Chapter 25: Wanting Edward

For the last few days my mind was occupied by one thing. Well – two things, I corrected myself. First, and foremost, as always - was Edward. No surprise there. Second, was what he had said a few nights ago. He'd confessed that he wanted to taste me. Even now, the thought caused my pulse to race, and I got lightheaded. I steadied myself against the dresser in my room. Finally, after a few shaky seconds, I made my way to the desk. I sat in the chair, and took a deep breath. I was in sad shape, I realized. Just the thought of Edward tasting me between my legs had caused me to nearly lose my already shaky balance. How would I react during the deed I wondered to myself. My brain and body would most likely turn to mush, I noted, only somewhat amused.

I recalled the events leading up to his unexpected revelation. I'd had him in my mouth. I flushed now, at the thought. Oh God...the feeling. The way Edward felt in my mouth was almost indescribable. It always filled me with a sense of wonder, but also lust. Being so close to him, in that way, having a part of him actually inside me – my senses felt overwhelmed by his already powerful presence. And when he came...! Oh God...to taste Edward. The feeling was pure ecstasy. It was literally and figuratively like drinking love. Endless love and joy passed through me when I had Edward's seed in my mouth. It was such a powerful, and potent feeling.

Just as I'd been about to make him cum, he'd confessed he wanted to taste me. I heard the words as I bobbed up and down on his quivering member, and it took a second or two to process them, involved as I was at that moment, I now noted amused. By that time, Edward was already having his orgasm, and I did my best to prolong it with my all too eager mouth. When his pleasure wave passed, it really did hit me what he'd confessed a moment earlier. I knew he must not have been in complete control when he spoke those words. Not that I was worried at the time. I secretly expected tiny lapses in his control on occasion, especially as the frequency and duration of our practice sessions increased. Not that I would admit that to Edward, I thought slyly. I could live with minor slips in control – if it meant our practice sessions would continue. Edward's vocal slip was just another example of less than perfect control on his part, but still okay in my books.

Now his words seemingly floated in my mind. They seemed to hang in the air, my mind and body unwilling to let them go.

"Oh Bella...I want to taste you. I want my tongue and lips on you. I want to taste you as you taste me. I want my tongue inside you...exploring every inch of you" Those were Edwards words, recalled with perfect clarity now. I'd never forget them. My breath was coming faster now, and I blushed. Oh Edward...I want that too. I want your lips and tongue on me. Oh please...taste me. A shiver ran down my spine at the thought. My imagination began to take over now...

(Bella's imagination at work)

I lay on my bed gazing at Edward. I was completely naked now. Edward was looking at me with love and adoration in his eyes. I locked my eyes with his. Those wonderful golden orbs were shining at me, and his smooth lips were curled up into a slight smile as he gazed at my face.

"I love you Edward..." I whispered.

My breathing came faster, and my cheeks coloured pink as he looked over my body before he replied.

"I love you Bella. Always and forever..." he whispered. I sighed. Oh Edward...love me completely. Love me with your mind, your body, and your soul. Love me the way I love you. It's all I want Edward – for us to love each other in every possible way. Edward moved to me now, and lay beside me...his face next to mine.

"You are all I want and need, now and always." he whispered softly. My eyelids fluttered at his words, and I closed them for a moment. I felt his light touch on my cheek now, and reopened my eyes to gaze at my Angel.

His perfectly white teeth were formed into a radiant smile now. He began running his fingers lightly down my neck. The feeling was heavenly. I moaned softly under his expert touch. The icy fingers ran over my exposed skin, and my head rolled to the side. My breathing was coming faster now, as I felt my nipples harden as Edward reached my breasts. I let out a gasp as he took one in his mouth. My legs began moving back and forth now, no longer under my control. Edward moved to my other breast, and copied his earlier attentions. Another gasp escaped my lips as he enveloped my hard nipple with his cold mouth. I was struggling to breathe now. He continued working over my quivering body...touching and licking my breasts and stomach. Occasionally his fingers would replace his tongue, and trace over my skin lazily. It didn't matter which – I shivered under every way Edward would touch me. An inner heat was smouldering inside me now. I could feel my inner thighs wet with my excitement as Edward lovingly touched me. My eyes were smoky now, fueled with an inner lust and desire. My eyes pleaded with Edward to not stop at my waist.

He leaned close to me. I felt his sweet icy breath on my face. His voice was little more than a whisper.

