Gawd I seem to lose a reviewer each chapter and I only ever get 3 reviews per chapter

Gawd I seem to lose a reviewer each chapter and I only ever get 3 reviews per chapter. Throw me a bone guys, I've had a terrible writer's block and reviews are always helpful and definitely appreciated!

Anyway thanks to Murd3r4lyf3and chickenateefka as always and also to my pal Mortaz for bothering to review and also for offering to help if needed!

Anyway CRR disclaimer please!

Chibi-RoseRosa: RoseRosa does not own Kingdom Hearts; she only wishes she did so she could kill Sora off!

Heh heh killing Sora sounds fun but don't worry, I won't kill him off in the fic!

Chapter four: Can I Even Stand You?

It was Friday morning. All Roxas had to do was get through school and then he would be free for the weekend. Maybe his day would be better today then it had been the two days prior. Roxas could hope all he liked but he knew it wouldn't be any better. The humiliation he'd been through recently was enough proof for him. He was just going to have to get through the torture Axel and his friends unwittingly-well on most accounts-put him through. The blond groaned out loud at that fact and was about to roll over and bury his face in his pillow when he heard a chuckle from the direction of his door. It was a laugh he was now familiar with but it wasn't Sora's or his Dad's. Roxas froze before he turned his gaze to the door where Axel was standing. Axel was standing in his doorway…when he was only in his chequered boxers and looking half sleep with hair even more messed up then usual. Roxas did the only thing anyone could do in that situation. He blushed bright red, dove under his blankets which he'd kicked off in the night and screeched about privacy.

Axel chucked at the sight of the shocked and flustered blond and stepped fully into the room.

"Morning to you to Roxy," he greeted. He walked over to the smallish bed and leaned over the lump amongst the black sheets, just staring at it. Eventually a blond head popped out and glared at him.

"What are you doing here?" it snapped. Roxas was not a morning person and with Axel just popping up like that he was in a worse mood then usual. The red head shook his head,

"Well if you must know I came to walk you to school, I got a call from Sora an hour ago saying he was sick and you'd probably get lost by yourself so he wanted me to walk you to school," he explained quietly. Oddly the red head looked a put out and in Roxas's opinion the expression didn't suit him so the blond boy just sighed and sat up.

"Right, well if you'd get out of my room I'll get dressed and we can go," he replied slowly. Roxas was trying to be polite to Axel, he did come all the way over to help him after all but Roxas was furious with Sora. He bet Sora wasn't bloody sick and he would not get lost on the way to school! Sora would do that himself. Roxas knew the brunet was planning something he just didn't know what and when he got his hands on him he'd bloody kill him! Axel seemed to notice the blond's fury and he sped out of the room.

Roxas quickly dressed in his school uniform before he left his own room and headed for Sora's. The brunet boy was lying in bed reading a comic,

"well you certainly look sick," Roxas commented sarcastically. He placed a hand on his hip and glared at Sora. The bed ridden boy put his comic down and grinned sheepishly at his brother.

"Eh heh, I thought it would help you two ya know…move on in your relationship?" he explained with a nervous chuckle. Roxas glared daggers as he advanced towards Sora,

"Sora, me and Axel are friends and we won't move onto anything more… I am NOT gay so there is nothing past friendship," he hissed. Sora gulped and once again grinned sheepishly,

"ah well you could become best friends y'know…eh heh heh," he corrected. Roxas reached the side of the bed and Sora slipped under his sheets, trying to defend himself somehow. Roxas just thumped the hiding boy's side before he left the bright room and headed downstairs where Axel was waiting in the hall looking very out of place. The twin's mother was twittering on to him, asking the red head never ending streams of questions.

"So how did you meet my boys huh? What year are you in? What subjects are you taking?" The brunette woman asked as Roxas joined the pair at the bottom of the stair.

"Errrr we bumped into each other in the hall, I'm in year ten and I'm taking art, music and triple science mam," Axel answered. His green gaze was darting around the room and when he spotted Roxas he shot the smaller boy a pleading look. He really didn't feel comfortable. He wasn't used to being in such a cosy house with such chatty parents. His own house was so cold and his parents only spoke if they had to or if they had people over. Roxas rolled his eyes and slipped his shoes on before he grabbed his school bag.

