Chapter 24:Wanting Bella
I lay back on Bella's bed, and watched her make her way toward me, her hands trembling slightly.
Wearing a dark green stretch cotton top, my vampire vision could detect the barely visible outline of her bra underneath. My breathing increased as I thought about last night, and how my hands had stripped a similar lacy garment from her body, and my lips, hands, mouth, tongue – all had explored Bella's delectable breasts. Her jeans hugged her body in all the right ways, I noticed, and as my glance hovered over her thighs for the briefest of seconds I was filled with an even more powerful sense of yearning. I shook myself out of such thoughts, immediately. That would not happen tonight, I reminded myself – still unsure as I was about my control. No, tonight I would have to stick to the plan.
The plan we'd formed was a simple one. We never really thought about it, it just evolved naturally. One night, I would practice my control as I touched and licked her upper body. The next, Bella would do the same to me – although she was not limited to only the upper half of my body. The idea, even now, caused my golden eyes to glaze over slightly. The third night, neither one of us would give or receive. That night we would be the way we used to be – just content being in each other's arms, reveling in the comfort of just being in love with each other. I enjoyed each night equally. Each had it's own particular appeal, but through it all – there was Bella - and I and that was all I ever needed.
So far, the plan was working wonderfully, I noted to myself with a sigh. Oh, it was not easy for me by any stretch of the imagination. Yes, my control was much better – both with and without Bella present. It was easier now, feeling her hands and mouth on me, but definitely not easy. I had to constantly be on my guard not to slip. One too eager thrust into Bella's warm, moist mouth, and it could literally all be over. I grimaced at the thought. I couldn't ever let myself lose control, no matter how good Bella's attentions felt.
My control sessions when Bella was not present, were going well too, I observed somewhat morosely. Two or three times per week, I would pilfer Bella's delectably sweet smelling panties, and practice at home. Oh...her scent...her taste...it was driving me wild. But, I was getting better. Emmett's advice was actually working in a way. For one, I was building up an immunity to her smell and...taste. My breath gasped as I thought the word "taste". Oh...the word "taste"! It did no justice to the sweet, delicious, perfect flavour of Bella. Nothing could describe the way the evidence of her desire made me feel. Every time Bella's sweet essence was on my tongue, my whole body seemed to explode with every pleasurable emotion. Love, happiness, joy, desire – it was all there – glowing with the intensity of a million suns as her sweet nectar flowed through my body. It literally left me stunned.
But there was something else too, I realized. Although my control was indeed stronger now, my desire for her had actually increased as well. The fact I was now a VIP Victoria's Secret customer, was evidence that although my control was better, I was far from perfect. The delicate garments were usually ruined after my so-called practice session. I sighed now, knowing I was nowhere near enough in control to ever go lower than Bella's upper body now. But someday...! My dead heart would have took a double beat now, if it could beat at all.
My mind wandered frequently lately, imagining tasting my beautiful Bella for real. Not just through the stained fabric of her panties, but with my lips and tongue between her legs as her sweet juices continually ran under my touch. My eyelids fluttered at the thought. Just the idea was making my hunger increase. I could feel it's uncomfortable hold on my throat now, begging to be appeased. I strengthened my inner resolve to match, and checkmated the increased longing almost immediately. I removed the idea from my mind, and felt the ravenous hunger subside, however slightly. I continued to concentrate on my resolve, and I felt the monster being pushed back down. It's hold on me was ebbing now, and I smiled to myself, as I pushed the demon deeper inside me.
Bella was on the bed now...smiling at me. I smiled back, as her hands gently reached for my shirt. She worked deftly on the buttons now, and I could feel the material fall down the sides of my chest, as I watched Bella's face earnestly. She broke into a huge smile as she looked at me. Then her usually radiant brown eyes became slightly smoky, as she took in my chest, and abdomen with a longing gaze. I could hear the tempo of her breathing increase, and her heart took off. She shuddered, sighing, as she gazed at me. She glided effortlessly on top of me now, and I could feel the warmth radiating from her body as her lips found mine. I closed my eyes, feeling Bella on top of me as our mouths met, and we began to kiss softly at first, then more passionately as the minutes passed. Her deliciously delicate lips felt so soft and gentle against my own.
