Hi, sorry about not updating sooner, just really busy around here lately.

But I have alot done, I hope anyway. So, hope you enjoy!!

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I still don't have any claim on Twilight or any of the rest. But only

take them out and play with sometimes!!!!!

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CHAPTER 10

I really couldn't blame Carlisle with falling in love with her. She was exactly the

person I would have chosen for him myself. But it didn't mean I recented her.

Which in it self was difficult , because she was just well....loveable, and so

nuturing to us both. Which I recented her for more! I wanted to hate her , despize her

even , for taking him from me. He hardly even talks to me, let alone wants to be

wtih me anymore. But , I can't help being drawn in by her. ESME!

I was restless, hurt and yes angry. He didn't need me now. She took care of his

' every ' need. I found myself alone now , when he was home they were snuggled

together on the settee , or in their room. Even hunting is was third wheel, and really

neither invited me with them. I've been even moodier lately, which yes I know is

truely amazing , me moodier??!! And I've considering moving out , and visiting our

friends we've made through the years. This would be an adventure , yes , thats

how I should refer to it , MY ADVENTURE. But try as I might, I really couldn't get

to immersed in it. I didn't want to leave my home , or Carlisle . And Esme, well

she has grown on me,even though I fought hard against that happening.

Lately, shes been very , talkative to me. We can have a deep conversation on music

and then a silly one on a place setting pattern she wanted. She would smile as soon

as she saw me , and lately even giving me quick hugs. At first though, I would pull

away from her, but .. then I realized I missed this . That softness a woman has when

she pulls you in, their smell and those amazing curves. Um... hmm.... well maybe that

last one wasn't a thing a should notice. But hey, I am only 17, LOL !!! Carlisle is still

distant , even when Esme tries to include me in conversations , he hurriedly changes

the topic and even has walked out of room. The first time he did that, I growled deep

in my chest , more like a mournful moan ,and had to leave the house quickly.I had

stayed away for days. Finally returning when I was ready, or so I thought , to tell them

of my decision to leave.

I didn't tell them right away, but some how I realized Esme knew. She would watch me

with this worried frown that showed on her forehead. And her eyes seemed so sad when

I would look directly at her. Which , I couldn't do often , because it upset to think I was

doing this to her. I couldn't even ' hear' their thoughts lately. They both had become

very good at hiding stuff from me. One night , several days after I returned home, we

were all in solarium listening to new DeBussey recording Carlisle had picked up. It was

truely amazing pieces of work. We had discussed it after hearing it , and Carlisle even

seemed to be more himself with me tonight. But , I didn't think it would stay like this and

frankly I had made up my mind. So , " Umm... Carlisel and Esme , could I please speak

with you both about something ?" , Esme, "Of course dear, what's on your mind?"

Taking a deep breath, yea ,I know it was more for courage then necessity. I had told them

about my ADVENTURE I was planning and that I would be leaving by the end of the week.

Well , I stood there waiting , but not a sound , at first. Then, it was like a tearing ,and then

a wailing and finally mournful groans. They were coming from Esme. She sat there, not

moving ,except these noises coming out deep from her throat. Then , vampire speed,

she was in front me , grabbing my hand , " NO NO , Edward, you can't leave us. We're

a family . I need you , we both need you with us ,ALWAYS!! Carlisle sat there, completely

stunned , as I was , on her reaction. She continued her soulful mourning , and sobbing , I

had really expected to see tears running down her face. She was , well desolute. She ran

from the room, slamming their bedroom watching her exist, stood slowly

as if his years in this life had finally caught up to him. Turned to me, quietly saying "Edward,

please , rethink this. I know I've been distant from you,but...but I still need you to be here.
She needs you here." It seemed like he wanted to say more, but turned and walked into there

room where I could here Esme's crys still.

Well, I hadn't been perpared for that ! But I wasn't going to let that change my mind. I needed

to get away , wasn't I hurting just as badly?!! They didn't need me, they had each other.

I couldn't stay here and be the outsider anymore. I needed too. But , how was I suppose to

say these things , when frankly I didn't know what Esme knew about Carlisle's and my

relationship. Had he been frank with her, or had he let her assume we were Father and Son??!!

For several days and nights, I could hear there whispering, but I couldn't hear it . Even with

our ability of hearing slightest things , they kept it even lower . And they blocked everything

from me , so I couldn't ' hear ' that way either. It was driving me insane !! Finally , though, they

seemed to either except my decision or where just ignoring I even mentioned about leaving.
Their conversations usually where about moving to another town or even country soon, and

would as me what I would think about it and where we should possibly go. Jumping up , " I am

leaving , you both should make this decision on your own." And with that I would walk out , and

usually go to my favorite spot and stay until sun would rise.

One early morning when I was returning , Carlisle was just saying good-bye to Esme, I was

thankful she couldn't see my reaction. I wanted to rip her from him and claim him as mine, like

he should be. But , I refrained myself and watched from window. Carlisle's hand was holding her

close ,while the other one was traveling along her waist, stopping just at side of her breast. He

then moved it to cover it , and I saw him gently squeeze it. Esme , let a small moan out , and

quickly pulled him to her harder. He laughed quietly and kissed her like he wouldn't see her for

a month instead of hours. It hit me hard , I was jealous and angry . Wishing I was one in that spot.

