Blair Waldorf Journal Entry # 2:
Its 5:31 a.m. Serena could never understand why I got up so early, usually she was just getting in around this time. Nate never got it either, but does that really surprise anyone anymore? Chuck got it. He was like Serena, just getting in at this time. But he didn't hurry past it to collapse in a drunken stupor to his bed (not to mention Chuck was never really found in a drunken stupor, he can hold his liquor well). Sometimes we would talk on the phone for at least an hour to watch the sunrise. I don't know why I can't even remember what we talked about, probably nothing.
But it was nice just to know that someone was thinking about you at 5:30 in the morning. It was nice to just talk about nothing but at the same time, everything. It's kind of hard to explain I guess.
Chuck is smart, he proved that to the world and his father with his business endeavor at Victrola, also he's is all my AP classes, when he attends that is. Nate and Serena are not nearly as smart, especially not Serena, but she's pretty, loyal and friendly, just like a golden retriever. Chuck would think that was funny.
I can't sleep anymore. My stomach is empty because I made it that way. All day at school the other day, I could feel their eyes digging into me. I could go to France, spend the rest of the year there. But my dad is too busy and too happy without me and who am I to ruin that? He deserves some happiness after wasting all those years with my mother.
Gossip Girl got a picture of me feeding birds in the park by myself the other day; I wonder what they'll say about me now. This is getting to be like the Salem Witch Trials, except I'm the only witch. I'm doing very well in school, I'm pretty sure I've got valedictorian in the bag. Every time a teacher hands back a perfect paper they give me one of those sad smiles and tell me they're proud of me, as if they could tell what's happening amongst their students. I wish their words and smiles actually meant more but they don't and all I feel is tired, tired and cold.