Okay so I'm pissed I to post my story on fan fiction and the upload isn't working, a little upsetting but you guys are getting this chapter out of it so YAY for you readers out there.

I DONT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANYTHING ELSE I MEANTION IN THIS STORY.

So I had been a vampire for about a week now. I have to say life is pretty boarding, you'd think being turned into an undead creature of the night who lusts after human blood would some how make your life a little more interesting.

Apparently not.

Living with the Cullen's was like staring a new job after somebody that was really well liked was fired in favour of you. They were all being nice but there was this underlining tenseness around them when they spoke to you.

And to top it all off, the rain had come and refused to stop only adding to my mood.

I was kind of glad she was being shipped off to Denali today. It was decided that it would be best for me to leave right away so she could get started on controlling my bloodlust and eventually attend school with the rest of the Cullen's.

But after the painfully awkward week I wasn't so sure I would be coming back, Esme was wonderful and Emmett was pretty amusing, Bella was nice enough and Edward after some prodding from Bella he would offer an awkward smile or two. Really the only person I had made friends was Nessie who was the prettiest four year old who looked ten that I had ever seen, right off the bat you could tell she was going to be one of those girls that everyone admired and fawned over, Nessie was extremely smart and super friendly probably one of the most likeable people she had ever meet or would meet in my entire life.

Just as I was leaving she slipped a bright pink cell phone into my hand.

"So we can talk when your gone"

She answered with a bright smile and a kiss on the cheek.

It was elected that Rosalie would drive me to Alaska, apparently she had wanted to visit Tanya for a while but couldn't get anyone to travel with her.

Alaska was a good couple of days drive away and most of it was spent in silence with nothing but the radio to drown out the extremely awkward situation. I began to make conversation with Rosalie but stopped myself every time. I hated how unsure I had become as a Vampire. When I was human I was so chatty, hell I even spoke to the woman who turned me if only to sass her before she got all creepy on me.

I decided that when I got to Denali that I would become myself once again, I would stop being this meek sulky little girl that I had turned into over the past week and I would lighten up...No wonder no one wanted to be around me I disgusted myself with all my moaning and carrying on.

I use to make fun of girls like that. Who moaned and cried whenever the never got their own way, or something unexpected happened to them and instead of trying to change it. they winged like a baby.

"I've been reflecting"

I said aloud, out of the corner of my life I saw Rosalie's eyes move to myself before she moved them back to road waiting for me to continue.

"I've been such a baby over the past week, so I got turned there's no need to cry about it at every turn, shit happens make the most of a bad situation"

I added for good measure, this time I would so be taking my mothers advice and I would be sticking with it.

"When did you come to this conclusion"

Rosalie asked never once taking her eyes off the road.

"About a mile back down the road"

I said with a laugh, it was still weird to hear my own voice and see myself in the mirror.

"But aren't you upset, you are missing out on so much, your graduation, getting married having children"

"I could never have children, even when I was human and I can still get married and graduate, I have a lifetime. Of course I'm a little miffed I got turned because I just happened to cut my finger as a hungry vampire just happened to be running past the diner at the exact time. Its a little annoying but I'm trying to move past it, part of the whole reflection thing"

"Its only been a week Noel, you have every right to be upset about what happened to you, give yourself time to grieve for you lost life. All your friends you will never see again, your parents and you baby sister. How must they be feeling at this exact moment"

Rosalie said with passion, I think she was reflecting a bit herself.

I turned from watching my arm sparkle in the sun. And looked up at Rosalie with a cheerful grin.

"You know your making this whole moving on thing kind of hard"

"I'm just telling you the truth Noelle, the more you hold it in, the worst it will be when it eventually all crashes out"

She talked like it had happened to her, from what Esme had told her about what had happened to her, how she was turned and how she wished to be human once again.

"I know, it sucks and I wont hold it in, I just hate this winey girl I have become, I was never one to sit back and complain about my problems, so I don't know why I should be now"

I said with a shrug, my reflection time with myself was pretty healthy. Just like when you cried your eyes out after a really bad day.

"A word of advice when you with Tanya, she hates to lose and if she sees you as a threat, she will make your life pretty miserable... so swallow your pride and let her win a few games otherwise you will be regretting it ... Tanya is not one to be messed it she is dangerous and is use to getting what ever she wants"

Rosalie said after about two hours silence.

The rest of the car ride to Denali was met with an comfortable silence and at around 3am Rosalie pulled into a beautiful looking house.

There were five very beautiful people standing on the porch waiting for her to show up. The taller woman with strawberry blonde hair stepped forward and smiled at the two, she had this air of smugness around her and she screamed vain. It had to be Tanya.

"Hello Rosalie, Noelle welcome"

She said in a fake cheerful tone.

"For sake of introductions Noelle this is Carmen and her mateEleazar"

She looked to the couple standing closet to Tanya, she seemed to like Carmen straight away. She had this sort of sass that reminded her a lot of Ruby. Eleazar was smiling politely he seemed quite pleasant but he was staring at her a little to intensely as if he was trying to explore her mind for information. He seemed to like what he saw because he looked away and spoke something in Spanish to Carmen who nodded excitedly.

