A/N: For all those who subscribe and may get an edit alert, I only changed the title. I thought this was more fitting. ;)

Chapter 19: Invasion of the Panty Snatchers

It had been a week since Bella and I had begun to increase our physical relationship. Our routine was pretty standard now. I'd come to her room at night as always, and we would talk. That would eventually lead to kissing, and then eventually Bella's top and bra would come off. I'd practice my self control with her then - on her tantalizing breasts. We were in the middle of practicing now.

My tongue ran lazily between Bella's breasts. Her breath was heavy, and her chest was heaving. I searched out her hard nipple, and my tongue trailed circles around it. Bella shivered as my cool tongue traced it's way over her nipple now and smooth skin. Her eyes blinked open and closed with each flick of my tongue on her soft flesh. "Oh Edward...." she cooed, losing herself under my loving licks. It was so much easier now, I realized. It might be easier, but it still sent a thrill through my body each time Bella exposed her breasts to me. They were so perfect. Everything about her was exquisite. Two perfectly round orbs, begging for my touch and tongue. I loved how she reacted to even my lightest touch. I took her other nipple in my mouth now...sucking on it gently. My tongue danced across the smooth skin then, and returned to lightly whip across the nipple once more. Bella moaned softly. Her eyes were closed now, and her head was lolled to the side as I lovingly touched her. I decided to tease her now. I opened my mouth, and softly blew my ice cold breath across the moist trails I'd left across them. The act had it's intended effect. Bella's body writhed, and she shivered lightly under my playful assault to her peaks.

I moved up to her face now, hovering over her. She looked at me sweetly. "I love you Bella." I whispered, as I placed my lips on hers. I felt her hands wrap around my neck, and she kissed me back feverishly. She broke the kiss only long enough to reply.

"I love you too Edward. I'll always love you..." she whispered, and her mouth found mine again. I sighed as I felt those soft delicate hands running through my hair. I pulled away slightly, and moved down her neck. My tongue danced across her smooth neck. I was aware of the scent of strawberries now, as her hair lay across her shoulder. I breathed even deeper now.

"Oh Bella...everything about you drives me wild..." I admitted. I felt her heart rate increase as I spoke. She loved when I told her that I found her body wondrously exciting. I wasn't lying. Every word was the truth.

"Bella..." I whispered, my lips finding her neck. I sucked on the smooth skin there playfully. She gasped lightly before answering.

"Yes....Edward...? she said between gasps.

"You are so sexy to me..." I whispered sincerely into her ear. I kissed her earlobe after I spoke.

"Oh Edward..." she sighed

I ran my mouth down her stomach now. Bella's soft skin seemed to stretch endlessly before me. I wanted to experience it all, and explore every square millimeter of it. I planted soft kisses over her stomach, gliding ever closer to her waist. Bella's sighs and noises were increasing in frequency and volume now. I looked up at her with concern on my face, and she immediately understood. She put her hand over her mouth, muting her excited whimpers, however minutely. It would be enough to keep Charlie from hearing.

I worked my way around her belly button, and towards her pyjama bottoms. I trailed kisses along the bottoms, and then turned away. So far, that was the border line. I'd never strayed further than Bella's waist – unsure of my self control. I could tell she was excited, however. My acute vampire senses were even now analyzing Bella's body closely. But the scent tonight was not as powerful as the other night. Bella was aroused now, but not like that night. That night, she'd been actively masturbating using a sex toy, and her juices were literally flowing out of her. Tonight, the scent was tolerable. The concentration was much less, and the layers of fabric masking the scent did help as well. And now, I was at least prepared. Since I was expecting it, I could steel my resolve before I experienced it. Still, having said all that, it was hard to resist. I had to constantly remind myself not to be drawn between Bella's legs. It was an effort to make myself obey.

Several more minutes passed, as my tongue worked over Bella's body. She was panting under my attention, as she struggled to breathe. It wouldn't be long now, I thought, disappointed. We would have to stop. Sure enough, two minutes later, I pulled away from her. It was becoming difficult for me now. Bella looked up at me as I pulled away from her, and nodded.

