Author's Note- Okay so here's what's been going on. My computer died. Completely leaving me without all of the things I'd written. So now I have a new computer. So I had to rewrite everything. Now I've got an awful cold. And my love comes home for two weeks from war sometime early June. . so writing isn't my first priority. Thanks for being patient.

Warnings-

Disclaimer- I own nothing.

Riku sat on the shore of Destiny Islands, watching the waves crash in. They looked almost black with the silver moon shining down. It had to be well past eleven. The silverette sighed softly, resting his arms on his raised knees. He'd been here for almost a month and things were back to the way they used to be, no one seemed to care that he was here anymore. The wind blew his long bangs in front of his eyes, but he didn't move them. He didn't care. Life was lacking.

"Hey," Sora sat down beside him, "You okay?"

"...yeah." Riku kept his eyes on the ocean. Not really wanting to talk.

"You know you can talk to me right? I mean whatever they did to you there... I'm here to listen." Sora smiled lightly, obviously trying to help.

Riku smiled bitterly, "It's okay."

Sora laid his hand on his bicep, "Riku..." He said his name softly and Riku looked over at him.

"What?" When he looked over, Sora was close to him. Riku drew back ever so slightly.

"I wanted to apologize for how I reacted when you...well told me things, before all of this went down."

"It's fine." Riku was quiet.

"No it's not. You're my best friend and I shouldn't have reacted like that. It was wrong of me and you know it." Sora was almost pleading with him.

"It's over and done with Sora. It doesn't matter anymore." Riku looked back at the ocean.

"Yes it does!" Sora was driving him insane, he didn't want to hear anymore.

"Why?!" Riku snapped, his attention drawn back to him.

"Because I love you," Sora was quiet again and he sounded hurt.

"What?" Riku couldn't even believe what he just heard. No. Not now.

Instead of explaining Sora pressed his lips to Riku's. It was soft and gentle and loving. It was everything he should want. But he didn't. He wanted a burning, painful kiss. One that left him speechless and gasping for air. He wanted bruises and bite marks. He wanted Axel.

Riku pulled away from the brunette, looking away from him. "No."

"But I thought you wanted me. I thought you wanted us to be together?" Sora wasn't happy.

"I did..." Riku trailed off, not knowing what to say.

Sora's endless blue eyes swam with pain, already knowing the rest of that sentence, "But you don't now."

"Yeah..." Riku felt bad, he was his best friend after all. But then again in some sort of irony, when he'd wanted to be with Sora, he'd been turned down. Now it was Sora's turn. Like justice almost.

"Okay... you know, don't worry about it Riku." Sora smiled, still upset and embarrassed, he stood up. "I'm gonna head home." With that he walked away, back towards his house.

Riku ran a hand through his long hair, sighing softly. Why was life never easy? The teen pondered momentarily before he hoisted himself to his feet. Riku scuffed along the shoreline, the water soaking the bottoms of his dark baggy jeans. As Riku dragged himself back to his little house, which was farther away than Sora's, the wind picked up, whipping his hair all around. Then the rain came.

"Great," Riku muttered, ducking his head down as lightening lit up the dark sky. The rain fell in buckets, soaking the teen. His gray shirt clung to him and his bangs were perpetually in his eyes. Still, he trudged on to his house.

Finally the soaking wet, slightly shivering teen, was inside. Riku kicked off his drenched shoes before he went any farther into the house. He scuffed into his room and peeled off every article of clothing. His shirt almost refused to stop leeching the warmth from his skin. Still trembling slightly, Riku grabbed a towel from the closet outside of his room. Padding back into his room, he toweled off, then dried his hair so it wasn't dripping. Silently, he was thankful his father went away on business of some sort the day after he got home. This way he wouldn't have to worry about when he was home. Or what condition he was in.

He chucked the towel on the floor and crawled into bed. Riku stared out the window by his bed, up at the night sky. Sleep was avoiding him. Whenever he got remotely close to sleep, piercing green eyes invaded his mind. Memories of an actual pleasant night consumed his thoughts.

-

Riku turned on his side, facing the redhead beside him. Axel's head was tipped to the side, his sparkling eyes already upon him.

"What?" Riku asked softly. His aqua eyes half-lidded.

Axel shook his head, "Nothing. Just looking at you." The redhead was calm for a change.

A slight smile graced the teen's face, "Why?"

"Not sure. Just like looking at you when you're like this. You look almost serene." Axel's eyes scanned over his face.

"Yeah, sex does that to me. You seem a bit more relaxed too." His smiled widened slightly.

"I am." Axel reached over and brushed the teen's sweat soaked bangs out of his face without even thinking.

"I like seeing this side of you," Riku admitted quietly, "You're beautiful."

Then Riku seen the most amazing thing. Axel smiled. A real, soft, heart melting smile. He'd shown a gentle side before but not like this. It showed a few of his pearly white teeth and his eyes softened a bit. "Yeah?"

"Yeah." Riku smiled, folding his arm under his head.

"Hm, c'mere." Axel held his arm out towards the teen. Riku inched his way over to the pyro and laid his head on his strong chest. Axel's arm wrapped around his shoulders.

Riku looked up at the redhead and kissed him softly. It was gentle, but didn't lack any passion. It still burned him to the core. Riku made himself comfortable again, letting his eyes close.

-

Riku rolled over trying to stop thinking about it and get some sleep. But he couldn't do either. He pressed his palm to his forehead. It wasn't like his and Axel's well, thing, together was always sweet, hell it almost never was. Only once in a while neither of them would be hostile. When it was calm though, Axel was almost always blunt and honest with what he was thinking, doing or feeling. Like there were certain things he just didn't understand, or wouldn't get why normal humans would make a big deal out of. His poison eyes would take in any emotion that was written on Riku's face. He'd analyze it until he understood... but it usually didn't take long. And once he got it, he knew the look.

Sometimes it drove Riku insane, especially at first. Eventually, he found it endearing. Axel was curious and even though we wouldn't think about things before he did them most of the time, he liked to analyze people. Or at least Riku.

He shook his head, finally shutting out the thoughts. Riku rolled over again, and forced himself to sleep.