I got in my car ,trying to hold bock the sobs. I would not cry. Not over someone like him.

He is not worth it .He is not worth it. Don't cry don't cry. Dammit don't cry .

I turned on the car and backed out slowly out of the parking lot. Not bothering to look over my shoulder if I am going to hit somebody or not. I didn't really care my life was over at it is.

At least I won't have to face Felix , Aro or Caius one more time .If Edward really knew ,why I was really here, I would be dead by dawn at the very latest.

The closer I got to my house the more nervous I got .Would they already be there ?Would they first tell me what a horrible person I am, trying to rip their family apart?Or would they creep from the shadows like lowlife bthey are and kill me quickly and without pain?

Or are they going to ….to ..drink my blood. I shudder violently, I wouldn't put it past them.

Turning off the car took ages .My pulse was racing and I was hyper alert ,looking around for signs of them. Silly really ,like I would notice a movement .

I got completely out of the car.

Nothing happened.

I walked to the door and turned around before opening it .

I was still standing .

I opened the door and got quickly inside locked it and threw myself with my back to the wall.

I listened.

No sound ,no movement.

Why ?

Maybe they will just leave .Leave and never look back .maybe-

A cold , hard hand curled around my upper arm and I was suddenly flying through the room landing in the couch roughly.

Or maybe they'll just kill me .

"so what's up with you , you look like the bloody world is out to get you."

I clutched my chest trying to slow down my heart rate .

"I swear Matthew once I get changed …"

" I'll kill youuu" he mimicked my voice in a girly voice ."death "I muttered sitting up." and it's going to be painful." "uhuu I'm soo scared" he mocked." so what has got your panties in a bunch ,darling?"

"you." I spat. " I hate to break it to you . But …I think now that you are older ,I think its time to tell you. I am nauseated by your very presence ."

"Oh I am so touched I think I am going to cry venom ." he paused for dramatic effect ,placing his hand over his heart ."that is the nicest thing you ever said to me ."

" No I actually have reason to be scared you pompous ass "

" Did you run over someone's pet?"

"no. But I think I will be dead soon ."."why" he exclaimed half-laughing.

"because they know." I shouted" they freaking know why I am in this godforsaken town"

"wait " he said , looking worried. " how could they .did you say anything ?"

" are you mental? I am not suicidal."

He ignored me and started pacing through the living room instead ."this can't be happening .They said you were right for the job and now this ."he mumbled." This isn't just about you . They will be here any minute and kill the both of us and you are worried about your promotion to …god knows what." I didn' even see him coming , but suddenly he was right in front of my face growling menacingly .He didn't seem in control ,he was to far gone already.

"Do you know how hard it is darling"he said the word like it was a curse ."Do you know how hard it is to smile , when you are nauseous ?To stand there in front of the whole guard and be embarrassed ? I had to stand there while they told me what my job was. Babysitand ASSIST the human.i GET TO SIT HERE THE WHOLE DAY DOING NOTHING. While the rest of the guard is in volterra ,getting real jobs like luring humans into the castle and fighting of newborns. And speaking of food encase you haven't noticed I am hungry so I think it is in your best interest that you shut up. I want to stand next to Aro as his right hand .I deserved it damm'it .But instead I am stuck here with you. " he put his hands either side of my shoulders trapping me ."If you screw up I will get the blame. And. I .will. not let. That .happen."

Ii couldn't believe this ." Oh so you think this is my fault? The hell it is . I didn't do anything wrong, and you know it. Why don't you just fucking go if you can't handle pressure ."I screeched .He leaned away from me ,taken aback. He seemed lost for a moment.

"okay maybe I overreacted." he said, sitting down next to me . I scooted away from him as far as the couch allowed." so what is your plan ."I gaped at him ,what the hell was wrong with him .How could it be that I just told off one of the most powerful vampires, known to man ,and I am still alive?" excuse me ?" I stuttered. " I said I am sorry " he grunted ."look he said. You don't like me .and I don't like you .But like it or not ,you screw up we are dead .I screw up we are I think for us not to end up dead ,we have to work together "he said looking down at his shoes ,avoiding my gaze. I sat there ,speechless .he finally looked at me , exhausted ."please don't make me repeat that again."I'm not , its just …I never thought you could act.. I dunno human." "Humanity doesn't depend and being human."he sighed. „so what is your plan." I looked away and groaned.

"we do our job"

Matthews' eyes were closed in concentration. I lost count on how long he was looking for the Cullens fears .But the silence made me even more scared. "bella , I can't see their fears if yours are ringing so loud and clear they are practically clouding my mind."

Matthews power was similar to Edwards'.He could feel , and see peoples or vampires deepest fear and turn it against he had to do is look at them and he would know what it that wasn't the only thing he could do. He could make their angst become reality . In most cases it was fear of dying, he just had to look at them and make them feel their dread. And they would just dye right then and there with no real cause of he could just make them feel death ,and litarly scare them to death.

"sorry. I will try to block them " I whispered .I put up my shield hoping it was enough to shield my terror ."ah " he sighed much better. We kept sitting there .after a while he frowned. "hmm their worst fear is that.. whats his name ..ah Edward won't come are not anticipating ..well us ." he finally opened his eyes focusing them on me. " they don't know the real reason you are here." He finished.

"but but ..How can that be . he looked at me like… like he knewew"I stammered." well I don't know why but it doesn't mean that he knows . There must be something we are missing ."

"like what" I wondered. "I don't know .But whatever it is it made him leave town."

He chuckled. "you bring out the worst of us don't you " he ruffled my hair.

I scowled , but I also felt rejected.But why .Wouldn't him leaving town make my job so much easier ? maybe it was better that he left town.

Maybe if edward stays away he won't get hurt.I would never forgive myself if my Edward would get hurt because of me .

Woha my Edward ?where did that come from?