Sorry for the long break. I'm working a lot right now… 6 days a week and it's summer so the little time I have off, I usually spend outside taking in some much needed sun. But I'll try to update more often and that is a promise.

Now, I know what you're thinking… How could Cain turn her back on Dean like that? But she has her reasons… you'll see.

Ch. 17 There's No Place Like Home

It wasn't as simple as it looked. She couldn't stay. Especially not if he was going to be gone in a couple of months. She had known from the first time they had been together that he was special. She knew he'd be the one to turn her life upside down forever. They had only known each other for a month but it felt like a year. Cain couldn't put it into words even if she'd wanted to. It was too… amazing and special… and unique. But she knew she had to leave. She would not let him see through the mask after all. Wouldn't tell him that secret she'd been keeping for the last weeks. It would tear him apart.

Cain was running down the stairs, dropped her bags and entered the kitchen to find Bobby and Sam staring at her.

''We're leaving.''

Sam frowned. ''What?''

''Now. We've waited long enough. Dean's arm is practically healed and we're all itching for some action. I say we go after whatever that thing in Kansas is.''

Bobby wasn't frowning, laughing or angry at her. Cain thought he looked almost sad. '' You're probably right. We've been here for weeks and we still have no idea what we're after. Might has well go now.''

Dean came in the kitchen minutes after Cain and dropped his duffel to the floor. Sam tried analysing his expression but he wouldn't look at him. In fact, Dean was looking everywhere but at him or Bobby.

''Get ready boys. We're leaving. '' Bobby was up and left the kitchen to get his equipment.

''I'll go with you Bobby. I need more shotgun shells.'' Cain was already out the door wanting to spend as little time as possible alone with Dean.

When Bobby and Cain were in the basement, Sam turned to Dean. ''What happened?'' Dean didn't say anything and still wouldn't meet his eyes. '' Come on Dean. Talk to me. We heard the shouting and screaming.''

''It's fine Sam. Everything's fine. Don't worry.'' Dean picked his duffel from the floor and was riffling through it looking for God knows what.

''You don't sound fine.'' Sam was really concerned by now. Why did Dean always have to play the strong guy? ''Look at me Dean.''

Dean turned his back to Sam and kept his eyes on his duffel. ''I'm busy Sammy. Go get your stuff. We're leaving soon.''

Sam thought he heard his voice crack a little at the end of the sentence. But he must have been imagining that… right? ''Dean?''

When he didn't get an answer, Sam grabbed Dean by the shoulder and spun him around. ''Talk to me. I can't help you if…'' But the sight of his brother's face stopped him mid-sentence. Dean kept his eyes on the floors but Sam could clearly see the redness of his eyes like he was about to cry. But Dean didn't cry. He never cries. Dean's the strong one.

He shook his head and finally looked up to his little brother. '' I told her and she got angry. There you go. And it doesn't matter because it's probably the last time we'll see her anyway.''

''What? What are you talking about?'' he frowned.

''She's leaving after this thing is over. She doesn't want to be around me anymore. I hurt her and she's leaving okay?'' By now, Dean's entire body was shaking with anger and he grabbed his duffel ready to leave the room.

''Dean. Wait.''

He turned around. ''WHAT? What more do you want from me Sam?''

Sam was shocked and didn't know what to answer. He had never seen his brother in that much pain and he had absolutely no idea what to do.

''You want to hold me while I cry on your shoulder. Well news flash dude. NOT happening! I'm done. We're leaving and that's it. The faster we get this thing over with the better. Now come on! Pack your stuff.''

Sam was paralysed and the next thing he heard was the front door slamming when Dean left to put his stuff in the car. He couldn't believe what he just heard. She was leaving? Why? How could she be that angry? But then Sam heard Bobby and Cain coming back from downstairs and he rushed to the room upstairs to get his stuff.

The ride to Kansas was long and painful. Sam and Dean took the Impala and Cain went with Bobby. He had barely said a word the entire way there and has much as Cain loved him, she couldn't wait to get out of the car. The elephant in the room (or the car in this case) was getting bigger and bigger and she was staring to feel claustrophobic. But she still mentally thanked him for not asking questions about earlier. She knew he wasn't dumb and that he knew something was going on and it made it so much worse.

Cain finally fell asleep in the car and she had absolutely no idea for how long because when she woke up the sun was setting and they had just arrived in Lawrence. Bobby parked his car next to the Impala and they all got out. They were in the parking lot of a small motel and Dean went inside to book their rooms.

The three hunters were gathered next to the Impala and Cain suddenly noticed something. '' Guys? Can you hear anything?''

Sam listened for a couple of seconds. ''No. Why?''

''Exactly. Nothing. No birds, no wind… nothing.'' And Cain was right. The motel was situated on a street that was usually very busy but they had only seen two cars pass by since they had arrived.