"Let's go Axel," he told the taller boy. Axel practically ran out of the house as Roxas gave his mum a quick hug and told her he'd see her later.

"Bye Roxas, Bye Axel…come around anytime Axel love," Mrs Hikari called as she waved the boys off.

Axel sighed with relief once they were out of sight of the house,

"God your mum's a little over bearing isn't she," he commented as the blond caught up with the red head's long strides. Roxas rolled his eyes,

"yeah well Sora's the same," he replied with a small scowl. Axel chuckled a little before the pair fell into a comfortable silence. It was probably the first time in a long time that he wouldn't be late to school.

"Sora isn't really sick is he?" the red head asked as he looked down at the small blond beside him. Roxas kicked a stone in front of him hard as he answered,

"no." Axel shook his head,

"What a skiver," he mumbled, sounding only slightly pissed off. Roxas had expected Axel to blow up if he found out but that showed how little he knew about the guy. He really had been harshly judging him on the ideas that he had about him but it seemed like they might be wrong.

Some along time with Roxas…sweet! Maybe I can get a little closer to him! As Axel thought this a grin grew on his face and looked down at Roxas, grinning as if it was the greatest thing he'd ever done. Roxas raised an eyebrow,

"what are you so pleased about?" he asked, slightly unsurely. Axel grinned even more and wrapped an arm around Roxas,

"just pleased that we can walk together alone," he answered. It was the honest truth and the fact he sounded so serious scared Roxas a little. It wasn't a normal thing to say. It made it sound like a romantic dawdle through the forest not the short walk to school! Roxas shoved Axel's arm off him,

"Don't do that!" he snapped defensively. The school was coming into view at that moment so Roxas ran ahead to see if any of his other friends had arrived early. Axel's face fell as the by walked away, that Roxas really didn't know what he was doing to him what you're suffering from not having your lust reciprocated?! C'mon Axel you know that's all it is…just pure unadulterated lust for the kid his inner voice mocked him. It made Axel's feelings for Roxas sound so dirty when they weren't. Axel frowned at himself before he went to go meet his friends. Someone might know what he could do to stop such stupid thoughts.

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The day went by without anymore incidents between Axel and Roxas that was until last period.

Physical Education.

Roxas had groaned to himself as he entered the large changing rooms. There were a few rows of double sided benches for the boys to hang their stuff on and change at. There were enough rows so that Roxas managed to get a hidden corner to himself. He was the shortest and the scrawniest out of the whole class and seeing all the other guy's bodies did not make him feel any better about himself. Roxas sighed as he dropped his bag on a bench; he faced the wall as he undid his tie and began to unbutton his shirt. He felt as if someone's eyes were on him but that was probably just him being paranoid. However there was someone watching him and they didn't make themselves known until Roxas had slipped his shirt off. The person let out a wolf whistle and Roxas turned his head to see who it was. Axel. He should've known. The blond's cheeks flushed pink and he turned his gaze back to the wall. One reason being that he was embarrassed that someone had spotted the other reason he always changed where no one could see him. On his lower back he had the number thirteen in roman numerals tattooed on. He'd gotten it done in his last school only a few months before he'd left. He'd been having a lot of trouble and to remind himself he was unlucky he'd had the tattoo done…and he'd also had some masochistic tendencies at the time. He'd been very snappish and anti-social-even more so then usual-and he'd lost a lot of friends but that hadn't been the half of it. No one knew about it apart from him though, not even his mum.

The second reason Roxas had blushed though was because Axel was also half way through changing and had been shirtless himself. The red head may look skinny but he certainly had some well defined muscles. I wonder what it would be like to touch them…to run my hands down his chest then down into his…oh my god why am I even thinking about that! The boy's face flushed redder and he hurried to change the rest of his uniform. He couldn't stay in the changing room with Axel at such close proximity.

