When Words Fail Chapter 6: The Cowboy in Me, a transformers/beast wars fanfic

Has it really been that long since I updated this thing?

Song used: The Cowboy in Me by Tim McGraw

Universe: G1

Characters/pairings: Sunstreaker, Sideswipe, Bumblebee, Ratchet, Jazz, Blaster, SunstreakerXBumblebee, and mentioned JazzXBlaster and SideswipeXProwl.

Warnings: a rather saucy kiss between Bumblebee and Sunstreaker, and implied Sideswipe and Prowl interfacing.

Disclaimer: I don't own Transformers, Hasbro owns them, and I don't own the song The Cowboy in Me, Tim McGraw owns that.

A small note: I know in one part of the song it's talking about a wife or girlfriend and I use Sideswipe, I did that because I really didn't want to put an OC or something, so just ignore that.

I don't know why I act the way I do
Like I ain't got a single thing to lose
Sometimes I'm my own worst enemy
I guess that's just the cowboy in me

Sunstreaker stared up at the ceiling from where he lay on the medical berth; Ratchet was repairing his arm and chewing him out about 'pulling incredibly stupid stunts' or something along those lines. He wasn't even sure what the medic was talking about anymore, he had pretty much stopped listening after the first couple of words.

"Sunstreaker, Sunstreaker, SUNSTREAKER!!!" Ratchet yelled. The yellow Lamborghini shot straight up and Ratchet let out an exasperated sigh, "Were you even LISTENING to me?" The golden warrior shook his head and bluntly replied, "No"

Ratchet face palmed and said with irritation more than obvious in his voice, "I said that I'm done and that you can go." The mech jumped from the berth and left the medbay, not bothering to say thank you to the medic.

Ratchet watched the gold twin leave and shook his head slowly, one day Sunstreaker was going to get himself killed if he didn't start thinking before he acted. This was the third time this week he had been in the medbay with injuries.

I got a life that most would love to have
But sometimes I still wake up fightin' mad
At where this road I'm heading down might lead
I guess that's just the cowboy in me

Sunstreaker walked slowly to the quarters his brother and he shared, all the while grumbling about the scratches on his new paintjob.

He rounded the corner and ran smack into Bumblebee, it didn't hurt him that much, but it knocked the minibot back on his aft.

Standing up, the minibot looked up at Sunstreaker's angry face fearfully, "I'm so sorry Sunstreaker! I didn't see you!" He squeaked

"Yeah, well watch where you're going next time minibot!" He snapped, but felt a twinge of regret when he saw Bumblebee cringe away.

"I said I was sorry," Bumblebee whispered, bowing his head as his optics started tearing up a little

Sunstreaker's optics widened and he felt ashamed at himself. He quickly brushed past Bumblebee and jogged the rest of the way to his and Sideswipe's quarters.

The urge to run, the restlessness
The heart of stone I sometimes get
The things I've done for foolish pride
The me that's never satisfied
The face that's in the mirror when I don't like what I see
I guess that's just the cowboy in me

When the door shut behind him, he walked over and collapsed on his berth, burying his face in the head cushion with a sigh, thinking he should have apologized to Bumblebee and helped him up instead of snapping at him like a jerk.

No, cute little Bumblebee didn't deserve that at all…Wait, did he just call Bumblebee cute? His processor must have gotten damaged during that battle...Oh who was he kidding? Bumblebee was adorable!

He doubted, however, that Bumblebee would want to spend any time with him after he had been an aft to him today…

Girl I know there's times you must have thought
There ain't a line you've drawn I haven't crossed
But you set your mind to see this love on through
I guess that's just the cowboy in you

"Sunny?" A voice asked and Sunstreaker looked up to see his brother standing in the doorway to their wash racks, peering at him in confusion, "What's wrong?"

"What makes you think something is wrong?" He retorted out of habit.

"Oh please," Sideswipe said, rolling his optics and stepping the rest of the way out of the wash racks, "I'm choking on all the misery you're giving off!"

"It's nothing," Sunstreaker muttered into the cushion

Sideswipe raised an optic ridge and said, "That nothing sounds like a whole lot of something." He sat down on the edge of Sunstreaker's berth, "C'mon, you can tell me!" He encouraged his golden brother.

Sunstreaker rolled over and sat up, "I-I was coming from the med bay and I was coming around a corner and I wasn't paying attention to where I was going and ran into Bumblebee and, instead of apologizing, I…I yelled at him…" Sunstreaker had never felt as awful as he did now, "I made him cry Sides and then I just walked off!" He growled the last part and punched his head cushion.

