I DONT OWN TWILIGHT NOR ANYTHING ELSE I MEANTION IN THE STORY.
Ever felt like you had been stabbed through the heart with a burning knife again and again... no, I sure as hell did. It was amazing how much pain I was in at the moment, all the pain I had felt before hand. It was nothing.
What was a pin prick when you had a burning hot knife was being thrusted into you heart at the same time.
I couldn't help but scream in pain, I wasn't sure for how long. But I screamed until my voice ran horse. I had felt people by her side the entire time I was out. It had felt like years.
I had come to recognise the people around the house in my more lucid moments by their voices. The one that visited most was Esme, who had the kindest voice. She said the nicest things and held my hand when I cried or whimpered in pain. I held it in, the pain I mean around Esme, she was much to nice and it upset her when she scream or whimpered.
Carlisle was the boss man, the doctor he came in from time to time to check my progress. He had a kind nature about him. But rarely stayed past the hourly check up, I got the impression he was an extremely busy man. Only when Esme was with her would he sit down for a moment or two to speak to me.
Rosalie came in once on request from her husband Emmett who was a laugh. She sat next to me completely still. Rosalie didn't say anything for a while just sat there staring. She only said two words the entire time.
"I'm sorry"
She said it so quietly and so sadly I though I had mixed her voices with Esme or Bella's for a moment. But Esme and Bella never wore high heels and I distinctly heard the clinking of high heels walking away on the hard wood floors.
Emmett visited a few times. He was properly the funniest person I had ever met. I would have laughed at his jokes if I could have responded. He told me how he heard about my staring the food fight last year and told me about what they would play pranks of Edward and Jasper or How they would piss Edward off because apparently to Emmett pissing Edward off was the most amusing thing you would ever see. If I had one thing to say about Emmett it would be the dude had the mind of an evil genius, his plans were brilliant, brilliant and evil.
Edward and Bella came in a few times and right away Edward told me if she pulled anything with Emmett he would get me back and it would be ten times worse. I would have rolled my eyes told him to bring it on. One thing about me was that if you told me not to do something. It would just make me want to do it more. Bella was sweet. She talked about Nessie, her daughter. She told me I would meet Nessie a little later on. She didn't want Nessie seeing me like I was now. It might scare her.
But Nessie snuck in with help from Uncle Emmett who caused an commotion downstairs while she snuck up. I felt the small hand of a child touch mine. Nessie had an innocent voice and spoke well above her age which Bella had but at 4 but she apparently looked around ten years old. Nessie drew her pictures and told her stories about her friend Jake the wolf. She sounded extremely cute
Jasper was the final visitor whenever he walked into the room my pain would go down right away and I would feel nothing but peace for the few moments he was in the room. He never stayed longer than five minutes. Sometimes he would sit down but mostly he would stand at the door. One time though he actually brushed my hair back before he left the room. I would have giggled like the teenaged girl I was if I were awake.
Even though they all varied in responses and emotions that all said the same thing. They were vampires who didn't feed on humans, to bad no one taught that to the Cannibal freak. And not one of them mention Alice Cullen, I got the impression nobody wanted to talk about her. And I was in no position to dispute it.
Coming out of a pain induced coma was both reliving and scary. In the final moment of my pain just as my heart was stopping and I though I was about to Die. It was just about to most painful thing, I would never wish it on anybody. Not even Mark, and I really, really don't like Mark.
After the initial gut reaching pull your hair out screaming pain was over everything just stopped hurting. I waited hoping it was over. But it had done this before, tricked me into thinking the pain was all gone only to flare in a few moments later twice as painful.
But after 118 seconds the pain still hadn't come back so I took a chance and opened my eyes, which was a first in a while. It was bright and I closed them as quickly as I opened them, it was far to bright.
After a few moments of squinting and getting use to it, I opened my eyes and stared at the white rafters. It was amazing, I could see every detail of the paint job. I could see the bubbles the pain had left, the stroke marks of the paintbrush, hell I could even see the tiny little patch of roof that had been missed. It was smaller than an ant and tucked away in the darkest part of the room, but I saw it anyway.
Birds, I could hear them chirping outside. They were so damn loud, I was never really fond of birds in fact they sort of freaked me out.
