of the hallways and knocked quickly, before throwing open Mary's door.

"MARY! I have to tell you something! It's about Lily!" Remus said bursting into the room. James and Mary had been talking but upon hearing someone running in the hallway James had hid under the bed, in case it had been Lily.

"Yes?" Mary asked.

"Well I was just talking to Lily and she actually really likes James but doesn't know how to tell him and wants to wait for the right time to tell him but she made me promise not to tell James but she didn't make me promise not to tell you!" James was secretly glowing with pleasure under the bed.

"Well, fortunatly I had already guessed that. Don't worry ,I have a plan." Remus seemed to be having a mental debate over whether or not he should be part of this plan.

"What can I do to help?" Remus asked.

"Keep Sirius amused." Was Mary's reply. Once Remus left James got up from under the bed and looked at Mary. "We start our plan at exactly 10 am."