Chapter 15: Saved by an Angel

A/N: I am breaking my own unspoken rule now. I am writing this chapter from Edward's POV. Usually I dislike when stories change POV mid chapter, or story, but I feel it's necessary for everyone to see exactly why Edward left, and not rely on Bella's inaccurate decryption of his behaviour.

Also, for clarity:

Sentences in italics are from the monster in Edward.

Sentences bolded are his internal thoughts directed at the monster.

Bella cannot hear either one obviously. ;)

(Flashback)

I'd returned home from hunting a bit earlier than normal. I'd hunted well, and it should allow me to keep my precious control for another 10 days at least. My unbeating heart was elated. Ten uninterrupted days and nights with my beloved. A smile crept over my lips at the thought. An image of Bella entered my mind. Oh Bella...so beautiful. No other on earth or heaven could compare to her, I was sure of it. She was the one. She was all I would ever want or need. I couldn't wait to embrace her once again. I should get to her house at roughly 10 pm.

I got to Bella's house earlier than normal. My impatience at seeing her had driven me to a new record of speed I thought smugly. I could hear Bella in her room. I snuck up quietly, making sure I was not seen from the street. I sensed movement from Bella's bed. I snickered lightly. Was Bella so impatient to have me lay with her, that she was already in her bed waiting for me to arrive? That would be so like her, I thought.

As I deftly made my way into her room, I was immediately sure that something was different. Bella's scent was a thousand times stronger now. I felt on edge immediately. It had only been a few hours since I'd seen her at school. Why was her scent so powerful now? I licked my lips, and then immediately shook my head. Something was wrong. Then I heard her sweet voice whisper words that would have stopped my heart beating, if it were not already dead.

"Edward...I want your cock inside me. Oh Edward...make love to me. Make me yours forever, and ever." she said.

I froze. I knew instantly now why her scent was so much stronger than normal. I knew what I had to do, but I couldn't do it. I had to leave. No good could come of this, I was sure. My eyelids fluttered as another wave of Bella's scent assaulted me. I could smell her blood and her desire now. The smell was unlike anything I'd ever experienced before. My hands trembled. Don't look Edward, I chastised myself. My head slowly turned of it's own accord, ignoring my feeble attempts at reasoning.

I knew what to expect, but the thought did not adequately prepare me for what I saw. Bella...she was completely naked on the bed. My eyes ran across her body, scanning every inch of it in a second. The beauty and sexiness I found would remain in my mind forever – perfectly preserved in meticulous detail by my amazing vampire brain. I was devouring every cell of her skin, and cataloguing every little moan and whimper she made. I could see that she was pleasuring herself. She had obtained a sex toy, obviously...and was using it in place of me. My eyes hovered between her legs. I saw the glistening wet between her thighs as the vibrator penetrated Bella's most intimate place again and again.

My hunger increased. I heard the monster inside me now. He'd been quiet for so long. I never heard him in Bella's presence anymore, but after so many months, he was back.

Take her. Do it now. She is so soft, and vulnerable. Drink her blood. Satisfy your hunger. Don't deny what you are...

I could feel my anger rising inside me.

No! I will not harm her. You do not control me. I choose when, what, and why I hunt. You obey me. You will obey me.

You are weak Edward. Do what you were created to do. It's just a human. Do not cloud your instincts with intellectual arguments. You are a killer. You will kill her. Listen! Can't you hear it?! Her blood calls out to you! Surely you hear it! Give in, just this once...

I couldn't move. Bella's sweet voice broke the silence as I waged war with my inner demon.

"Edward...I wish you were thrusting into me now. I wish this was you..." she whispered then. "Make love to me. Show me how much you love me..." she finished breathlessly.

I was pathetic. Bella did not deserve me. I was her boyfriend, and look what happened. I'd been so worried about protecting her, I couldn't give her what she needed. This poor creature...she only craved for me to love her, and when I denied her, she ended up searching out prosthetic erections in order to satisfy her desires. This ends now.I would show Bella love.

My mind raced at the thought of being with Bella. I could imagine our bodies entwined now. So close, not knowing where one ended and the other began. Yes, to feel Bella close to me. To smell her scent as I excited her. To hear her whisper my name, and moan for me. Oh God... To feel my teeth against her neck, tasting her blood as I thrust into her. Wait! What? Where did that come from?

Kill her Edward. Drink her blood. It's what you want. What you've always wanted. Do not delude yourself any longer...

Get out! I am not listening to what you say any longer!

It was you who thought about drinking her blood just now. YOU! It is what you want, what you need.

I can't hurt Bella. She is my life. And yet...one little taste? Would it be so bad? I could always stop...

Yessssssssssssss. One little taste...

My eyes focused on my prey again. My hunger was so strong now. I would give anything to satisfy it. Visions of Bella flooded my mind now. Her nakedness, her fingers working over her clit in a blur. The heaving of her chest as she pleasured herself. I opened my mouth slightly. I was in hunting mode now. My mind was giving itself over to my senses. It will be so easy. I took a step toward the dark haired girl with the luminous brown eyes.

A vision flashed across my eyes. Two people – vampire and human in a meadow. Bella and I. Something is wrong. What am I doing? My eyes opened wide. Bella? Was I about to attack Bella. My brain rejected the idea. I was strong. I would never attack Bella. I didn't seem so sure.

I watched her again. Her juices were flooding out from inside her. I saw her eyes open wide. Her whole body convulsed and thrashed. I could see those unseeing eyes lost in the throes of ecstacy. The look on her face drove me wild with desire. She was so sweet but she was also so sexy. I had to have her. She was everything I would ever need. I would make Bella mine tonight. Mine tonight, and forever and always. I will drink her blood, and change her tonight.

Yessssssssss.

I took another step closer. I was secreting venom now. I could feel my razor sharp teeth slick with it's poison. I was so sure of my actions. One bite, and it would all be over. Bella would be mine. My teeth would find her neck. I would feast upon her intoxicating blood, and then my venom would transform her into a companion worthy of nature's ultimate predator.

The monster inside me growled in triumph.

Finally!

I heard a voice. "Darn. Edward will be here in 20 minutes!" it had said.

"I'm here now" I heard myself replying. No sense denying the inevitable. Twenty minutes, or right now – it's all the same. Come to me Bella. Embrace your death. You will die tonight by my hands. You will be reborn as a vampire. Your time as a human is at it's end.

From somewhere deep in my head, I could feel something struggling against the fog that clouded my brain. It didn't matter. It was already too late. I focused on my prey now, analyzing her neck. I was about to strike. This is it.

Without warning, the frantic image fighting from deep inside my brain finally burst free of it's captor. This is what the monster did not want me to see.

My mind went black. An image of Bella appeared. Her chestnut eyes shone fiercely with love. Her soft skin shone as if under the sparkling sun. Her cheeks were slightly rose coloured as she blushed under my gentle caress. Her soft red lips parted then, revealing her white teeth. The Angel in my mind spoke three words, but it was enough.

"I love you" she said sincerely, and then faded from view.

I froze. Horror overcame me at what I was about to do. In my instant of sanity, I knew immediately that I was nowhere near being in control now. I could feel the monster rising inside me again. There was no time. There was only one thing I could do.

"I have to leave" I told her and dashed out the window. I didn't know where I was going, but I knew I had to leave Forks NOW. I would deal with the consequences tomorrow, but for now Bella was safe from the monster. Safe from me...

(End Flashback)