"Bella..." he began. I moaned slightly as he said my name. "I want..." he continued. My heart began to race, and I felt my pink cheeks get even hotter now. Please Edward...say it. Tell me that you know what I want. Oh please Edward... His smile widened as his keen senses noted my increased breathing, heartbeat, and the deepening blush on my cheeks.

"...to taste you..." he finished, gazing into my smouldering eyes now. My eyelids drooped slightly at his words, and my lip trembled. My chest heaved now, as I heard those words. My body began to shake lightly, overwhelmed with anticipation at what I had just heard. I tried to speak, but couldn't find volume for my voice. Edward moved effortlessly down the bed, and I looked at him dumbfounded. Was this really happening? As if to answer my silent question, Edward began caressing his icy fingers across the skin by my left ankle. He began to trace patterns up my leg, which seemed to send my internal body temperature into the stratosphere. From my ankle...he worked slowly up my shin, and across my knee. My eyes were already wide as he danced his way up my upper leg. When I felt the icy digits on my thigh, my eyes closed tightly. Oh God...I couldn't take much more of this. He ran along my outer thigh, and then worked his way back down slightly. I knew what was coming. I opened my eyes once more. Edward gazed between my legs. His breathing was heavier now too as he stared at my slick slit. My inner thighs were already wet with my excitement.

Edward started again at my knee and began to work up my leg...concentrating on the inner side this time. As soon as he got to my inner thigh, my legs opened without my conscious thought. The soft caresses inched their way closer and closer to my center. My body was quivering now – trembling for release. So close...Edward's fingers were only an inch or two from being exactly between my legs. I watched fascinated as he ran his fingers through the wetness on my inner thigh. He moved his finger slowly to his face. He looked at it amused, as the tiniest drop of my sex ran down his finger. He moved it to his mouth, and I watched in amazement as his tongue ran over his finger, devouring my essence in an instant. Edward's eyes closed, and he shivered in ecstasy now. He was perfectly still for several seconds then, savouring the taste – savouring me, I realized. Then his eyes opened, and he smiled. His eyes were blazing with a golden fire now.

He moved to my other leg, and began the same pattern again. One thing about Edward – he was thorough in his foreplay. He never rushed. He always paid attention to each part of my yearning body. His fingers ran up that leg, across my outer thigh, then back down, and up my inner thigh. He tasted another drop of my excitement from that thigh too. I couldn't move now – so engrossed was I at watching Edward explore my body, and loving every second of it. He trembled now as he tasted another drop of me, and then savoured it as before. I thought he would move between my legs now, but I was wrong. It didn't matter – I knew it would come eventually. And the way I felt now as Edward worked so thoroughly on my lower body, the same way he had done with my upper, left me gasping for breath once more.

Edward began using his tongue now. Instead of his fingers trailing up my legs – he used his icy tongue to run patterns across my soft skin. I didn't handle this as well. Instead of softly moaning, and gently moving under his licks, my body squirmed and my head thrashed from side to side. Oh God...how much more could I take? My whole inner body was being consumed by a ravenous inferno, it seemed.

Edward's tongue was on my inner thigh now, working it's way slowly to my very center. My juices were freely flowing, as he licked his way across my damp skin. He shuddered and sighed as the evidence of my desire began disappeared into his mouth. I did the same – shuddering, sighing, trembling, squirming, all of it as he moved closer and closer... I closed my eyes now. I couldn't watch – the anticipation was driving me wild. I felt my body convulse and shake on it's own as Edward meticulously crept closer and closer to my most intimate place.

Edward hovered now between my legs. His eyes met mine. He arched his eyebrow questioningly. Oh God Edward...please...lick me. Taste me. Suck me... Whatever you want Edward...just do it now before my body explodes - my mind was imploring him now. He continued to hover between my legs.

"Tell me..." he whispered softly, barely audible over my pounding heartbeat. Oh God...he wanted me to say it.

"Taste me Edward..." I replied hoarsely. I could barely speak, but continued. "Please Edward. Lick, touch, taste...me. Love me..." I begged him.

"Always Bella. Forever and ever..." he reminded me, and then I finally felt his tongue on me. I gasped.

Edwards tongue ran up and down my outer lips. It's icy chill did nothing to put out the raging fire there now. I couldn't breathe. My body tried to make sense of the overwhelming sense of pleasure between my legs. Edward's tongue ran over my glistening labia slowly at first. Each loving lick effected me more than the previous. My body struggled to stay still, but it was a losing effort. My legs opened and closed faster now. Edward inhaled deeply now, and I saw his body tremble as my desire assaulted all his senses. I could see my wetness on his cheeks and lips, he had me on his tongue, he smelled my scent, his eyes were between my thighs now. His amazing senses were devouring me, literally.

