This fic is an AU fic that takes place in the beginning of season 4 right after TOW The Jellyfish. Ross and Rachel got back together while they were at the beach and stayed together. Monica and Chandler aren't together yet. Joey and Phoebe are both single and Kathy never existed.

Disclaimer: All Friends characters belong to Bright, Kauffman and Crane. I do wish I owned Chandler!

Title: Through It All

Rated: PG

Summery: An illness brings a couple together

Chapter 2: Why My Best friend

"Chandler what is it...what's wrong" she asked with concern. He sighed softly "I…I went to the doctor " She nodded "Good what did he say, its just the flu right" He shook his head "No its not just the flu Mon it…its" he stopped "Its what Chandler" she asked softly. His tears now ran down his face as he whispered "Its Leukemia" Monica just stood there too shocked to speak. "Mon" Chandler whispered. "It...It's a joke right, it...its not funny" tears filled her eyes. "I wish it were a joke but its not," he said. "Wh…what are you going to do" she asked. He shrugged "Die I guess" She began to cry when he said that. "I have a appointment with Dr. Kovach tomorrow he'll probably tell me I need Chemo or something"

He looked at her "Why me Mon I...I'm only 27 I haven't done anything with my life " he broke down in tears. Monica wrapped her arms around him holding him tightly. "Shh its okay Chandler" she said softly crying with him. "We'll get you through this, we will" she tried to assure him. He pulled away slightly to look at her. "I…I'm not ready to die Mon" She reached up and brushed his tears away "That's good because you're not dying you're my best friend, you're on my team you'll win" she whispered. Chandler stood there for a minute just looking at her. He didn't know what made him do it but he slowly leaned in brushing his lips to hers kissing her softly at first, deepening it as it continued.

With out breaking the kiss Chandler slowly led Monica to his bedroom. Before long they were in bed making love. Later that night Chandler sat up watching Monica sleep. Her dark hair was fanned out on his pillow. She looked so peaceful. He thought about what had happened between them earlier. He'd made love to his best friend. She meant the world to him and he used her to make himself feel better or at least that's how he thought she'd see it. "Being with you was like a dream come true," he whispered brushing a few strands

of hair from her face. "I…I never meant to hurt you Mon, I…I love you" he whispered, "I think I always have" he began to cry softly.

Monica moved slightly opening her eyes when she heard Chandler crying. "What's the matter sweetie" she asked as she sat up. "I...I'm scared Mon" he admitted. "Scared of what" she asked softly. "Being alone, dying " he whispered. She set her hand on his cheek. "You'll never be alone Chandler I'm right here and I always will be" she kissed his cheek. "And the guys will be here for you too" she said "We'll get you through this okay I mean I just got you I have no intention of letting you go" she smiled a little.

"Mon ar…are you saying you want to be with me "he asked softly. She smiled and nodded "You were right you are boyfriend material" He frowned normally he would have never been happier to hear her say that. "Mon you know I'd love to be with you but I…I can't" he whispered "Why" she asked "I have Leukemia Monica I…I could die and I don't want to hurt you" She was so touched even now facing such a serious illness he was putting her first. "Chandler I know what you're trying to do, I understand but you don't have to" She took her hand in his "I want to be with you, I...I've wanted to be with you for a long time" she admitted. "Really" he asked. "Yeah I was just too scared to admit it until now" He sighed "I've wanted to be with you for a long time too but what if we only have a few weeks or months together I…I just couldn't do that to you "

Monica looked into his eyes "I don't care if we have a few weeks, a few years, or the rest of our lives every moment I have with you will be a moment I treasure" He couldn't help smiling a little "I was so worried you'd hate me, think I was using you to make myself feel better" She smiled "Well in a way you did but its okay because I let you use me" she whispered "Tonight was amazing Chandler I don't regret any of it okay" He nodded "Thanks" he whispered "For what" she asked "For tonight, for being here" She smiled "I'll always be here Chandler I promise"

Chapter 3: Options…Chandler finds out what his options are…Coming Soon!