He looked up at Sideswipe to see his crimson twin frowning and shaking his head, "Sunny, you really shouldn't have done that," he said sadly.

"Why?" Sunstreaker asked his brother

Sideswipe's optics widened, "You didn't know? Little 'Bee has a crush on you!" He exclaimed grabbing his brother's shoulders and giving him a good shake.

Sunstreaker's optics widened and he jumped off the berth, surprising Sideswipe, who nearly fell off.

"Where are you going?!" The crimson warrior yelled after his brother, who was jogging to the door of their quarters.

"To find Bee." He answered shortly

Sideswipe just sat there in disbelief for a moment, then a smile curled its way across his face and he let out a small chuckle.

Bumblebee sat at a table by himself in the Autobot's Rec Room. He could have sat at a table with Jazz and Blaster, but he really just didn't feel like talking right now, or listening to them flirt shamelessly with each other.

"What was I thinking anyway?" He thought gloomily, "A 'bot like Sunstreaker would never be interested in someone like me in a million years."

His self-loathing thoughts were interrupted by a chair being pulled out and sat in. He turned to ask the 'bot if they could sit somewhere else, when he saw who exactly was sitting next to him.

Sunstreaker was sitting there, staring at Bumblebee with an unreadable expression.

"I already said I was sorry." Bumblebee mumbled, looking down.

"I…Didn't come for an apology, Bumblebee." He began unsurely, "I, uh, came to apologize…to you."

Bumblebee's optics widened and he stuttered, "B-but why?"

"Because, you don't deserve for me to take my anger out on you." Sunstreaker whispered, leaning closer and brushing his lips against 'Bee's.

Bumblebee gasped and, looking around to find the Rec Room empty, with the exception of them, "Did you just kiss me?" He asked in disbelief

"You seem surprised," Sunstreaker purred, resting his hand on Bumblebee's thigh.

"Because I am," Bumblebee said, looking around as though he were afraid this was some kind of prank and the whole Ark crew was about to jump out and start laughing at him.

"This isn't a prank, if that's what you are thinking." Sunstreaker said seriously, gazing into Bumblebee's baby blue optics.

Bumblebee's gaze dropped again and he said quietly, "Don't make fun of me Sunstreaker, I know there's no way you would ever fall for me."

Sunstreaker's mouth tightened and he reached out and grabbed Bumblebee's chin and made him tilted his helm up so he could look the younger Autobot in the optics.

"Don't talk that way, it just so happens I do feel something for you Bumblebee." He growled softly, causing 'Bee to tense slightly.

Sunstreaker saw Bumblebee tense and released him and sat back in his chair heavily, "'Bee…I don't know why I lo-I mean, like you so much, I just do, and I'm really, really sorry for all the grief I've given you in the past." He reached out again and gently took Bumblebee's hands in his larger ones, "If…you can give me just one more chance, I promise I will make it worth your while."

Bumblebee stared at Sunstreaker incredulously, could he really mean that? Everything he just said?

Bumblebee gazed up at him and said softly, "I want to believe you, so bad it hurts Sunstreaker," He paused for a moment and fought back tears that threatened to spill forth and continued, "but, how do I know you truly mean that?"

Sunstreaker hesitated for no more than a second before he swept forward and wrapped his arms around Bumblebee and kissed him passionately. He gently slid his glossa against 'Bee's lips, requesting entrance, which the golden beetle unsurely gave. Sunstreaker slipped his glossa inside Bumblebee's warm mouth, exploring every inch of it.

When he broke the kiss, Bumblebee whimpered and looked up at him through hazy optics, his mouth still slightly open and glistening.

When his optics and mind cleared, Bumblebee realized that sometime during that amazing kiss, he had come to straddle Sunstreaker's lap. Whether he had gotten himself there, or Sunstreaker had put him there, he didn't remember. Sunstreaker didn't seem to mind, though, if that smirk on his face plate was anything to go by.

Securing one arm around Bumblebee to keep him in place, he stroked the bug's cheek with his thumb and murmured, "Still don't believe me?"

The Bug blushed slightly and said, "Almost, I still think I need some more convincing though."

Sunstreaker smirked and claimed 'Bee's lips once more in a powerful kiss.

The two new lovers were so oblivious to everything but each other that they didn't notice a certain crimson twin watching them with a giddy expression on his face plate. He was happy his brother had finally found someone who he was willing to put aside his pride for. But now, the saucy kiss his brother had shared with Bumblebee had presented him with a problem…a problem in his nether regions that is.

He slowly backed out of the Rec Room and quickly began to make his way to Prowl's office to get his mate to help him 'take care' of it…

We ride and never worry about the fall
I guess that's just the cowboy in us all...