Chapter 12: Giving In

I felt her fingers trace along my waist around to my back. She dragged her nails up my back to my shoulders. She was ripping my shirt off. When I realized just how far we were going, I gasped. And lifted my head away from her, she sighed. I laid my head on her shoulder. And whispered I was sorry in her ear.

"Edward, seriously! You couldn't hold of on being responsible for a little longer?"

"I'm sorry, Bella. Really, it has nothing to do with being responsible, and more to do with the fact that I could break you. Bella I could kill you." she laughed at me.

"Edward, your not going to kill me!" she sighed again.

"Bella. I could kill you and not mean to. I could kill you and not even notice right away. I loose focus, and stop concentrating on not killing you, not using my full strength and I could snap your neck. Please, don't be mad, I love you, I do, so much. And I want you so bad, god I want you Bella. Please. Please understand."

"I understand Edward I'm not mad at you. I'm annoyed. Irritated."

"I'm sorry Bella." I didn't know what else to say. I couldn't even look at her. I laid back and stared at the ceiling. Ugh what did I allow. Why didn't I stop.

Well that's easy. I didn't want to stop. I still don't want to stop. But what if I hurt her.

"You couldn't have let it go on a little longer? Edward. You lasted that long. See me, I'm fine. I'm better than fine. Please stop putting up these rules, boundaries. I'm not a werewolf. I don't need boundaries!"

"I know your not a werewolf. Thank god for that, but Bella, I could kill you with just one finger and it would be a total accident. I couldn't live with myself if something ever happen to you. Let alone by my own hands."

"Edward,. Nothing happen earlier. Look at us!" She threw her arms in the air as she sat up completely. Showing off her perfect figure. If she could have raised her voice without waking Charlie, she would have been yelling. "Edward. Please, give in to the urges. Just try." She was begging. She leaned back down on her arm and faced me. I looked into her eyes, they were pleading with me. I had to look away. That was a bad idea. Her shirt was no longer on the side of the bed, it must have fallen off. She was sweating, her chest was shimmering. She was wearing a light green bra, with pink lace. God she even looked appealing.

"Please." she begged again. I couldn't resist anymore. I put my hand around her neck and pulled her to me.

BELLAS POV

Edward was pulling me closer, I was right up against him.

"Bella" I heard him moan. And then he pulled away abruptly, eyes wide.

"Your dad!"

"What?" I was shocked why would he be worried about him.. Then I heard Charlie's door open. And Edward was gone. My shirt was laying on my lap. I threw it on as fast as I could and laid down. I didn't have time to grab a blanket, I heard my door open. I laid very still. Careful not to move, not to breath to deep which was hard, I was still catching my breath. I decided it would b better not to breath at all. I heard my door close. I waited, and then Charlie's closed behind him.

"Breath Bella." I let out a whoosh of air. I was disappointed to see Edward was fully dressed and buttoned. "You ok?" I nodded. "You should probably go to bed now." He smiled.

"What why?" I glared.

"Because I think we've both had enough excitement for one night."

"No, I don't think so." I grabbed his arm and pulled him onto the bed.

"Bella, please. That was entirely, that was, to far. We let that go to far. I'm sorry I didn't stop earlier"

"Edward! Please. Don't!" I was annoyed.

"I'm not saying never Bella, I promise you."

"Edward. Why. You didn't hurt me at all."

"I understand what your saying Bella, and I promise you. Soon. Just, not tonight."

"Why not tonight?" I snapped.

"Because for one, Charlie is still in his room debating on whether or not to come check on you again. He's worried my presence earlier today will send you back into the 'catatonic' state as he so vividly recalls it. Little does he know I'm sitting on your bed with your right now."

"UGH."

"Bella, not tonight."

"You promise? You promise soon? Because you cant keep doing this to me, giving me a taste and then snatching it away! I don't want a bit of the cake, I want the whole damn thing!" He laughed at my analogy.

