MYDEADLYLOVER: Finally! The final chapter! I really enjoyed writing under the Death Note category of FF and I'm really happy to meet all of you Death Note fans. Anyway, Like what I have said on the previous chapters, this will be my final Death Note fanfic since a) I've run out of ideas and b) my fanfics has been abused on other websites. So, yeah, I think I'll be moving to the overcrowded Naruto section or somewhere else. I haven't decided yet. So, yeah…. Chapter inspired by so many things including Itazura na Kiss and Bokura Ga Ita…for the very last time, please enjoy!
----Chapter 13----
----Ecclesiastes----
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."
– Ecclesiastes 3:1.
Lira never knew how she got through all the fear and confusion from discovering that Yagami Light was Kira. All she knew was that she never stayed cooped up in her room. She was always at the common room being served cakes by Watari and sometimes being force-fed by L, insisting that 'cake cures all emo' [1] She actually obliged, seeing that nothing is wrong from eating a lot of cakes other than gaining a few pounds from the sweet treat.
She had tried so many times to pull herself together. She can't be falling apart when she's up against the most notorious killer in Japan. But why did Yagami choose to reveal his true identity to her? Was he planning to kill her afterwards?
It was one of those days that Lira felt too bored to be in the headquarters and watch L's unmoving back that she decided to head out. They were given a chance by L to take a short break saying that he has worked their brains off already and that they should be a little smarter when they returned. She headed out, not even bothering to disturb L in his work. Dresses in shorts, a simple shirt and hooded jacket, she took an umbrella and went to the park. She needed some breathing time. That's what getting over depression is like, right?
Jaa mata ne te wo futta
Ushiro sugata anna ni mou
L didn't even notice her leaving. He just continued munching on his sweet treats. Lira took a glance of his back as she shut the door behind her. Loving this man has been tough. There had been times when she was being neglected; times when she was showered with attention. Times when she was loved and times when she was left in the dark. Yet she enjoyed it, right? She wanted to stay by his side for as long as she can. She wanted to help him. She wanted badly to tell him that she knows who the real Kira is. She wanted to shout at his face and tell him how blind and stupid he has been. She also wanted to blame him for several other reasons. She wanted to confirm how true were his words of love that he had told her years ago.
Anata ga kureta kotoba wo hitotsuzutsu
Omoidashi me wo tojita
It was a little dark outside yet rain was still not falling. Lira strolled through the nearby park, noticing how lovers walked side-by-side lovingly. She could never be a part of a normal couple because of L's job. He's got to keep himself hidden because of the fear of the world's defenses crumbling. What was he expecting? Freaking aliens to take over the world? Lira chuckled at that thought. L was fickle, all right. No one would expect someone scrawny with a messy appearance to be the world's greatest detective. They would usually expect the Sherlock Holmes type with those horribly long trench coats even in the middle of summer and the ubiquitous pipe for smoking. She would never expect L to wear those horrible clothing. There was no need to be so obvious, anyway. Lira was startled when she heard a voice calling her name.
"Oh, if it isn't Valentine-sensei!" A middle-aged man said, waving to her. She immediately recognized the source of the voice. He was none other than the father of Kira himself: Yagami Suichiro.
"No need to be so formal with me, Yagami-san," Lira smiled. She looked up to the man's eyes seeing only kindness in them. How could he father the world's greatest mass-murderer?
"Ah, but still, you taught my Light – " Lira almost flinched at the mention of that name but she controlled herself. It would do her no good to give sign of weakness. " – so many things, come, let's have coffee, my treat," Suichiro smiled at Lira and led her to the nearby café.
"You seem kinda off nowadays," Suichiro commented as they settled down and had placed their orders.
"Really? I never noticed myself," Lira lied.
"Don't be too serious. Go for a change of scene once in a while. It would not do good to succumb to stress, you know," Suichiro said as the waitress came and served their orders.
"I was just too bad at taking how the events the events are turning out," Lira said, rephrasing her biggest worry. L was completely exposed to the real Kira and if Light already has the power similar to that of the second Kira, it would be a matter of time before L was killed. She was seriously scared for L's sake.
