Their Reactions

Chapter 4

Perry Cox

No. No way in hell was this true. Impossible. Newbie… Newbie doesn't have the balls to look through the glass during surgery let alone slit his wrists.

"Fuck…" I draped one arm over my eyes and one over my stomach, trying to relax into what barely passed for pillows in the on call room. I can't believe it. I won't believe it. I grit my teeth and tried to hold down the contents of my stomach, which ultimately failed and I ended up tackling my way to the bathroom to spill my guts.

"Oh god…" I flushed the toilet and got up to wash off, utterly sickened with the way I was reacting. I let the water gather in the palms of my hands and splashed it onto my face, desperate to remove any trace of despair from me.

Needless to say, it didn't work.

I stared at myself hard in the mirror. Their were bags under my eyes from lack of sleep and I was noticeably pale. My stomach growled but I refused to acknowledge it, seeing as any thing it received was immediately thrown out the front door. I grit my teeth and kicked the stalls. "Damn it Newbie…even in death you manage to piss me off." I choked back a rising sob. There was no way in the seven layers of hell I was going to cry for Newbie of all people. The door creaked open and I immediately brushed myself off. Trying my best to look presentable.

The Todd walked in. I gave him the hardest glare I could muster and held my breath. Hopefully the idiot wouldn't notice any thing. He smiled dumbly and held up his hand. "Bathroom five!"

"Bathroom five?" I balled my hands into fists and grit my teeth once again. "Newbie's dead and all you can think about is your nonsensical high fives?" Like the calm before a storm my voice was unusually quiet but a rage was rising within me.

"Uhh bathroom fives are way different from regular high fives." He stated as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. "Besides, JD's not dead. I just saw him taking a nap in the morgue."

That's it. Its gone. Whatever little strand of sanity I had left snapped at that very moment. An inhuman sound escaped my throat and I lashed out at The Todd.

"Hey what are you- AGGHEAHH!" He screamed, trying fruitlessly to remove my hands from his throat.

"You IDIOT! How could you do that!? To yourself?! To us?! We could've gotten you help, why didn't you tell us something was wrong!?" My grip tightened on The Todd's throat and it was then I realized that what I was saying, made no sense at all. To him at least.

"Someone would have listened! I would have listened!" Tears began to prick at my eyes and this time, I didn't hold them back. Long streams of salty tears streamed down my rough cheeks and I mentally berated myself for breaking down like this.

"You didn't have to go." My voice grew unnaturally quiet and I released The Todd's throat. I was vaguely aware of him gasping for breath and scrambling out the door, leaving me to fall to my knees and sob pitifully.

"Damn it JD." I hugged myself and rocked on the cold tile floor.

"Why did you go?"

My only regret was that I never gave the kid that hug he wanted. Maybe then…he would have lived. Lived on. And give me the hug…I so desperately need.

AUTHORS NOTES

I am SOOOOO SORRY for not updating the day I promised! I feel so horrible for saying I was trying to update everyday, and I am, and then not update the next day!

I had an assignment in my English class and the assignment was, believe it or not, to write a 12 page short story on friendship! :( I don't do friendship! And how 12 pages is a short story is beyond me!

Any way, here's Dr. Cox's chapter! Don't get me wrong, the long torturous wait you had to endure was an added bonus! :)

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