"Bella, if Charlie wouldn't have woken up and came in here, I have no doubt in my mind you would have gotten your wish. I had no self control left. I had no urge to fight anymore. I gave up. I decided to give in."

"Ugh Charlie!"

"Yes, ugh Charlie." He laughed. "Now get some sleep."

"I cant sleep at a time like this. Not after, that."

"Try. Please. We have a long day tomorrow."

"What?"

"School. I can only imagine the talk, and thoughts I am going to hear when we both stroll into the school tomorrow with Alice."

"Oh, that." I forgot about school. I didn't really want to hear everyone's questions nor did I want to answer any of them. "Edward, can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

"What was Jacob doing to you earlier?"

"What do you mean?"

"Earlier, you looked like he was causing you pain?"

"Oh, that. It, was nothing."

"Edward." I eyed him suspiciously. He was hiding something. "Edward, tell me. No more lies. Just tell me."

"Bella, I'm being honest it was nothing. He just has a very good memory."

"What do you mean?" and then it hit me, Jacob was using his memory of how I was against Edward.

"I mean he showed me how serious things were, when I left you. I left you broken, and I am so terribly sorry. I will never ever leave you again. He thought about all the times you were with him and the subject came to me, or something that reminded you of me. And your face, your actions. And then he showed me Sam's memory of the day I left you. It pained me to watch and see all that. But he was shouting it at me, he was making it to difficult to ignore. And it killed me. I wanted to die right there, after seeing exactly what I had left you like. I am truly sorry you will never understand how sorry I am."

"Edward, don't be, its ok, I understand why." I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him to lay next to me. I placed my head on his chest. "He doesn't play fair. And he doesn't know everything. So please Edward stop apologizing. Its not your fault. I am sorry Jacob did that."

"Its ok, it gave me even more incentive to fight even harder, and I just might not play fair either. What dear little Jacob doesn't understand is, I already have you. And I am not letting go. Ever." he smiled down at me and kissed my forehead. "No sleep Bella, Sleep my love."

Ugh the morning was a nightmare, I didn't feel like getting up at all. I didn't know how much sleep I had gotten, I just knew it felt like I hadn't slept in days. Edward had left to go home and get his car and change. I was downstairs eating a bowl of cereal. When Charlie said goodbye. I rushed to finish eating and rinsed the bowl. And ran to the door.

I wasn't disappointed. Parked in the driveway was the shiny silver Volvo, and Edward leaning against the hood. I bounced down to hug him.

"Your surprisingly awake." he laughed.

"Maybe I'm more vampire than we thought." I smiled, he just frowned and held the door open for me. I was surprised to see Alice sitting in the backseat. "Alice!"

"Hello Bella, ready for school?"

"Ugh not really. So anything exciting going to happen?" I asked I had a feeling she already knew how the day was going to go.

"Oh yes, the Cullen's are back." she laughed. "Everyone is in an up roar about it. And you and Edward of course."

"Of course." I rolled my eyes.

We made it to school in record time. We got out of the Volvo and the number of people staring, watching us as we walked to school. Was alarming. It was like they had already heard they were back, and were waiting for them.

Angela was extremely happy, to see me happy. The first half of the day was like a blur. The whispers and all the eyes. All just melded into one big blur. No one wanted to ask why they came back. They all just assumed stupid different reasons.

Lunch was no better, we sat at my no over crowded table.

They day finally was over we drove Alice back to the house and dropped her off. Edward was going to come back to my house and we were going to do our homework. Charlie couldn't object to that.

The days went by faster now, the Edward was back. They school days all were a blur. The talk about the Cullen's return had died down in the first week or so. No one cared anymore. They accepted it, and accepted the fact of me and Edward. Class' went by fast. Edward had every single class that I did.

We would go to his house some days and be with his family. Some days I would make dinner or him and Charlie. Charlie didn't like the fact that we were together so much, and the fact that he was in his house eating his food. But I didn't care. I was happy. Nothing else mattered.