"If it's about L, I think you should not worry about him that much. He could be a child at times but he's really and excellent man. He can handle himself well," Suichiro said, emptying his cup.
"Oh, break's over, I must go now, Valentine-sensei," Yagami Suichiro said, glancing his watch and throwing in some money at the table before standing up to leave. Before Lira could stop herself, she asked Yagami the question that has been playing at the tip of her tongue.
"Yagami-san," The man glanced back at her with a questioning look. Lira hesitated before blurting out her question. "I – if you know wh-who the real Kira is, w – would you tell it to L?" Lira asked.
"Of course," Yagami Suichiro answered in a matter of fact tone.
"But, s-say, he's close to y-you. Someone v-very unlikely to b-be Kira, would you s-still tell L even if it m-means losing someone important to you?" Lira stumbled on her words but nevertheless she had said it.
Fuan ni naru doushite nano kokoro ga furueteru no
"Of course. Justice comes first before family, friends or anything else, for that matter. Protecting our county is much more important than losing a single loved one," The elderly man answered proudly. Lira thought bitterly. What if this man was to know that his son is the real Kira?
"Well, if you don't have anything more to say, I'll be going now," and with a last smile, the older Yagami exited the café.
Oikakete ikitai kedo
Rain had started pouring outside the café windows and Lira had decided that it would be best if she would head back already. She was still immersed in her thoughts about what Yagami Suichiro had said. Would he still be standing by his words if he knew that his son is the real Kira?
Lira wanted to shout out so badly to the world who Kira is but something keeps on preventing her from doing so. It was fear. It was the inexplicable fear of what will happen when she blurted out the truth. Now she knows how eyewitnesses felt when the perpetrators are threatening them. Light could kill her the instant she made the fact that he was Kira. Not only her but a whole lot of people as long as he knows their name and face. The whole world seemed to be Kira's hostage and Lira was the poor witness of all his atrocity.
Yuugure no sabishisa ga sonna yuuki nomikonda
Lira kicked off her wet sneakers before she entered the headquarters. It would not be good to see these men slipping around because of the puddles she had made because of her wet shoes. If Lira was in a normal state of mind, she would have noted the absence of Watari's welcoming smile and even the lax in the third layer of security. Where was all those voice recognition shit that the investigation squad had all hated?
Her footsteps echoed on the floor as she descended the stairs that would lead her to the investigation room. Lights were off along the many hallways; you would think that someone had died. Lira placed a hand against the wall so as not to stumble and continued walking down the seemingly endless corridor. The darkness frightened her quite a bit. It made her feel like she was alone. And being alone was not the best thing she could think of at the present time. Nearing the door of the investigation room, she heard frantic voices.
"What's happening?!" A panick-stricken Matsuda stuttered more than he usually does.
"I told Watari to delete all the data in the computer if ever something happens to him," L ever-so calm voice responded. Lira peered into the room, seeing nothing but black with white writing too small for her to read at that distance.
"Watari is now dead." L continued as if it was a normal thing that a person drops dead without any reason at all. Lira could not take it anymore and entered the room silently. She wanted to comfort L. They both had lost a father figure that day. As she was about to reach the lighted part of the room, L began talking in a panicked voice that she never heard him use before.
"Where's the shinigami?!" L asked and everyone wheeled around not noticing Lira at all.
And then it happened. L stopped at mid-sentence and keeled sideways, as if in slow motion, falling onto the floor but was saved when Light caught him. They stared at each other for a while until L, in a shaking voice said, "I was right…but I…" L never got to finish his sentence as his body fell limp in Light's arms.
Anata no egao no naka ni watashi wa iru
Sukoshi hanareta dakede
Maigo ni natta youna kodomo mitai nakidashisou
Sunao nara konna omoi shinakutemo sumu no ni na
Lira screamed and ran towards L's body, yanking Light's hands off of her beloved L. "Get your hands off him, you bastard!" she kept on screaming as she hugged L's form, biting back all the things she wants to scream at Light. She saw it, all right, that evil look in his eye that told her that he won his little game with L. Fuck him. Screw him. He never won. L got there first, she knew it. L just didn't have enough evidence to support his deduction but, knowing L for almost her whole life, she knew how he thinks better than anyone else.
