Thanks for the reviews guys! So I'm in Switzerland right now and the keyboard is like completely different on my aunt's laptop so please excuse any spelling mistakes, also I definitely won't be updating as often as I did however the story is like nearly finished probs about five more chapters tops but I'll and update as often as I can. Here's the next chapter r&r thanx
Right so where was I? It was the morning after the night before…
Troy. Troy. Troy.
That was as complex as my though process went that morning, I wanted so bad to be able to say I don't love you anymore nor do I want to see you again, but as usual with that boy my heart wouldn't let me. So now regardless of what my head said to me, with all the logic it held nothing and I mean nothing could and would take my heart away from his. I prayed that night and I mean truly prayed that I wasn't making the wrong decision by giving us another chance. Morning came much too quickly.
"WAKE UP!" Sharpay called from the other side of the door, I was awake I just didn't want to face crazy pay and Gabby yet especially seeing as they still hadn't grilled me about the conversation which I knew they both heard.
"I'm awake pay!" I replied as I went to unlock the door
"Good afternoon Taylor!" She said sarcastically as she looked me up and down and realized I had showered and was fully dressed, her and Gabby pushed past me placed the tray of breakfast by my bed before jumping on it.
"So Troy's been calling the house for the past hour Tay, stop torturing the poor boy!" Gabby said getting comfortable with my pink pillow, they didn't waste much time
"So now I'm torturing him! He's the one that kissed a girl!" I replied rolling my eyes and getting comfortable in the love seat
"C'mon Tay…" Shar whispered as she exchanged looks with Gabby
"Ugh! Whatever guys this is between me and Troy okay" I said sipping on my orange juice and shrugging it off, I really wasn't in the mood to get into it with those two
"Yeah but we're your friends, we're trying to make sure you don't make a big mistake" Gabby said sincerely
"You guys have been saying that since last night… you forget it's my life okay and if I make a few bad decisions then so be it but trust me this is not one of them okay" I replied sternly and thanked Troy for calling when he did so that we could end that conversation. I got up to answer my phone,
"Hey" I whispered into the phone as Gabby and Sharpay looked at me curiously
"Hey" He replied, I started fiddling with the objects on my dressing table
"how are you?" I asked softening slightly toward how nervous he sounded when he'd said hello
"I'm okay" He paused "How are you?" Knowing that's not what he wanted to ask
"I'm okay" I paused as I fiddled with the earring on the table "so erm you wanna come over?" I finally asked
"sure I'll there in five" I quickly hung up the phone first.
"So was that Troy?" Gabby asked hopefully
"No it was Tye" I replied nonchalantly turning to face there shocked expressions, you know I had to mess with them
"WHAT!" they both exclaimed at the same time,
"It's was Troy fools!" I giggled ducking the pillow as Sharpay threw at me
"So are you two gonna sort everything out?" Shar asked as I shrugged and brushed my hair, before applying some lip balm
"I'll tell you when you guys get back from shopping, or seeing your men or whatever it is you're going to do that is not going to be in my house" I smirked watching Sharpay's jaw drop through the mirror
"What! But we're gonna miss all the action!" She complained
"Get out of my house heffa!" I laughed as Gabby dragged her out of the room and downstairs followed by me because I knew Troy would be here any minute
"Well atleast call us or something" Shar huffed as she grabbed her coat and I nodded before opening the door where Troy was about to knock
"Bye Troy" They both chimed before looking back at me to and mining to call them. I shook my head at them before slowly returning my gaze to Troy who was still standing outside my house in his skinny jeans and white shirt looking as good as ever. I sometimes wonder if I would take him back if he didn't look as good as he did but that thought stays between me and you
"Gosh, those two are a hot mess" I smirked looking up at him before seeing the serious look on his face, his usually bright blue eyes were that dark blue that I hated seeing on his face
"erm come in" I said nervously as he nodded and walked into the hall, we stood there apprehensively for a few minutes before I led us to the living room. He sat on the couch opposite mine and stared at me intently before talking,