I felt Edward's icy fingers on my labia now. My head popped up – a reaction to the cold touch. My heart stuttered as I felt his hands spread my lips apart. My glistening pink inner lips were completely exposed to Edward now. Oh God...I can't take it. It's too good. No one can ever survive this much pleasure.

Edwards tongue found my soft inner lips now. Can't breathe! My eyes were frozen open, and my back arched under Edward's playful licks. His tongue ran up and down each one in turn, and then again...and again...and again. He took a soft lip in his mouth lightly, and pulled softly. I shuddered. He did the same with the other, and my body mimicked it's earlier reaction.

Edward's hand moved to my clit now. I was so aroused, so excited. My sensitive button had already poked free from it's shielding hood. I felt the cool touch of Edward's fingertip dance across my clitoris. My body flinched under the icy cold caress. My body began to jerk uncontrollably as he rolled his fingers, already slick with my juices, over it. I moaned, I sighed, I panted, as with each touch my impending orgasm loomed closer.

Edward's fingers kept the soft petals of my inner lips apart now. His other hand was playing back and forth lightly over my clit. And his tongue...oh God...his tongue ran up and down between my inner lips. It was beyond ecstasy now. Edward's icy tongue licked my slick folds, and then just when I thought I couldn't take anymore...I felt his tongue probe deeper. It's cold touch moved inside me now...and I felt it's iciness penetrate me. Edward's tongue continued to probe and lick inside my very being as his hand worked over my clit.

"Edward..." I whispered, hardly able to talk. "Almost...there..." I gasped.

Instantly, Edward changed the positions of his mouth and hands. I felt his icy finger rubbing up and down my slit, between my inner lips. I felt his tongue and lips on my clit then. Oh God...is this a dream? Can anyone feel this much pleasure, and have it be real? Edward's finger entered me then, and I seemed to freeze for an instant. The sensation stunned me. I felt his icy finger's hardness inside me, as his icy soft tongue worked over my clit. He began to move in and out now, penetrating me again and again with his finger. My inner walls clamped tightly around his finger – unwilling to let him go. I shuddered under the feeling. Two fingers now. Oh my...! He took my clit in his mouth then, and lightly sucked on it. The pressure of his mouth increased now, as did the tempo of his fingers.

"I'm gonna...cum..." I moaned.

Edward's hand began a furious pace now, moving so fast in and out. His tongue swirled over my clit relentlessly, and I felt myself pass the point of no return as Edward's fingers and tongue moved in a blur before my eyes.

Every part of my body spasmed now. I felt my love muscles spasm around Edward's frantic fingers. My orgasm overtook my body. The pleasure that had been building and building merely intensified beyond measurable proportions. Nothing else mattered now. The ecstasy centered around my clitoris exploded now, bathing me with an almost infinite sense of euphoria. It traveled through me, as my body tried to deal with the massive overload. I was aware I was screaming Edward's name, my body was thrashing around, every muscle seemingly beyond my own control. I came, and I came and I came...! I didn't think I would ever stop cumming as Edward's hands and mouth worked their magic on me. My juices were gushing out of my spasming core, as my orgasm tore through my body relentlessly. Eventually, the intensity diminished, and my head came down from the stars. I lay panting for breath, with my eyes closed. I was whimpering softly now, at the intensity of the experience, and little tremors still seemed to run through my body sporadically. I could feel tears of joy and happiness rolling down my cheeks. And then, it was over. A feeling of complete contentment filled me now, and I let out a long sigh. I opened my eyes.

Edward was gazing at me – his lips turned into a beautiful smile. I smiled back at him, unable to do much else. My body was still having trouble listening to my mental commands. I trembled all over, and still fought to catch my breath.

Edward moved to me now, not saying anything. His eyes, and his face said it all. His eyes radiated intense love as he gazed at me. I continued to smile weakly at Edward. I didn't trust my voice. Speaking – it seemed too much effort for my spent body. His arms wrapped around me, pulling me close to him. I heard his voice then.

"Bella...I love you." he whispered into my ear. I felt him pull me tighter to his body now as he spoke in his soft melodic whisper.

"I love you too Edward..." I replied, my voice barely above a whisper. Oh God...my body felt completely drained – even that weak reply seemed to tax my body's depleted energy reserves. He held me for several minutes while my body gradually recovered from the overwhelming orgasm. Once my breathing returned to normal, he moved to my ear. I felt his icy breath now as I heard his soft musical voice in my ear.

