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Chapter 22: Barbeque

BELLAS POV

I walked downstairs to see Charlie sitting at the kitchen table. Edward told me I should tell him where I would be today. Even though we both knew he wouldn't mind.

"Dad."

"Yea Bells."

"I'm going to go down to La Push today, there having a barbeque. Jacob invited me."

"Really Bells, that sounds like fun."

"Yea dad." I wanted to go hang out with Jacob. But I also didn't want to make Edward feel uncomfortable. He said he was fine with it but there was something he wasn't telling me.

Charlie had left to go do some paper work at the station. I was in my room with Edward.

"What's wrong." I heard him say as he got off the bed and walked toward me.

"Nothing."

"Bella, don't lie to me please. Your heart is racing. You cant look at me."

"I'm nervous." I cut him off.

"Of what?"

"You." I said bluntly. I was nervous he would get mad.

"What did I do?"

"Nothing that's the problem."

"You want me to do something?"

"I want you to freak out on me, yell at me tell me not to go. It's what you want to do!"

"Bella, where is this coming from? I'm serious when I say I want you to go. I know you want to go. So what's the problem."

"I don't want to make you uncomfortable."

"Bella, love. Your going off to my arch enemy…" I frowned at his words. He sighed. "I mean to Jacob. Ugh Bella I can't lie to you. He is my enemy but not for the reason you think. It has nothing to do with the fact he's a werewolf. That doesn't help his case at all but its not the reason."

"What's the reason." I said flatly and glared. I was sick of the fighting I didn't care who or what they were . Why should they.

"He loves you Bella.! Jacob is in love with you! You don't have to see what I see running through his head, the fantasies he has of you. Just accept the fact that I am letting you go. don't push it." I saw his face drop. He was scared, why should he be scared.

"He wont hurt me, and he wont let anything happen to me."

"Bella I know that."

"Then why do you look scared."

"I'm not scared." He growled at me.

"What ever!" I shouted back at him annoyed and walked toward my door.

"Bella." he was at my side in a second. "I'm sorry."

I sighed, "Ready to tell me the truth?"

"I, I'm not scared. I, I just don't trust him!" he said hesitantly

"Why? You trust me right?"

"Yes. Of course."

"Then what's the problem?"

"Bella, please." he begged. He didn't want to say what ever it was that was bothering him. I was getting mad and annoyed.

"Just tell me. You can tell me anything remember?"

"I don't want to hurt you." he lowered his eyes and looked at the floor.

"Edward. Please tell me, so I can try to help and fix it." I pleaded

"You cant fix it, you didn't do anything. I did."

"What did you do?" I was confused now. Why did boys have to be so damn confusing.

"Bella, I left you! I left you sad and broken! Jacobs the one that fixed you! He made you better. I will never forgive myself for leaving you, ever. I left you broken, and he fixed you, he will always have a part of you now, and I will always have to live with that."

"Edward. Honestly, I love him yes, but its nothing compared to what I fell for you. Nothing do you hear me?" I was crying.

"Bella, no please. Don't, don't cry." he wiped my tears with the back of his hand.

"I'm sorry, but your upset, because of me."

"No, no that's not it. I'm upset because of me. Because of what I did to you. What I left you to deal with. I left you for the taking and Jacob knew that and went after it. Now he knows he will always have a part of you that I can never get rid of."

"Edward I love you! Only you! I want to be with you, forever, for eternity. Jake is just my friend."

"I know that, but he wants more. God Bella he wants so much more. Sometimes I think it would have been better if I never…"

I cut him off, how dare he.

"Don't you ever talk like that again. What the hell Edward. Do you not love me? Do you regret coming back?" I was shouting.

"No of course not. But I mean Bella, you could have had a normal life if I didn't come back. You could have moved.."

"Edward I never would have moved on. Don't you see that? Can't you see that there will ever only be one man, one person, one creature for me? You, your all I want, your all I need. Please."

"Bella." He whispered In my ear, he took in a raged breath. He was crying too. "I love you. don't ever doubt that, its just I wonder what your life would have been like if I hadn't come into your life."

"I'd be dead." I stated bluntly. He slightly laughed at that fact.

"Danger magnet. Clumsy, beautiful klutz of mine. I love you Bella. I'm sorry. It's just you don't see what he thinks of you, what he dreams of you, and every time I'm around him he makes me see. He makes sure I know exactly what he wants." he was annoyed. How dare Jacob. I would be pissed if I was in his situation. How dare Jacob do that to him. I would have to talk to him about that. I didn't see how to, but I had to try. It wasn't fair to Edward. "I'm sorry, just know none of it will ever happen. I want you, and only you."