He rushed out into the gym where the two PE teachers for the boys were waiting. One of them-Cloud Strife-was Roxas's cousin while the other was Cloud's childhood friend Squall Leonheart. Roxas was on good terms with them both in fact over the summer he'd hung around at their apartment a little but he knew they wouldn't go easy on him in lessons…well Cloud might a little but knowing his luck Leon-Squall preferred to be called Leon these days for some unknown reason-would be in charge. When the whole class was finally assembled the blond and brunet teachers introduced themselves and informed them that today they'd play a game of football. They were split into two teams and sent outside to play on the field. Cloud and Leon kept a close look on the teams. Hayner-he was on the same team as Roxas-fouled several times by 'accidentally' kicking Axel's legs rather then the balls. It had been raining the night before and the poor red head got coated in mud. By the end of the lesson it was obvious Axel would need a shower.

Roxas couldn't hold back a chuckle at the sight of Axel trudging back to the changing rooms. He looked like he'd been bathing in the mud. Axel turned to Roxas with a melodramatically shocked look on his face.

"Oh my god…Roxas…you laughed! This mud must be magic or something," he exclaimed loudly, a large grin spread out on his face and before Roxas knew what was happening Axel had enveloped Roxas in his arms and was hugging him as tightly as was possible without hurting him. Roxas looked momentarily stunned but he once he got over it he attempted to get out of Axel's arms but his foot slipped in the mud beneath them.

Roxas fell to the ground, Axel having been pulled after Roxas landing on him and knocking the wind out of the smaller boy. Axel chuckled a little again,

"if you wanted me to fuck you that bad you could've just asked," he joked lowly into the blond's ear. Roxas couldn't explain why but when he got his breath back he didn't push the larger boy off of him. In fact the two just stared into each other's eyes until Axel was suddenly yanked off of Roxas. The blond sat up and just blinked as he watched Hayner-who'd pulled Axel off of him-and Axel argue until Axel just shoved past the smaller dirty blond and headed to wash off the mud. Hayner stomped over to Roxas,

"what the fuck was that about?!" he demanded. Roxas shook his head,

"nothing," he lied. He couldn't answer the question when he didn't even know the answer himself.

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Later that night Roxas laid back on his bed, thinking back on the day. Both times he'd been with Axel they'd touched somehow and each got totally different reactions.

"if you wanted me to fuck you that bad you could've just asked." Axel was shirtless like back in the changing rooms and his black trousers hung loosely of his feminine hips. A fine trail of red hair led down into the trousers. Slender fingers slipped into the belt loops and began to tug the trousers slowly down…

Ring Ring

A mobile ringing loudly from his desk stirred Roxas from his daydream and as he grabbed his phone he looked down at his crotch where a bulge was definitely visible. He sighed a little and checked to see who was calling him before he answered.

"Hey Hayner"

"Yo Roxas, I was just ringing to see if we could meet up at the usual spot tomorrow?"

Roxas checked the calendar above his bed before he answered,

"Sure, I haven't got anything planned."

"Great! It'll just be you and me though so meet there at ten and we'll go from there

Roxas sighed a little,

"Listen Hayner…about earlier…"

There was a snort from the other end of the line,

"It's fine…I've already forgotten about that…you need to learn to let things go!"

Roxas chuckled a little,

"Well I gotta go sort something out right now so I'll see ya tomorrow," he informed his friend. He barely heard the returning see ya before he hung up.

He definitely had a problem to sort out. He sighed then headed to the bathroom to take a cold shower.

Why is my body reacting like this…how can I like Axel like that when I don't even know whether I can stand him or not! Then again this could just be a phase, in a month or so I probably won't be attracted to Axel at all and I won't have to worry about getting a boner over him again. Yeah I'm sure that's all it is.

Roxas tried to assure himself with these thoughts however a niggling voice at the back of his head was constantly telling him that he'll see.

Meep I am so sorry about the shortness and any OOCness or crappiness. I had a major writer's block while writing this!

Anyway a little more backround on Roxas and the AkuRoku's going a little further.

I'm also upping this up to an M though I probably won't write any complete lemon's just bits of smut here and there. Unless you guys want a lemon later on!

Oh and Cloud and Leon are only friends and room mates. Cloud is dating Tifa while Leon is alone. There will be no Cleon you guys! I hope you aren't too disappointed!

Please review and help me out of this block guys.