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Chapter 4:

Before I could even think strong arms grabbed my waist pulling me, pulling me to the surface. And we were free. I choked and spit the water out of my mouth.

"Bella, are you ok? Bella?" this wasn't my velvet soft voice. It was Jake. I tried to talk but my throat killed, it felt like I had just drank acid. So I just nodded my head. The next thing I knew we were on the beach and he was laying me in the sand. And then he was gone, I tilted my head all around looking, but I couldn't find him, he left me. Why does everyone leave. I thought to myself, before I could do anything else I was being hoisted into a sitting position, and a bottle being shoved in my face. What was I two years old?

"Drink Bella, Please, it will help your throat." he insisted, Jake was back with a water bottle. I gulped the water graciously like It was the last drink I would ever have. It was gone. I sighed, and looked up at Jake he still looked worried.

"I'm, fine." my voice cracked, apparently he found it funny, he was laughing. I rolled my eyes. "I'm glad me drowning gives you a laugh." I said bitterly. I wasn't amused.

"Oh come on Bells, I wouldn't let anything happen to you, ever." I smiled up at him and rolled my eyes again. "What?" I didn't answer, I wasn't going to answer. And then it hit me. He, Jacob. Kissed. Me. I said the words over and over and the flash of if happening overwhelmed me and gasped.

"What? Bella, Whats wrong are you ok?" Jacob said startled.

"I, You, me ugh!" I groaned as I stood up and walked away. Jacob came after me looking more confused than ever. I wanted to scream to yell to hit him in the head with a big rock. But I think I was more confused than he was. Jacob had kissed me. I knew how he had felt but I never thought he would do anything about it. He knew I loved Edward, he knew! But I love Jacob to. Don't I? Yes, I do, I really do, but.. Oh my god I was actually answering myself. I'm going nuts, I'm crazy. No I'm not, I love Jacob but its not enough, he will never be what Edward was. But could he be enough..

"Bella, where are you going? Did you hit your head? Your not making any sense." my thoughts were interrupted which just fueled my anger and annoyance.

"Jacob Black how dare you!" I scowled

"What are you talking about Bella?"

"You! You kissed me! How dare you!"

"Bella your just now realizing I kissed you? And your freaking out about it?"

"I am not freaking out Jacob. I am mad I'm upset!" I could feel the tears ready to brim over. "I cant believe you! Why would you do that, knowing full well! Knowing FULL well how I felt about Edw.."

"Don't you even bring up that bloodsucker, Bella, Don't you dare!" He was yelling, he was angry, he was also shaking.

"Don't upset up him, Bella, calm him down. Don't do anything rash." The velvet voice warned me, but I didn't care.

"Shut up!" both of you I thought. "I can't believe you Jacob I can bring up the 'bloodsucker' all I want!" the tears were falling now, and I was screaming.

"Bella he has been gone for a year! Tomorrow it will be one year since same found you laying on the ground in the woods, near death! Only you weren't dead, not really, just on the inside! Because of HIM! So don't you dare bring him up! This has nothing to do with him dammit!" I was crying hysterically and he was still yelling at me. And all I could do was shake my head. "I've seen you Bella, you were better, your were beginning to be normal again, you were happy, you were happy with me. don't do this." he was pleading now.

"I'm, I, I'm sorry Jake." and I turned to walk away. He grabbed my arm and turned me around to face him.

"Bella, please. I love you! More than anything else I love you, this can work if you just give it a chance. I am what you need, you need someone warm, who can be there for you! Edward." I flinched in pain at his name I haven't heard that name out loud in a long while, he saw me flinch and started shaking his head. He grabbed me in a warm embrace and hugged me trying to will me to listen I suppose. "Bella, I'm sorry, but he left you, I know you don't want to hear it but I also know you know I'm right. He's not coming back Bella he's just not. Why cant you see that? Why cant you just except that, and move on. Move on with me." I've never seen Jake that sad before, never seen him in that much pain. And he was in pain, and I was the cause of it.