Bella's lips parted, and I felt her warm tongue on my own icy one. The feeling was surreal as the two danced and played with each other – neither giving up ground to the other. My senses were literally being assaulted by Bella now. I loved it. I could feel her body heat against me, and as her hair spilled down over my face as she worked her tongue in my wanting mouth – each fibre seemed to caress my face as if it was the softest silk. The satin locks smelled of strawberries, and their soft caress over my skin sent a shiver through my body. Bella's breathing was ragged now, and each laboured breath seemed to send a jolt of wanting through me. Oh, how I wanted her. I needed her. I loved her so much. I took a deep breath now, and Bella's scent filled my nostrils. My eyelids half closed then, my body lost in the scent of my lovely Bella.
I opened my eyes now, and gazed into Bella's as we kissed. My golden eyes stared unblinking into her lovely chocolate ones now. I heard Bella moan now, and the sound caused the lowest of growls to escape from my lips. I loved to hear her. Every moan, every sigh, every excited whimper from her delectable lips sent a thrill through my still heart.
Bella broke the chain of kisses now, and grinned at me. I knew what was coming. My eyes fluttered again at the thought. She kissed her way down my chin, and my neck. She smiled sweetly now...as her tongue met my hard skin. The exquisite warmth of Bella's tongue on me, as she licked her way down my neck to my chest had me gasping for breath. The fact that I didn't need to breathe at all didn't seem to matter. I struggled for breath under Bella's warm wet tongue. As she kissed and licked her lips down my hard chest, I lightly growled once more. Bella looked into my eyes, seeing me still in control, and her beaming smile was confirmation of her happiness at making me feel so wonderful. I saw her lips move, and heard her voice now – husky with desire.
"I love when you growl Edward..." she admitted in a deep whisper. A flash of insight flashed across her eyes now.
My eyes fluttered again at hearing her voice, deeply laced as it was with lust. What she did next, I could not believe. But what was even more unbelievable, was how it affected me and how my body reacted to it. Bella...growled...at...me!
"Grrr....." she whispered playfully, but deep with desire. My mouth curled up into a slight snarl, and my eyes glazed over. A light guttural growl escaped my mouth in reply to hers. There was no mistaking the desire in my growl. I was hungry – but not for her blood. I was hungry for Bella. I felt my hands ball up into fists now, as the sound of her playful, desirable growl lingered in my ears. The desire in me increased tenfold now. Oh God...she was the epitome of sexiness. She smiled smugly now, immensely satisfied at my reaction.
"Do you like when I growl Edward?" she asked me softly – playfully still. I licked my lips at the sound of her voice. She didn't wait for me to reply.
"Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....." she began again, deeply and softly, longer this time, and my yearning body shuddered under the sound. My breath staggered now, and my head lolled to the side as my eyes began to roll back in my head. My mouth opened now, but no sound escaped. I was entirely focused on the sexy growl I'd just heard emanate from Bella's soft lips. I closed my eyes now, struggling to maintain control. My breathing slowed considerably as I wrestled with my own desire for Bella. Oh, I wanted Bella so much now. With great effort, I pushed the rapidly increasing hunger back down inside me.
I opened my eyes now, nodding furiously in reply to her, before I spoke. "Oh God yes Bella. I love it..." I admitted, frantic for breath. "But please...no more growling. Not right now. I can't take much more. Please love..." I begged.
Bella nodded, understanding. But she was grinning almost from ear to ear now. I had no doubt she was filing "Growling" under the "Things Edward likes" column in her mind. She was just so amazing, and the things she made me feel just made me love her all the more.
Her attention to my chest waned now, as she waited patiently for me to regain a higher degree of control. Instead of using her lips and mouth, she trailed her soft fingers lazily around my neck and chest. My breathing was becoming steadier now, my control returning to it's former levels. She continued to dance her fingers across my chest, and shoulder as my body once again was mine to control. I nodded to Bella now. "Thank you love. I'm...fine...now..." I said softly. Bella's eyes glinted mischievously as I spoke.