It was Saturday. It was a nice day out. Me and Edward had spent most of the afternoon in our meadow. We decided to head back to my house, after my stomach had growled.

"I'm going to have to keep reminding myself to not forget you eat more than me."

"I'm fine honest." my stomach betrayed me, at that moment it growled so loudly I think the entire town could hear it. Edward just peered at me and smiled. "Ok maybe a little hungry." I admitted.

We were almost to my house when Edward let out an annoyed sigh.

"What?"

"He is beginning to really bug me!"

"Who?" I asked as we turned around the corner to my house. There sitting behind my truck was the rabbit. Jake laying on the hood shirtless soaking up the sun. Quil and Embry were standing next to him. "What do they want?"

"To talk."

"Ugh I dotn want to talk! I'm done talking."

"Not with you. With me. Jacob wants me to relay a message to Carlisle."

"Oh."

We pulled up slowly. And Jake hopped off his car and walked toward us.

"We need to go inside, if that's ok. I cant really stand outside and have a conversation with them" he smiled as he held his hand up into the sunlight. It sparkled throwing colors every which way. I loved it.

"Ok, stay here ill get them inside first, and you can follow."

"NO, ill go with you."

"Edward don't be stupid, it would be easier for you to sneak in, without a big crowd around you. I'll be fine."

"I'll go first." he stated and then the next second he was gone. I stepped out of the car and walked toward Jacob.

"What do you want?"

"We need to talk to the bloodsucker." I glared at him for his use of words.

"If you cant be nice then you can just leave right now!"

"Whatever, Edward then." he rolled his eyes.

"Good, now inside." We walked inside and found Edward sitting on the couch. I walked over to him and he pulled me down to sit on his lap. Jacob let out a low growl. And I heard Edward hiss.

"What do you want D.. Jacob?" I smiled at Edward. He kissed my forehead. I looked up to see a hurt expression on Jacobs face but it was gone quickly.

"I wouldn't do it if I were you Jake. Not only would you not win. Bella would be furious." Edward smiled up at Jacob. As he answered Jacobs thoughts.

"What did you come here for Jacob?" I was annoyed. What did they want. Quil smiled slightly at me, and I smiled back.

"Victoria." I tensed and shuttered at the name, and Edward let out a long hiss.

"What do you mean? What's happen?" Edward asked concerned, look on his face. "Ah, we figured she would."

"Stop doing that, please let him talk. I cant read minds!" I blurted out annoyed. I wanted to be in on the conversation. It was because of me Victoria was back in the first place.

"Sorry love. He just said they came across her trail last night. She's back." he hugged me tightly. She was back, she was back for me.

"We'll get her Bells don't worry. It'll be easy." Jacob tried to calm me. I was scared. Not for me, but for all of them.

"It'll be fun!" Quil said excitement in his eyes.

"Fun? FUN? You call this fun? Risking your lives trying to keep her away from me? that's fun to you?" I was angry how could they think so lightly of this. How could they be so calm.

"It will be ok Bella. I wont let anything happen to you. I promise." Edward said as he kissed my cheek.

"We wont either." Jacob growled.

"That's the problem. What if someone gets hurt? What if you get hurt?"

They all laughed, even Edward. I Groaned and stood up. How could they be so calm at the fact of going to face Victoria and hunt her down.

"I'll tell Carlisle. We'll all be on close look out on our side." Edward said as he stood up to be next to me. "I have that covered, you don't need to worry about her." He snapped.

"What to you have planned then?" Jacob snarled and glared. What were they talking about? Were they talking about me?

"She will not be alone, ever."

"What happens when you need to, feed." Jacob said in disgust as he made face.

"I don't need to 'feed' as often as you would think. She will never be out of my sight. And when the occasion calls for it, and I do need to feed. She will be at my house with my family, or Alice will be here with her." Jacob glowered. And growled lightly. "No I don't think so, that wouldn't be safe for her. None of you can be trusted. And in a pack even worse."