Suki dakara, suki dakara, zettai suki dakara
She cupped his face in her hand to see his sleeping form. It was very seldom that L sleeps and Lira could almost always remember those instances when she would just stare at his peaceful form at he catches up with some sleep. He shakes him, as if trying to wake a child who is going to be late for school. He won't wake. A voice kept nagging at the back of her head and she felt tears falling down her face. No need to rub it in, bastard, she answered back but she kept on staring at his face. It was so peaceful and looked so content. Lira's tears kept streaming down as she remembered all that she's been through with L.
The first time we meet…
"It's L. an this little fellow over here is B," the boy answered. It was then that Lira noticed a small boy about the age of two or three cowering behind L and grabbing at his baggy pants. She thought that this guy might be using some stupid name and decided to play along.
"I'm Lee, by the way," She answered inventing madly.
"Nice to meet you, Lee," L said and extended hid hand to the girl still sitting on the bed.
"Nice meeting you too, L," Lira said and shook the hand that L had extended. B, realizing that there was no danger at all with the girl before him decided to come out from behind L and stretched his arms above him, reaching for Lira's extended arm and hugged it. "You too, B. Nice meeting you," Lira said.
The first time I experienced having a family…
"It's alright as long as mommy and daddy is by my side," The kid chirped holding onto the blanket.
"Of course we will be sleeping beside you," L assured the boy as he lay down beside him, turning to look at the kid lying in the middle. He still has that horrible posture even when lying down. He motioned for Lira to do the same and the girl imitated L lying down, also facing B.
"Mommy, daddy, could you kiss me before I sleep?" B asked the two and they both leaned to kiss the kid in the cheeks.
"B really likes to get his goodnight kiss," L told Lira as if to say that it should be expected from the boy.
"Daddy, why don't you kiss mommy too so that she can sleep well?" B said as he tugged at L's sleeve.
"I can't do that," L told the child who pouted.
"Why?" the kid said mustering the cutest puppy-dog eyes he could.
"We're not married yet and only married boys kiss their wives," L told the boy poking him on the nose.
The first time you lost your composure…
"New arrivals?" L asked Mr. Wammy who nodded in answer. Lira, however snorted to L's choice of words. It was as if he was referring to the children as if they were packages to be sold at a department store.
"Oohhh.. I hope both of you will become next in line to succeed Mr. Meanie and then, you should defeat this sugar-loving bastard," Lira said and crouched low to smile at the children.
"Well, on that note, I think they should make up for B," Mr. Wammy smiled at L whose eyes widened.
"What? You mean I'll baby sit them? I thought I was through with that phase already!" L retorted.
My first kiss…
"Dad!" Mello exclaimed. "Have you ever kissed mom?" L almost choked on his chocolate.
"Yeah, why don't you kiss mom? How can we be a family if the father does not kiss the mother?" Matt agreed. "Dad, will you kiss mom for me? Just for today. I'll take that as your birthday gift for me," he continued while fitting on his goggles. L gulped hard. This could be the effect of the movies that Lira had watched with Matt. He would be sure to tell her off once this is all over.
"Yeah, go on, dad!" Mello said, cheering L on. L had no choice because the children were pressuring him. How could Lira just sit there and stare at him? Slowly, he bent over to Lira and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek just like what Matt did.
"No fair! On the lips, dad! Just like in the movies!" Matt said, beating L on the arm while Mello nodded vigorously. L took another deep breath and landed a peck on Lira's lips. It felt so good to L, like a very sweet strawberry shortcake. When they broke apart, L touched his lips with his fingers in wonder. Did he really just do that? Apparently, it was a yes for when he looked at Lira, it was to see the girl touching her lips in amazement too.
"Well," L started but his throat seemed constricted.
"I can say that that was an – interesting experience" Lira finished for him.