"Ready for Round Two?" he asked playfully, laughing as my eyes opened wide...

(End Bella's imagination at work)

My eyes were glazed over now. My cheeks were red hot, as my wild imaginings still ran through my mind. Oh God...could that really happen I wondered to myself. I had no doubt that having Edward taste me would be nothing short of amazing. I knew his control was not up to it right now...but I hoped it would be someday. Edward did too. The thought made me so happy, and filled me with a sense of longing for what the future held for us.

But for now, I couldn't shake the images in my mind. The thoughts in my head - they were still running rampant. All the visions and images of Edward's mouth and tongue on me – tasting me, had aroused me beyond all measure now. I moved to my closet, and took down a stack of folded clothes. I pulled out the hidden object from under some of the garments, and smiled. It was the purple vibrator Alice had given me weeks ago. I hadn't used it since that night Edward had "caught" me, but I needed release now. My body trembled as I began removing my clothes. A minute later, a trail of my discarded clothes led from the closet to my bed. I laid back on my bed naked now, and turned the vibrator onto it's medium setting. The fake cock jerked and danced in my hand. I smiled to myself in anticipation of the release that would soon come. This was going to feel so good...

A/N: ;-) Wow. 25 Chapters already. This story is a lot longer than I thought it would be originally. It's 99 full pages in MSWord!!! Slightly less than that in OpenOffice format – Maybe 85 or so with that program. And, apparently it is nowhere near complete. Edward's been to second base, and Bella has gone down on Edward. There is so much more I have to include in this story before they finally get to the point where they make love.

Oh, that brings me to another point I was thinking about! They will be making love. Duuuh! LoL Let me explain though. Yes it will be sex, and there will be some dirty talk of course, but it's going to be sweet and gentle, and caring – but passionate, breathless, and frantic at the same time. The reason I mention this, was because I was thinking about that somewhat distant chapter yesterday. I was wondering what Bella's first time, indeed first few times with Edward might be like. I imagine it being a lot like how their sexual relationship has evolved in this story so far. That evolution is roughly how I imagine their first time too. Lots of blushing, pulses racing, all the shyness and awkwardness of having never done it before – but willing to try. They soon discover they are good at it, and that all their fear and nervousness was misplaced. It's love! You can't make a mistake when making love! Edward and Bella – this relationship – their feelings, they fascinate me. They really do.


Another point I was thinking about recently. Yes I know – stupidly long Author's Note again. But I feel I could write not only this story, but also pages and pages of why I love their relationship, and why I write them the way I do. LoL. Sigh! Okay, so back to my point. This one has to do with Bella, and her desire to make love with Edward. She isn't your typical horny teenager. (No offense to any teens reading this! lol) Yes, Bella has desires, and urges – but she acts on them with great love. To me, most of what she wants or does revolves to some degree over her overwhelming love for Edward. Yes she wants Edward, but it's so that she can make him feel good, and let him know how much she loves him. Similarly, when she wants Edward to taste her or explore her body– it's because she wants him to let her know how much he loves her. Loving with mind, soul, and body. She knows they already have the first two(although Edward would maybe argue "the soul" part. lol) – she just wants the last. He wants to do the same with her, his control complication issues aside... They want to increase their physical relationship because they love each other, and want to love each other. Although this story is called The Desire Within Us, it isn't so much about the desire they feel, although that is certainly present – it's about their love. Always, their love...

Oh yeah, that title - I chose it when I started writing. I originally expected this story to be relatively short, until I discovered the joy of actually writing their journey – rather than simply rushing right to the end. LoL Honestly, at the beginning I just wanted to write about Bella making love. I had a plan about Bella and Edward giving into their overwhelming desire for each other early. That's why I started the story, but the first chapter was just supposed to be a little introduction into the characters etc and then jump quickly into a Bella seduces Edward type chapter or vice versa. My original plan definitely became more than that with all the twists and turns, and complications of their relationship. I found out early on, that I actually wanted a deeper, more memorable story, rather than a quick and dirty one-shot.

Okay, I'll shut up now. ;-) I could write more about it, but this A/N is ridiculously rambling already. If anyone wants to discuss Edward and Bella's relationship - as written in this story, or the official saga – just send me a PM with your thoughts, etc. I will get back to you - just be prepared for me to talk my fool head off about it. ;)