I went to the window, and opened it lightly as Bella covered herself. I inhaled the fresh air deeply. I placed my hands on the window sill, as the clean air purified my senses from Bella's exquisite scent.

"So...how was it?" I asked her playfully.

"Oh Edward...it was heavenly..." she said, moving to me and placing her hand in mine.

"It wasn't so bad for me either..." I teased playfully. She laughed lightly, and got on her tiptoes and placed a kiss on my forehead.

"Thank you Edward" she said fervently.

"For what?" I asked confused.

"For trying..." she explained. I nodded, understanding.

The rest of the night passed much the same as most of the others. Bella and I talked, and gradually she grew tired. She fell asleep in my arms, and I watched her intently the whole night. I could look at her for hours, and never grow accustomed to her beauty. She was a work of art, a priceless treasure, and she was mine. I smiled at that.

The next morning I was aware that Bella would soon wake. I could hear her heartbeat change, and her breathing increased minutely. She shifted slightly, and I could feel her arm over my chest squeeze me just a little tighter. A contented sigh escaped her lips. I smiled. I watched her face as she woke up. Her eyelids lightly fluttered open, and she blinked. Her gaze turned to mine, and she smiled. I smiled back at her.

"Morning..." she said with a yawn.

"Good morning love..." I replied, running my fingers across her pale cheek. She sighed again under my touch, and closed her eyes. Several minutes passed, and Bella realized she had to begin getting ready for school. She unwillingly left my arms, and grabbed her bag of toiletries.

"Human moment" she said unnecessarily. I smiled at that. I knew exactly where she was going. Bella's morning routine seldom changed.

"Of course..." I replied, as she darted to the bathroom. I heard the sink running and knew she would be brushing her teeth. Then I heard the shower turn on. I knew now that Bella would be occupied for the next 20 minutes or so.

My thoughts ran back to the conversation I'd had with Emmett. I had yet to act on that idea, although I had admittedly decided to do so that day. It was a matter of how, and when I suppose. I was still somewhat morally opposed to the idea, and I stiffened at the thought whenever it entered my mind. But my concerns were secondary. Bella wanted more. I would try to give her more. That was the only reason I entertained the idea in the first place. I could do it, for Bella. I shook my head lightly now. I was lying, and I knew it. There was another reason. I couldn't admit it out loud. I couldn't tell anyone this. Secretly, the thought of tasting Bella, no matter which way, was driving me wild with desire. I tried to push it back to the fringes of my mind, but it was always there. I could never be rid of it completely. I hung my head. I was so weak! Bella deserves so much more than what I can offer her.

Today was the day I was going to try. It would be sunny this afternoon at school, so of course none of my family would be at school. We would be "hiking" and Carlisle would be calling the school shortly to explain that his children would be absent today.

I left the bed now, and following Emmett's "advice" made my way to Bella's clothes hamper. I grimaced now. Emmett's advice! I was listening to Emmett!? Had the world gone crazy, or was it just me? My hand trembled as I opened the lid, and gazed inside. I could see the top she had wore yesterday, and a pair of jeans as well. A flash of light green caught my gaze. I shivered. If my heart could still beat, it would be thundering now. I hesitated. I closed my eyes, pleading with myself not to continue. My mind was listening, but my body was not. I reached inside hesitantly. I felt the silky smoothness of the fabric. My breath caught in my throat now as I felt the soft satin under my fingers. This was the pair of light green bikini panties Bella had picked up last week with Alice. My whole body shivered with excitement now as my cool fingers ran along the material. I removed them from the hamper, and held them in my hand. I studied the delicate garment in my hand, scrutinizing it. Was this really all that was between Bella and me?