"So have you thought about everything Tay?" he questioned as he leaned his elbows on his knees and looked at me, I looked at him for a moment before looking away and playing with my fingers, I knew I'd made a decision about everything last night but now it didn't feel so right
"You don't beat around the bush huh?" I replied, trying to hold off the subject for a few more moments so I could get my thoughts together
"C'mon Tay… you're killing me here, I just want to know where we stand" He sighed rubbing a hand over his face,
"I'm not sure what to tell you Troy" I started as he nodded as though he understood, he really had no idea
"Well how do you feel about us?" He asked like it was that simple, he already knew that I loved him so the point in that question was? I answered him anyway
"I… I… don't know, I love you Troy that much is clear" I saw a smile creep up on his face
"But, you kissed someone else and I really don't know if I'll get over that anytime soon or in fact ever" I sighed as he frowned
"I know and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry and if you give me the chance I swear I'll make it up to you" He pleaded
"I don't doubt you will but memories aren't easy to erase Troy, that's what bugging me. I've forgiven you but I can't forget it and what if we try again and my memory makes sure we never move past it. Regardless of where what happens to us as a couple I still want to keep our friendship, I'm not ready to completely erase you from my life and I don't want to completely lose you as a friend because I can't let go of your mistake" I sighed telling him the truth
"Tay we can try… you know we can…" He replied beginning to argue with me before I'd finished
"If you let me finish… I was going to say I'd always wonder about us if I didn't give us the chance to try and frankly I can't live my life with 'what ifs ', life's too short to wonder, you taught me that… so I'm gonna give us a chance to fight for whatever it is that's left of this relationship" I smirked as his face lit up once again
"really?" He asked as I nodded furiously certain that I'd made the right decision now that I'd voiced it
"I'm not ready to let go of us yet but I swear Troy if you so much as dream kiss another girl, it's over" I smirked as he rushed over and tackled me into a big bear hug while I giggled
"Oh you have no idea how happy I am to hear that" he smiled as he swiftly placed me on his lap "you won't regret it I swear Taylor" He smiled
"I better not Bolton" I smirked
"dream kiss" He questioned raising one of his eyebrows in a mocking manner
"what?" I exclaimed laughing as I leaned down to kiss his the Cheshire cat grin plastered on his face
"I missed those kisses" He smiled leaning his forehead on mine, "I'm sorry I made you cry" He continued whilst stroking my cheek "I'm so sorry" I heard him whisper as he begun kissing my nose and then my forehead
"I know baby… I know let's just forget it and try to move on okay" I smiled as he nodded and returned to kissing my face.
We sat there comfortably in each other's embrace for a while, silent most of the time something that Troy and I had always seemed comfortable in doing. Sometimes he'd whisper sweet nothings in my ear, other times he'd kiss around my face and neck and from time to time he'd squeeze me closer into his chest. The T.V. was on in the background probably on BET or MTV or something but neither of us were really watching it. Both of us were too lost in our own thoughts; happiness and uncertainty on my behalf. Happy because I was here with Troy again and uncertain because my head was calling me a fool for following my heart, but for once I'd sweep those uncertain thoughts away and just live for this moment. Who cares if I'd made the right decision or not, at this very moment I was the happiest I'd been all weekend. Time seemed still and this felt like where I was meant to be at this moment in time, my soul seemed to find Troy's as quickly as his found mine and it didn't look like either was ready or willing to let go so who was I to tell my soul different?
"Tay what you thinking about?" He asked pushing my hair out of my face
"nothing… life… us" I giggled as I looked I tilted my head from his lap to meet his eyes
"so nothing huh?" He smirked
"nothing… "I smirked "do you really think we'll be together in ten years?" I asked as I finally pulled away from his embrace and sat cross legged facing him
"I want us to be, I can't be with anyone but you Taylor, we both know that but I can't predict the future either, the only thing I know is only death can separate me from you now" He replied looking into my eyes sincerely "why?"