She caressed her way down my stomach, and traced each one of my abdominal muscles with her fingers. She began again, this time using her lips and tongue to lick and plant kisses around each one. My body was squirming under her loving lips and tongue. I felt Bella's hands on my the button on my jeans now. I tensed completely as her delicate fingers worked the button free. Oh God Bella...
My eyes were closed, and my other senses were sharper now. I could feel Bella's breath filling the air as her breathing increased now. Each delectable exhalation from her mouth flooded more of her wondrous scent around me. Her heart was racing in anticipation now – I could hear it's thunderous beat in my ears. And then I felt...Bella's hand work the zipper down slowly. I opened my eyes now, and saw the sweet rose coloured blush on my Bella's cheeks as she stared at me – her eyes wide with desire. She met my gaze, and her eyes never strayed from mine as she reached slowly between my legs. Her pulse was racing double time now as she neared my hardness. I was so hard for her now. I could feel my cock begging for release from the confines of my underwear. A few more seconds...
I felt Bella's fingers brush over the soft cotton of my underwear. Such a delicate touch, but it was driving me wild. My cock twitched and bobbed now, begging for release. Bella's eyes were devouring me as she watched my member strain against the tight fabric. She moved her face closer, and I watched with anticipation as she slowly moved her lips to within an inch of my twitching cock. Time seemed to stop as I waited for her to plant her lips on me. I felt them then...and my body shivered. She kissed up and down my length, through the fabric. "Oh God..." I whispered, as with each soft kiss she made me want her more and more.
Bella sighed then, at my whisper, and then I felt her hand running up and down me once more. She was teasing me now. I saw her delicate slender fingers move to the waistband now. Yes... She slowly pulled my underwear down, and my cock stood straight up now...free from it's cotton prison. It was twitching slightly, as if to entice my beloved brown haired, brown eyed vixen to touch it. Bella paused slightly, to remove my jeans and then underwear completely. Then her eyes returned to my cock. She reached out, and I felt her warm hand wrap around the base of my cool smooth shaft. The feeling was so exquisite. She sighed, and began moving her hand up and down slightly.
"I love you Edward..." she whispered.
"Oh God Bella. I love you too." I answered her.
"I love how hard you are Edward...." she continued. My head was moving from side to side as her rhythm up and down my shaft increased slightly.
"I love that you are so hard...for me..." she confessed in her deep husky voice. Her cheeks were hot now, as she spoke her realization aloud. It was true. I was hard for her. Hard for Bella. Oh Bella...I could never get hard for anyone else. It's for you. Only you. You are all I've ever wanted, and all I will ever need, I thought to myself. I'd waited almost 100 years for her. I could wait a thousand more, if only to feel her in my arms just once. I had to tell her.
"Bella..." I whispered. "You make me so hard Bella. You. Only you. I will never want anyone else but you..." I confessed. Bella let out a small moan as she processed my words.
"Oh Edward..." she whimpered softly in reply.
She slowed her rhythm now, and moved her beautiful face to my cock. The anticipation was almost unbearable. I was aching for her now. I wanted her so badly. I wanted Bella. She poked her tongue from her mouth, and inched it ever closer to me. I felt it's warmth on the head of my cock now, and my whole body trembled. Bella smiled at my reaction, and then I felt it's warm slickness move from the head and down my shaft. I was pulsing with desire now as I felt Bella's tongue on me. She licked down to the base of my cock, and I felt her tiny fingers running over my scrotum. I was speechless now. I couldn't moan, couldn't sigh, couldn't even growl. The feel of Bella's hands on my scrotum, and her tongue on my shaft was muting me with pleasure. She wrapped her fingers around my girth now, and I watched dumbfounded as she made her way to my scrotum and kissed it softly with her beautiful red lips. I felt a jolt of electricity shoot through my body as I felt her lips on me. She continued to pump my cock up and down slowly but surely as her mouth and lips worked their magic across my smooth scrotum. I saw her look up at me now, and she smiled. Oh God...what would she do next?