"As do I Bella, I want you for eternity." He smiled down at me and kissed my forehead.

"I should probably tell him about me being changed soon huh?" I asked sheepishly. I was not looking forward to it.

"If you want. I can tell him with you. He is not going to be happy. I'd rather you wait till I was around if you don't mind."

"Edward he's not going to hurt me."

"He may not mean it, but if he gets mad enough, he could snap at any moment and kill you with out meaning to." Before Edward even finished my thoughts went directly to Emily.

The ride was slow, and I wasn't the one driving. Edward drove the speed limit the entire way. I could tell he was still not happy about the whole situation, but I didn't press it further.

We decided to tell Jacob after everything with Victoria was settled. I was almost dreading telling Jacob as much as I was dreading everyone I cared about risking there lives for me.

I heard Edward take in a deep sigh, I looked over at him.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, were like a minute away."

"Oh." I knew that meant he could hear everything Jacob was yelling at him. It annoyed me, why would he do that. Why would he knowingly piss Edward off. What was I talking about, I knew why. He was hoping it would set him off we'd fight and that would be the end. "What's he thinking."

"You don't want to know."

"I do, but if you don't want to talk about it."

"I really don't. Its not to late to change your mind." He smiled over at me. I wanted to make him happy, but i did miss everyone down at La Push.

"No, I miss everyone, and I need to talk to Jacob."

"About what?"

"I need to tell him he needs to knock it off, and grow up. Or I'm done. You have agreed to be civil and give him a chance for me. Why cant he dot he same." it's not that hard of a concept for a person to want the one the love and there best friend to get along.

"Bella, I don't want to be civil. I am only doing this because its better than fighting with you over it, and I know eventually you would recent me for keeping you away. Either that, or you would get hurt trying to sneak around my back to go see him."

"Edward its not just him, its everyone. I want to see Leah, Seth, Emily. Billy, I cant see them at the meetings at night and have a good time. Were talking about a fight that I don't want to happen. So please, trust me, trust the fact that everything will be ok. "

"I trust you. It's them." He paused and growled lightly. "Him, I don't trust." he nodded toward the windshield. He slowly pulled the car to a stop like twenty feet away from Jacobs car. I assumed the invisible boundary line was some where in the middle.

"I love you." I said as Edward opened my door for me and helped me out. He pulled me into a big hug, and kissed me patiently. He nuzzled his face into my hair and breathed my scent in.

I kissed him quickly on the cheek and walked toward Jacob, he slowly followed behind me.

Jacob pushed off his car and walked toward us.

"Edward." He stated between his teeth.

Edward just nodded, I heard him intake a quick raged breath. I took that as Jacob was showing him things again.

I gripped Edward hands gently. I went to walk to Jacobs car, Edward pulled me back quickly and kissed me again. I heard Jacob groan lightly under his breath.

As soon as I got to Jacobs car I went to wave good bye to Edward but the Volvo was already speeding around the corner. I sighed, this was going to be a long day, for all of us.

"Hey Bells. I'm so glad you could come today. I didn't think you'd be allowed." He said sarcastically. He was starting to annoy me already and we weren't even there yet.

"Who all is going to be there?" I asked curiously.

"Everyone." he stated plainly. Like I knew who everyone was.

"Who's everyone?" I laughed.

"My dad, Sam, Quil, Embry, Seth, Leah, Paul, Jared, Emily, Myself and you. Everyone do I need to go on?"

"No I supposed not." I sighed.

When we arrived I was hoisted out of the car by a very excited Quil.

"Ugh, Bella." he wrinkled up his nose. "You reek!"

"Then please put me down." I giggled.

"She does reek but I guess it's the downside of having a vampire as boyfriend." Embry called from behind.

"Thanks, I still don't think either one of you 'reek.' I think you all smell find to me."

"You don't have a heightened sense like we do."

"Soo… SO what." I caught myself. I almost blew my biggest secret. Edward would not have been happy. I was sick of people rubbing it in my face they don't grow old, oh your human you don't have super powers.

"So you cant smell what we smell." Quil said as he lead me over to the rest of the group.

"Bella." Seth nodded. I smiled.

"Hey Seth, Leah." Leah looked up at me and glared. I looked over toward Jacob, he looked at me apologetically.

I was amazed at how quick the day was going by. I was even more amazed at how much Jacob and the rest of the pack could eat. It was astounding, I was curious to how Emily paid for it all but decided it was none of my business.