"And this is Kate and her mate Garrett"

Tanya said pointing to a very beautiful blonde woman with a extremely pretty smile and a tall man with sandy blonde hair which he had causally tied back, they both smiled easily at her from their perch on the porch.

"Its nice to meet you all"

I said with a genuine smile, they all seemed so nice and laid back. Oh I think I was going to like Alaska.

My instincts had proven right about Carmen and Eleazar she was so funky and he was pretty damn cool. The same with Kate and Garrett who reminded her of an old beat neck couple, who just sat around the house and played the bongos.

She had been wrong about Tanya though, after following Rosalie's advice and letting the blonde win a few games of pool. They were on their way to forming some sort of friendship, Tanya was actually kind of nice once you take the extremely completive nature out of her. She was actually pretty playful and fun.

I seemed to fit in rather well with the Denali clan, Carmen was trying to teach me Spanish and I was attempting to teach her French while Eleazar looked on amused.

Kate and Tanya seemed to take it on themselves to make me their dress up doll. They dragged me on marathon shopping sprees and scoffed when I told them I couldn't pay for what they were buying me.

"Noel please, these boot are an investment, it would be wrong not to buy them"

Tanya said as she rolled her eyes and moved on to the next store.

"And were rich, let us treat you"

Kate said with a shrug before she gave me a small shock making me jump, I hate when she did that.

"Come on, if you don't participate, Tanya's going to pick all your clothes for you, I don't know about you but I cant imagine you in that"

Kate said pointing to Tanya who was holding up a mini skirt which literately could be called a belt, the skirt was ripped so much that I wasn't sure if it were wearable.

With wide eyes I hurried over to Tanya and vowed to pay attention to what ever she was putting on that ever growing pile.

They had decided that I suited a more Russian doll like of style, with my pale skin and darker hair colour. They had mostly filled my wardrobe with printed dresses and colourful cardigans, a couple of fashionable leather jackets and a lot of chucky brackets and boots.

I had to admit, after their little make over on me, I looked completely different, my clothes and the little make up the had forced on me. I liked the new me.

Although it was a hassle having to hide all my pretty clothes under the jackets so humans walking past would not get suspicious when they saw a girl strolling around the town in a thin dress and jacket that would usually provide no warmth what so ever.

Not that I had to worry about that. In the past few days Denali had been in the middle of a Indian summer the problem was it was winter, and they were expecting snow... not sun.

I blamed global warming, Eleazar blamed me.

He walked up to me cheerful and as vague as ever and sat down on the porch beside me.

"Do you know my gift El pequeño"

He asked causally, Eleazar and sort of taken the older brother role in the relationship. He felt I was much to young to be turned and told me I had reminded him of somebody he once knew of. But didn't elaborate on, and she didn't push.

"No, what can you do Eleazar"

She asked turning away from the sunset to look at him.

"I have the gift of being able to sense other people's gifts, and El pequeño yours is spinning out of control, you are in danger of being caught if you keep this sun up"

I looked at him like he had maybe found someway for vampires get drunk or something to make his crackpot theory make sense.

"I don't have a gift Eleazar, this is global warming, you know the hole that were causing on the ozone layer that's eventually going to let the sun through and burn us all in horrible, fiery deaths"

Eleazar smiled lazily as she stretched out like a cat on the bench seat.

"No El pequeño it is you who is causing this sun, although I thank you for the science lesson, we must help you gain control of your little gift before it becomes knowledge of the Volturi, and trust me El pequeño. They wont take your ozone excuse for an answer. Besides Tanya agrees with me, you begin right now, lets stop this sun El pequeño"

Apparently it was me. My powers came from my emotions for instance when I was in Forks with the Cullen's that first week, it had rained non stop. But when I had moved to Denali it was nothing but blue skies.

He taught me control, how my emotions controlled my power. If I was happy the sun would shine and if I were upset rain would fall and thunder would crash across the skies.

It took a year and a lot of hard work and practice before I could even grasp the concept of weather making, after the year was up I could just keep control on rain and sun. Snow was proving increasing difficult. But the one ability that came to me easily was the wind.

Wind was a feeling freeness and joy which I felt most days. Wind was simple I envisioned the though of wind and I soon felt it flowing through my hair and dancing across my face.

By the end of my second year with the Denali Coven I had managed to master most of the elements, although some were still rather weak. I no longer changed the weather by mood which pleased Eleazar to no end. He had told me a million times that the Volturi was not to be trusted, they did things for their own agenda. It did not matter who they killed to get what they wanted.

Around the beginning of her third year with the Denali coven, I got restless, my control around humans was better. I could leave the house and walk freely among them. But not at great cost to my sanity. Imagining yourself killing a town and just to suck the blood of the man who had the misfortune to stand next to you in the street. It just wasn't healthy. But it was the only way she was going to learn.

Im stopping this chapter here because honestly I don't know where the hell I went with it. I thought I was on a roll with the first few chapters and then I went away and watched family and I kind of dropped the ball on my chapters, so I'm posting it anyway But I can promise you the next chapter is going to be much better... I promise.