How do I make him see without hurting him more. Or could I, now I shook the thought away. I couldn't do that to him, knowing full well he would only ever be second place. But I wanted to, I wanted to feel I don't know, I knew what I wanted to feel, I wanted to feel Edwards cool embrace around me, but could that be pushed deep down could that want be subdued by the warm arms around me now? No I wouldn't do that to Jake I wouldn't let him be second place to someone. He deserved to find someone who truly loved him, like he loved them.

"Because I love him Jake. It's not going to change, the heart wants what the heart wants. and mine wants Edward. I'm never going to forget or move on. I don't know how to. Part of me wants to, but part of me wants to believe he'll come back." tears still streaming down my face. I close my eyes trying to suppress them. He pushed me away and I thought I was going to loose someone else. I opened my eyes to look for him, for his face. And the anguish I saw looking back at me, was unbearable. I broke down. I couldn't take it "I'm so sorry Jake. I never…"

"Stop Bella, never be sorry, its my own fault. One day you'll wake up, you'll realize I'm right, that you love me, and that I can make you happy, I already do. And when that day comes, I'll be here waiting." He grinned as he wiped the tears from my face. How can he say that, did he not just hear me? Maybe he couldn't believe it. I didn't really want to believe it, to believe that I was broken forever, never to be fixed again.

"Jacob, I'm serious, its never going to change, I love you, but its not enough."

"It will be, eventually. Think about it Bells." I shook my head and he brought his lips down to mine, his warm soft lips. For a split second I didn't mind, it made him happy.

"Jake." I said softly. "Please, not now. I don't need more to think about, not today."

"Eventually. Because I'm sorry Bells, but he's gone there hasn't been a whiff of him in a year. I would know." I knew he would, but would he tell me if he had smelled Edward, or any of the Cullen's for that matter? I didn't know.

"We should go, I'm sure your getting hungry." He suddenly said as he led me away from the beach.

"MMM, more like the wolf is hungry, your always hungry!"

"Maybe that's true, but I'm sure your getting hungry too."

"I don't know if I can eat right now. But I'll make you something. I should probably get back and start it so its ready for Charlie when he gets home."

The ride was silent, not a single word was uttered the entire way to my house. When I got inside I went upstairs to change, and came down to start dinner.

"What are you doing?" I asked as I walked into a smoke filled kitchen. And found Jake trying to make, god knows what. He was almost as bad as Charlie at cooking. "Jake go open the window and door hurry! Before I die from the smoke." I laughed

After the smoke was cleared. I went to the kitchen and cleaned up Jakes mess, but he didn't let me, so I just went to work on cooking an edible meal while he cleaned. I ended up making meatloaf and mashed potatoes with corn. I forgot that I was dealing with a werewolf and should have made twice as much. After Jake finished his serving he went up for seconds, and thirds. Leaving just enough for Charlie not to starve. After we ate we sat in the living room and watched some TV.

"Not that I know of, Quil or Embry would have come found us, but don't worry when she comes back we'll get her. I promise." I knew the pack was looking out for me and Charlie but that still didn't ease the feeling I had, I felt like something was wrong, something was coming for me. I just didn't know what. I heard Jake let out a moan.

"Jake, are you going to be ok? You've been holding your stomach for the last since you finished eating."

"I'm fine, that was just really good, you can cook for me any day!" He grinned as he grabbed the remote from me, and laughed.

"Hey!" I grabbed for it but ended up falling of the couch onto the floor, it just fueled his laughter. I kicked his legs out from under him and he fell on top of me. We were laughing so hard I couldn't breath.

"Jake, JAKE GET OFF ME!" I yelled through the laughs. Trying to catch my breath.

All of a sudden there was a loud bang and a crash as the front to burst open.

A/N: oooooooohhh what do you think it is? or who?