You were there to comfort me when Near first came to us…
"N – Near. Name him N – Near. And t – take my s – surname. Name him N – Near River," The woman said before her eyes widened as she took one last agonizing breath and her hold on Lira's hand sagged. The woman died of childbirth. Lira was shocked and stared for a while at the dead woman's body. She never even found out her name.
"Come on," L put his hand around Lira again and hugged her. It was the best he could do to comfort Lira who sobbed quietly onto his white shirt. He did not even care if she soiled his shirt. Her grief is his grief. That, he was sure of.
The first time I felt true love…
"Well, alright. Its goodbye for us, then," Lira said, smiling for the last time.
"Yeah, I think so," L said and Lira turned her back to L. The man however had to succumb to the impulses that his body sent him for the last time for it would be a very long time, maybe never at all that he would feel them again, he grabbed hold of Lira's arm and turned her around.
"I asked you to promise me one last thing then before we part," He said as he stared at those hazel eyes. He was very determined to remember every single inch of her for it may be the last time he may ever see her again.
"Anything then," Lira replied, clutching at L's shirt for support as L dragged her closer.
"Promise me that you'll always be my baby," the man said and they shared their last passionate kiss as Wammy House orphans.
So why do you have to leave me all alone? Was it all just a show? I loved you L. I'll never forget you…
Lira kept to herself during the brief funeral for L and Watari. She clearly avoided any close contact with Light, assuming that now that her protector is gone, he would bully her to no end and torture her mind a little more with the fact that she knows who Kira is but obviously, she cannot tell. With the data deletion that L had instructed, no evidence would be there now to support her claim. Lira could have hacked it if she wanted to but she decided to respect L's last order. Light was a smart one. He had planned everything too well. He thrived in her loneliness and was probably glad to see her crumble to a thousand pieces as she wept silently.
The investigation team gave her all the support she need but she really cannot take any of it. Soon, Wedy, Aiber and the board members of the Yotsuba group died before her. She couldn't take it anymore. Anyway, there was no more reason to stay not that L had died. She decided to head back to the place where it all began: The Wammy House.
Being back at that orphanage wasn't really a comfort. Mello and Mat were being such babies, bawling out about how L had never said a word before he died. Lira also grew tired with Mello and Near biting each one's head off, competing to be L's successor. Lira decided to leave the orphanage and find he own way in the outside world. She has nothing more to do with the Kira case. Everything she knows about it, she left in the past. All except for one thing: she would never forget L, the only one who had touched her heart and the only one she would love forever.
A few years later…
Lira sighed as she stared at the diamond ring on her finger. It was her engagement party tonight. She found someone who was willing to love her for the rest of her miserable life. Light had decided not to kill her for reasons unknown. Maybe it was his respect of her as a mentor or maybe just out of pure pity or he just really doesn't care at all. Being alive wasn't really a gift for Lira through those years. She had struggled to work and finally became the boss of her own company thanks to the financial help that the sister companies of The Wammy House had given her. She had met Gakuto [2] after that and they befriended each other and started going out. He asked her to marry him and she accepted which led to this even tonight.
As Lira stepped out of the curtains leading towards the stage and held her fiancée's hand, she bit her lip and both advanced forward, waving to the crowd of people in front of them. She glanced sideways to her lover and realized that her heart was still empty after all.
That night, she has proven the exact same thing that B had failed to prove during the Los Angeles Straw Doll Murder Case: nothing – even in a thousand years – can replace the original.
"Your husband will be a very, very luck guy," L remarked.
"I wonder then when I will marry," Lira said sarcastically.
"Oh, don't be in such a hurry at that. Take care of your heart," L said.
----END----
Lyrics posted in this chapter are from the following:
Suki Dakara from the anime Bokura Ga Ita
Aozora no Namide from the anime Blood+
Other notes:
[1] - "cake cures all emo" is a quote I found in a fanfic and a fanart and I really liked the concept so why not have L cure Lira's emo?
[2] - Though I'm not much of a Prince of Tennis fan, I've taken a liking to Gakuto Mukahi mainly because of his stupidity. While thinkin of a name for Lira's new 'guy' that was the first thing that popped out of my crazy mind. :)
Thank you for reading until the end. God Bless you always!