But , then suddenly, which spot did I want, Esme's or Carlisle's. I shook my head,now I know

I was loosing it. Thinking about Esme like that, what the hell is wrong with me. Walking up to door

I made more noise then I usually would , to let them know I was coming. When I opened door, Carlisle

was just pulling away from Esme. She smiled brightly at me , "Good morning dear, hope you had

wonderful night?" Carlisle, " Good morning Edward." , smiling at me with his crooked grin I hadn't

received since Esme's change. Well, to say the least , I just stood there, not knowing what to do or

say. They both laughed quietly , looking at each other.

Carlisle walked towards the door and me since I was still in front of it. He stopped in front of me,

leaned into me, "Edward , I've missed you" Oh my goddess, I almost came right then. I haven't

had any attention from him for so long , I couldn't control my response. Smirking even more, he

looked over his shoulder to Esme, who was watching this exchange, with well a very rapt wide-eye

look. With a Mona-Lisa like smile on her pretty face. I didn't know what to say or do, so I stood

there like some of kind of idiot. Then , if I wasn't dead already, I would have succombed right there,

Carlisle moved , grabbing me to him, and kissed me like I saw him do to Esme earlier. Then he

smiled at me , turned ," Love you my dear's" , and walked out the door. Well, I couldn't move, I

was frozen just inside the door. Esme ,standing in the kitchen area , started to laugh , moving

to stand in front of me. She looked up and smiled her serene smile , but with some mischief in

it, " Umm.. Edward dear, you really should close that lovely mouth of yours before flies think its

they can make a home in it." She turned , looking over her shoulder and winked, YES she

fricken WINKED at me.

In my room, I was pacing. What the hell just happened?? I couldn't get my head around any of

it. I was so confused and well , excited , all at same time. Did that actually happen , or I am

completely dillusional and wished for it?!! I sat on my settee , my head in my hands , trying to

decide. I could hear Esme's soft humming and her butterfly movement out in main areas of the

house. So , ok, my hearing SEEMS to be working. I couldn't read her mind though, but that

was really a surprise, like I said ,they had been keeping themselves blocked from me for days.

I could smell the lemony scent she was using , so ok, that was normal. Hmm... well what if

I hadn't been daydreaming , fantazing or whatever name you want to give it. What if it all was

real?? OH MY GODDESS, that .... that... I didn't really have words for it. I heard slight knock

on my door before it opened , with Esme standing just slightly inside it. I looked up , and well

froze again. There before me was Esme, standing in just her chemise and bloomers , with stockings,

and heels on. "Dear, I need your clothes, I washing and want to get all of them." , she said quietly.

She walked into room more, closed the door behind her. I quickly stood ,remembering I was a

gentleman. But , I couldn't tell my eyes to remember that. They slowly traveled over her, top to

bottom , and traveled upwards slower. When I looked at her face, she had this smile , that I've

seen her send to Carlisle. But know she was sending to me. She slowly walked closer to me,

I couldn't look away. This wasn't right my conscience told me, but other side of my head, screamed,

and told conscience to shut up. Standing in front of me now , smiling , looking up from me through

her eye-lashes , I gulped ,stepping back away from her. But she just took another one closer. I moved

again only to bump into the settee ,which made me unexpectantly dumped me into it. She laughed

softely, walking right up to me ,her knees brushing mine. " Edward dear, I need your clothes", she

leaned down towards me and started to unbutton my shirt , her chemise lowering as she did and

I could see her breasts down to top of dark circle right before her nipple. Well, being normal ( Yea, ok!)
vampire teen , my body reacted to her closeness and the view to those plump breasts she so

tantalizingly was showing me.

Before I knew how , she had my shirt off. I heard low growl , almost like a purr. I looked at her, and she

licked her lips. " Edward, your gorgeous dear" , and proceeded to run her hand up and down my

chest. I was even more shocked, and yes excited, but she belonged to Carlisle what was she

doing?? " Esme, what... what are you doing .?" , she smiled seductively and " I told you I'm

washing dear, I need your clothes. " And then her hands where at my belt , unbuckeling it and loosing

the tie. I grabbed her hands, looking at her, " Esme .... please .. um I do it , and bring them out to

you." I couldn't have her hands on me like this, I liked it too much and I was getting embarrassed that

she would soon see this. " Oh Edward, why can't I help you? I know you want me to, I can see

how much dear." She then ran a hand over my obvious bulge . I couldn't move, oh my goddess, it felt

soooo good. She continued to the top of my pants and slowly started to lower them, I had to lift up so she

could pull them down over my hips , slowly down my legs , then finally off completely. She stood over

me , looking into my eyes as I was watching to see what she would do next. I knew we shouldn't

be doing this, but my needs where stronger than my will. She leaned into me, and kissed my forehead,

my eyes ,the tip of my nose and finally my chin. She slowly lowered herself to my lap , sitting facing me.

She leaned her forehead against mine . Whispering to me, " Edward , your my family , I need you

don't turn away from me."

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