So SPN season 4 is over and the finale was CRAZY!!!! Can't wait for Season 5 and I just learned that it won't be the last one!! YEAH!

Ch. 15 Aches, Relief and Other Secrets

3 weeks later

It honestly had been the three weirdest weeks in Cain's life. No reports of hunts anywhere. Like anything supernatural had been put on hold. But the three weeks they had spent at Bobby's house hadn't felt like vacation at all. A supernatural hiatus this long couldn't mean anything good. To tell the truth, she was scared beyond belief. But Cain put on a smile and pretended. Said she was fine when Dean asked. Said she only had a little trouble sleeping, assured him everything was going to be alright.

She took care of Dean and spent as much time with him as possible without making Sammy or Bobby suspicious. Dean was feeling way better after resting for a couple of weeks. The only thing he still had trouble with was his arm but it wasn't even that bad anymore.

But Cain kept on pretending because she had to be strong now more than ever. More than ever because she needed to find the courage to talk to Dean. He hadn't been the same for the past couple of weeks. More distant, a little cold, like something was bothering him. Like he had this big secret he was keeping from her. Speaking of big secrets…

Dean. We need to talk. I… ARG!

Cain had been standing in front of the mirror in her room for the last hour going over what she was going to tell Dean. She had prayed so many times that Dean wouldn't see through the mask she put on. Wouldn't ask any questions. But now she couldn't find the courage to talk to him and found herself wishing that he would call her bluff once and for all and confront her. At least she wouldn't have to initiate this conversation.

A knock on the door brought her back to reality and she pushed herself away from the desk where she was leaning and looked at her reflection. She looked tired, scared and a little thin which surprised her in this case.

''Yes?''

''Cain. You okay? You've been in there for an hour.''

''M'okay Dean.'' She felt her stomach twist and turn at the lie.

''Cain. I'm coming in. We need to talk.''

It was as if a big rock had magically appeared in her stomach. She couldn't breathe but still made her way to the door and finally managed to take a deep breath before turning the knob. There he was. Looking… well she couldn't really tell. She could see so much in his eyes at this second. Fear, sadness, anger and… guilt?

That's it. The jig is up. He's seen through my stupid lies. My pants are metaphorically on fire.

''Come in.'' she stood aside so he could come in.

Dean came in slowly and grabbed a small chair in the corner that he dragged closer to Cain. He tried to lean casually against the desk but Cain could see that his movements were shaky.

''You should probably sit down for this.''

Cain frowned but obeyed and sat down on the chair a confused expression on her face. This was so unlike Dean. He was usually so confident and strong. Now… he just stared at the floor and cleared his throat at least 3 times before he finally took a look at Cain.

''Dean?'' She was very worried at this point. He hadn't said a single word and Cain felt that if he didn't in the next 10 seconds, she might start to cry. ''I have something to tell you too. I…''

''No.'' he cut her. ''I need to tell you something. I should have told you sooner and I'm sorry about that but…'' he looked her in the eyes and finished ''I couldn't.''

Cain reached to him and took his hand. ''Dean. You can tell me anything. I'm sure it's not that bad. Whatever you've done, I'm sure we can figure something out.''

His brain was screaming at him to shut up, turn around and leave the room as if nothing had happened but his heart was telling him that he owed her that much at least. He had to tell her. ''I'm not gonna be around much longer.''

Cain frowned at him and let out a small nervous laugh. ''What? Where are going?''

Dean let go of her hand and leaned back against the desk. '' Cain. I made a deal.''

''A deal? Is it a job?'' she tried to take his hand again put he was just out of reach. ''I doesn't matter. I can go with you Dean.''

''No you can't. It's not that kind of deal.''

Cain stood up and faced him. ''Come on Dean! What the hell is going on with you?'' she was getting angry at him. He was still hiding something from her and she knew it.

He pushed himself from the desk. '' I made a deal Cain! With a demon! That's what's going on!''

Cain's mouth opened in surprise but no sound came out. A demon? Why would he do that? You don't get out of a demon deal. Never. WHY ME! WHY NOW! The room was gone. Everything around her was gone. The only thing she could see was him. Standing in front of her. Still talking. Every part of her body hurt so much that she couldn't hear a single word he was saying. It was as if someone had stabbed her in the heart. Her brain was shouting to wake up and do something but her body was frozen on the spot. How could anyone feel that much pain without even being touched she had no idea. And then she was yanked back to reality by a gentle hand on her shoulder.

''Did you hear what I said?'' there was a single tear on his cheek and wiped it off immediately when her eyes fell on it.

The only thing she could manage was a weak ''What?'' She could feel the tears in her eyes and her vision became blurry.

''I had to. I saved Sam. I couldn't let Sammy die. He's my everything Cain. The only family I had.''

She pushed him away roughly and before she knew what she was doing she slapped him. The sound resonated through the room and she was pretty sure that Sam and Bobby must have heard it from downstairs. The next thing that came out of her mouth was practically a scream. ''NO! NOOO!'' She started punching him on the chest and realised after a couple of seconds that he wasn't doing anything to stop her. She stopped punching him and tried to breathe normally again. ''HOW LONG?'' He kept his mouth shut and his eyes on the floor. ''HOW LONG DO YOU HAVE?'' She pushed him again. ''ANSWER ME!'' Cain wasn't even trying to keep her voice down anymore. She didn't care. Didn't care about anything except this.

''6 months.''

Cain suddenly turned around, grabbed her duffel and started throwing all her stuff in it.

''What are you doing?'' Dean tried to stop her without success.

''Getting ready.''

''For what?''

She grabbed what was left of her clothes and put it all in the duffel. ''Were going to Kansas and getting rid of whatever that thing is once and for all.''

''Why are you packing all of this?''

He's not going to do this to me. I am NOT going to get hurt again.

She zipped the duffel, grabbed her other bag of weapons next to the bed and turned around before going out of the room. ''Because after that I'm gone.''

Sorry. Short chappie but necessary. Please reviews are LOVE!!!!!