"I don't know, my brains in overdrive I guess, but that was a grade A answer" I winked as he chuckled
"No babe it was the truth" He yawned and looked at his watch "damn it it's nearly seven already, I promised my Dad I'd go with him and his new girlfriend Christmas tree shopping at seven" He pouted
"Oh my gosh I completely forgot you were meeting her this holiday! Is she nice?" I questioned sitting up straight
"Yeah and she makes him happy so it's cool with me, Hey do you want to come with me?" He smirked
"I don't know, I'm not sure I want to invade Bolton family time"
"You are family Tay remember I'm gonna marry you one day" He smirked as I tried to hide the smile creeping up on my face "C'mon please, plus I only just got you back I don't really want to leave you yet" He smiled thinking his charm would win me over
"As much as I would love to say yes Troy I can't" I smirked as he pouted
"Why not?" He huffed in a Sharpay like manner which made me giggle
"Because I have plans that don't include you Bolton" I shrugged trying to be difficult, I had no plans we both knew that I just didn't want to be the reason he didn't hang out with his Dad. He grabbed my hand and pulled me roughly towards his end of the couch
"Troy!" I giggled falling into him as he kissed my temple and then my lips before slipping his tongue into my mouth and softly massaging my mouth with it, I slowly pulled away as he groaned disappointedly
"Tay c'mon" He moaned
"You have to go remember" I smirked flicking his nose "And I have plans, now c'mon" I laughed getting up and pulling him up with me as he continued to protest
"Baby c'mon, I can cancel with my Dad and we can invite the gang over or something, I don't care what we do as long as you're there c'mon I still miss you and I'm with you!" He dramatically exclaimed as I laughed at his antics
"No you promised your father, now go anyway you can just come back later if you miss me that much" I smiled leading him to the front door
"Fine I'll see you later on tonight I guess" he sighed and leaned down to kiss me passionately before I pulled away once again when he wasn't ready to
"You need to stop messing with me like that Tay" He smirked
"Yeah and you got a date with your Dad now go!" I laughed pushing him out of the door before he came up with yet another reason not to go "Bye bighead" I whispered leaning against my front door as he stood coyly on the other side smiling at me
"I love you Tay" He sighed before kissing me again and walking to his car, I watched him drive off into the dark pulling my sweater close to me as the winter wind started to sip through and closed the door when all I could see was the dust that his tires left behind. I wondered why or even how I loved that boy so much, I'm sure it was unnatural to love a human that much.
That evening turned out to be more fun than I'd expected, the whole gang ended up chilling out at mine with Troy joining us an hour later, something we hadn't done since high school which thinking about it wasn't too long ago but you know what I mean. Sharpay of course kept us entertained with her stories of the drama in her college and all the cheerleading hoochies she'd had to fight off Zeke in the first week before they understood he was not single. Those two seemed to be enjoying their time together and looked just as in love as when we'd left them back here all those months ago. Chad and Gabby were of course happily engaged and were waiting until Christmas morning to break it to their parents that they were planning to get married this summer. Troy and I had finally got it together and spent the night in each other's eyes. One by one the couples begun to leave my house until it was just Troy and I left. We stayed up all night, well most of the night talking and laughing in my living room before finally falling asleep together on my couch in the early hours of the morning.
I didn't see Troy for the next few days after that, My Dad returned a dad early on Monday the next day with my crazy Grandparents because he didn't like the idea of his eighteen going onto nineteen year old daughter being in that big old house by herself. He knew full well I wasn't going to be by myself but I think that's what scared him more, so then I spent the next few days doing last minute Christmas shopping with my Grandma or Gabby and Sharpay and so I didn't see Troy until Christmas eve when he surprised me to give me my gift on time for Christmas.
"I come bearing gifts" he said as he leaned up against my front door with that cocky smirk on his face
"aren`t I lucky, I have my very own personal father Christmas" I replied rolling my eyes at the father Christmas hat he had on his head before stepping aside to let him in
"Is that sarcasm I detect in your tone Miss. Mckessie because you know Father Christmas doesn't like sarcastic girls" He smirked as he took off his coat
"Well when Father Christmas gets here I'll be on my best behavior, but for my corny boyfriend I can be as naughty as I like" I winked closing the front door
"I like the way you think" He said leaning in to kiss me before being interrupted by my deluded Grandmother
"Is that my man Taylor baby?" she asked knowing full well It was him, I rolled my eyes and broke away from our almost kissing to his annoyance before leading him to meet my family in the next room
"C'mon, just say hi and then we can chill in my room okay" I said squeezing his hand as he nodded and quickly pecked my forehead before we headed inside the room. We sat there for a few moments with my family to be polite before I finally led Troy away from my man-eating Grandma and upstairs to my father's dismay but hey I was eighteen now he really couldn't stop me from having boys in my room.