Her mouth opened wide, and she slowly engulfed half my scrotum with her lips. I could feel her mouth around my testicle now, and she sucked lightly. The warmth of her mouth around me sent my body trembling once more. My eyes fluttered rapidly as I watched her, and felt her amazing mouth and hands on me. I was in so much awe that this sweet lovable creature, was also so immeasurably sexy, and was rapidly becoming such a sexual expert. She moved to my other testicle now, and I watched it slowly disappear into her moist mouth. My eyes were glazing now at the sight, and the sensation. I could feel the soft gentle pressure of her mouth, and my cock was throbbing wildly now. Her tongue was moving now, lightly caressing the smooth skin of my scrotum as she continued to suck gently. I watched her amazed.
Bella smiled now, at my awestruck expression. She then moved back up to the head of my cock, and eyed me playfully. She knew what I wanted. I wanted her to tell me. My eyes begged her to do so.
"Edward...I want to...suck...your...cock..." she said slowly, sexily. I closed my eyes now, at her sexy confession. Oh Bella...the things you do to me. She continued now. "I love having you...in my mouth..." she admitted. My eyes scrunched closed tightly, and I struggled to bring my rapid breathing under control, as I heard Bella say the things I longed to hear. Yes Bella...please...I want to be in your mouth...
I felt her mouth engulf my cock now. I was in ecstasy as I felt her warm wet mouth take more and more of my quivering hardness inside. I filled her mouth now completely, and she let out a light moan. Her lips closed now, wrapping tightly around my cock. She sucked gently, and I could feel her cheeks hollowing as the pressure on my cock increased. I let out a moan as I felt her warmth so completely surround me. Bella began to move up and down slowly, keeping a steady pressure on my cock. I can't describe the feeling. It was beyond pleasure now. I watched her work her way up and down my shaft, and her excited moans and whimpers were evidence enough that she was enjoying it as much as I was. Her saliva was running down my shaft now, and pooling at the base of my cock. Her sucking became more intense, and my legs and arms were moving on their own as the pleasure only seemed to increase with each up and down movement of Bella's head.
She was cupping my scrotum now, and playing with it with her fingers, as her sucking became more pronounced. There was so much of her saliva, sloppy sounds were coming from her mouth as her tempo increased. She stopped then, and wrapped both of her hands around my shaft. She began twisting lightly in opposite directions with her hands using her ample saliva as lubricant. She continued to work on my shaft as her wanting lips found the head of my cock once more. She sucked on the head only now, and I could feel her tongue twirling over it as she applied a steady pressure with her lips and mouth. The combined effect of her hands, lips, and tongue was sending me spiraling towards the inevitable blissful release I needed so badly.
I closed my eyes now. Visions of Bella were in my mind as she worked expertly on my cock. Bella's lips. Bella's hands. Bella's face. Bella's breasts. Bella's panties. Oh God...Bella's essence. Taste Bella... I longed to be tasting her as she was tasting me.
"I'm close Bella..." I whispered. Oh God, I was so close. She increased the tempo now, and I could feel myself pass the point of no return. I felt the already pleasurable sensation inside me swell to epic proportions. It burned it's way through my body, frantic for release. I could feel my cock about to explode with pleasure. I heard my voice betray my hidden desires, before I realized I was even speaking.
"Oh Bella...I want to taste you. I want my tongue and lips on you. I want to taste you as you taste me. I want my tongue inside you...exploring every inch of you" I whispered. I was out of time now.
My release built up as it traveled up my shaft, and when I felt it reach the head of my cock, time and space had no more meaning. My whole body seemed to convulse with pleasure, and I was overcome with pure bliss as Bella milked me of my seed. I literally flooded her waiting mouth with my sex. I continued to pump my cum into her, and she did her best to take it all. I was overcome now, as my spasming testicles pumped stream after stream of my thick semen into Bella's welcoming mouth. The extreme euphoria finally began to wane, and I came down from my natural high. I lay still then, panting for breath, my shaft still in Bella's mouth. I opened my eyes then, and saw Bella eying me curiously – her eyes as wide as saucers. She reluctantly released my cock now, and wiped my excess seed from her lips. She cocked her head to the side before she spoke.