I watched at how they all interacted with each other. It reminded me of one big family. Everyone seemed to look to Billy for answers. The pack however looked like they followed Sam and Jacob. I wondered how that worked. Jacob wasn't the leader, Sam was, so why did he have so much control over them.

"Lets play a game!" Seth yelled as he finished his sixth hot dog.

"What kind of game? I don't do well with games." I laughed.

"Bella, you wont be playing." Jacob said with a grin.

Paul came running over and tossed a football at me. I flinched and threw my hands up in reaction.

I waited for the impact and opened my eyes after a few seconds to see everyone laughing at me.

"I saved your life, you owe me, life of servitude." Jacob laughed as he held up the football.

"That wasn't funny."

"I'm pretty sure it was." Leah sneered at me as she walked past. She reminded me of Rosalie. What had I ever done wrong to piss these people off.

"Sorry." Jacob whispered as he lead me away.

"So football?" I asked, it amused me how much alike these sworn enemies were. Edward had his big family, Jacob had his, and they both played a stupid sport with each other. If only they knew how truly alike they were. I sighed at the thought, it would never happen, I could never bring these two worlds together.

I sat down on a patch of grass and watched the game, even in there human form they were fast and strong. Half way through the game I had realized who was the fastest, and it amused me even more.

Jacob flew by Paul, who scrambled to tackle him to the ground, but Jacob was just to fast for him. I watched as Leah purposely ran full on into Sam, sending him flying backward. That was about the time that everyone started wrapping up.

"What'd ya think?" Jacob came running over quickly I laughed. "What?"

"Nothing, you wouldn't understand."

"Try me. Lest go for a walk to the beach."

"Ok." I said as I went to get up, I tripped. Jacob caught my arm in his hand and pulled me to my feet.

"You really are a klutz aren't you?"

"So I've been told." I laughed as we headed for the beach.

When we got far enough away from the others, Jacob got closer to me, I tripped and he grabbed my hand.

I tried to pull away but he wasn't having it. He held my hand firmly in his. I sighed there was no use fighting it.

"So what wont I understand?" he asked me after a few minutes of silence.

"What?"

"Back there, what wouldn't I understand?"

"Oh, nothing. Its just." I paused, I didn't know If I should tell him about the Cullen's and baseball. Would it be to much to tell? Was it even my place?

"Bells?"

"Ok, Its just you guys are so much like Edwards family, its funny."

"How so?" he asked as he scrunched his nose up.

"You love everyone back there, just like Edward loves his family, even though neither the Pack or Edwards brothers and sisters are family by blood. You still love them like they are, and You're the fastest of the pack. Edward the fastest of his family. You play Football, and they play baseball. I mean come on. How ironic is that?"

"What does football have to do with baseball?"

"Nothing it's just. Ugh never mind!" I growled grumpily.

"What?"

"Nothing no matter what I say or try to do, its never going to work, your going to hate each other no matter how alike you are no matter how much it hurts me your going to continue to hate each other." I sighed as I pulled away from him.

"Bella, I'm sorry, but were nothing alike. As much as you want us to be, were not. We never will be."

"I know, but is it so wrong of me to want the man I love and my best guy friend to at least pretend to like each other?" I grumbled.

"No its not, but when the man you love and your best friend just happen to be vampire and a werewolf that idea sort of goes out the window." He smiled at me. "By the way, which ones which?" He laughed.

"Ugh, Jacob! About that, why would you purposely make Edward see all of that?"

"All of what?" He played dumb.

"You know what."

"No really, I don't, tell me." his face went blank, it would have been a good poker face. I sighed, he was going to make me say it.

"Everything you think about, they way, the way you feel about me!"

"Oh that stuff."

"Yes that stuff!"

"What's wrong, its what I feel Bella! He cant change that, its not my fault he goes snooping around in my head!" he growled.

"You shout it at him he cant ignore it!" I shot back.

"So what Bella, it's the way I feel! I'm sorry if poor Edward doesn't like that. But that's to damn bad!"

"Jacob, please!"

"No, I will not change the way I feel. I can think what ever the hell I want to think."

"Jacob!" I growled. "What am I going to do with the two of you." I sighed.

"I don't know." He looked away from me.

We sat there in silence for a long while watching the waves crash onto the beach.

"Bella."

"What?"

"Do you love him?"

"Yes."

"I mean really love him."

"Jacob, I wouldn't say yes if I didn't mean it. Of course I love him. I wouldn't know what to do with out him, I couldn't survive."

"You could! You could though, you didn't even try." he said weakly.

"Jacob, I didn't want to try, even If I could, I wouldn't want to."

"Bells. I could make you happy. You already love me. I can give you so much more than him."

