Chapter 6: press pause on humanity. . .

A/N: I am aware that this particular chapter has come up completely underlined. I am very sorry for this if it is an issue for you. Please don't let this be a problem, I am currently trying to fix it, but please keep reading. I'm working on chapter 7 now, it should be up before the end of this week… Thanks so much. ~Clarissa~

I dropped Charlie off at home and went back into town for the pizza. I stopped in the parking lot and checked my phone. Missed call from Angel and the gang, then there was another text from Edward. I ignored it and started to dial Edward's number. He picked up on the second ring…

Edward: "Bella?" -relief saturating his voice-

Bella: "Yeah, what are you doing?"

Edward: "Um… I was just reading. Why? What's the matter love?"

Bella: "I think… I think we should talk. Can you pick me up later?" -I heard him sigh-

Edward: "I guess we do. I'll be there when you get home."

Bella: "Okay… but wait… how did you know-"

Edward: "Don't worry, I'll be there…"

The call was ended.

I sighed and got out of the car. The pizzas weren't ready so I sat and let my mind wander for a few minutes. I thought it was weird how he knew that I wasn't at home. But then again I did go down to La Push. Wow. How dumb of me, he was just saying. Geesh, this new knowledge of him had my nerves on end and my imagination speeding around everything. By the time I got back out to the car, the rain was down to a sprinkle.

I pulled up in front of Charlie's house expecting to see Edward's Volvo, but all that I found was Charlie's police cruiser. I heard sports blaring when I walked into the house. "Dad?" I called walking around the corner. "Oh…" Edward sat, always a perfect statue of Adonis, net to my father, engrossed in the game that was on. I smiled and he looked up at me smiling too. I continued walking, trying not to make a bigger fool of myself. I felt someone behind me. "Edward…" I said as he pressed his cool, hard lips to mine. He was very cautious, I twined my arms around his neck. He sighed and unwrapped them. "Can we go back to your house?" I asked, grabbing his hand. We walked out into the living room and out of the corner of my eye I saw Charlie watching us. "Dinners on the counter. I'm going back to Edward's tonight." he nodded, "Call me when you get there. I don't you two kids stuck out in the big storm that's heading our way." we nodded and left.

Edward kissed me again when we were barely out of the door. Kissing him made me breathless and always yearning for more. He pulled back and I groaned keeping my eyes closed. His breathing was coming just as short and ragged as mine. It began to pour down rain, I grabbed his hand and ran ahead into the yard. He followed me and we stopped in the middle of Charlie's front yard. "I don't care!" I said over the rain. I looked up at his face for some sign that he had heard what I had said. "I love you, and I've thought about it and it doesn't matter…" I put my hands on either side of his face and stared into his eyes. He mirrored my action and brought his face closer to mine. His lips touched mine so softly, and then grew more and more passionate. I pressed myself closer to him, becoming a mold to his body. He twined his hands in my hair and I wrapped mine around his neck.

I pulled back and studied his face, "Say something… please?" he laughed. "You look beautiful in the rain…" I laughed with him. We were dripping wet and yet, he still managed to look like a runway model. I grew jealous, but changed my track of mind as I ran back to the car. I jumped in the backseat and Edward joined me through the other side.

"How much did he tell you?" he asked casually. "Enough. I knew something was different, I just couldn't put my finger on it." he grabbed my hand and started to play with my fingers. "It just made sense. The days of school you missed when it was sunny, the way your eyes always change colors with your mood… although I'm still very curious as to why this is so…" I let my voice trail off. "And so when he was telling you this, you immediately thought of me?" his voice sounded hurt. I thought for a moment, "No, I didn't think of you. He mentioned your family's name." he nodded, "So what do you think of me now? Of us?" he said cautiously, still playing with my fingers. I thought for a moment, "I didn't really know, at first. I thought of comic book characters and everything. Then once I went and talked to Jacob, I found out that I was just being paranoid." he nodded, "So, what's your conclusion now, Miss Swan?" I laughed, "I told you already that it didn't matter, that I didn't care. I love you, Edward." he smiled slightly, "That's nice to know, but I'm talking about me what. What is your final conclusion about me?" I looked out the window and thought long and hard about how to phrase it.

"I don't know, Jacob said that you guys were -I lowered my voice into a silent whisper- vampires. But I don't know what to say about that. It seems so surreal." I heard Edward sigh and squeeze my hand. "So… -he paused- if it were true, would it matter then?" I shook my head and leaned my head against his shoulder. I felt him shrug me off, I sat there. Stunned, I felt my face burn with anger. "What's the matter with you? I thought that's what you wanted…" I said, getting annoyed by the silence he gave me. "I do want it, but I don't. I don't want to put you in danger all of the time. I just want you to be safe. You need to be with someone who, when they are with you, they aren't constantly being tempted to kill you. I hate myself because, I'm in love with you Bella, and I'm afraid that I will kill you…" I hugged him. I couldn't say anything. I just felt his pain and I didn't like to see him hurting. "Edward, we can make this work… don't worry about me. If something should happen-" he shook his head and squeezed me a little too tight, "Nothing. Nothing will happen to you, and if it did… I couldn't and wouldn't forgive myself." I sighed, "I cant argue with you over this, can I?" he shook his head. I reached up and touched my lips to his. I sighed and climbed over the seat and Edward followed. "Where to?" I smiled, "To your house?" he nodded and started the car up.