"Edward? What did you just say?" she asked, and I felt her heartbeat take off once more.
"Hmmm?" I answered her. Had I said anything? Oh yes, of course I did. I just wasn't meaning to say my desire out loud. Maybe she would think she imagined it. Yes, if I could play dumb...maybe dazzle her with my eyes, and convince her I hadn't said anything... It seemed like a good plan in theory, but I would never do that to Bella. As these ridiculous thoughts ran through my mind, she repeated the question. Time to face the consequences of my unintended vocal slip, I reckoned.
"Well...ah....you see Bella...." I began. Not good. I was getting flustered already. Why oh why couldn't I have just not said anything? This was another example of how my control seemed to weaken when under the influence of Bella's increasingly skilled mouth and hands, I thought to myself.
"Edward...you said..." she began softly, but her voice changed now. "You. Wanted. To. Taste. Me." she said with a deliberate sexy slowness. She had an incredulous look to her eyes now, and I wondered if she was realizing for the first time that I would ever feel like that towards her. It was a ludicrous idea to my mind. Logically, that would be the next step we would take, and why I was practicing so much with her underwear – not that Bella would ever find out about that. I had to be able to be in control when assaulted by her deliciously intoxicating aroma. How long it would take for that to happen, though, I wasn't sure.
"You want to taste me." she whispered breathlessly. Again – her voice slightly laced with surprise. Her voice was even deeper now, and her cheeks were coloured by a deliciously red blush. She seemed in complete amazement at my pleasure induced confession. A soft smile crossed her mouth now, and her eyes were looking at me with adoration. She was over the moon now as her mind considered the possibilities of the future, I was sure.
"Bella..." I began. "Of course I want to taste you. Eventually. I don't think my control is up to it at this time though." In fact, I was pretty sure it wasn't. It didn't matter to her though...just the idea that it could happen one day brought a twinkle to her eye, and an even deeper ruby shade to her cheeks. I could see her eyes narrow slightly, and I could imagine her mind working now, adding this to the list of possible things for us to try in the future.
"You really want to taste me...?" she repeated her voice still filled with wonder, but also anticipation. She wasn't speaking to me...just thinking out loud now. The words seemed to hang unmoving in the air. I squirmed a bit. Hearing her say the words over and over again was causing my mind to race with the idea as well. I pulled her close to me then, and she rested her head on my shoulder. Her strawberry scented shampoo filled my nostrils, and a feeling of peace and contentment filled us both as we lay there together.
She cuddled up to me now, her arm over my exposed chest. Our breathing began to return to normal. We lay still for a few more moments. I heard Bella speak then, and her eyes looked up to see into my own.
"I love you Edward. So much." she whispered.
"I love you too Bella. You are...my life" I replied.
She sighed at that. Another moment passed. I felt her heartbeat increase slightly.
"Edward?" she said quietly.
"Yes Bella?" I answered immediately.
"I want you to taste me too." she admitted, blushing once more as she spoke her desire aloud. My eyelids fluttered again at her words, and the thought. "Eventually." she qualified after only a seconds pause – a grin on her face.
Bella searched my face now, and I saw her beautiful brown eyes lose a shade of brightness, and the smoky look returned once more. I raised my eyebrow at her. The mischievous glint reappeared in her eyes just then. I braced myself. "Grrr...." she growled softly once more, and then giggled. Oh God Bella... My desperate lips met hers then - giving her no more reason to speak at all...
A/N: Okay, so looks like it was another Edward POV, and another steamy scene. I wanted to give those of you who like the EPOV's a little bit of insight into how he was feeling. I guess my lil rule about switching POV's is out the window now. Heh. Hope you all enjoyed it. I wrote this a few hours after I uploaded the last chapter, So Much in Love, but don't have internet now, so probably won't be able to upload it for another 2 or 3 days. :_( I'll start writing Chapter 25(!!!) in the meantime. ;-) I'm not sure what it will be about though. LoL I'll have to think about it. Thanks to all who read and review.
Oh by the way, my absolute favourite part of this chapter is when Bella growls at Edward, and his reaction. LoL! Grrrr! ;-)