Bobby took out his EMF meter and turned it on. ''Weird…''

''What?'' Sam was looking over his shoulder at the EMF.

''The EMF isn't showing anything.''

Cain frowned. ''Why is that weird? We know there's been a drop in supernatural activity around the country… that's not new.''

Dean came back at the same moment. ''Because the EMF can't recognize the frequencies.''

Cain turned around. ''What do you mean?''

''I mean, if you stopped talking for a couple of seconds and actually concentrated… you can feel it.''

She glared at him and stopped talking. Sam and Bobby did the same and realised he was correct. Apart from the fact that the streets seemed calmer and that they couldn't hear the wind, birds or people, there was something else. Something in the air. It felt heavier, more dense. It felt as if you could cut it with a knife and it did not feel good at all.

''Where does it come from?'' Cain broke the silence.

Bobby put his EMF back in his coat pocket. ''Dunno. But I understand why people are staying inside today. That energy is coming from somewhere and we have to find the source.''

''Where do we begin?'' For once, she had utterly no idea what to do.

Dean grabbed his duffel from the Impala's trunk. ''I think I know where.''

Sam was staring at him worried. ''Dude you don't seriously think…''

''Yeah. It's here for us. Why else would it come here? ''

It was Bobby's turn to sound alarmed. ''Maybe we should wait a little more. We still don't know what it is.''

Dean was already placing his gun in the back of his pants and grabbing more bullets from his duffel. It was as if he hadn't heard a single word from Bobby. He finally looked up at Sam and put a hand on his shoulder. ''We're going home.''

They decided taking the cars would be too conspicuous so they walked. The walk to the old Winchester home was short and the sun had set minutes ago so nobody would be able to see them walking up to the house. Inexplicably, the atmosphere was getting heavier and heavier the closer they got to the house. By the time they were standing in front of it, Cain could feel the electricity in the air and knew that Dean had been right to come here.

She was standing behind the three men as they faced the house and she saw the two brothers tense at the sight of it.

''Do you think Jenny is still living here?'' Sam turned to his brother.

There was no light coming from the house and the driveway was empty. The home looked deserted. Cain assumed Jenny was the present owner of the house.

''Dunno.'' Dean started walking towards the door and knocked without waiting for them.

They all joined him and waited. Cain could see he was on edge. She was standing right beside him and she could see his jaw flex and his shoulder tense as he waited for an answer. She suddenly had to look elsewhere. The sight of him like that made her sad. All she wanted to do was to hold him and tell him everything was going to be alright. But she knew it wasn't going to be. He was leaving in a couple of months and she had to deal with it.

''Sam. Give me the tools.''

Sam took out a lock pick from his pocket and handed it to Dean. In a matter of seconds the door was opened and they all stepped inside ready to shoot anything out of the ordinary. The inside of the house was almost empty but what was left from the old owners was all over the place. There was a sofa turned over in the kitchen, plates broken in the bathroom and holes in the walls. Evidently no one was living here and it made them feel that more suspicious. It was such a beautiful house. Why would it be empty. Sam and Cain went to check the second floor and Bobby and Dean stayed on the first floors and the basement.

Cain looked in what she thought might have been a nursery. The walls were the palest shade of blue and there were little mice and rabbits painted on it. ''This room's clear.''

Sam came up behind her. ''The other rooms are all cleared too.''

She nodded and tried to walk past him but he grabbed her arm and stopped her. ''Are you really leaving?''

Cain didn't try to pull her arm away but still wouldn't meet his eyes. ''Yes.''

''Why?'' He lowered his arm until they were holding hands and he squeezed gently to get her attention.

She looked up at him. ''I have to Sam. I can't stay. Not after this.''

''Yes you can.'' He pulled her closer until he could face her and put both his hands on her shoulders. ''Do you think this is easy for me? 'Cause it's not. I haven't slept for months and I still can't seem to find a way out of this. It's my fault.''

''What does this have to do with me?''

'' You still don't understand do you?'' he said matter-of-factly. ''Dean loves you. I don't think I've ever seen him like that in my entire life. He's happy even if he has a couple of months left. You're breaking his heart.''

Cain's expression toughened. ''And he's breaking mine.'' She got out of Sam's reach but still faced him. ''I can't stay Sam. It might be difficult to understand but believe me it's better for him if I leave. I'm doing this for him.''

''I know you think that what you're doing is right but… he's not the only one that's going to be affected if you leave.'' Sam turned away from her. '' I'm going to lose him… I know that. But I don't want to lose you too.''

She took a step and stopped next to him. ''I'm sorry Sammy. I really am. But…''

''I know. You're not changing your mind.'' Sam walked away and she saw him turn the corner and heard him walk down the stairs.

If only I could make him understand…she thought before following him.

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