He drove faster than I was used to -beings that I drove myself around all day- but he never swayed an inch out of line on the roads, despite the bad weather. We got back to his house in record time. I got out the car and began to make a run for the house. I was picked up in his arms halfway there and carried the rest of the way. We came in the house through the garage and into the kitchen. He set me down on a chair and I smiled. I got up and walked over to him wrapping my arms around his waist. He turned around and lifted me up onto the counter. "Mm… so what are we going to do now?" I asked, studying his face again. He shrugged, "Whatever you want to do…" I thought for a moment and then my stomach growled. I blushed and looked away. "Dinnertime?" he laughed and I nodded. "Is there any way that I can get some dry-" I began and Alice was right there at my arm, "Clothes? Why of course, Bella, Come with me…" she tugged on my arm and I looked at Edward but he was busy in the refrigerator. I followed her out of the kitchen.

She led me into this huge closet, the size of my whole upstairs at Charlie's house. "Wow, this is like a shopping mall…" I kept walking back further, and came to a mirror. "Here -she tossed a white dress bag at me and some stringy stuff- put these on." I realized shortly after that the stringy stuff were undergarments. "Alice-" she held up her finger. I gave up and did as I was told. The clothes were cute but very revealing, especially the underwear. She gave me a pair of silky pajama bottoms and matching tank. Way more revealing than my usual. "Thanks…" I said as she turned around. "Bella, you're a total B a b e!" she exclaimed. I blushed and looked in the mirror. "Could I have a hoodie to wear over it?" I asked, she tossed me a black hoodie. "Thanks…" I put it on and walked back down the stairs.

"Mm…" I said walking into the kitchen. Edward had his back to me and was putting something on a plate. "What are you cooking…?" he turned with a plate and silverware in one hand and a glass of juice in another. "File mignon and a Greek salad." I smiled, "Sounds good…" I picked up the fork and dug in. I was starving and it tasted so delicious. "This is amazing, where did you learn to cook like this?" I asked around a mouth full of food. "Just something I practiced during my spare time." he smiled and played idly with a strand of my hair. I pushed the plate away from me, "Wow, that was.. The best food I have ever tasted." I got up to take care of my plate, but it disappeared from my hands. I stood there stunned. Edward stood across the kitchen from me, "Wow, well I should have you do my chores at home more often." I said with an easy smile. He smiled an uncertain smile, "Are you okay?" I nodded and walked over to him. "Absolutely fine…" he grabbed my hands and held them close.

He wrapped his arm around my waist and led me out of the kitchen. The power flickered and then shut completely off. "Shit…" I mumbled to myself. I heard Edward chuckle near me, and then a candle appeared. "Shall we?" I just nodded not entirely sure as to where we were going or anything, as long as I was with him. We ended up in his bedroom. He lit a bunch of candles near the glass wall and then some in the hanging lights from his ceiling. "Wow, this is so.. Romantic…" I said taking my hoodie off. I walked over to his stereo and turned it on. Some slow melodies began to play. I felt Edward's hands around my waist and I turned around. "Will you dance with me?" he asked. I couldn't answer, "I cant dance… well I can… but not like this…" I stammered.

"Don't be silly, I'll lead. You just follow." I gulped and we began slowly, moving around in a circle. I loved dancing with him. I laid my head against his chest and closed my eyes. I felt him pick me up and I opened them. He laid me on the bed and then laid himself next to me. He was watching me, tracing circles on my stomach. I lifted my head up and touched my lips to his. He returned the kiss and moved his hand to my side, slowly caressing my body. I felt my face go red and he smiled. "Are you ashamed my love?" I shook my head, "No, I like it…" I whispered and kissed him again. He traced the outline of my lips with his tongue and my lips parted.

I ran my hands down his chest. I never noticed how built he was. Every one of his muscles was sculpted to perfection. He let a low moan and pulled my thigh up and hitched it around his waist. He kissed me with such urgency and yet it was one of the most gentle kisses I had ever received. I felt my breathing come shorter and shorter. He rolled onto his back and pulled me with him. I took a deep breath when he started to kiss my neck gently. Tracing it with his tongue. "Have you ever…?" he asked, letting it trail off into the abyss. "No…" I gasped, "Have you?" he shook his head and began kissing me again.

Oh goodness this felt so amazing. He began to pull my shirt off and run his hands up my back as he sat up. He kissed my shoulders and then my neck again working his way up to my jaw. I started to take his shirt off and threw it on the floor when I succeeded. I ran my hands down his chest, he stopped kissing me and took a breath. "Bella… I don't know about this…" I kissed him quiet. "Why? What are you so worried about?" I asked breathless. He shrugged, "What if I hurt you? I mean…" I shook my head and wrapped my arms around him, "Don't worry about it, you wont… and if you do… well it will be worth it. Edward, don't kill yourself with worry." I said with a laugh.

He ran his fingers down my spine and I arched my back. He pulled my pants off, exposing the thin fabric Alice called underwear, letting it fall to the floor. He stared at me for a moment and then kissed me some more. I messed around with the buckle on his pants. He rolled over and held most of his weight over me. He sat up and took them off. I watched, he was even more beautiful in the candlelight. I propped myself up on one elbow, finally able to breath. He leaned back down slowly and pulled a blanket between us and kissed the skin underneath my jaw. "Are you sure, Bella?" I nodded, "Are you sure?" he thought a moment…, "Yes, I am.

He leaned down again and kissed me, passionately, my head began to spin…