Dreams: Dreams are our subconcious' ways of telling us what our hearts really want. AU Season 5, with some spoilers.

Disclaimer: I do not own One Tree Hill or any of its characters or actors. This story is purely for fun.

A/N: I got relatively positive feedback from the two or three reviewers, so I thought I'd post the next part. This is dedicated to the people who did review. I'm hoping more of you will now?

Brooke stopped dreaming many years back.

Dreams were her castles in the air, that though beautiful, were never substantial.

So she stopped building them.

She focused on her goals instead, and labelled them dreams.

Now she's become huge, a household name.

She's also come home after 4 long years.

And she's started dreaming again, though she tries to stop.

But who can control what you see when you are asleep?

She sees a full house, kids running amok.

She has the family she has always wanted.

Cries of "Mommy! Mommy!" fill the air, and she smiles, because this has always been what she has wanted.

This has always been her dream.

But she wants it to stop.

No matter how happy her dreams make her, they are not real.

They can never be real.

But they don't stop.

Instead, they become more vivid, and she sees them every night.

She's happy in her dreams, wholeheartedly so.

Not the fake smile she gives her friends everyday.

And she starts to look forward to sleeping.

She goes to bed earlier every night so she can dream more.

She plays with her kids, loves them, and lets them love her.

She is content, and secure, and she knows in her heart that this is everything she has ever wanted and needed.

A family. A home. And Lucas.

She hates to wake up.

It's ironic really.

First she wanted the dreams to stop.

Now she can't live without them.

She'd rather be asleep than awake.

She awakes to an empty house.

It's quiet, and her heart breaks just a little more.

She doesn't know how long she can go on like this.

She doesn't know how to keep hiding how much her dreams affect her.

How much she wants them to be real.

She wants to wake up to Lucas' kisses, and Lexie jumping on the bed.

She wants to see Peyton and Jake's son play basketball with Jamie.

She wants to laugh with her best friends as they prepare dinner, and their husbands watch the big game.

But it's not real.

None of it is real.

And it's not fair.

Lucas was right all those years ago when he said he was the guy for her.

But she's not the girl for him, and it hurts.

It hurts not to be with him.

Because Lucas Scott was the only boy she'd ever given her heart to, the only boy she could ever love.

And so she lives in her dreams, and dies a little everyday in her life.

Brooke Davies dreams now, because that's all she has left.

And please remember, no flaming my choice of pairings! Other than that, any criticism and/or comments are welcome!

-Anhdara13