"Finally" He sighed as he pushed me onto my bed and climbed on top of me leaning down to gently kiss
"Hmmm" I moaned as I pulled away "I know you aint my present Bolton, so you better get off me and show me the goodies" I said rolling from under his arms as watching him fall on my bed frustrated
"Damn Tay, I don't see you properly in days and I can't even get a kiss" He moaned as I rolled my eyes and held out my hand
"I want my present troy" I huffed
"You're such a baby!" He complained as he handed me over the bag that was in his hand "I don't see what difference it'll make you can't open it till tomorrow anyway" He shrugged
"I know I just wanted it in my hands… now you can get your kiss" I chirpily replied placing the bag on the side of my bed and pushing Troy down on the bed getting on top of him positioning his body between my legs. I slowly bent down and kissed him passionately while his hands roamed my waist, finally satisfied that I'd given him a satisfying thank you, I gently pulled away and let myself lay next to him. He on the other hand had different ideas and decided to make my neck his next meal before then climbing on top of me and making himself very comfortable. He continued to feast on my neck as the soon innocent make out session slowly turned in to a very heated and passionate one and as much I as I was enjoying all this, I had to stop him because I knew where it was leading and that was somewhere I knew I wasn't ready for. Like I'd told you earlier I wasn't having sex until I was married… I just needed to tell him that now.
"Troy stop" I moaned not really sounding like I meant it
"Tayy" He whined
"No seriously baby stop" I replied sternly gently pushing the now shirtless boy off from on top of me
"What's wrong?" He asked as he lay next to him clearly annoyed
"I just didn't want to go any further" I shrugged
"Tay we've going out now for practically more than a year if you count our unofficial official months and the furthest we've gone is kiss… I completely understand if you're not ready baby and I respect that but just let me know a round about how long will it be?" He smirked, he'd clearly decided this wasn't a serious topic of conversation from his nonchalant tone of voice, might as well follow suite I thought
"On my wedding night" I replied as his jaw dropped
"w…w….what?" He asked leaning up onto his shoulders
"Yep… c'mon babe why you even surprised when you know Gabby aint giving Chad any until their married, same rule applies to me and anyway I aint trying to look like no hypocritical Christian, I made a vowel to God and I intend to keep it" I replied getting up to get the small box from my dressing table
"Here it's my promise ring" sitting down next him I opened the small boy to reveal a small gold ring in the centre
"oh… ohkay… why don't you wear it?" He asked
"I used to but it's a bit too big so it used to always fall off and I didn't want to lose it… it's real gold my dad would kill me… so I just kept it in it's box and anyway I didn't plan on falling for super hot athlete Troy Bolton in my senior, didn't think I'd need to explain myself because I always thought I'd marry someone from church or someone Christian" I shrugged knowing it was the truth
"Oh erm okay… I guess we'll be waiting till our wedding night then" He smirked shocking me with his reply
"What?" I replied
"wedding night taylor… you can't have sex until you're married, I won't ever dream of even daring to try and make you compromise your beliefs so we're waiting… for a genius you sure are slow sometimes" He teased rolling his eyes playfully before swiftly looping one arm around my waist to pull me down to him
"Troy… you're a lil bit amazing you know that" I flicked his nose as I lay there on top of him
"I've been told… but only a lil bit?" He asked
"only a lil bit, we can't have your head getting bigger than it already is now can we" I teased pecking his lips as a smile grew on his face
"Well you're pretty amazing yourself Taylor" he smiled leaning up to peck my nose, I nodded and slowly settled myself down placing my head on the crook of his neck and taking in that scent I loved so much.
"I love you Troy" I whispered into his neck, it's the first time I'd voiced it properly since the kissing incident nearly two weeks ago, I knew it hurt him every time he'd say it over the phone and I would respond with a simple 'bye baby' which in turn was followed by a disappointed sigh from his end of the phone. I just couldn't seem to say it and not because I didn't love him, I really did I just wasn't completely over the kiss thing not matter how hard I tried and I'm not saying I'm completely over it now but I just felt right saying it here and now and besides it was a step in the right direction, we both knew that.
"I love you too Tay" He whispered into my hair "way too much" He sighed, we lay there for a while in silence, I didn't know what he was thinking I'm not even sure he was thinking he was too busy curling my hair around his fingers. I on the other hand was looking over all that Troy and I had over come over this past year and a Half; the project, the promise, my father and now this kiss incident. I'm pretty sure our love was strong enough to fight anything else that came our way and I was willing and ready to personally educate any interfering chicken head that tried to ruin the slowly returning to perfect love we had accustomed. Real love isn't hard work, but fighting for your love is.