Chapter 5

(A/N: And I'd like to thank Brightstar's Promise for the song idea, and the lovely suggestions. I'll try to keep those in mind. Thank you!)

Song used: Iris- Goo Goo Dolls

Crowpaw's POV: This is taking place in Midnight/Moonrise, when he and Feathertail loved each other.

I twined my tail with hers. Feathertail. She was the prettiest, smartest, and nicest she-cat I've ever met. She actually understands me, understands where I'm coming from. It doesn't matter what Clan she's in. The clan's might not even be re-assembled after this. So this is my chance. None of the she-cats in Windclan like mme, and likewise. So Feathertail was the only one for me. My only love.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
I don't care if I ever went home, back to Windclan. I just wanted to be with Feathertail. Maybe she could come to Windclan to be with me. You know, if the clans ever reassemble. Or I could go to Riverclan. Feathertail's taught me how to fish, I could fit it. And she talks about Mistyfoot a lot, she sounds like a good deputy. She could convince Leopardstar to let me stay. Tallstar's understanding too. He would let Feathertail come to Windclan.

I leaned over a little and licked Feathertail's ear. I loved her so much. Now, if I could just work up the nerve to say that to her face.

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

What if she wouldn't leave her clan though, and what if Leopardstar wouldn't accept me? I'd miss her so much. I don't care about the Warrior code, I want to be with Feathertail. I'd find a way. We'd find a way.

"Crowpaw?"
"Yea?"
"What will happen when we have to go back." She asked me quietly.

"I don't know Feathertail, but I'll try to be with you. I'll even go to Riverclan if I have to."
"All for me?" She asked incredulously.

"Yes, all for you."
"Why?"

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I stared at her lovingly. I was going to say it, going to tell her. The cat that accepts me for who I am. I may have a rough attitude, but I can love. I'm not a monster. And she sees that, and that only. I curled up closer to her purring. "Because..."
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

"Because?" She prodded.

I felt my whiskers twitch, and then I licked her ear again. "You understand me Feathertail. I want to thank you for that."
"Crowpaw. I don't know why everyone's always so mean to you. Your a very nice cat."
"Not to everyone else. But I can't help my personality." I sighed. That was the truth.

"I just...I just want to be accepted."
She looked at me, and I saw her eyes glitter. She was so beautiful.

"I accept you Crowpaw."
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

"Thank you." I said simply.

"And Feathertail?" I added.

"Yes Crowpaw?" She purred.

"I love you." I said. And I was certain, one hundred percent.

"Oh Crowpaw. I love you too. We'll get through this."
"I agree." And we stared up at the moon in the night sky.

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am