My mind wandered now. I was imagining this delicate garment hugging Bella's body. I could almost see the material stretched across her waist, and between her thighs. My eyes were wide now with the image. I held them up now letting the light shine across them – I gazed at them inquisitively. I held them out, stretching the waist band slightly. The fact that this garment had been worn by Bella two days ago sent a thrill through me. Oh God. This has been between Bella's legs, I realized. My breathing shuddered then. I turned the garment inside out, and my jaw clenched. Now was the time to turn back, if ever there was, I reminded myself. I knew I shouldn't, but I couldn't help it. My gaze drifted to the small piece of cotton between the legs of the bikini. I let out a slow breath as I stared at the stained fabric. My mind struggled with the fact that it was Bella's dried juices that were on the soft cloth. I looked away now, utterly embarassed at myself, and my lack of discipline.

My chest began to heave with excitement. My eyes were closed, and my forehead creased with indecision. Would I be able to forgive myself if I did this, I wondered? Would Bella, if she ever found out? I didn't know the answer to either. I tried to walk away then, but my muscles refused to obey.

I would not do this. Could not, I corrected myself. But I knew I was wrong even as I made the assertion. One thing preoccupied me almost completely now. It was still the same as the other day when I'd spoken to Emmett. Taste Bella? Taste Bella! What vampire, indeed - what man could ever resist?

I knew now, I had to. One taste. Let me taste your love Bella. Let me do this, so I can do it correctly later. I need to accustom myself to your scent, and your taste. It's too risky otherwise, I reasoned. I shook my head. That was not the reason. I was weak. I was filled with desire. Above all, no matter what I could come up with in my head, I alone knew the real reason I would do what I said I could now. I was selfish. I would taste Bella because that was what I was aching to do now. Not for her, not to give her what she wanted – this...this was about me now. Bella, I do not deserve you. I knew I was right, even though she would never agree. I hate myself.

With a slow and deliberate motion, I moved the panties to within inches of my face. My eyes were closed now, but even the day old scent of her caused my eyes to immediately flare open, and radiate with lust. Oh my God. Her scent, her desire, it was so powerful. Calling out to me now, it was much the same as the other day – although I was more prepared to resist it. My body tensed as I felt the demon inside me grow steadily in power and force. I shuddered now, my whole body shaking trying to resist the smell of Bella. I tossed the panties in the hamper, and went to the window to breathe some fresh air. I took several breaths. I was amazed. Her scent was so powerful. Within seconds, I felt my control begin to wane. I hadn't even really smelled her, much less tasted her. Just the proximity to her delectable scent had been enough to awaken my inner demon. No, I could not do this here. Not with Bella so deliciously close to me. Only a thin wall of plaster separated her from her sick monstrous boyfriend now. I sighed. I was a monster, truly I was.

I returned to her bed now, as I heard the water shut off. She would be back momentarily. If I could blush, I would be red now. Would she have known I had been ruffling through her dirty laundry? Of course not, I reasoned. But I was feeling very guilty still about the invasion to Bella's privacy, in any event. I tried not to think about it anymore, and waited for her to return to her room. Within moments, her loving smile greeted me. I smiled back warmly.

She was holding her pyjamas, making her way to the clothes hamper I had invaded only minuted before. I held my breath as she opened it, and tossed her discarded items of clothing in without a second glance. My eyes opened wide then. I watched with my keen senses as a scarlet red piece of silk and lace fell in with the other items. Oh God...the panties Bella had wore just moments ago, I realized. Oh God...to taste her, I shivered involuntarily. She turned to me then. I was aware of her voice, but I could not answer.

"Edward? Are you okay?" she asked me again.

"What? Oh. Yes I am fine..." I snapped out of my daze. A new plan emerged. I would try again at home, but not with the green pair from days ago. My thoughts were focused on the skimpy red pair I'd seen just seconds ago. I hated myself now. I knew now that I would give in to my base desires, but what I hated even more, was that I knew I would be enjoying every minute of it. My eyes became slightly less golden at the thought. Tonight, I would taste Bella...

A/N: Next Chapter: Edward's Release! ;) haha.