"Jacob. Please, don't"

"What happens when you start to look like his mom?"

"That's not going to happen!" I blurted out not realizing what I was saying.

"What? What do you mean?" he said hesitantly. I could tell he didn't really want to hear the answer. I frowned down at my boots.

"I'm sorry." I finally said.

"Sorry for what. Bella, no. Please, no." he begged.

I just nodded.

"YOu cant be serious. I mean this is, that's stupid! You, you can't I wont let you!"

"You cant stop me! Its what I want!"

"How do you know what you want? You cant just decide to, become a bloodsucker. One of them, I mean Bella! You just cant! What about Charlie?""I'll deal with him."

"What are you going to say? Oh I'm sorry dad I've decided to throw my life away, literally to go be with Edward who just so happens to be my vampire bloodsucking boyfriend!" he yelled.

"I, Jacob."

"Bella don't!" He shot up, and stalked off.

"Jake wait!" I called after him as I tried to catch up.

"Bella you cant do this! You cant just give your life away for him. How do you know he's really what you want?" he kept walking not letting me catch up.

"Because I love him! I just know! I wont be giving my life away, I'll still be around Jacob!"

"No you wont! You wont be Bella anymore. You wont be you."

"Yes I will."

"No, you wont. You'll be like him! I cant, you'll be my enemy!"

"No I wont! Don't you see you guys don't have to be enemies? The pack against the Cullen's it doesn't have to be that way!"

"yes it does, and it will be that way! How can you do this Bella, how can you do this." He stopped abruptly and I almost ran into his back.

"Jacob, I love him and only him."

"How do you know that? How do you know when he is the only other person you have gone out with how do you know he's what you want when you haven't had anything different?" he shouted at me as he turned to look at me.

"I just do, I can feel it."

"No I wont let you throw your life away." He grabbed me in his arms and held me tightly against his warm body.

"Jacob." I tried to pull away, push away from him. It was no use.

"Don't make me tell Charlie."

"You wouldn't! you'd expose yourself and the pack in the process."

"Who said I was going to tell him the truth, I can make up a lie that will have Charlie ban you from seeing him."

"It wont work, he already tried."

"Bella. He left you once! What's to say he wont get bored in five years and leave you again. Oh wait, you love him so that makes everything ok. I forgot!"

"He wont! You don't know the entire story!"

"Then enlighten me!"

"It's none of your business. I love him that's all you need to know!"

"Bella." He whispered as he leaned forward.

"Jacob, no." It was to late. His warm lips were on mine in a second. I couldn't even move my face away. He had me held so tightly I was sure to have bruises.

I struggled to get my arms free. I finally managed to get my one arm out from his grasp.

I pulled it back and struck him in the side of the head, I pulled his hair. It did nothing. I finally realized I could move my legs I pulled back and kicked him hard in the shin. He pulled away abruptly dropping me to the ground. I groaned in pain as I landed on my knee.

"OW! Dammit Bella!"

"Damn me? Damn you! You idiot! Did you not just hear anything I said?"

"I heard it all, but how can you be sure if you haven't had anything other than him!"

"I want to go home. NOW!" I shouted as I pushed myself off the ground and headed back.

"Bella wait!" He shouted as he grabbed my wrist.

"Don't touch me!" I screamed as I twisted and jerked as I tried to pull my arm away. I felt pain shoot threw my hand.

I groaned as I grabbed my wrist in my other hand.

"Bella, stop, just stop!"

"NO! I want to go home!"

"You popped your wrist, stop let me look at it."

"Don't, you touch me!"

"Bella!"

"Jacob Black. I hate you!" walked away from him.

"Let me drive you at least. He cant come get you here." He smiled. How could he be smiling at a time like this. I was serious and he looks like it's just one big joke! Ugh men!

"Fine!" I was to upset to argue.

I grabbed the cell phone out of my pocket and dialed Edward. He answered the phone on the first ring. I wonder if he was waiting phone in hand all day.

"Bella?"

"I'm ready to come home." my voice was shaky.

"What's wrong?"

"I just want to come home." I heard the car door slam and squeal of tires.

"I'm on my way."

"Bella I'm sorry." Jacob said as we drove to meet Edward.

I said nothing I wanted nothing more than for Edward to rearrange his face.

The rabbit came to an abrupt stop as we rounded the corner toward the boundary line. I jerked forward against the seatbelt.

"SHIT!" Jacob yelled as he slammed his hand into the steering wheel and looked forward to what was waiting.

A/N: Tell me what ya think!! Ohhh whats waiting for Jacob!?