Author's Note: This oneshot was inspired by the moment in Eclipse were Bella and Jacob are in the woods/clearing, but its not actually the characters in the story (if you wanna think of them as such that's no problem) . hope you enjoy it :)

My true feelings washed over me like a violent wave. Before I could savor the joy of this discovered love, bitterness took over. I finally understood why it had taken me so long to realize my own heart. What good was discovering I loved him if I was just going to lose him? Were the words of that poet true- it is better to have loved and lost? I didn't feel that way. The pain that was consuming me at present made me wish I could build the wall that had existed around my feelings right back up, brick by brick if I had to.

I could feel tears building up within my eyes, breaking the threshold, and falling hotly down my cheeks. My knees gave way beneath me, but I do not fall. It was less than a minute before I was brought back to reality.

We were still here, standing on a secluded part of the walking trail. His arms were wrapped around me, my head now bowed into his chest leaving tears stains as the uncontrollable sobs continued. I had to get away. I knew as soon as he let go of me I would fall to the forest floor, but I had to try. I had to put some distant between me and him, between me and the pain.

I pushed against him, but he wouldn't let me go. I pushed harder and still he wouldn't let me budge.

"Please," I said through sobs, feverishly trying to wipe away my tears, "let me go."

"No," he said with a confidence that nearly shattered my resistance.

My heart leapt. I loved that about him, his confidence, but at a time where it could hurt me more than help me I couldn't afford to get swept away. I mused over the two choices in front of me. 'Which one would hurt worse,' I thought to myself, 'breaking my own heart and leaving while I still had the courage or staying with him until the time when he'd be forcibly taken from me?'

The latter of the two choices brought an onset of fresh tears and made it clear which road I'd have to take.

"Let go!!!," I shouted, this time pushing against him with such strength that it surprised him, causing his grip to falter and me to fall to the forest like I had expected.

I sat there, trying desperately to control myself long enough for me to get up and run away.

He came over to me, crouched beside me, and said "Look, I don't know how much time we'll have together, but unless you promise to spend it with me it might as well not matter. Besides, you have something of mine and I'm not letting you leave me with it."

I scowled at him in confusion. What was he talking about? I didn't have anything of his. He laughed at my confusion. "You have my heart silly," he said poking my forehead.

I wiped my face in an attempt to keep it serious. "Well then it's a fair trade cause you have mine," I said, "now give it back."

He laughed again causing him to almost fall over. "I don't think so," he said. "It took a long time to get. I think I'll hold on to it for awhile," he finished with a smile.

I looked into his eyes for the first time since my feelings had been discovered and all my plans to leave melted. "It's yours for as long as you want it," I said truthfully.

I thought about the two choices I had put before myself not five minutes ago. They both seemed bleak and equally pain inducing as we sat here in complete bliss. Why couldn't it just be like this, the present like we were now-choice number three? If we could have this moment forever, then everything would be perfect.

The End

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