After all was explored from the comfort and safety of my bed. I decided to explore a little, test my vampire legs if you would. I walked to the door like I had to far to much to drink and sort of reminded myself of the drunk guy who came into work the night I was attacked by the Cannibal bitch. Vampire or not that would forever be my name for the woman who stole my life and ruined my parents. All because she was hungry. I told myself I would never ruin someone else's life like that for my own selfish reasons. I was bitter and I knew it. This was not the life I had chosen for myself but I would make the best of a bad situation and live with it.
My mother always said, living in regret and what if's wasn't living at all.
She was right, unless I could turn back time I was to be stuck as a vampire for a very long time. I just wish I said something more meaningful to my parents than "don't make diner I'll eat at the diner"
If I knew I was never aloud to see my parents and Chloe ever again I would have hugged them all and told them how much I loved them.
But it was all in the past. I had my memories and I would never let them got they were the most expensive thing I owned.
Climbing down the stairs was weird. It was like I was sneaking out of some frat guys out and hoping to hell his bothers didn't spot me (never happen to me, but Ruby told me of her cat burglar like grace when she snuck out of the Frat house early on morning) the house seemed so empty and so clean. When I got to the bottom of the stairs I came to a cross roads. Either I could do something stupid and run for the door which was directly in from of me. Or I could follow the sounds of humming into the kitchen and see what Esme was up to. I chose the later, Bloodlust had been explained to me during my lucid moments apparently it was crazy when you were a new born. Yeah, I know I'm a freaking walking vampire book of knowledge.
I strolled into the kitchen with the grace of a cat which I had to admit was pretty cool. The sight that meet me was even better. Esme was cleaning underneath the conch but instead of moving it like a normal person. She held it up with one hand while she vacuumed underneath the spot it had once sat. She seriously looked like superman.
"That is so cool"
I saw in awe. Apparently Esme frightens easily let me tell you that because she jumped when she saw me and sent the couch flying across the room. It made an astounding crash as it landed on the TV. I got the impression Emmett would be gutted.
I freaked out, panicked if you would.
Like I have said, I tend to overreact in situations that make me nervous or scared, this was probably the most ideal situation to freak out in. So I did. I over react in situations, I think I have mentioned that before.
It took Esme around half an hour to calm me down, I think the panic attack frightened her more than the actual scare that I gave her.
To her credit she handled it pretty well.
"I'm sorry I made you break the TV"
I said in the tiniest voice I was surprised she could hear me, by this time I was curled up on the ground with my head in her lap while she stroked my hair in a motherly way that made we want to cry. She was so much like my mom.
"Its okay dear Emmett breaks the TV whenever his favourite team loses a game, which is about every week"
She chucked happily while I started thinking of how many TVs that house had seen in that short amount of time.
"Besides, we have store discount, your doing us a favour, I needed that TV was getting a little old anyway"
Esme said in her usual kind voice.
"Thank you, and I'm sorry I freaked out on you"
I mumbled, not quite ready to get up yet.
"That's quite alright dear, take all the time you need, I'm quite comfortable here"
MMMMM I'M NOT REALLY HAPPY WITH THAT CHAPTER BUT WHAT CAN YA DO AT LEAST I DIDNT HAVE TO GO BACK AND CHANGE ALL THE SHES TO I IN THIS CHAPTER I DID THAT ALL WHILE RIGHTING.
AS YOU CAN SEE MY FAVORITES IN THE TWILIGHT SAGA, ESME AND EMMETT.
ALSO IF YOU CONFUSED
WHEN SHE HAD HER LUCID MOMENTS, IT WAS WHEN SHE WOKE UP FROM HER PAIN INJUCED COMA AND WAS IN TO MUCH PAIN TO MOVE OR RESPOND TO THEIR QUESIONS, UPON ESMES URGING THEY ALL SAT DOWN TO TALK TO HER ONCE OR TWICE, CARSILE WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD HER ALL ABOUT BEING A VAMPIRE, ALONG WITH ESME WHO TOLD HER A BIT.
ANY OTHER QUESTIONS PM ME IM HAPPY TO ANWSER THEM FOR YOU.