"What? She'll be safe, She wont dare attack her around all of us."

"Maybe, but I don't trust you. There for my answer is no. we will protect her. You just keep us informed if you have anything, and we will do the same. Now Bella is very hungry and needs to eat. So if you'll excuse us." Edward was walking toward the door and held it open. A smile still on his face.

"Bella?" Jacob looked at me.

"It's ok Jake, he's right I'm hungry, but I don't have enough food to feed the three of you. You guys eat like pigs." I smiled at him. "Thank you for telling us."

"Sure Sure." he said as he walked toward the door after Quil and Embry. He paused in front of Edward and stared at him. Concentration on his face.

"Nice try dog, it has no effect on me anymore. You see, you may have a part of Bella, but I have her entirely. She's already mine. I don't need to fight with someone else to get her like you. I already have her. And I assure you, I am not letting her go."

"We'll see." Jacob spat. And tried one more time. Edward just chuckled.

"I don't have to dream about that, I've already seen it." Edward grinned his eyes never leaving Jacobs face.

Jacob let out one more fierce growl and walked out. Edward shutting the door behind him.

"What was that about?"

"He just showed me the same thing he did before. Only he didn't know we had talked about it. It had no effect on me." he smiled again and bent down and brought his lips to mine gently.

"Now lets get you something to eat." he walked toward the kitchen.

"Edward, what did you mean when you told him you didn't have to dream about it, you've already seen it?"

"Lets just say Jacob has very vivid imagination, and fantasies." My mouth dropped. "Bella, I love you, but I'm sorry, I told you I wasn't going to play fair."

"You didn't have to tell him that! What if, what if he tells Billy, and Billy tells Charlie?"

"Bella, he didn't believe me. Although I think it was more of the fact he didn't want to believe me."

"Ugh, now he probably thinks we did more than we actually did! Which you still haven't kept to your promise!"

"Bella, I never said when, I just said soon."

"Fine." I said grumpily as I opened the fridge.

Charlie came home later than usually, and he was in an even worse mood than usual after seeing Edward.

"What's wrong dad?"

"Bella, Edward. I don't want either of you hiking in the woods anymore. Until I tell you both its ok. You understand?"

"Um Dad, what is it? Why?"

"No problem Charlie. I'll keep her out of the woods." Edward promised.

"What's wrong Dad?"

"There's been a, an incident. Someone a hunter was killed. He set up his camp, and something, or someone attack him. There was animal tracks. Huge animal tracks. But there was foot prints leading away. The animals might have smelled it. Just promise to stay out of the woods until this is settled."

"Ok Dad." I could tell by Edwards face there was something else going on, something more than what my Dad was telling me.

When it was time for Edward to leave. Or at least take his car back home. I walked him out to his car.

"What's going on? What isn't Charlie telling me?"

"Bella, listen to him. It was bad, I think, I think it might have been Victoria."

"What?"

"I can't be sure until I go check out the scene."

"Edward, no. Stay here." I pleaded.

"Bella. You'll be safe. Alice is already in your room waiting for you. I'll be back later tonight. I promise." he kissed my forehead and walked to his car. I couldn't let him go out there alone. It was to dangerous. What if something happen to him.

"Edward!" I ran after him and jumped into his arms and kissed him.

"Well that was nice surprise. But ill be back in like 2 hours tops."

"Please, if you have to do this, don't go alone. Take Emmet and Jasper please!"

"Ok, I wasn't going to go alone. We were all going to go."

I sighed, they'd all be in danger, but at least the odds were against Victoria.

"Be safe. I love you."

"I love you!" He kissed me again, and then drove off. I walked into the house and up to my room. Sure enough Alice was sitting on my bed.

A/N: no one answered any of the reveiws telling me what they wanted to happen. so i made sum up myself lol.. idk how i like it though. i might change it lol. im not sure.. tell me whatcha think... PLEASE R&R